so it seems to me that i need to make a drastic change in my personality because i really do care too much about other people and their well being. i force myself it be the best person to everyone i meet and genuinely listen and care what other people have to say, but it seems even tho i strive to do this when i wanna kill myself constantly and struggle through every waking moment the ones who know nothing of that pain dont even lift a finger for me or even try to be good to me, everyone i have ever met has eventually turned out to be another […]
 Life can be ended so easly. Easier then what we have to go through in life. I don’t understand why we have to go through so much in this life…just to die. What’s waiting for us in the end? Do we get a prize? No. I know the way I’m going…and I choose the way I do it. Goodbye, now.
last week i had blood test and yesterday i already got the result…the doctor said that i have a irregular heart beating…i want to die now…so for now on i always eat a high cholesterol food so that my heart will be getting worst…i want u to give me an advice if i make my heart worst or i just only cut my wrist????
I’m never going to lift myself out of this. I just created a playlist of triggering songs on my iPod. I’m so pathetic…I need someone to save me from myself.
I have been trying not to kill myself for 7 years now and i cant take it anymore.My mother died when i was eight and that when i had my first suicidal thought. After that my dad would look at me and my brother avoided me because i look like my mom. They still acoid and ignore me today. So i start to escape by good to school and staying after. But i was picked on everyday for acting like a boy because i was razed by boys. I had friends though and it was better than home. Than we started moving a lot and […]
I can feel myself wasting away. The pain that sits inside me is eating me whole. It has been months since I have cried. My body feels to numb to have the energy to let tears flow down my cheeks.
I dream of the day I’ll get the courage to slit my wrists. The day I can finally look at myself in the mirror and believe myself when I say it’s going to be alright. The day I can lay down and rest forever. The day I can finally have some peace to myself. I’ll leave several notes for each person I’d like to remind I love. Then […]
why is life so demeaning
why is life so sad
why dose my life have no meaning
why do they all thank I’m so bad
why dose the world have to be trash
why didn’t my life end in that crash
it hurts… it hurts alot. i can feel it cut me up like a sharp deadly knife. Im losing everything. Even when i smile it hurts alot. i think im going to cry. no lie but i dont want anyone to see. I cant trust anyone anymore. I dont even know who to go to anymore. It hurts alot. Too painful even… I guess im ready to end it. Im ready to go far away from everyone. Who cares if they miss me or not? who cares if they love me. If they care they would had help but guess what… they didnt they didnt […]
i just realised who i am, why im maybe better off alone. im the guy you flirt with, dance with, have a night of fun with…but i’m not the guy you take home to mum. maybe if i realised this earlier i wouldn’t of got so attatched.
Okay, so a bit about me. I have mental disorders, i’ve had them since i was 8. Which means wherever i go, i hear voices in my head saying ‘ugly slut’ or ‘kill yourself’ and i think it’s the people surrounding me. I had to take meds when i was 8 up until now, 15 years old because i suffered severe depression. But now, i recently dated a girl called Megan and we’d been going out for 3 weeks, knowing her for such a short amount of time and the way she’d made me feel. I’m not a happy person at all but Megan made […]
Friendship is bullshit.
When my boyfriend lies beside me in bed at night, and tells me that he was thisclose to drinking drain cleaner that day, I believe him. I believe him because I know just how dark it is in his mind. I’m not like him. I find happiness in everyday things and comfort in friends. And all he has is me, he tells me every day. He has no education, no decent career prospects. He lives in his parents basement, smoking weed, and won’t save money to get out. He tells me he wants to save for an engagement ring, but I don’t want it–I just want […]
I know my life is empty
And I hate to face this world alone
So I’m searching for an angel
Someone who can make me whole
I can not save you, I can’t even save myself
So just save yourself
I know that we’ve been damaged
Our souls have suffered such abuse
But I am not your savior
I am just as fucked as you
Please don’t take pity on me
My life has been a nightmare
My soul is fractured to the bone
And if I must be lonely, I think I’d rather be alone
I think I have come undone
You can not save me
IÂ can’t even save myself
I […]
So this might be my last post or it might not, either way, I will be unable to get back on the site for a while, I can’t say why or for how long or even when I leave, but please look after each other. And please look after Hailey_baby for me, I love that girl so much, and I won’t be able to talk to her while I’m gone.
Please let go of me…
I feel useless in this big world. Like an ant next to a 50 story building. My body feels so hollow. My mind is to hectic to keep up with. I thought posting on this site would help but all it did was force me to face the truth. That I truly have no place to go. I don’t belong here or anywhere. I feel like I’m intruding in a family…Â
Sometimes I’ll write things to post on here and just delete them. People don’t care what I have to say, so why should I waste their time and space? Most of the time I think […]
I think we must all remember, that god judges each soul induvidually.
The bibble never makes any mention of what happens to suiciders. There are a number of reasons for this. First of all, people usually didnt live too long anyway back in those days. Second, sighting either unconditional acceptance or judgment removes god the authority to judge each case induvidually.
God understands and feels all our pain. As he is everything, the universe itself. However suicide can sometimes be a tragicly selfish experience, if it leaves mourning family members behind.
This is always induvidual. When i almost had a suicice attempt with electrcity, i was embraces by […]
shes in love the world seems blurry she makes mistakes but shes in no hurry to grown ups cause grown ups they dont understand her. its a big big world out there but shes not scared she thinks that nobody cares about her problems and she probably right. but its alright youll be fine if you just stay with me we get one step closer but we’re still so far away. she finds hope in the strangest places reads her books and knows all the faces of everyone that ever said shes alone. she knows every word to the saddest songs and she sings along […]
I started (being forced) to live with my dad again…I’m not the same person I really am when I live with him. Everyday I wonder in my head why I’m being forced to be put into misery. Everyday when misery takes me I go off into a sleep and dream about a perfect world, a perfect life, a perfect everything.Then I wake up only to be put through the yelling, the memories, the pain again and again. I wish I could fly like I do in my dreams and for once, in reality, feel free. Misery won’t you ever leave?
im just gunna do it i swear to god if there is such a thing. iv been living the worst life u can imagine iv been collecting cans on the streets to make ends meet i live in a strorage room of a studio that took pity on me i watched both my parents die slow of cancer ech one right after the other all my friends have forgetten about me i havent had a girlfriend in years and i feel like everyday is getting worse and worse. everyone looks at me like a piece of shit i wish they cud see that i tried […]