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Bipolar

My story…

by lotsoflove8080 8/4/2013

written by lotsoflove8080

I don’t know why but putting my story out there feels like it will help, so here I go. Read if you please.

I was born healthy, I have two older brothers. My mom worked all the time so I stayed home with my dad. My dad is bipolar. Though I only vaguely remember, I’m told I spent most of my childhood sitting in the dark in the living room because my dad’s paranoia made it impossible to leave. My dad had some alcohol abuse problems and he would abuse my mom too. I shared a crawlspace as a room with my older brother. We eventually […]

8/4/2013 5 comments

Someone PLEASE help!! Please help me…

by fractal_death 8/1/2013

written by fractal_death

Hello, kind and compassionate people.Â I am speaking to you.Â If you are someone who is just going to tell me, “No, don’t do it…” or “Jesus/God/Allah loves you and wants you to live…” blah blah blah, then I am NOT speaking to you.

I genuinely want to die.Â I have wanted it since the age of 12 when I tried to stick a chef’s knife in my gut thinking that would do it.Â I tried again at 19 by ingesting a bunch of sleeping pills.Â I am 39 now and my situation is much worse.Â I have chronic pain in my back and neck from […]

8/1/2013 5 comments

suicide planning

by mizkaypuck 7/25/2013

written by mizkaypuck

I have about three weeks to plan this. Because i’m planning suicide I would like to leave my family with as little to do as possible. and it’s kind of odd if i start making my own slide shows lol i want to make a blog like way for them to easily access information though music is how id like to express myself; there are just so many songs to chose from. am i going to be hated because i committed suicide? My sister is VERY AGAINST it and i would like to leave her with science backed […]

7/25/2013 3 comments

Opening up.

by Depersonalization 7/16/2013

written by Depersonalization

I had never heard of this sight until tonight. I saw a friend post about it on Facebook & instantly thought that it was a sign.

Let me just begin with a little bit about me. I am 18, I live in a town I hate, & I hate most people. I’ve never really blogged, but I’ve always wanted to. It really helps me to write & I need to have a way to calm myself down. I really don’t know how to explain myself because I don’t really know who I am anymore. I don’t want to hear that I’m too young & that I […]

7/16/2013 4 comments

I don’t know.

by walkthisworldalone 7/13/2013

written by walkthisworldalone

Hi, nobody’s even gonna read this but I guess it’s better to let it out.

I’m Lara, I live in the UK. I have a loving family, good friends and a pretty great life. I have a lot more than I need and i’m very grateful for what I have. But something just isn’t right. For two years now, i’ve been having thoughts of suicide and have been inflicting pain on myself. I don’t feel the pain anymore. Around the time I started having these thoughts, my friend was diagnosed with slight depression and bipolar disorder but her mood swings were far less severe than mine. […]

7/13/2013 3 comments

Something is definitely wrong with me

by blind_cinderella 6/28/2013

written by blind_cinderella

I haven’t been diagnosed with a bipolar disorder but i am sure that i have it because it is impossible to have so many shifts of moods. It just isn’t normal. I am such an emotional brat. I can’t stand things going wrong. I had such a good week and experienced wonderful things and met so many people on this festival and now i am back to reality and to my responsilities. I just became so sad in one moment and now i feel so helpless because i can’t remember anything good to keep me on the righ path.
I am so mad at myself […]

6/28/2013 3 comments

Why can’t I just be found attractive or loved?

by nolove 6/26/2013

written by nolove

My ex husband walked out on me because of my severe mental illness that happened 6 years into our 8 year marriage. He left me for being sick. For trying to get help. I has to leave my son for a month to try and get help. I thought I was doing good and so was our marriage for the month before he left. I wasn’t cutting and I was happy and didn’t want to die. He walked out on us.

Now I’m married again and I don’t feel my husband is attracted to me. He accepts my mental illness because he has it too. My […]

6/26/2013 2 comments

i feel alone

by aidan-sage 6/10/2013

written by aidan-sage

Im not gonna try to post something extremely witty and dark and intellectual and poetic.. i just cant sleep again and im hoping that posting this will clear my mind and i could get some advice from people who possibly feel the same way as me. I could list every terrible thing thats ever happened to me and all the times ive tried to kill myself and all the addictions ive had but thatd take too long and im tired and lazy. So basically, im depressed, im bipolar, im insecure, im lonely, and i feel like nobody cares about me apart from my immediate family. […]

6/10/2013 8 comments

Life and Rain.

