Ok, so Matt, my shrink had said about going to my family doctor to have my headaches checked out but I don’t want to go back to my doctor… the gown and him walking in without knocking incident. So he had recommended a friend of his. Matt’s recommendation is about the only one I would trust… because of the carpal tunnel doctor. (Both of which I mentioned in “Hey Guys … I missed you!”) So I had called this new practice Thursday and gave the receptionist all my information, which wasn’t easy since she didn’t speak English very well.
I made sure I told her […]
Health class was terrible today! I had to sit and listen to my teacher talk about suicide for 47 minutes. It took all I had not to burst into tears. I think I might be a little bit bipolar. I can go from being happy and feeling nice one minute and the next be very depressed and suicidal for no reason at all. Or be very optimistic and then be pessimistic. I can go from being confident about myself to really hating myself, mostly I hate myself though. i’ve thought about talking to this one teacher i really like because he’s bipolar but im fairly certain […]
Her name is amber
She has eyes like her mother
She’s beautiful and bright the whole worlds in front of her
She has a smile that could end a war
Yet no one wants her and she has nothing to care for
Shes only 14 and she thinks
Why is the weight of the world crashing down on me
Cause as of late the sun doesn’t seem to shine so bright
And the place where my heart once was has lost its fight
She’s on her own
And as she’s braves her storm
All alone
She screams oh
I’ve had enough please make this go
This sea […]
All day
Staring at the ceiling
Making friends with shadows on my wall
All night
Hearing voices telling me
That I should get some sleep
Because tomorrow might be good for something
Hold on
I’m feeling like I’m headed for a
Breakdown
I don’t know why
I’m not crazy, I’m just a little unwell
I know, right now you can’t tell
But stay awhile and maybe then you’ll see
A different side of me
I’m not crazy, I’m just a little impaired
I know, right now you don’t care
But soon enough you’re gonna think of me
And how I used to be
Me
Talking to myself in […]
I am thirteen years old, made fun of constantly. A little while back about a year ago I met a boy from a town close by at a local theme park. One day we were texting, he was with his friend Joey. Me and Joey started talking for a while’ added eachother on Facebook and became close. We have been talking for quite some time now. About a while back he asked me to play “21 question” with him, if you do not know what this is, it is when you ask eachother 21 questions of your pick. He asked me how far would I […]
Im gona die very soon or later coz im way too depressed deze days beacuse of the problems im goin through. words are not enof to mention da pain im suffering . i wil try to hung myself , if i failed ill definitely stab myself for sho. i dont mind changing my decision if someone can  help me go through deze probs.
wana help me survive – contact me
benpark.providence@gmail.com
Do you ever feel so alone that you just want to curl up in a corner and cry? I feel like that almost every day. I’m that girl who grew up and was obnoxious and was not afraid to be herself. I completly regret that now. I am constantly made fun of. I’m that girl who hangs out with the most popular girls and does not get any guys to like her. I feel like I’m ugly, fat, and unwanted. I cry everynight. I don’t even care anymore. Boys won’t like me because they find me annoying. I have no one to go to, because […]
I hate my life.. I hate feeling like this but I can’t help it…Every morning is more and more difficult.
I’m 18 and I’ve never really had a boyfriend except of the 5-days “relationship” when I was 9.. funny right? I’ve never kissed a boy, I’ve never felt the warmth of a hug from that “special one”, I’ve never held hands with someone.. These small things seem unimportant for the most of the people but not for me.. I want to be loved..not the kind of love your family gives you but the other kind..
I never express my feelings. I keep everything inside..That’s bad, […]
Can anyone of you associate with that?
It is said that self injury is just a way of trying to get attention but somehow i think there might be more to it.
Like when all you have ever known is pain, i think at some point you begin to love the only thing you know and it simply becomes pleasure, like reversing the poles. Instead of developing a love for life you love death and everything that symbolizes it. I love vampirism so much and I’d love to act out on it some time with myself and others.
