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Abyss

by Bisban 11/14/2014

written by Bisban

I fall, fallen pidgeon
Does it continuum, after the eternal
I keep seeking, nobody half-way
The grey and the long in the beast
I keep searching for a path, at the end
I did it all like they did it all
Abyss, keep

Winged-creature, iron-power
Are you, golden-heart
Weezing, uncontrolled, self-destruct
Golem, take it to the maximum
The Grimer, the Slowpoke, the Paras
Alex, Dragonyte, Lord
The Black Ash

I would pick Bulbasaur, the green buffer
Because my essence is leaf, of the Muk
Nidorino the mighty, Parasect for alchemy
Grow a Caterpie but not the Weedle
One more for whoever, poor Dewgong
To always save the world […]

11/14/2014 2 comments

The Dark Abyss

by Time's Scar 3/10/2014

written by Time's Scar

I just don’t care enough to live anymore. Yes, I realize that life isn’t always good. Sometimes you go through hardships because it strengthens you and you learn from your mistakes. But I honestly feel as if I have gone through much more bad than good and it doesn’t ever seem as if things will get better despite the fact that I am trying. So why keep trying? Yeah, I might have it better off than some people. I also have it worse than others. And we’ll all die one day anyway… and it doesn’t matter if you’ve lived a life you wanted to live […]

3/10/2014 4 comments

Who the hell am I?

by quaero 9/13/2013

written by quaero

I know its a lie. why do i live it? at every moment of serenity i feel like now i have seen it and now i am gonna maintain it. but only end up in this same wretched state. I am full of confusion. I don’t believe in anything anymore. why? because i am aware of its opposite too…i am aware that opposite also exists and with same conviction. and since both exists, i believe in none. This life as i am living now, i never considered it my true state, my true nature. I always feel like i am living it “just out of […]

9/13/2013 2 comments

Crabby

by Ignorance 7/15/2013

written by Ignorance

I’m out on the beach, and it’s really crowded. There’s at least 3 feet of space between myself and other beach bums. It’s really hot and sticky out there. There’s not a single cloud in the sky, besides a few swipes and swirls of cloud matter here and there. My hair is a knotty and matted mess from the sea water and all of the wind, and I’m trying my best to relax and let go of all the tension in my head. It’s hard to though, because not only am I uncomfortable in my black bathing suit, but I have a sort of paranoia […]

7/15/2013 0 comment

Where do I begin?

by Jessabel 5/21/2013

written by Jessabel

I want to reach out, I really do but I wouldnâ€™t even know where to begin. I am so deeply conflicted. I am so frustrated that I cannot seem to unravel these feelings long enough to really understand them. I must be losing my mind, I canâ€™t concentrate and I take pleasure in absolutely nothing. I hate waking up every day with no interest in a single, solitary activity. There is no song I feel like listening to, no movie I feel like watching, no friend I feel like seeing, no hobby I feel like exploring. I feel as though I canâ€™t survive this self-made […]

5/21/2013 1 comment

Random thoughts words without meaning

by anony1366 4/16/2013

written by anony1366

I’ve lived more than half my life, only to realize I haven’t lived at all. I’ve existed, for what purpose I don’t know. Life’s amusement I suppose. I always picture those old movies where the gods are standing idly by over some sort of cauldron as the human race slowly imploads. Only I see myself a puppet guided by the slightest of hand, made to teeter with one foot firmly on solid ground and the other dangling into the abyss of the unknown. Funny thing is I don’t believe in god or the like. I do however believe in kharma and the ability of a […]

4/16/2013 2 comments

Empty Life

by rosshid 3/13/2013

written by rosshid

I’ve been suicidal most of my life, delayed because many people gave me false hope (e.g. “Things will get better,” “It’s a temporary problem,” “Life has intrinsic value,” etc.). When do we stop and look, only to find flipping burgers is unfulfilling – when does a man breakdown from the socially approved unfeeling zombified state into tears and try to escape the mediocrity? The answer is when all hope is lost. Death > Life. I once feared the great abyss that awaits us all, but it now gives me solace and peace – not having to grind through each day, day after […]

3/13/2013 2 comments

Take Me To Nowhere

by ladyana 1/10/2013

written by ladyana

At this very moment I would love to go missing and never turn up. I would just love to be away. Away from my life. Iâ€™ll admit that my life isnâ€™t so bad. Everything is very solid and secure and I am involved in college and church. Maybe I long for more? Maybe, just maybe I donâ€™t want anything for myself. Absolutely nothing. I would love for life to stop at this very moment. No more time, and no more space. I just want to enter the abyss.

1/10/2013 2 comments

Truly living with depression

by kimber_10-56 12/25/2012

written by kimber_10-56

Depression: don’t want to deal, don’t want to feel. Nothing. Just want it to go away. Feeling. Emotion. Love. I want to push it out of me. Down some rocky shore. Out into an ocean, an abyss anything to swallow this pain, make it gone, disappear. Be dead.
Not living. Not trying to. Just breathing, just beating, just thinking. Hate and anger. At me. I despise myself. I despise this life, this nothing. This pain. Accepted by no one, loved by no one, am no one. Empty. Shallow. Weak. Where is the purpose to live in that?

