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what is the purpose of life? i have found myself asking this question alot in the past year and haven’t found the answer. i wonder why some people fight to stay alive, while others fight to get out of it. i know the majority of people who commit or try to commit suicide have a chemical imbalance of some sort and their brain reacts to situations differently. but at the same time there are people out there who have experienced horrific things and yet want to live. why does a 89 year old want to live and a 14 year old want to die? […]

I’m supposed to be killing myself today, it’s all planned and I can’t NOT do it. I want to die so much if I don’t do it now I will do eventually anyway, but I really really want to do it. i thought is would be easier than this but I can’t seem to do it and I dont know why I never expected it to be so hard.

Please dont anyone respond to me telling me not to do it i just dont need to hear that. My plead for help is that I absolutely HAVE to do it today and it’s already getting late, […]

I think there may be some truth in this. Why do so many people want to die? I have a close friend who committed suicide and one of my other friends has two recent cases of his friends committing suicide. I too battle with staying alive on a daily basis. Why? Sure we’ve all got our own reasons and problems and we all see the world differently, but in the end, it’s all the same because we would rather die than be here. 

I don’t think this is about finding a purpose and finding what makes you happy, certainly not in serious cases. I am a […]

 

Imagine yourself at the moment of your death.

What thoughts cross your mind? Memories of family and friends?
Panic? Regrets? Remembrance of Allah? What is death? What happens to
us after we die? What is life in the Hereafter like, this new and
strange world after death? Do we lose consciousness of this life?
Where does our soul go? Do we feel and think the same?

The ineffable feeling of crossing the boundary between this world and
the next cannot be described in words, nor imagined in the mind, but
can be understood only through divine revealation and inspiration.
Let us for the next few moments seek an understanding of this, death,
the only […]

I have called in sick to work today and I am going to kill myself, I have planned it for 2 months.

I have seen posts on here where people say there is reason to live and there is hope in life. For me, there simply is not, and I think it is the same for lots of other people. Trying to encourage a person to stay alive when they are on the brink of suicide can be (not always) cruel. Are those people going to continue to be around for that person they have ‘saved’ or ‘conned’ when they relapse? Because believe me, they DO […]

Not sure what to post here, following instructions to write something, I am a friend of G1974 who died at 11:28 Saturday night following a car crash. I had no idea he was considering suicide. I wish he had come to me first. I recieved a text late Saturday afternoon from him, saying he had emailed me some instructions, posting here being one of them.

We served together in the Royal Marines and he saw some pretty awful things being a medic. As it turned out, it was his childhood that would eventually catch up with him and torment him much more than I or anyone […]

It’s been over 3 years. I thought everything was behind me. I just thought I was finally able to be with myself and learn how to be happy.
3 years and for the most part I never looked back. I still have scars from once upon a time, but I don’t hide anymore. I was finally happy with who I was. No need to be ashamed.

Don’t ask me what happened today… I still can’t tell exactly. I’ve haven’t felt like this for so long. It felt like a lifetime ago. I’ve been crying all day. Don’t ask me why, I don’t know exactly. Nothing feels […]

I will firstly try to be brief, and to-the-point with what I’m going to say here
(it’s not an easy thing, especially since I’m not that good of a writer, and secondly, English is not my first language ie: I am from Indonesia, and don’t ask why I can get to this website!…it’s strange, I know. internet is amazing).

It’s been a week that I’ve accidentally found this website, and ever since then following many posts & threads here. I will say this again & again: that I’ve found so many sincere, honest, and also the most heartfelt and even most eye-opening, mind-shifting posts/threads and ideas […]

One common thing I can see amongst pretty much everyone, on this site and in the world (well the vast majority anyway) is that the world is corrupt and to coin a phrase, ‘evil’. I doubt anyone really can argue against it, not anyone reasonably intelligent anyway. But the thing where we are all so divided is in either what to do about that, or in how to find our purpose in life.

