i have nothing left. i’ve been trying for so freakin long and i fail at everything. every decision i make is wrong. i feel empty inside. my heart alternates between being made of stone and just pain. if i could only just die. i used to be so full of life. i wish my heart would stop. i am nothing, i just take up space. i have kids, but i have nothing left for them. maybe they would be better off without me. they don’t want to live with their dad. that’s where they will end up though. they are the only reason i’m not […]

i feel as if my feelings are slowly leaving me………..?

my heart is broken yet again for the boy i once loved…….?

the blade threw my arm is raining red…………?

my fears no longer scared me as they once did…….?

missing you doesnt seem to matter much more then before………..?

the courage i once had is moving on……..?

the hate burnning inside me is almost out……..?

things dont scared me………..?

make me sad………..?

or angery……?

they just slowly leave me……?

and never come back…………….?

i have a week b4 i wanna die next satuday is the day that i wanna die. i know how i am gonna do but will you give suggestions

I tightened the knot I made with my belt, then added a scarf around it for a stronger hold.

Staring at those two small items hanging in my closet, I hesitated. Slowly I stuck my head between the hold I made that was slightly bigger than my skull.

Swinging back and fourth against my new carpet; I imagined my death.

I thought of who would find my blue corpse in the morning, the terrifying screams and wails for help. I swung back and fourth with my hands grasping my belt/scarf tightly.

I was so sure of my solution for my troubles. I knew what I needed to do, […]

It’s so odd. The extent in which I can relate to some people on here. This is going to be another whiny teenage story. In comparison to your life, perhaps it’s insignificant.
Like most I had an extremely happy childhood. I has my traumas (deaths in the family, etc) but they never afftected me. Up until I was about 13 I never knew sadness. I suppose it was the cruelty, the obsession with appearance and just utter unacceptance that completely baffled me in high school. We can all remember it. I had come in contact with a girl on a social networking site. A pretty […]

#I’ll sing it one last time for you
Then we really have to go
You’ve been the only thing that’s right
In all i’ve done.

And I can barely look at you
But every single time I do
I know we’ll make it anywhere
Anywhere from here

Light up, Light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I’ll be right beside you dear

Louder, louder
And we’ll run for our lives
I can hardly speak I understand
Why you can’t raise your voice to say

To think I might not see those eyes
It makes it so hard not to cry
And […]

This is my first day on this site and i joined because every day is a constant battle with myself, who I am. Anyway I hope what i write here makes any sense. I’ve been blessed with a loving mum and 2 great brothers and i think my friends really do care for me. I’m really gifted, am great with music, writing it, I’m a really really good rapper. I also write stories, great stories, the people that read them are actually amazed by the amount of talent i have, whether there reactions are the real thing or they just trying to flatter me and […]

Hey! Are there any forum users here from Finland?

This is another of the poems I have written while in the throes of depression- this is how I feel and is about Bipolar. I am sharing this poetry with you whilst I am still here- want to ctb so so much it’ s painful.

It’ s time to fire the gun and finally rest,

putting life and death to its ultimate test.

You can’ t stop the bullet once you’ ve said go,

with thoughts flying around it’ s too late to say no.

You’ ve taken my brain and filled it with confusion,

but being God you’ ve got the right to make the intrusion.

The Devil sits in the c0rner […]

For so long now I have kept up the hope and faith that I would get past the obstacles that keep me down. I’m a good person. I am kind and charitable. I’ve tried everything I can to succeed in my business and continue to fail. I have sacrificed much to help my wife reach her goal. Now she is showing signs of turning her back on me. My son has turned his back on me in spite of all I’ve done for him over the years. I feel so alone. So very, very alone.

I’ve discovered that I no longer feel anything, & it’s turned me into a cold, uncaring, ***** of a person. But yet I still have friends. It doesn’t make sense. Anyways. I don’t even know why I’m bothering on here. It’s not like anyone seriously reads this shit. LOL. & I’m still wasting my time. This world is going to shit & I’m about to get the hell out of here before things start to overwhelm me. Bye.

i am 37, male
my girlfriend of 2.5 years left me. she was my entire world, i met her after ending a 13 year marriage in which i was not happy. my girl taught me what true love was , something i had never felt before- never knew it existed. our relationship was completely honest, no secrets, no lies. and i came to believe her feelings for me were as strong. we were inseperatable, nothing was more important to us than time together. just the touch of her skin made me tingle, everytime. my love for her grew stronger every day. i worshipped her, provided […]

A suicidal female’ s poetry

Sticks and stones
May break mine bones
But words can never hurt me.
Sticks and stones
Are thrown at me
Bruising my head and ribs.
Insults are harsher
Laughter is louder
They said words can never hurt me
They are right…
I’m not hurt at all
I’m torment.

I don’t want advice.  I don’t even know if I want someone to listen.

I don’t know who to talk to.   I don’t know who would care.

I don’t even care if anyone cares.   I don’t know of anything that can help me.

Maybe getting some of this out, and telling complete strangers about me, might help. It  seems to have helped others on this site.

I am have a duel-diagnosis; I am a recovering meth addict, I have severe A.D.H.D, anxiety, and depression.

My family has a strong history of mental illness, which I have been oblivious and ignorant to in some ways, but has caused me […]

Party of one. In Anna’s room. Bring your own chips man. Sleeping on the couch in my room cause my bed doesn’t want me. I don’t blame him I don’t take up much space just a sliver. What kind of music will you be playing at this one man party why only the good kind of course. Ohhh ok boss just checking. Big dance floor. Pew pew crash on the floor where I cry by myself. Best part about being borderline insane is you can hold a conversation with yourself. That’s right I’m talented. Don’t hate. Even better when nobody cates about you and you […]

He loved me. He told me I was beautiful, smart, fun, and that he wanted to be with me forever. He made my heart feel warm inside, I could have lit up the whole world. Then he told me it wasn’t meant to be. My heart felt as cold as ice. I had been traumatized. now all that’s left inside me is emptiness. what did I do wrong? did I say something? why do I have to hurt so much…I lie awake every night crying out a storm, wondering what I did or said. I used to cut my wrist just to feel the pain. […]

So cold is my dark room shrouded in black, none of the beautiful summer sunlight reaches in here. Scared of the outside world but also scared of my own heaven. So summer is here and I’m no longer trapped in school, but what does that matter, at least school was a place to escape, now I have nothing, but be trapped home all summer, I wish I had my license at least but I don’t, who is happy when your trapped at home all summer, I don’t know if itll help but I’m going to ask my mom for a counselor, why? To have something […]

It is such a difficult world… Nobody really said that life would be that easy.  This is a story about loss, but not in the sense that I loss someone.  Basically, it is about losing something that is very important to me— career.  It is sad reality that after I graduated with a degree and that  I will end up with a massive amount of debt and not be able to practice with my degree.  Although, after being laid off twice in a row (last year) maybe I should be grateful that now I have two part time jobs.  It is just frustrating that even I […]

I dont know why. I dont know what had trigger it. But i really want to cry right now. I feel so sad right now i just want to bang mine head on the table repeatly.