In my childhood and in my youth I had these […]
and unable to work due to their mental state.I’m on esa benefits,but I think they are trying to kick me off now
nothing feels right anymore. happiness comes and goes. but at night.. i feel like im falling. i wish i could rip my heart out and lock it away so no one will ever hurt me. im in a state of depression that scares me. i cut up my leggs so my mom cant see my cute. ive carved “hopeless’, “worthles” “slut” and “no one loves you” into my leggs over the past month. the person i love doesnt love me. the family who said they would always be there for me never is. my mom crys everynight. she doesnt smile anymore. my house is full […]
 Obviously, I was not done raging against the dying of the light. Unfortunately, the light is not done raging aginst me.
 I’m so tired of disappointing people, and myself. And here I am again, whining about how life’s too hard. Sadly, I see that there are so many other people who wanna end it but also lack the courage to shoot themselves. Gee, I guess I’m not special at all. That makes me feel really fuckin’ good, let me tell ya.
 I think my wife’s heading towards cheating on me with a guy she works with. My daughter’s been disappointed in me since day […]
Okay, this is probably going to be a lengthy rant. I am a college student, 23 years of age. Every day, all day long I think of nothing but how to end my life. I know I will be missed, at least I hope people care enough to miss me, and i know if I go through with it people will be hurt. I know that suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem, but I still just want to go through with it.
I have had a heart problem for most of my life known as vasal vagal […]
I’m on the right track – a 4.0 GPA student, I’ve saved over $10,000 working since I was 16 (I’m 18 now and recently quit), I have a good family, I love my cat Tiki, I have a dependable car and safe roof over my head. My boyfriend is amazing and his family is wonderful to me, as well. I could literally go anywhere I wanted in life, take any path I wished to take. I’m pretty, I know I’m a great writer and artist. People tell me I’m funny and overall good to be around. I don’t drink, I don’t smoke cigarettes, I’m fairly […]
Fml I have lost all hope and confidence today was outright hell. Going to school and coming home to my same problems. I wish I ordered the nicotine patches to come today instead of Thursday cause I would’ve killed myself a long time ago! I can’t wait til Thursday to die I want to end this now.
I need to vent. I need to let it all out before it continues nibbling on my insides and destroys me. Last time I spilled my insides to anyone was so long ago. I’ll guess I’ll start from the very, very start. It all started at a very young age. I had a babysitter because my parents were always too busy for me. She was this loud, eccentric middle-aged woman. She was pretty nice. But, as the time progressed I learned that in her house I had no freedom. I wasn’t able to express myself without feeling judged or without being yelled at. She made […]
I used to think that I was a pretty strong person, until recently. I don’t know how I got to where I am now, but I just can’t find the strength or happiness to go on living anymore. I am a smart, tall, pretty good-looking girl, and ever since college, I’ve usually had a boyfriend. My boyfriend of 3 years broke up with me a few days after New Year’s this year and it’s been debilitating. I never thought that it would be this hard. We used to talk about getting married, having kids, and settling down, and when he broke up with me it […]
I first began getting suicide thoughts in 2008, I had worked as a stripper for 4 years and those 4 years were a slope into depression. I was smart, and I hated what I did, but I was poor and money had always stopped me from ‘living.’ It invariably became my near death.
I wasn’t on drugs, I hadn’t even touched them. So lets just clear that up as the stripper word comes with its judgements.
I also want to say that it was my choice and greed that led to my downfall, people did help me along the way, taking what they […]
I just wanted to let everyone know about this channel, it’s quite encouraging material, where Mr. Inmendham argues how this sick society is trying to impose life over those who are suffering and who are not willing to live and how everyone has the moral free choice to take one’s own life.
http://www.youtube.com/user/GracefulExit#p/u
Hey, I’m glad I found this website… amazing what you can find on Google…
It feels good to know now I can right everything that happens to me down now; It’s been a year since my suicicdal thoughts starting popping up. It used to be worse, but I’m so scared they’ll come back again. What’s even worse is that, when I do feel depressed, I feel like it’s right- it brings me some kind of shame and glory I can hardly begin to describe. I’m just a teen- not saying my age, don’t want anyone to be able to look at this and say, “Hey, […]