I’m just a teenage guy. I’m stressed beyond belief. I don’t know where to turn, my school work id fluctuating. At least I have running but even that I’ll only ever be so good at. I’m running out of options and I need to know if someone has any ideas before I actually decide to do something stupid again….

This is it in my time of need nobody is there to help me. I want to die but I don’t want to live. I am sick of living a lie! The people in my class say oh she is such a lovely girl always happy and smiling, they don’t even know me! It is all just a lie. In all honesty I am so unhappy. There are times I look in the mirror and think wow I look pretty or boy do I feel good. That is such a rarity, truth be told I despise myself. I despise the person that I have become. […]

i moved from north dakota to south dakota back in may i had to break up with my boyfriend that i have been with for like a year.. that was really hard.. i had to leave all my friends behind… I started this school new school my junior year i am 17.  i have tried to make new friends but no one will even talk to me they call me that new girl.. all my friends from north dakota stabbed me in the back they all started calling me a whore and i thought they were my friends i told them everything but i can […]

Right now I, a 16 year old hidden bisexual man, am laying in my bed rotating a pair of scissors. Ive been listening to “The Prayer” by Kid Cudi for the last 2 hours. And over the last few weeks my life has just been going straight down hill. 2 Fridays ago, i decided that i would finally come out to this other gay kid that i thought was pretty awesome. I trusted him, even though we barely knew each other like that. then i became comfortable with him and thought life was going great because i had someone i could be real with. Then […]

Well im not sure why im here i geuss this site just felt like the best place to share my story. Ive helped a lot of suicidal people and i was told that i was very good at helping to change there lifes i listened to them and helped but ive never had any one help me. When i was born my mother and father were addicted to cocaine things weren’t so bad my dad had a stable job and i had my grandfather. When my grandfather died i was about 4 or 5 my dad became closer to my uncle who was also a drug […]

I’ve felt this way for a while now. I’m an atheist. I considered myself christian for a while but decided it wasnt for me. I’ve never really had anything against people who believe in god but I never understood why they did really. Now though, now I just cant take it anymore. I’m so sick and tired of hearing about people giving god credit for their acheivements and blaming the devil for their misfortunes. That shit is absolute tripe. Where do all the good things come from? luck. Where do all the bad things come from? luck. Luck is the reason for everything. People like […]

because I have tried to move on from what I have previously written on this site, but I can’t delete my comments.

If anyone figures out how to delete comments can you please tell me?

kitten_666_@hotmail.com

You asked me once if my wounds healed.

They do, but only on the outside. I wonder if you’ve realized that on your own. I can’t find it in me to tell you that, and i don’t know why.

I would like them to, really. I want to stop…but i can’t do it on my own. I guess it’s because i’m such a weakling, huh?

it appears that no matter how far any of get away from this we all regress at some point or another, but i guess thats when we got to think about how we healed in the first place.

hey everyone.

i don’t have too much to say but i’ll start off by mentioning that this post isn’t at all for myself.

there are a lot of people who come to this site and write down their experiences/situations for others to read, but many of us here don’t really receive help.

the only way things fall away from goodness is because of a lack of God.  so basically what i’m trying to say is that if you really want to make your life and yourself better, you need Him, and you need Him more than just an hour a week.

if you’d like to talk about Him or […]

This is a story that I have written about “My Perfect Suicide.” I posted it about 2 months back and had a few comments about it but I wanted to clarify that this is a true story that happened 07/02/07 (4 days before my 18th bday) and I survived.

“Tears slowly rolling down my discolored face comes from pondering my short fate. I listen to my left blinker click in the distant background of my thoughts while I wait for my turn to enter the freeway heading east toward the dusky sky. Getting the green arrow, I squealed the tires on my red Mustang GT. The car rocketed […]

http://suicidesavior.webs.com/ this is my new website. please come and look. yeah.

I posted here once, back in July I think.  At the time I had just graduated college with a degree in music.  I had a part-time minimum wage job, and was living illegally in a friend’s dorm room because I had nowhere else to go.  A few people responded to my post, and one even offered friendship, but I was too afraid of getting caught on this site by my “roommates”, so I didn’t come back and see that.

Since then I’ve had to give up my job because I couldn’t afford to get an apartment or support myself.  I had to move back to my […]

Do you believe that some people aren’t put on this earth to get what they want/need? Because, lately, I believe that. I believe that certain people are put onto this earth as a warning to others, to never really get what they want and force themselves to accept what they’re given or die trying.

Example: I’m sure a lot of you know about me and my ex. I rant about it nearly everyday. What I’m sure you didn’t know what that she was depressed, too, before she met me (I’m not being egotistical, it’s the truth). She cut herself, was very closed off to everyone, etc. […]

Well, i’ve done it, i have dumped my girlfriend, i wont repost it but you can search for the thread: Feeling weak and pathetic

I decided to give life a 2nd try, life doesnt circle around love yet it hurts alot when you are broken but now it feels like my past is catching up with me again and i am really tierd of being alone..

Im not talking about getting a new girlfriend, i’ve lost a friend due to “love”. I just wanted someone to talk to, someone who i could talk about bunch of things with, someone to speak to when i feel awful and […]

How is it that couples can be so freaking happy while I’m all alone?

I see everyone with someone else. And they’re so happy. And they don’t even care that I’m not.

I sound like I’m 13 going through teen angst, I know, but this is ridiculous. I’ll never find love, I know that. I’ve known that for a while now. But why can’t they stop and see how much that fact is killing me?

Since she left me for an older man.

I should be able to get over her a lot faster than I am, but I’m not. And really I just need someone to talk to.

So I’m begging anyone out there around my age (19) to email me and just talk/listen. I need someone who knows what I’m going through to help me through this. And hey I wouldn’t mind meeting a friend.

 

variousartists_ftw@yahoo.com

 

Thank you.

-Steve

I suffer from pain attcaks, although i have not had one for quite a long time, i quite often feel shakey and un easy. i really feel very very vunrable and scared.

 

I just want this to end.

 

I feel like i have lost everything, like i have nothing. I feel like everyone hates me. I hate everyone, i want them to know how i feel , but they scare me.

I’m scared of everyone.

someone help please

I really don’t know why I should live and suffer? My life is hoepless. People say we shouldn’t kill ourselves cause the ones who love us would be sad, but I don’t need to worry about that, I’ve got no family, I don’t have any friends, and I’ve never been in love. I’m sure nobody will be sad if I die. I’m poor educated, and too old and too poor to go back to school. And of course, my job is not the good reason to live, it doesn’t give me satisfaction. and I’m middle aged and very sick, I’ve got no chance to have […]

hey everyone.

i don’t have too much to say but i’ll start off by mentioning that this post isn’t at all for myself.

there are a lot of people who come to this site and write down their experiences/situations for others to read, but many of us here don’t really receive help.

the only way things fall away from goodness is because of a lack of God.  so basically what i’m trying to say is that if you really want to make your life and yourself better, you need Him, and you need Him more than just an hour a week.

if you’d like to talk about Him or […]