I recently got my phone back (with internet blocked, sneaking here on main) and my mom said she knows i go on this site (hopefully ignorant i have an account here) and says she’s alright with it.  Should i be worried?

This Sunday evening I shall leave. I’ll spend the weekend visiting my parents, and following lunch I’ll get in my car and drive to the beach. I’ll park at a friend’s empty beach house. While I wait for my car to fill to the sufficient concentration of carbon monoxide, I’ll listen through my final play list and stare off at the bay. Once it’s about ready I’ll take a small dose of my sleep aid and get in. I’ll set some more charcoal on the grill for safe measure and wait. I’m excited. I’ll finally know what it feels like to be taken by death. […]

I figure since everyone is starting to introduce their pics in this ><
This is me.
I cut and have an eating disorder.
I write and laugh and smile at times.
I cry and feel worthless.
I’m a gamer chick.
I text and email.
I use facebook and blog.
I write poetry and short stories
Take photography and more.
I could say a million […]

This is me theres nothing wrong with me except this mind i got its fucking crazy!!!

My name is morgan im 21 and i was a popular cheerleader in highschool, got good grades. And right now i have a great job and i make good money. But my life isnt what i want it to be i cant find my complete happiness. All day I sit and stare off and think about ways to end it all and then i think how i can stop these thoughts. How can i be proud of myself and let things go. I miss my old life and i no i can never have it back but it kills me that i dont wanna wake […]

Today I thought, well actually, imagined,what  if I had a gun right now, and put it into my mouth – what would I though in the  last seconds. I though that I would tell myself –

–in a few seconds everything you hated, everyhting that was so hard for you, so disturbing and painful, all despair, anguish – everything will be gone… just will end.

I just cryed after this because I haven’t feel so happy for a very long time…I felt so safe about this thought…. I could never imagined that all this shit in my life can just end, and will never torture me again, […]

Hey everyone.. you’ve probably seen some of my posts and i’ve probably commented on some of yours..

I just wanted to make it clear that I’m hear if you need someone to talk to, as well as the fact that I hope some of you are too…

You can email me or add me on Facebook, just let me know whom you are.

http://www.facebook.com/#!/Bring.On.The.Peace

and

iwant_yourhelp@yahoo.com

…. I’ll reply or add asap.

I just thought I would throw it out there.
I’m here looking for help. And looking to help.

🙁

i feel like i should even be here anymre i dnt have a purpose anymre i rly dnt care about my life anymre

My father is blind, he’s been that way my entire life and the reason was never kept from me. I’ve always known my father’s greatest mistake and have grown up with the result of that mistake. When he was in his late teens, he put a gun to the temple area of his head and pulled the trigger. I always find myself asking why he would ever do such a thing but no one really has an answer. Was it depression? Was it drugs? Stress? “It could have been all of that” someone once responded. His mother had died not too long before he tried taking his […]

Isn’t life just a big joke??? I read mails of people saying I wanna die I#m going to do it tonight, life’s worthless… the very same people are telling other people “don’t do it, you’ll see it’s gettin’ better…”. now I don’t mean to insult or attack someone,I tend to talk people out of it too. I’m just saying looking at it from a different angle, Life is just a big theater.it makes me everybody(at least most) tries to save everybody but themselves isn’t it controversial???

Well, I hate my life as usual.   I am glad that I made it through today.   I watched my young daughter sleeping in my lap.   She wiggled about and I studied her quite a bit.   I felt ashamed for her shameful rocky start to life.   I never understood cutting oneself until for what ever reason I did it myself just over a year ago.   I cut my entire leg from the ankle to just above the knee.   I did it over and over until I just decided to stop.   Of course, I was too ashamed to get stiches so I left the larger cuts heal […]

I came across suicideproject a few months ago and have read it a handful of times. I’m always deeply struck by the posts and comments. What usually goes through my mind is a) how similar the poster’s thoughts and feelings are to each other (and myself), b) maybe I can be of some help? Tonight I thought I’d share a bit of my story with you. I’m doing this in part to help myself, but also to hopefully be of help to others here.

Like many (all?) of you, I come from a messed up family. I’m a 48 yr old man. I have three young […]

woke up, in a good mood, cleaned the room, used as little electricity as soon as I realized what day it was. I messed up twice. opps. Anyway, had a small meal today. so limited my food intake. Checked my blood pressure, 102 over 76, is normal apparently, and my pulse rate is normal for my age, 82. Had to help John restore his computer to get his internet to work. my main laptop is out of battery, the next laptop, I don’t ever plan to use again, it just as issues, so I’m on my netbook. I was HOPING to walk up to the […]

Many times I have thought about suicide, and many times I even made detailed plans. I tryed talking to my friends, and they usually talk me out of it, but in the back of my head, it’s not them that really back me out of it, it’s the fear of what happens once I’m dead.

Many times, that jumps in my head, and I can’t really think of going through of it, being in fear of what could happen. I’m not a religious person, and it makes it harder to think what’s after death.

I could talk to people, but all they say are the […]

so, today, i hung out with my ex, again. i hate having to leave before i have to (i have to be home at 10 on the weekdays). so i left before 8, and right before i left, she just happens to bring up the most random thing, cause i told her a joke about math homework. she brought up something to do with that girl (her friend), who i tried to mess around with, which pissed me off… a LOT. so i just basically stayed silent until i left. she asked me “are you upset or something?” and of course, being the guy i […]

So, when I was born, I had a relatively low chance of survival and (apparently) my grandpa mentioned that they should just let me die. Well honestly I wish I did die then. Sure, I may have experienced some nice things in life but I just feel like I would have rather experienced nothing. When I was a little kid, I was a fantastic student and lived a rather happy life. Had many friends, usually in a happy mood, and in school I got on the honor roll all of the time and was even in a gifted program. On Christmas day, I was ill […]

I think tomorrow may be the day…

I ‘m not sure. 

I mean, tomorrow is as good as a day as any, right?

I’m just sick of waking up every morning and another peice of who I am is gone.

When will the pain stop?

I am beginning to think life is not about enjoying the “good times.”

It is about surviving the “bad times.”   What kind of a life is that?

I’m scared to die..

I’ve calmed down alot, now that I kinda pointed a finger at the reason for my distant, almost schiziophrenic behaviour.

Lately I’ve been doing far to many risky, adrenaline filled things. I’ve gotten drunk twice in the past 4 days, me and some friends bought alcohol from someone in broad daylight, right next to a police station, I’ve broken into a caravan, got my belly button peirced, witnessed a fight (almost got hit myself), all within the space of five days. So I think I need to calm down, and stay in.

I’ve sorted my head out for now. xD which is brilliant, ever since I just […]

This world, this world is cold
But you don’t, you don’t have to go
You’re feeling sad, you’re feeling lonely
And no one seems to care
You’re mother’s gone and your father hits you
This pain you cannot bear

But we all bleed the same way as you do
And we all have the same things to go through

Hold on, if you feel like letting go
Hold on, it gets better than you know

Days, you say they’re way too long
And your nights, you can’t sleep at all
Hold on
And you’re not sure what you’re waiting for
But you don’t want to know more
And […]