Every night before I go to bed I hope that I don’t wake up, and every morning I wake up a little angrier than I was the day before because I woke up. I am not exactly sure the reasoning behind it, but I have felt this way for many years. The only emotion I ever feel or exhibit is anger. It is starting to effect the people around me but I really don’t care about the people around me or the people close to me. I care about nothing and haven’t for as long as I can remember. As far as I know there […]
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I’ve had physical problems for a while (stomach and head) My stomach hurts all the time and my head always aches and I have constant dizziness and headaches . I’ve been to doctors and they find nothing. I’ve read a few places that built up anger and depression can cause physical problems. Is that true? Any experience? Also A few years ago I took around 100 tylenol and 50 asprin and realized that it was a bad method and went to the hospital, drank charcol ect. They said I didn’t damage my insides but I think my stomach had problems a month after that so […]
Sick,
I am constanly making mistakes to my boyfriend, I don’t want to but I keep doing them. I can barely live with myself after the mistakes I make, I don’t mean to fuck whats wrong with me. I don’t want too but I keep doing it he wants to leave me because of them all and I don’t want him too I don’t know why I cant put a stop to the mistakes! As simple as falling asleep on him, fuck. Whats wrong with me I don’t want to harm him I dont want him to leave and I have failed to fix my reoccurring […]
I can count it even 3 if the flat tire would not have happen. Today was the most serious attempt of them all, before i just attached the rope on the tree and put the knot over my neck, but today i jumped and stroke the ground. 2 of the branches broke and i was up on my toes with failed attempt. Then i tried to put the rope higher and i failed again because some mother f***er drove on the road with his dirt bike and i had to came down and drive away because i think he had called me cops or something. […]
Self harm song-http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=E5t1f5HIPbg The ultimate suicide song- http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fKZRcIGnaqE&feature=relmfu (needs headphones) Anger -http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mM3qOxHdcCU Death-http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-7mr_a7uo4o How people view us (generic advice)- http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Snt4fEapbNM Society- http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mGEQT48Ghzs
Does anyone know any good coping mechanisms that could help me when i get filled with anger?
I usually cut myself to calm myself down. Any suggestions are fine.
Thanks guys.
I’m dead inside. I watch blood pour from my self inflicted wounds and don’t even care. I don’t feel the pain. No outlet for anger or sadness so I take it out on myself. I’ve been silently screaming through tears for the past 2 hours and I’m too afraid to do anything more about it. I wish I had a gun. I’d be gone before anyone could pretend to care.
truthbetold is a jaded individual
urban dictionary says:
a) the end result of having a steady flow of negative experiences,disappointment, and unfulfillment fed into a person
where they get to the point where their anger circuits just sort of burn out and they accept disillusionment.
b) emotionally numb. having been through so much pain that you simply give up and decide unconciously not to feel anymore. mental suicide.
I also have dormant hatred for humanity, which is awaken when people do or say things that remind me how compassionate us humans can be ..
my friend depression tends to find its way inside my mind during the fall and usually leaves […]
What a watchful eye. Not a moment is there just for myself.
Those who I confide in my outer most opinion know nothing of my inner pain or what I really think. Those who I have believe I can share this with are no longer the high points of my life. I’m too personal, well I would if anyone took the interest. No one wants the opinion of a 16 year old with all the gadgets and a loving girlfriend. He has the life, what’s to complain about. IM ALONE! I’m fucking alone damnit! What do you care? You don’t! Bu still I will listen […]
My head keeps on
I wonder if it could ever be turned off
“I must be dreaming”, I tell myself
So many times, and I’ve found out the truth
Nothing more… nothing else
Is it just me? Is it my fault?
Do I live in a different world?
No? And so why I feel that way?
Give me answers please
‘Cause I have no escape
I have no one in fact
Not even my cat wants me to scratch him in the back
And you still wonder why…
Did you notice those cuts in my arms?
Or that I am by myself most of the […]
I’m at the edge of breaking into tears, at the edge of an hysterical attack… I want to scream and yell and hit the walls and bit my arms and just lose my self control for a little while. But right now I just can’t, I can’t go crazy in the middle of my class.
