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Love and Hate

by LiamS 3/20/2012

written by LiamS

I love her with all my heart. But I hate her for doing this to me. I love her for being honest about her feelings. But I hate her for not having those feelings. I hate myself for hating her. I hate myself for loving her.

Sometimes I think I’d be better off if I’d never looked at her a second time. It’s funny how that single act of going up to her and starting a conversation, has led me to where I am now. Sometimes I think I’d be better off if we’d never met, but then I wouldn’t have enjoyed the WONDERFUL time we […]

3/20/2012 2 comments

9 Atteempts. Why am i still here?

by BrokenInside 3/19/2012

written by BrokenInside

The first time i was 8 years old and my dad had just left me and my mum after battling cancer. Mum wasn’t good, Dad was gone, Nanny and Granada were in Spain, my friends didn’t want to know. What stopped me? My mum caught me and took me to a therapist.

The Second time it was my 9th birthday. It was the last day i ever spook to my dad. He texted me to say that he was gonna have a son and that i was nothing to me. On my birthday. That time my now ex-best friend found me and begged me not to.

The […]

3/19/2012 2 comments

When two worlds collide..

by [SyKo]Nuclearanthrax 3/19/2012

written by [SyKo]Nuclearanthrax

My weekend was grand, two of my different lives merged together, and it was beautiful. We partied hard.

My Best Friend and My Best Homie came into MY world, things were so different but still lovely. There first time going to my town, my first time bringing someone from the other world into mine.

Things were amazing.

3/19/2012 4 comments

If you die, just know you could be worst off especially if you don’t believe in anything.

by tigerlily93 3/16/2012

written by tigerlily93

There is nothing wrong with being suicidal, but acting on it is.
It is okay to want to die!!
But just know, you prob, feel that way because ou felt unloved or hated by the world, but we have each other.
And, you know what screw the world.
If you think about it some people in the world who arenot suicidal are more messed up than us.
It’s ok
We just have to know our lives aren’t just for us, we love for Jesus and truth and love and all things good, but if you don’t believe that you can die!
And you may not […]

3/16/2012 3 comments

teenagers scare the living sh*t out of me.

by almostgone 3/15/2012

written by almostgone

When i was a kid, i thought i was happy. I always got good grades, had tons of friends, never fought with my parents. I loved life. Do you guys remember those days? When you called everyone your best friend and the biggest secret you kept was your moms christmas present. Im in high school now and i have one person that i considerÂ a best friend, although were forbidden to acknowledge eachother in public,Â and more secrets than i can count. I feel like its even more dramatic how out of control my life has gotten because of my age and even more because of how […]

3/15/2012 11 comments

Made a list of everyone that got me to where i am..

by never3nding 3/15/2012

written by never3nding

Its a long list dedicated to the people who ruined Â any chance of happiness for me..

To the Â guy who raped me at a party where i drank to much then denied it, then continued to harass me and put me in situations where im just as vulnerable.

To the guy who i dated for 2 years, told everything to, then who told everyone.

To the girl who fed my addiction, taught me about cutting, bought me a razor, and ever since the first time i’ve did it, i’ve done it every single night since.

To the ex best friend who left me in my most desperate state.

To my […]

3/15/2012 4 comments

Why Am I Apologizing?

by Rain 3/15/2012

written by Rain

So im apologizing…again…because he wants to put me down..Im apologizing…again..because he wants to argue…im apologizing…again..because he doesnt believe that i dont want my best friend…im apologizing…again…because i wont stop being friends with my best friend…im apologizing…again..because he had another girl in his bed and he thinks that i’ll get revenge on him by doing the same…Why am i apologizing? I did nothing wrong…right?

3/15/2012 8 comments

Meeting my end

by lostchild445 3/14/2012

written by lostchild445

I’ve decided to do it. You’ve all heard my story. I appreciate all the positive comments I’ve gotten. You all are so much stronger than I am. I’m going to a much better place. One where there is no pain or hate, no judgement. Only void. I’m going to join my best friend. To join My ex. To join All the others who saw this world for the horrible damned place that it is. Those of you who still believe in hell, even if I go there, I’ll be happier than I will be living here. To my parents who will find this while invading […]

3/14/2012 5 comments

Again…

by lostchild445 3/14/2012

written by lostchild445

Well. My best friend is dead, and now my ex killed herself too. I’m like a fucking walking deathnote. I honestly can’t feel a thing anymore. All I feel is pain. I’ve lost everything. My best friend, my friends, my grades, my music, my health. All that’s left to lose is my life. who or what will take that away from me? At this rate, it will be myself.

3/14/2012 1 comment

my secrets.(:

by Emma 3/14/2012

written by Emma

1. i have CAPD (central auditory processing dissorder)
2. im bipolar
3. im bulimic
4. i cut myself everyday
5. im highly suicidal
6. the principal is like my best friend
7. i have no friends
8. i hide who i really am
9. im totally weird! haha!
10. i have a bf..
11. im not a virgin (of course ive been hurt a lot)
12. ive been raped 8 times
13. my family hates me
14. i was almost bullied to death
15. i almost commit suicide at school but the principal saved me
16. i wish i was beautiful
17. i wish i […]

3/14/2012 3 comments

My First Post

by mark800101 3/14/2012

written by mark800101

It feels like such a monumental task to explain everything that got me to where I am today. I simply don’t have the energy to write it right now, if ever. I don’t know.

