If you met me, talked to me, you would think to yourself  “Now here is a beautiful, intelligent woman that has it all together. She is strong, self-confident, blunt and capable.” If you knew me, the me inside, you would know even better than that. You would know the self-doubt, the belief that I am ugly, incapable, on the verge of stupid, weak. You would know that I do not have it all together. I was taught that to show weakness only brings pain, emotional and physical. I was taught that tears are for those who want to manipulate, that nothing is worth crying for. […]

my sister was raped. she lives out of town and i feel like ever since i  am the one who is dealing with it. i still live at home and my parents ask me everything, put me in the middle and she keeps telling me she needs help but wont listen to me about getting it and i cant tell my parents because she wants them to think she’s happy.. . i cant fix her and she calls me constantly expecting me to take care of everything for her. i know it was a tragic experience but she doesnt know my life no one does […]

ever since I got in trouble from my parents everything has gone down hill, I’m not a lonely guy at all I have a lot of amazingly great friends but I completely hate my family I’ve tried suicide many times, my new reach to things is starving myself to death I just wanted to go on this website to release my feelings about my crappy ass life I can’t live like this I’d rather go to hell then live I have done a lot of good and a lot of bad for the next 40 days i shall not eat nor drink anything, Impossible? For […]

 After reading a bunch of new posts today and the comments that everyone has left on them, I am actually saddened by the fact that people care so much about helping strangers but they simply cant help themselves ( I’m not calling anyone out because I am the same exact way).  We do not feel as though we have any reason to live, we dont feel like we are of any importance to anyone or that noone would miss us if we were gone but by us living and being supportive of everyone on here, we are saving a life that may not be saved […]

I recently got married and moved out of the country.  I’m now living in my husband’s place, I guess ours now, and don’t have a job yet.  There are a lot of bad things about the neighborhood and the town, and the weather is making my fibromyalgia a lot worse (we’re in England).

I’ve had a lot of horrible things happen in the last three years, one right after the other, and truly felt that meeting my husband a year and a half ago was something good.  I was so happy on our wedding day.

But the house is noisy, the neighbors are terrible, I don’t know […]

I divorced my abusive husband nearly 3 years ago after 30 years. The former marital home has been for sale ever since and I had to have lodgers to pay the overheads. Now there has been a low offer and I have been hounded into accepting it. I have nowhere to go and there isn`t enough money to buy a house for me. I have no job because I`m old and useless. Not too old to work; just too aftraid to go out of the house. I need to pack up a very big house and the task overwhelms me. And my ex still hounds […]

13 is my lucky number. saturday i had to clean the dishes. i ended up breaking a glass cup. i have a piece of it still. technically im not hurting myself because it doesnt hurt. i dont cut that deep though. 13 cuts let me know that my suffering will soon be over. its my sign of hope that my life is coming to an end really soon. i dont have my own computer at home, so i just use the one at school. otherwise i’d post something every day. my email is shellyproffer59@gmail.com if anyone cares. i have an unexplainable hurt and hatrid in […]

i found out that i have a std and dont know how i got it because i have never cheated on my wife and i dont use or shoot drugs so now that we have found out i cant blame her for wanting to leave me but she said that we will work it out but she is seeing another man and she is doing it in my face and she dont care so i am going to end it soon by killing myself so her and the kids can be happy so i wont be in her and the man that she is with […]

I’m about sixteen, and I’m a boy. I’m…I’m gay, but I have issues coming to terms with it. I am totally immersed in the Pro-Gay scene at my high school, I’m one of the heads of the GSA. I’ve thought I was gay before, but I don’t think I was ever serious, but I recently realized it full circle, that women just…they’re not the same. But, that’s all just sort of part of the issue…

Ever since I was a small kid, and I mean really small, I’ve been…different. I couldn’t accept anything at face value. I always questioned things, I couldn’t buy into someone, and […]

I have little to no memory of my childhood. What I do remember is bad. I was molested, several times. My own father made me feel dirty, although he never molested me, at least not that I can remember. I have an issue with sex, not what you would think. I don’t need to control sex, but I need sex to know I am wanted, needed, loved.
I am beautiful, intelligent, a quick learner, but I cannot find a job, all because I was stupid more than 10 years ago and got caught up in illegal activities. They were not even that serious!
I am […]

I said in my last post that I wouldn’t be posting here anymore, but I need to. I need this place. I need it to vent.

And to you, you know who you are, if you’re watching me then fuck you. I will find you and seriously beat your ass down and both April and I will not show you any mercy like Rachel continues to do. I’m not as kind as I used to be anymore, thankfully, you made me like this now.

So, to you guys who have commented and responded honestly and wholeheartedly to my posts, thank you. (: I don’t know if any […]

So..I was really down and as I recently expressed feeling like I wanted to die when someone reached out to me. I never told this person my issues or even how I felt I just thought of this individual as a welcomed visitor in my life. The person decided to “be there” for me and to listen to all my pain and anguish. I thought ok…maybe I should stop being an ass and give someone a chance…maybe its me..and then…I asked this person to lunch….it was all good until I mentioned that I had gone to therapy before…AND…suddenly our schedules are too conflicting….maybe lets not […]

Hey there, it’s Elf here.
Allow me to introduce myself.
I am not a pedophile, creeper or weirdo.
I am just an average person that has been through many hardships.
I am currently in training to help even more people.
I have an advice column for people to vent, talk or ask for advice.
I also have an email for people who want to talk or keep their problems private.
I hope I can help.
I’ve been through a lot and I know I needed someone there for me.
It’s my turn to be there for someone now.

Elf
www.formspring.me/HelpingElves
HelpingElves@hotmail.com

I have had a plan for a month now. I have the date circled in my diary…and it is coming up soon.

Do I choose to play out this plan? Do I choose to cut my body and overdose? Or do I choose life?

I want my friends to find me…maybe even save me if they get to me in time. I want them to know that I can no longer take been second best. I am so sick of been pushed around, taken advantage of. It’s like my feelings don’t even matter to them. My friends are all I have in this world….without them I am […]

hey this isn’t for me or anything please don’t misconstrue the question; my friend is saying he’s gonna kill himself with cyanide pills and I was wondering if it’d even possible to obtain them? I just want to judge the validity of his threat, how much time I should be devoting to the problem…I’m just worried about the guy.

Why couldn’t they put cyanide in my I.V when i asked them to when I was laying there with a shirt over my face, and an abundance of tubes hooked up to me, I wanted them off I was screaming, my heart was racing a million miles an hour, like it was gonna rip through my ribcage and chest cavity, I was screaming in pain, I was pissed, Pissed that I was alive…Pissed that, that SHOULD OF BEEN the heart attack that killed me, pissed that they never put cyanide in my I.V, why? why am I still here…because it’s not my time? then fuck […]

i did some horrible things, and now all my friends are walking away, and i can’t care enough to try and stop them. i don’t want to be here. i hate myself. how can i make it look like an accident?

I’m still here and it hurts…

Its been about four days since she told me, and its been hell for me. I haven’t eaten anything, and all ive done was just sit around and waste away. Every time I looked in the mirror, I saw nothing. Every time I looked into my own eyes, I saw nothing. I felt nothing, so basically was just a walking zombie and that feeling is too familiar to me. All I ever wanted out of this life is love because I haven’t felt that from anyone since i was a kid. It’s sad how I’ve perfected the art of shutting myself down and blocking out […]

30 each of Ibuprofen 600MG and Oxycodone 5MG-325MG, combined with 45 Temezepan 15MG…any experts outs there know?