12/25/2012 1 comment

The Cliff…

by RogueShadow1281 12/10/2012

written by RogueShadow1281

The SP House

Chapter 1: Paradise Lost

Looking out into the horizon, the sun slowly disappeared, it’s warm embrace being replaced by the cool, quiet moon. The sky, once blue and vast, changed to orange, red and purple and then to black, then allowing the stars to shine through. Looking down, she saw the foggy depths of the abyss, but the familiar sound of waves crashing could be heard. Down there, one could fall and die after splattering among jagged rocks, or even survive and end up in the water, just to wash up on shore and try to get back home tired and groggy. And disappointed…

Those […]

12/10/2012 3 comments

A Glorious Crimson Death

by Nathaniel_Morisawa 11/15/2012

written by Nathaniel_Morisawa

With courage and deliberation, I’ll go there. Into the jowels of that abyss. I just have to finish up my work here.

11/15/2012 1 comment

Maybe I Want to Die

by Closet-Absurdist 10/14/2012

written by Closet-Absurdist

I’ve felt like this for many years. Right now I’m on the precipice of a major change in my life, one that will basically cast me out into the world. Unlike some of the others here, I have people who profess to being in ‘my corner’. But I realise that ultimately that’s all a sham. They can’t really do much for me because this thing stems from inside. It’s been described as screaming into the void or staring at the abyss. I choose neither. All I feel is empty, empty all the time. When I’m around people I feel empty. When I’m alone I feel […]

10/14/2012 3 comments

by Oak 7/4/2012

written by Oak

I’ve been reading things that I wrote about two and half years ago when I found :

Deep inside a darkness resides, a black hole of nothingness.
An emptiness that sucks the life force out of you.
A void that whispers: â€œYou are tired of living, give up!â€.
The pit of endless sorrow threatens you at every fall.
And now, when I stare into the abyss withinâ€¦
It stares back at me with its cruel vicious eyes.

It’s funny to see how nothing has changed during this time…

7/4/2012 2 comments

I don’t know what to do with myself

by RJo 6/28/2012

written by RJo

I don’t want to die-on most days. But sometimes I get so depressed it seems like a good solution. It just passes my mind out of the blue when I’m crossing a river or crossing the street. What if.

I thought I’d had it all figured out by now and it’s not like that. Not knowing what to do with your life at 20 isn’t a good idea. I feel like I’m gonna screw up, alone with a boring job I hate, surrounded by people I have nothing in common with, my parents are going to be so disappointed.They are going to die and I’ll […]

6/28/2012 5 comments

Should I… Or shouldn’t I ?

by Empty_Soul 6/17/2012

written by Empty_Soul

The idea of killing myself is becoming more and more frequent, the plans, the ideas, the notes.. I have written so many of them.
If only she could see that I am suffering without her.. That I am lost, hopeless.. alone. Life seems so meaningless, so insignificant. My mind has sunk deep into an abyss of sadness and sorrow. I don’t know how much more I can take.
She was my world. Yet she left me.. Left me with no explanation. As time passed I worked it out. She left me for someone else. Someone I have know since I was a kid, initially I […]

6/17/2012 6 comments

Guardians

by lostchild445 5/29/2012

written by lostchild445

If theres anything out there
That’s supposed to be watching over me
I’m going to rip your throat out when I die
Cuz you haven’t done a single thing for me

If ye be a guardian angel I’ll rip off your wings
If ye be a king of kings I’ll knock you off your throne
If ye be just some cosmic entity I’ll make your eternal existence as miserable as you made mine

If there be nothing at all and only I am to blame
It is all the same to me
Because then I’ll be dead and have nothing but abyss ahead
And my mind will […]

5/29/2012 1 comment

Freedom

by lostchild445 5/23/2012

written by lostchild445

Kill me to free me
Tis my only option now
Cause I don’t have faith in myself
And ive lost my way long ago

In this storm that I brave to see a better day
I find myself crawling
Clinging to the fragile roots that doth hold me here

For my soul died long agoÂ
I live as a hollow shell
So go ahead and kill me
Send the rest of me to hell

Or release me from this hell
Where today I now dwellÂ
Searching for something else
To stay for, to breathe for, to live for

My tears have fallen for you
For the past the present […]

5/23/2012 1 comment

The face of depression

by lostchild445 5/19/2012

written by lostchild445

🙂 you see that? Thats my face. All day. Every day. I put it on in the morning and it only varies a little. I hold everything in. Keep it away from my friends. They dont need to be worried. Because as time comes to show, once people know what face truly lies behind the lies they freak out and send you out to the hospital for a month again. So fuck it. I’ll just push it all back, then let it all out through my wrist at night. So far it’s worked alright. I’m doing just fine. Or so I say. I can even […]

5/19/2012 1 comment

You Wonder Why I Call You ‘*****’

by Verum 5/14/2012

written by Verum

Tupac – Wonder Why They Call You *****

Inspired by the above:

Drowning in alcohol,

A man of no lord, no regard for toll,

No reason to live, a jilted soul,

She’s condemned him to a liquor prison,

To this poison of ethanol.

Drinking spirits,

Desperate to fill the void of an abyss within,

Sitting in the darkness of a cornered booth,

Why doesn’t he ever walk away,

Escape from the this cage of musk and sin?

5/14/2012 1 comment

HEaRSe

by babypanda 5/3/2012

written by babypanda

see those smiles?

they aren’t hers.

you think they only bless;

[but] she knows their curse.

yet in that abyss,

truth stirs.

always at her heels

it stumbles and keels

desperate to reveal

a [the?] girl who feels.

(nothing but faux:

it’s all for show)

if only they knew

she almost fell through

the void in her heart

full of fabricated clart

forged to keep her life

from falling apart.

nonetheless this only created strife

and anguish for her

provoking the start:

caveat emptor.

5/3/2012 4 comments

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