Okay…so I have just recently found this site. All I know is that I want to get out how I’m feeling..and I have no one to talk to…I guess letting numerous strangers read this..makes me feel heard in some sort of way. I have felt suicidal for so long now. I really don’t know if I really have the guts to do it..but I have come so close countless amounts of time. People say it’s selfish..well I guess depending on how you look at it, it kind of is. But when you’re feeling this way..you could really give two fucks. I mean, don’t get me […]

Hi everyone,

I’m a boy with the age of 18 and I am fucked up, in all kinds of ways. I can’t think of anything good of myself, even tough my friends tell me different. When I look in the mirror I see the most hidious person in the world, that has nothing good on him. In my mind it’s a constant war, it seems like I have multiple thoughts at the same time, good or bad. And they constantly collide with eachother, confusing me, and making me go insane. I always have the feeling that everything evolves around me, like i’m the only person on this earth, […]

I am 20 have been battling depression since I was 16. I am not going to go through all the details of my life because honestly most people really don’t care. I think I am mainly just frustrated at the moment and need to vent. I made a conscious decision when I came to college to not be who I was in high school. I would fake it till I made it if I had to, but I was going to be happy and fun to be around. I am now a transfer at a new college and was determined to follow this through. I […]

Hello. All of you.

I have schizophrenia, but won’t take my medication because the side-effects are mostly exaggerations of all the other problems I already have. As I have a lot of problems. Sicknesses. Immune disorders. Fears. Questions.

Such as, why do I want to die?

I don’t know. The nights when I feel most numb I want to die because I don’t even have the energy to go to sleep, to change my state of consciousness. As silly as it may sound. The nights when the hallucinations are the worst I want to die either because they tell me to do so, because I am scared of […]

Apparently suicide is cowardly,
I’m afraid I don’t quite agree,
What if suicide is the only way out
The only way to set you free?

What if your days pass in a blur
Of thinking, of crying, of pain
And you know, no matter what
You’ll never feel better again

What if everything you touch turns to dust,
And everyone walks away,
And your heart feels like it’s going to explode
Would you want to face the day?

What if your whole world crashed around you,
Magnifying all your hurt and ache,
Think about that, and then answer
What choice would you make?

I’ve had enough. I’ve tried now […]

I’ve been wishing i was dead for as long as i can remember. i tried drowning, but i panicked. obviously i havent died yet. i was too scared to die. i’m not anymore. i’m going to do it this time. fuck what anybody says! i’m still gonna do it.

I am a guy from turkey, and i am at 16.
I am sorry for my langu., I don’t know english very well and i may made grammar errors before post this message. 

About a month ago, 

While i reading these post on posted this website. I found this post..
http://suicideproject.org/2010/10/im-here-if-you-need-someone/ 

and i researced all other articles that the girl posted…
I am a programmer, and  my life is like her. I was attempted suicide seriously about a year ago, but currently i just think this girl..
i write a program to find this authors articles from this website… 

Results was:
http://suicideproject.org/2010/10/one-of-these-days/
http://suicideproject.org/2010/10/whats-wrong-with-me-2/

From what i can gather, is hanging the most successful way to complete suicide?

It would take hundreds of pages to try and explain everything leading up to what happened at about 10PM, November 7th, 2010 so I think I’ll try to summarize what had been going on in my life.

Ok, so I’m technically a College freshman since, even though I’ve done the whole college thing through Running Start and am considered Junior status, I still have never lived hundreds of miles away from home at a school.

Anyway, for the past year and I half I’ve been off and on dating this amazing, wonderful guy. Then, at the end of the very first week of classes, Friday (and more […]

I used to be sure of how I was feeling. Whether I was horribly depressed sad, or the occasional satisfied, I always knew how I felt. Now…all I feel is numb. I don’t care about anything.
I don’t care about my future, I don’t care about my family, I don’t even care about myself. I put on this mask every day when I go to school, every time I go and see my girlfriend. I don’t think we’re gonna make it; I’ve changed too much. my mask is just the shard of the old me that’s left. She’s in love with a shred of a […]

I really just wish I could smile again.

I think this is what most of us forget to do. We forget how to smile or how to laugh. And eventually, the happiness leaves us and then we just wallow in our own suffering.

So, every once in a while, smile, even if it’s fake because eventually, it’ll come straight from your heart.

At least this is what I’ve been trying to do for myself.

well lets see… my name is Eric. i’ve never really had good social skills throughout my life i’ve always been the more quiet type who needs a little extra motivation to come out and talk to people. Im 16 years old, im on the high school wrestling team, i have a good amount of friends i could say, im not bad looking but i have always been very self consious about myself with small things such as not being very tall (5’5″) , having bony wrists and being rather slender due to my metabolism, and some minor acne that just wont seem to go away […]

is it possible to commit suicide by having an outside item holding your breath? like tape or a clip or something?
so that once they pass out they cannot start breathing again on their own?

i hat my life!! i wanna die.. T.T

hi,
im currently in high school and am suicidal. i am like my user name suggests at the end of wits. i am currently failing the simplest of classes like scuplutre and have cut myself on purporse and on accident. i have had not only the upper class man talk about how much i suck at the sport i play and how i over due myself and say im good when i clearly never say im good. im torn for a girl which i thought would be the one and was my first true love. after she broke up with me about after trying for […]

my name is victor my age 17 my life lost

1 was born addicted to meth as a child and was adopted into a none compatable family in my mind i was singled out so i always felt alone and grew up to trust know one and so in jr. high i became  very ………dark and started to cut my self 4 times i ended up in the hospital for attempted suicide i suceeded 2 then i fell in love with a girl whos eyes can turn stars jouluse and a heart filled with love i dated her 6 months her name trinda she tryed to […]

                   You mother fucker you take every thing away . I loved my father i was daddys little girl , he was going to surprise us   for                thanksgiving , and christmas you mother fucker I want to go. How come you cant take me too , you mother fucker take me from this Earth. Make my family  hert more then you already made them you mother fucker. Dont take my grandma away shes my best friend the only person other then my father that gets me . You mother fucker you might as well cut my heart it already aches , I know […]

I lost my virginity.

Scandalous, I know. Now don’t worry, I’m not going to give you ALL the graphic details-that would just be cruel-but I am going to tell you why it happened.

I was at a football game on October 28th and it was only around 7:30 (yes, I memorized the date and time this happened), and I was sitting alone as usual waiting for the game to be over so I could travel on to the bonfire where I could meticulously think about wanting to throw myself into the flesh-eating flames. I don’t know why I had decided to drag myself to the game, it […]

What happens to someone when you are not smart enough to earn sufficient money to not worry about it, but not pretty enough to secure a good marriage and too old to have any hope?

You end up like me…40 and alone.

I have a small child that in hindsight, I should have given up for adoption because the train-wreck of a life she has will take years of therapy to recover.  She only loves me because she has no one else.  She has no grandparents that have any interest in her and her Dad could care less.  All she has is me.

The problem is, her mother […]

Anyone who has attempted suicide so many times that they have lost count, please contact me.

Or don’t. I don’t care.

But my story is an insignificant one in an insignificant billion— who wouldn’t want to pounce on this opportunity?

Ok. Meow.