Ive been thinking alot about all sorts of things. Uhm I just don’t know what to do I honestly can say though taking my life doesn’t seem right at all someone made me relize that sure I’m still going to struggle through this and using these small things to numb the pain but one decision has been mad that I’m not going to take my own life if anything I’m just going to let what ever happens on it’s own and maybe I do need help but that will be decided at a different time I havnt even taken a hit of dope today even […]
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overly good good, does that sound like bipolar to you? I am sick of having nobody understand me and not being a part of something, my friends dont really know me, well one of them kinda does but mostly ive just been trapped inside with my personality unable to show, Its Like ive been a big balloon full of something expanding and expanding about to explode. Ive talked about good and fighting for the good but I do fall down and this is one of those moments! […]
Hello children, I just wanted to shed some light on one of the worst times of my life, I was not always as well adjusted and happy as i am now, i was onceĂÂ in the gutter. Its difficult to talk about because its a time would like to forget, but those who do not remember there mistakes are doomed to repeat them.
It wasĂÂ 7 years ago, the first time attended college,ĂÂ After my GF died, i went off the rails completely, If im perfectly honest it was mostly just a blur of alcohol and self pity, hatred for a god i didnt believe in, But mostly i […]
I am a fifteen year old girl who hates her apperance who would Love to just finally kill herself and get life over with. I am good at hiding my emotions and i am just so so so tired of going on.
i know people lifes are horribly bad but mine is no walk in the park either. My mom sees what she wants my two older sister care but do they care enough? my dad didnt even want me he wanted my second oldest sister. I have been trying to kill myself since 5th grade. this year i was baker acted twice and i […]
Ive actually forgotten how to be happy, how to actually smile and mean it instead of pretending i mean it, I’m so used to pretending im happy that i dont actually no how to anymore đ
I try and do the things that i love doing, talking to people who i love talking to but nothing seems to work, i just dont no how to be happy anymore, if im ever happy i literally lasts for about 5mins and then its like im back to reality again! Today i went to see my nan and there was loads of trouble down there and today i realized […]
I’m a freshmen in college and I have not made alot of friends. I started getting anxious junior year of high school and it ended up being a social thing where i felt like i was constantly being judged by EVERYONE and still do. Either the social anxiety has caused me to be deeply depressed for about 2 and a half years or the depression has made me so withdrawn from being social with old friends and trying to meet new friends that my life has become a very boring one.
For an extrovert like myself it is literally torture to be sitting in my room […]
I Have Depression .. Really Bad. I Get Blamed For Everything, I Find My Self Ugly , Fat Or Even No Good! When People Tell Me Im Pretty I Think There Lying. When Im Upset And Somebody Askes Me “Whats Wrong” I Usually End Up Crying Right At That Moment. I Been To A Clinic To Get Help. Im Now On Depression Meds Now! When Im Upsett Or Real Low The First Thing That Comes To My Mind Is Suicide. It Feels Like I Have No One To Talk To. To Trust. I Feel As Though Im A Loser đ I Get Picked On At […]
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This is my 3rd time posting on this website, i guess it’s because i have no one else. I am getting more and more depressed every day and don’t no what to do.I was thinking of taking an overdose when i looked up consequences of an overdose and it said brain damage and that put me off that idea.
I have being depressed for nearly two years now and i guess things are getting worse and worse lately. i think it was my friends that kept me on the right path, but now i’m no longer friends with them. i suppose i have […]
It was valentines day, the day of love, and it was perfect. Things went on normally as they do, except everything was just so much more happier. Because as i had suspected, it would all just go down the drain instantly. Like it always does, i can’t have a great day without something twisted and messed up happening. So it’s 6:30pm and i get back from my new job i was working at [I just got fired from that job as well]. I get called into the residential advisors office because he was looking for me, really, really bad. I thought i was in alot […]
Hi guys, I hope every is feeling better today, even its just a little better, better is better.
I have started teaching at the weekends, its one of the ways i cope with my deppression,ĂÂ i used to be seriously depressed a few years ago, after a few trips to the er a few weeks in rehab andĂÂ with the help of aĂÂ new found friend i have my life back.
