The human race reeks of selfishness. Hell, they killed jesus. why should i stick around to see what they screw up next
i know why
you killed yourself
i have so much left to say to you
i don’t want the years to pass by this way
all i want is for you to be
honest with me. and happy.
i could never be
disappointed in you.
so don’t be afraid.
we are not as broken as you think we are
but
i miss the way
i used to feel
im always in the way of something beautiful
I woke up 2day and look in the miror and said 2my self “ur so ugly how culd any1 love or evan like u” and I got so angrey wid my self I smashed the miror luckaly my parents where asleep up steers coz if they new I broke it I wuld be in some deeper shit that I am already in now, y do I have 2 b ugly I hate my self so much I wish I culd just drop dead I’ve asked god 2 kill me but he never answered I almost kill myself last night with a knife but I chikend […]
hey everyone.
i don’t have too much to say but i’ll start off by mentioning that this post isn’t at all for myself.
there are a lot of people who come to this site and write down their experiences/situations for others to read, but many of us here don’t really receive help.
the only way things fall away from goodness is because of a lack of God. so basically what i’m trying to say is that if you really want to make your life and yourself better, you need Him, and you need Him more than just an hour a week.
if you’d like to talk about Him or […]
Maybe I’m just desperate for something that I’ll never find.
I guess I’m just waiting for one of my friends to admit she’s a lesbian so I’ll feel better for being one, too. I’m waiting for a chance to admit it, I guess. I’m tired of pretending I find some guys hot when I really don’t. I can’t stand men. I can’t stand men who do nothing but taunt you for being inferior, who treat you like crap because you’re not worth their respect, who see you as weak and stupid even though you do everything for them because they’re unable to do it themselves.
I tell […]
Today is the Saturday before Christmas and I should be excited about this time of year. Nothing can be further from the truth. I currently have the Perfect Storm going on in my life. My wife hates me and is probably having an affair on me, I have been out of work for 9 months and have used up all my life savings.
I can’t seem to think about anything but how miserable I am. If not for my 3 children, I don’t think I would be here right now to write this letter. I have been married for 13 years and have been a […]
I stopped seeing my psychiatrist and psychologist because I thought I was better. I went cold turkey and suddenly stopped taking 225mg Venlafaxine a day and the 10mg Zyprexa (Anti Depression and Anti Psychotic Medications). It worked. Its been 2 years since taking them, and I think I just realised that nothing has changed. I never got better. Just deluded thoughts kept me going.
If it is any use to anyone – If a doctor trys to give you Zyprexa…. dont take it. do yourself a favour. I hit the point I would take any help I could get. Anti psychotic? Sure, throw me it, it […]
I am in a terrible situation in life and I have no place to run and don’t have to courage to die though dieing would solve all my problems. I am a 28 year old girl and have been married for the last 2 years. My husband seems to be a nice guy to everyone in the world but me. We have had lots of family issues and I prove to be the ugly one always. I dont earn and I am stuck in a country where my parents dont live. I have no money to leave the country, take […]
I have been riding an emotional roller coaster for the past few years now, and it’s gotta stop.
First, me personally. I’m a 37-year-old male and an attorney. I’m engaged, and my fiancee and I live in this great high-rise apartment in Jersey City, right across the river from NYC. Our relationship hits real peaks and valleys — first we’re all lovey-dovey, the next minute I’m getting yelled at for something. Drives me crazy . . . .
Then, there’s my career. Three years ago, I left one law firm to work at another — no change in salary, but the people were so much more pleasant […]
My head is is clouded by a heavy mist, the weight of my misery rests on my shoulders. Nothing interests me or excites me, however i continue with my life; volunteering, exercising, reading, challenging myself, and try to find some light at the end of the tunnel. There’s no end in sight though, i’m back on meds though they probably got me here, i just don’t know what to do.
Most of the time i tolerate this half-life but i’ve come close to hanging myself.
I am so alone here. I feel like I don’t belong in this world. I feel like I am walking around invisible to others. They don’t see me. I have no friends, because I can’t be a friend. I live in this closed off state, and have done so since I was a little girl. I prefer to be alone, but want desperatley some one to grab me and pull me out of my misery. I’ve tried 4 times to kill myself, and have been in the hospital twice. I’ve cut myself with knives and burned myself with cigarettes, just to feel something. I am so […]
Everything bad happens to my y I’m absoulutaly ugly my mum, dnt get me started about her she only thinks about herself she dosnt care about any1s feelings and most of the time she dosnt address me as my name she says “the girl” or “it” y? I try so hard 2 fit in at skl and so hard 2 do things right but I always get bad stuff lots of people told me 2 talk 1 god and I have for a long time now I realy did believe in him but now my faith has faded, he he dosnt like me then I […]
So this is my first time here. I don’t usually post about myself…usually just reading other people’s stories is enough for me. It makes me feel not so alone. But I guess tonight I need more than that. It’s hard for me to keep breathing tonight. Â
I’ve always felt a little different than everyone else…I’ve always had this nagging feeling like something isn’t right, like I’m flawed in some way I can’t explain. I’ve never felt like I really belong anywhere. And my friends and family don’t have any clue about how desperate I feel sometimes. Like right now.Â
I’m 24, I’m married, I have a beautiful little boy […]
So i have posted on here tons of times before about my life stories, my suicide attempts and of course my cheating GF.
Well I really enjoy talking to people online because I have an unknown identity basically online so i feel i can tell whoever what ever and still be comfortable and not awkward.
So If anybody here wants to talk to me about anything email me please. Wether you have tried the deed and failed or you are contemplating it. Whatever it is i will listen. Because im not helping you i feel everyone is hepling me out.
-Faux
hey everyone.
i don’t have too much to say but i’ll start off by mentioning that this post isn’t at all for myself.
there are a lot of people who come to this site and write down their experiences/situations for others to read, but many of us here don’t really receive help.
the only way things fall away from goodness is because of a lack of God. so basically what i’m trying to say is that if you really want to make your life and yourself better, you need Him, and you need Him more than just an hour a week.
if you’d like to talk about Him or […]
I am a 15 year old girl from New Zealand.
and i have had a prety bad year.
i take my ager and stress out with wwrighting songs and cutting.
but does any one understand why?
ive tried to explain, but i only get judged for my own life.
know one knows what i have been thro,
ive tried to explain it to my bes mate who cuts aswell, but even she could not help me, she judged me as well….so not even cutters understand each other..
i have drifted away from my whole family, i am never happy
i have been abused, threatened, and used. […]
i will not be here….i will soon be some where were no body will find me, where i cant find my self
When it hurts to breathe, to see, to hear, to feel, to live…what can you do? What can you do, when God has turned away? I’m sick of pain, I really am.
“[my name]”
yes?
“how does that make you feel?”
nothing.
“are you angry at someone”
try using a plural.
“why”
are you so naieve.
“im only trying to help”
this should be an easy job for you, take peoples money so you can just get into other peoples business who by the way, dont want you in there.
“why are you being so troubling?”
because i have snapped. i dont care anymore. ive been judged for my sexuality, race[s], mind being, style.
my mother told me im a mistake. that fate must have given her the wrong child. that i obviously am not of her […]
To be or not to be
That is the question
The Bard had Hamlet ask
In a play long ago
To be or not to be
That is the question
To many of us ask ourselves
When situations feel desperate
If you have been feeling like this
I ask you please think about it more
I did not and I live with the damage
Of a unsuccessful try not to be
Try to be the person you are
Even if difficulty’s are so stressful
I will never be the person I was
The Brain Damage took her away
If you ask yourself this question
The Bard had Hamlet ask […]