Today I’m having a down and it’s the worst, I’ve been feeling like crap since the very moment I woke up. I think that if I die, none of the ones around me will even notice, I’m nothing more than the shy girl who hides behind the anger and her phone […]
I’m useless in this “real world”….I’m such a fucking impractical, too imaginative person.. thus, I don’t belong here in this mundane, dull, boring real world..!
by niki
written by niki
I’m useless in this “real world”….I’m such a fucking impractical, too imaginative person…
thus, I don’t belong here in this mundane, dull, boring real world..!
I often feel like I belong to another planet, universe, or perhaps another ‘spiritual’ plane, dimension,..something like that.
my super-vivid imagination’s world / universe is often a HUNDRED times much more lively, interesting, exciting, thrilling, and challenging than this apparently “Law and Order, all about money/profits and status” shallow, mundane, meaningless real world !
it’s my curse.
fuck my life..
get the hell me out of this fucking Matrix , please , somebody!
there should be an OPTION to get the fuck […]
first off id like to say i hate everything. I stopped taking meds and now i cant move my fucking arm cause of a stress related disorder.I couldnt walk earlier and now this. I dont know why i stopped taking it it just happened. But for some reason ive gone between super happy then super pissed and now depressed and wanting to die. No im not bipolar. Im psychotic but not schizophrenic. And Im terribly alone ive never been more alone. My two main emotions are alone and pissed off. But i have to keep cool only my close friend knows whats going on with […]
Sick of constantly breaking down, angry, I become someone I’m not when I’m angry and I can’t control it, begging to not be alive, punching walls, tensing,
Advice?
Worry.
I have this friend, let’s call her Brooke. Brooke was my best friend in kindergarten and all throughout elementary school. When middle school arrived, we’ve slowly started to drift apart. It’s eighth grade now and we’re friends, but not like before. I regret everything, all our fights and misunderstandings, the judging behind each other’s backs and the backstabbing things we’d do. All I want is to be there for her and be her friend, but I feel like it’s too late.
Brooke has cut, she’s cried, she’s been heartbroken, and hurt in many ways. Similar to me. And because these things happen to me, it’s why […]
Once again, I am back from the hospital for suicidal thoughts and depression… Yippy. Just what I want, right? Wrong. I wish that I didn’t have to come back to school… I hate it here…. Anywaysssss I was there also for my anger. I have a terrible temper and I needed to get that under control also, but mostly, I was there for my depression… I tried to OD yesterday also and tried to cut open my arms. Sounds great, doesn’t it? God, why can’t I just be happy…? Even if it’s for a minute. Why?
After surviving I realized how much I really do want to die. I seriously hate 99.9% of the world. If I don’t let my anger out soon,I’ll burst. I just have to make it to August. Counselors and medicine is bull. I just can’t wait to be dead,I feel as if I have lived my life. When people say “you’re to young to die” I stop and think,what that really means. 13 is old to me. I’m not throwing a pity party. Tell me why I’m so depressed.
Ever since I started smoking, I don’t know if its the weed but my self esteem dropped down completely and my anger problems have gotten even worse. I stopped smoking and I still have the same problems so I’m started to worry about myself and others around me. The majority of the time, I just burst out whatever is on my mind at the moment which is things I regret in the future. I can’t talk about it with my family cause they’ll think I’m psycho but I truthfully wanna know what’s the matter with me. I know it doesn’t sound like such a difficult […]
I am fifteen and up until recently my life was fine. I was already depressed but I didn’t have any problems with my life. I know I’m talked about and picked on at school but I didn’t realize how much until after the big event that ruined my life. I know others don’t know that I’m any weaker and more vulnerable than before but I feel like the talking about me and messing with me has gotten a lot worse since my mom moved away. I didn’t have much of a choice but to stay here with my grandparents and my sister. My sister has […]
I’m pretty much as broken and useless as it’s possible to be. I can’t do anything right – not exaggerating, it’s the truth. I’m barely human and don’t really do the things that normal humans do or feel the way normal humans feel. When I’m hurt or frustrated I get angry – but real people don’t feel anger, don’t express those things. Real people are happy most of the time, not unhappy or angry most of the time. I’m just wrong. Broken. Unfit for human consumption. God I wish my mother had aborted me. What is the point of me? There is none. The worst […]