Lately I’ve just been letting the days go by, I keep hoping something good will happen and change the current situation I’m in. I’ll explain the tip of the iceberg.

On February 20th, my best friend named jackie was supposed to video chat with me that night. We had just gotten off a stressful video chat during my lunch break that day. A few […]

3/14/2012 3 comments

Why I’m cutting

by lostchild445 3/14/2012

written by lostchild445

The blood flows from my arms
You cry and tell my that I need to stop
You don’t understand.
This is what keeps me alive.
This proves I’m still human deep down.
This shows me I can still bleed, that I can still feel.
The razor is my best friend now.
He never judges.
He’s there when I need him.
He let’s me take my feelings out.
It’s not healthy it’s what makes you right.
This makes me right.
No matter how sick and twisted it sounds, its what keeps me sane.
If the price to pay is a little blood and […]

3/14/2012 1 comment

You left without me

by lostchild445 3/13/2012

written by lostchild445

… I just got a call.. From my best friends brother… She died at 10:48. They couldn’t save her. They said she lost too much blood… That there was no hope to save her… Amanda…my best friend…you promised me..that we were both stuck here with each other… and you left.. Without calling me, without telling me.. without taking me with you… You alone got me through my hospitalization. You gave me hope. You were the only one that could make me laugh anymore… Whose gonna make me laugh now? Whose gonna tell me it’s ok? Whose gonna remember the times we had at the unit? […]

3/13/2012 5 comments

Mistakes

by lostchild445 3/12/2012

written by lostchild445

I shouldve tried harder last night. I wake up this morning, I find out that I failed every assignment I handed in. I officially have failed highschool. I’ll have to retake all of sophomore year. My girlfriend got ridiculed about me n I about her, so she hasn’t even looked at me today. My best friend tried to kill herself n is back in the hospital. My two other friends both were gone today. I got blamed for shit I didn’t do and I got a detention. I destroyed my hip flexor so that ends my track career. My parents destroyed my piece n my […]

3/12/2012 1 comment

James…. you silly… you left me without a goodbye.

by loreildarksky 3/12/2012

written by loreildarksky

You left me, James. Not even a text or a message to say you were ending it. I know I wasn’t the best friend I could have been… should have been… But I wish you’d at least tried. I would have tried to help, even though I was so far away. Maybe I could have talked you out of it for a little while… maybe it would have been long enough for you to realize that maybe suicide wasn’t the thing for you. You could have had so much.

I feel so selfish, sitting here and thinking as I write this, that maybe all the […]

3/12/2012 7 comments

Does anyone care?

by nothingleft88 3/11/2012

written by nothingleft88

I keep reaching out to those closest to me. One person in particular who says she cares. But evreytime i reach out she says the same couple things like im sorry i know and suicide is stupid. It just seems like she doesnt care as much as she says. And then noone else will take me seriously. Why wont they believe me why do you think i always wear long sleeves and when im not i always hold my arms close to my body. Do they not realize im dying inside. Ive told them i am. But they just look at me like im crazy. […]

3/11/2012 8 comments

I don’t want to be here

by ihateseagulls 3/11/2012

written by ihateseagulls

I feel absolutely worthless, a body without a purpose, a girl who is so broken and truly believes she is good for nothing but sex and drugs. I have isolated myself completely and my best friend is so sick of my shit he won’t listen anymore. Nobody wants to listen and nobody gives a damn. But I feel like I am hanging on for dear life. I am shit. I am nothing. I need to go.

3/11/2012 11 comments

The most generic title – I’m so sick and tired of life

by carmenc23 3/11/2012

written by carmenc23

My mum is cheating on my dad with someone else. And I think I know who that person is. My best friend’s dad. I found out, and I can’t tell anyone. Because if I did, everyone’s world would change. Everyone around me will be affected severely.

I’ve been living this awful secret for almost 8 years. I knew this since I was really young. My mum left her phone at home (which she NEVER lets us use). I was young, and I went through her messages and found things I shouldn’t be finding or knowing. Sappy, disgusting messages. I read each one with tears in my […]

3/11/2012 4 comments

Make it Stop

by Sonia 3/10/2012

written by Sonia

Sometimes it seems like everyone hates me. Like every single thing i do is wrong and terrible. I wish i could just turn off my life and start over. Get new friends, not backstabbers. Stop caring what other people think. Stop being such a terrible person. And just get a life that I love, instead of living this life where I’m just waiting for the next time I’ll make a mistake. I don’t want to die, I’ve never had the real urge to kill myself. Hurt myself, yes, but never end my life. I honestly thought I had a best friend who would […]

3/10/2012 14 comments

i’m only fifeteen..

by kerithh 3/9/2012

written by kerithh

it’s sad to think i’m only fifeteen and i have tried to kill myself two times. yes two times. my mom found me both times, in the bathroom. In seventh grade i lost my best friend to suicide, i just wanted to see her. so i thought if i cut deeper i would bleed out. i passed out and i woke up in the hospital. they gave me pills for depression and i had to go to therapy. the second time i tried to i almost OD on pills i found in my moms room, i couldn’t get the bottle open and i was screaming […]

3/9/2012 4 comments

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