I work in a rape crysis center, so i talk to people on prohibly the worst day of there lifes, its tough and it tears me upinside, but i achually get to help someone it makes it all […]
My life is Shit. It always has been. Its been one thing after the other. I’m done. I just want to know how to hang my self passively without alot of Pain. I have some drugs and alcohol I can take to give me the courage. I just dont know how to do it from a door knob or something. What would be the easiest and quickest way. I dont want to fuck it up.
Hello to everyone reading my post. I only have two more days that I am able to access my computer, so please share any thoughts youĂÂ would like. I will not be offended. I lost my fiance to his choice of the exit bag on September 15th of 2011. I was completely blindsided as we were happy and making plans. I woke up to police calls, investigations, and a lot of texts from him declaring his everlasting love.ĂÂ The funny thing is I was always the destined one to go, I believe in a life for a life, and would have gladly given mine. He was […]
ppl its been so long since iv actually written something.
nothing has really changed in my life except dat it gets worse and i keep on sinking deeper and deeper into this dark hole, im so tired of all these emotions. Iv been going to church alot lately but when i get home i go back to the same old darkness and neverending pain. i cant stand this pain no more. i have nothing left to lose and its not like anyone really cares or truly loves me and it will be best if i just left dis world.
i thought it will get better with time […]
First time postinq.Spoke to my social worker yesterday.I told that I was qonna overdose so I can leave this corrupted world,I told her not to tell my mom but you know yall can’t trust adults.I was stupid enouqh to trust her and well I just went to the hospital in december for depression and suicidal ideation!,now I’m qoinq aqain!I stayed there for six days last time but my social worker says Ima stay there for about two weeks now.It’s not to bad tho exepct for the qroup,there ssssoooo borinq and the sleepinq at nine,dude I’m freakinq seventeen not six!…..I’ve been readinq alot of stories on […]
ive thaught alot.. like i always do .. honestly.. all the times .. they hurt me.. all those men that took me for advantage.. its not me.. its not my fault.. i may have walked the bridge but i didnt jump.. they pushed me.. they should fall not me.. FUCK THEM .. LYING FUCKING IGNORANT STUPID PERVERTED.. NO GOOD IDIOTS…THEY SHOULD ALL GO TO FUCKING HELL FOR MAKING ME FEEL THIS.. because … i did nothing rong i was just looking for somone to tell me i was beutiful and amazing.. i cant die over them.. i still hav so many years to live .. […]
Well I got expelled this school year. I been getting and trouble this school year ! I only got suspended 6 times this school year. I Got put out after the six time because I was about to fight this boy. He push my cousin and he was talking bad to me so I snaped and went off. Well the principle decide to expelled me. So when he expelled me I went crazy by punching the wall , crying , screaming , I the hit principle , threw my school I.D at my the principle too , Broke the shelf , threw a pencil at […]
I hate living i wish that my mom.would just let me die already ive been suffering for years now and she seems not to care she avoids the situation until i try something then thats when she notice i need more help then what shes giving.but the truth is i dont want.anyones help i just want to be left aline so that i could just die by myself what so hard about that you know i prayed and prayed that this world would end in 2012 like is was supose to but i guess i didnt prey hard enough because here i am writing […]
Death is upon me. Goodbye Cruel World.
Why does it feel like my life is a horrible joke? One big fat joke. That is all I will ever be. I hate this alot. I have little to no friends. School life was a big mess from start to finish. It seems like when ever I am noticed in this world its only to be laughed at. I have not much to say since I have never done this but maybe someone will understand me? I have bad social problems, fat, ugly and no friends and I have an even personal problem that few understand. I feel no matter what I do its […]
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I’ll explain the tite in a minute. I’ve researched about suicide, understood all the facts. Yet I’m a hypocryte. I apoligise for that but here’s how I am: I’ll use as much logic and try to keep polite to get my point across if I’m trying to make or keep someone reletivy happy. But when it comes to myself. I can’t help but be as pesstimistic as possible.
Now about the title- One thing I heard that helps is getting your problems out. But I don’t trust some people and others I don’t want to worry. So I post it […]