You ever look at people around you and wonder “whats going on with me” ever wonder why your sad, lonely, why people you trust leave you, i do, i had a friend we were close and we kinda liked each other then he got a girlfriend stop talking to me, an we still tlk i guess but not the same, never the same he has new friends, an me, well am alone i should have known to keep my life to myself ,now i feel invaded, i feel like everyone knows me, i feel stupid, i feel alone in a world full […]
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People say am over emotional, they say am easy read that am sensitive, of lately thats all i hear from people about me and i guess after years of hiding my sensitivity to obstacles in life ,am getting rusty ever since i opened my self to my bf.
This is not me am a fighter, i refuse to be run by my emotion, right now i have reached my max an am ready to yell an scream at ppl, am feed up have hidin hw i feel to be respectful etc i am fucking going to be me. So fuck pretenders, fuck close minded […]
Hello, I’m marissa and I’m suicidal, achoolic, drug addict, and anorexic. I’m 14 and I drink and do drugs every night. I make myself puke 3 times a day. I have suicidal thoughts every night.
I live with my mom and her husband(sadly my step dad) I’m verbaly abused by both of them everyday. I was several times physical. I have no control over my life. I’ve tried to runaway but I always get caught. I’ve tried to take my life but always get talked out.
My father wasn’t there at my birth and was really never there for me. He moved to Florida when […]
My wife of 7 years left 3months ago and it still feels like the first day.she has a new bf wich she says shes in love with now.that
realy fucked me up.realy bad.the thought of them holding hands or kissing kills me and the thought of them makeing love makes me physicly ill i want to vomit.each day i pray all day to die and i even try about a month ago.thay put me in the hospital for about a week and i had to lie and tell them i wouldnt try again so thay would let me out.we have 4 year old son […]
Yup, some things have happened since i last came here. i think i’m in love, but i hate getting hurt so much. My best friend came into town but right now she’s not here. Thats pretty much all that has happened that is good. I still am depressed and suicidal but again, i can’t leave my best friend alone in this cruel world. Wish i could go right now. Still am addicted to cutting. I’ve burned myself but its not the same without any blood. I’ve seriously been thinking about drugs. I need something that will help relax me and maybe i’d finally get some […]
out of all fucking people, why did i have to fall inlove with my best friend?! we used to have a “thing” she used to like me. but she said she doesnt wanna lose our friendship because im her best friend. everyone i know can just tell im in love with her. and i hate admitting. i told her once when i went out of the city for a week and i told her i said that cos i missed her so much. i always look her in the eyes and say im not in love with her, but in realaty i think she is […]
just got grounded, being ignored by my bf, really need to talk/advice?
I am extremely tired. Happiness keeps teasin me. Everytime it feels like its finally in grasp and my lifes going to be ok, it slips right out of my hands. Somebody I thought was my friend screwed up my relationship a while back. We never got over each other. I still like him alot. My boyfriend now, doesnt make me alot happier. We only see each other literally maybe three times a year so we just text. In the middle of the convErsation he’ll leave without explanation…yay. Then he acts like it never happened. I flirted with my ex and sccidently went a little too […]
im thinking about ending it all tonight, i just really cant bare to be apart of this horrible world anymore, ive been getting nothing but depressed evry single day and each day it gets worse, nothing good is happening to me only bad things, im being bullied by my own family, and i just cant take it anymore. and on top of that i ran into my friend or should i say ex friend/ someone i liked and she was at the counter and i was standing in line at tim hortons and she didnt even wave at me she was freaking facing me too […]
I doubt anyone would take a look at this. But I have no one else to turn to. I have screwed up my life so tremendously, I feel that I have no other choice but to kill myself. My boyfriend, the one whom I love more than life itself, saw that I was texting my ex. I was just texting him to see how he was doing, but my bf had told me explicitly that he didn’t want me talking to him. Now he is calling me a liar and that I’m going to regret ever lying to him. I don’t know what he’s going […]
i dont know what to do… i like my ex agai… ive been waiting for her for 5-6 years now and shes in a relationship, but thats kinda going dwn the drain and ive been talking to ppl and they say she’s just using me and or toying with me. one minute she would flirt with me and the other she will keep her distance… were already doing “couple like things” where whang out everyday and text everyday, and even talk on the phone till we fall asleep every other day. ppl say that im her fall to guy but i dont want to be […]
I’m always depressed even sometimes i can really hide it from everybody -incluiding me- but within me there’s just darkness… like all the bad feelings together at the point you cant make a difference among them, in some moments i want to let me go in that darkness and just desapear, in others i want to hurt myself -even i know i can’t- to make the pain go away for a while.
I think on killing me but i know i’m not strong enough to do it, as same as hurting me, and my friends are sick of me saying once and again how bad i […]
Im in love with my bf but im not over my ex): painful.
What should i do?
I looked up the signs of a controlling bf & he fits every sign it seems like. What can I do to try to fix our relationship. I’m depressed and suffering..
..so my lovevlife is over ? ? i got the human p. virus.. i have no idea from who. though im pertty sure it was from my ex bf.. and now b/c of it i had to get surgery and now i need to get it again.. its been almost a year since i had the surgery and it sucks. i wont be able to be in a relationship or start seeing someone if I dont get rid of this again… and its gonna be the same routine for the rest of my life… so wtf.. i hate this.. and life. its like im not […]
I know I keep posting…basically I guess I am trying to get my thoughts,feelings out before I die. I dont want to be saved,Im too far gone at this point. I think as I draw closer to the end I just need to purge this poison as much as possible….so bear with me. Or dont,I guess no one needs to read this. Dont necessarily need a reply.
Had another huge fight with BF on phone last night..still refuses to come back home,now trying to say he wants to talk to my therapist first. he keeps threatening to stay down there and never come back. His goddamn […]
Hi just broke up with bf…we were toether for three years
i don’t know what to do now…i feel like back to him but he will treat me sh** again…
he was the only one who knew about my major depression..and also that i don’t take medications yet due to some personal reason…but he always blamed me..this time he said that he don’t feel the love no more..because i am moody all the time..and i said i am sorry but his reply was “i don’t care”
so did i do right by breaking up with him? its no doubt that i still love him like there is no […]
This life isn’t worth living, if you aren’t with me to share it.
That is why I try so hard..
When you hug me, it heals me..
When you kiss me, i feel alive.
I never thought I could fall in love again.
But I did, I fell in love with you.
If I die now, I will die yours forever.
I just want to be yours forever.
But I know I can never be yours forever, whilst I stay.
You will never love me the way I love you.
I am Ariel, so I will die yours forever..
Things been fucked up more than ever. My boyfriend still can’t show any of warm feelings, acting like a snowman, can’t even make himself tell that he misses me and so on.. So finally i told him, that i’d rather choose not to have him, than having him like that. I asked him not to write me, not to call me, not to find me anymore..except he will find some feelings.. I just couldn’t take that coldness anymore.
My friend called at the same time, i was cryin.. so She took a food, bottle of wine, Marlboro and came up.. Feeded me, drunk me, poison me […]
Hey. So I’m 14, and I think something’s up with me. What’s the definition for the term crazy? And not the version for kids. Lyk, I’m super obsessive. I know that’s just OCD.. No biggie.. . I’m different from everyone. I have pink hair n snakebites and wear contacts a lot because my eyes are brown n I hate the color brown. That’s another reason why mie hair is pink.
Iv also NEVER had a bf, let along any guy friends. I don’t know why. 🙁 I don’t consider myself day and neither do any of my friends. Pimples don’t cover my face. Iv never […]