This is where an ignorance, a stupidity and an overwhelming selfishness comes into play. If you were a twin and you grew up sharing a bed with your twin sister or brother and […]

For the past 2 weeks I have kept from committing suicide to explore all possibilities of staying alive. Unlike a lot of others who are suicidal, I don’t have any of these ‘dreams’ that I can relate to. I can see nothing at all that life could offer to me that I would find any real purpose in accepting that. It all makes me feel like a fool. I ask myself why. The answer I find is that mankind is being destroyed right before our very eyes, but we are searching for something aside  from that which is ludicrous. The only purpose that I want is […]

My internet got cut shortly after. The bastards terminated it, just like many other things around the house to make my life miserable. I’m now leeching off someone else’s, which is not secure and I could go to jail, but I have to take the risk, your account was… It has been about 2-3 weeks since and life is hell. I’m not sure when I’ll ever be able to come on again, or if I’ll see you again, but I wanted to say ‘thank you’… Gotta run before i get discovered…

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I came on here to say goodbye after a few weeks of listening in and sometimes joining in on some threads. I’m surprised that there seems to be quite a few people that have chosen today also, must be some cosmic logic! 

Well yeah, I have been trying to find some meaning in the last few weeks, in the end I have come to the conclusion that for me, there is no meaning that I want from this life. I have delved deep into the purpose of life, not just my own, but by reading and researching online, and observing others on here too. I am […]

I’m tired of all these people telling me I need to accept and believe in God just to be happy. God can’t make me happy – he has no control over my emotions. I barely have any control over my emotions, and they’re my own.

“There is no God and there is no soul. Hence, there is no need for traditional religion. With dogma and creed excluded, then immutable truth is dead and buried. There is no room for fixed and natural law or permanent moral absolutes.” -John Dewey

Life has no meaning; none of us are here for a reason. That is what I believe […]

Hi everyone, today is my last day and this is my goodbye. It’s funny because for the past few years I have lived in some kind of turmoil, some conflict within myself. Half of me wanting to live, to find joy in life, to be able to trust another and trust in life itself, whilst the other half finds the very notion of all that ridiculous. I have never known which one of those sides of me to trust. The past few weeks I have really dug deep and explored all my feelings and listened to other feelings on here too. I concluded that I […]

I was sure anyway, it should have been last week, but a couple of posts on here got me thinking even deeper about stuff, and to stay here is to plead ignorance, or to live selfishly, which only works for the stupid. I cannot fool my own self any longer. I am leaving this world to all it’s troubles and worries in the stinking cesspool of humanity. 

Enjoy endlessly chasing the dream everyone!

Lans (35)

I’ve dealt with depression in one form or another since i was 15. I’m 22 now. It was horrible in my younger years and getting bad once again.

I’m the “loner” if you will. I’m hard to approach from what i hear, but i’m the kinda guy that could be your best friend.. Yet people still feel the need to take me for granted and misuse me.

I’m a stronger person than i used to be. I always thoght i was worthless when i was younger. Now i know i’m worth something but situations seem almost worse now that i have some sort of self-worth. It’s like […]

I don’t understand. A couple of days ago I was out with my friend and her family having fun at a dance hall in the country side of Texas. I didn’t know how to dance and I ask guy to teach me. My friend who is very shy when it comes to guys asked me to ask the guy I had danced with to dance with her. I do and she after half a dance sat down. She likes him and I was happy for her. I continue to dance with the guy (Lets name him Guy 1) and his friends. I was having […]

Some of the thoughts & responses have really reshaped my perspective on life, humanity, truth, and pain.
But unfortunately, I got so depressed again at how humanity & mankind in REALITY are progressing.
I just looked at the latest update regarding Splinter’s story, and my chest suddenly feels so heavy, that I can’t explain it by mere words. Even I have such a very HARD time to sit in front of computer, and write another reply/comment,..and especially fueled with some unfortunate ‘flame wars’ here showed me of how differing each person’s perspective is,..and it makes me eventually ponder, think, and ask this ultimate question, that […]

I am such a coward.  why am i so afraid to follow through on my attempts. I know that my everyday life is much more painful than any method of committing suicide. Everyday hurts so why cant i do this. is it the pain or the fear of what comes after. i dont know all i know is i hate me and i hate my life. i suffer everyday and i want it to end.  I think maybe i should get some bug foggers and set them off in a small enclosed area it should be painless right? then i get scared that it wont work […]