by Niftie 6/7/2013

written by Niftie

Raining endlessly, the usual bipolar weather of New England. Cold & drabby, yet a constant reminder of how she feels on a regular basis. Allows her to empathize with at least something, but ironically rain has no vitalities, schedules, appointments, nothing. Mere droplets, all without knowledge, lacking a single breath of life, just free falling, rhythmically dancing with not a even a slight reason or for any purpose. It’s all just there, forced to fall by the weathering ways of Earth’s atmosphere, its recycling. Yet may still compare with individuals prior to “living,”, born without a choice, forced to live amongst others, unknowing & dancing […]

6/7/2013 2 comments

I hate love

by Lover4evr 5/31/2013

written by Lover4evr

My boyfriend and I just got in a fight. Beginning because I wouldn’t send him pictures. He got mad because I sent ONE to a kid over a year ago, as I went through my freshman slut phase. I told him it was a mistake and not to talk about. But he kept dwelling on it. I started crying because this is what it causing my pain again. People bringing up the old me and bashing on me. He kept asking why I was crying and I just kept telling him he wouldn’t understand. Finally, I reminded him of my depression, which he then reminded […]

5/31/2013 8 comments

Help. I’m loosing myself.

by RipMitchLucker 5/11/2013

written by RipMitchLucker

Hello.

I’m 13, And have a crazy family. I Have a bipolar raging mother who beats me occasinally, A dad who could give less of a fuck, a brother and sister both younger who always push my buttons even if i’m already crying, and a grandma who doesn’t help. Â My mom is mainly the reason im here. I’ve been suicidal since i was 9. I’ve grown up mentally as well, i stay locked in my room almost everyday wondering what Â to do and how to die. I have countless scars on my arms from cutting, thinking it was the only way to escape , and now […]

5/11/2013 2 comments

Everything I’ve done has been made meaningless…

by z80 5/1/2013

written by z80

I told my parents that I am bipolar-2 and that they must not tell anybody in the family or outside the family before I explain what that means. Â People think bipolar = crazy, schizophrenic, split personality, criminal, nuts… Â you get the idea. Â These types of labels pretty much sink a person’s life completely.

Nobody wants to hire you. Â No one that was in your social circle would be a recommendation. Â No job prospects. Â Not money. Â No lady wants to be with a man who cannot even get a job. Â Family throws you out because they think that the reason you can’t find a job is because […]

5/1/2013 4 comments

Suffering

by heybaby 4/28/2013

written by heybaby

I’m a freshmen in college-Best time of my life, right? Here’s what I have accomplished,Â failing classes, attempting suicide, countless anxiety attacks, depression and a stay at aÂ mental ward for a week.

Yeah,Â I tried to kill myself-I took…I don’t even remember how many handfuls of Tylenol. For awhile, the pills took away the pains I felt from either depression or the anxiety. I couldn’t feel anything. I banged my head against the wall-Nothing. I kept taking them, my heart was either beating too fast or too slow, I couldn’t tell which though. I got in the shower with my clothes on and just laid there. I was […]

4/28/2013 16 comments

i ruined my life

by tippayarat 4/25/2013

written by tippayarat

hey

i’ve just been diagnosed with bipolar disorder

and i tried to od on anti depression pill

i failed the interview exam for university my mom expect

before all this things

i had been a good daughter good student

i went to the best prep school in my country

now i’ve just all alone in my room for a month

while all my friend being a freshman and succesful

i’ve just recover from anorexia and i binge everyday

now iam so fat and dont want to see my old friends

i really missed them 🙁

4/25/2013 6 comments

hurting

by hippie_shutterbug 4/22/2013

written by hippie_shutterbug

i’m in so much pain mentally.
can i tell you a secret? my best friend of 17 years raped and burned me withÂ cigarettes while he was drunk. (you’re the first person i told) i have been cutting myself off and on since i was 9 because my cousin molested me until i was 12 and when i finally told them they said i was lying and i got slapped with being bipolar 2. i have one friend she is a complete ***** she doesn’t even care “it’s all about her” anyway. i am an introverted kind of person.Â i just turned 25 and i’m scared that […]

4/22/2013 3 comments

The EX Marine

by D 4/16/2013

written by D

4/16/2013 8 comments

A Struggle

by Silverstream 3/31/2013

written by Silverstream

Here I am sitting in front of a computer screen, having tears run down my cheeks. I just need to let this all out. I was born abroad and faced tons of bullying when I came to where I am now. Started in 2nd grade and it never ended in elementary or middle school. I never made much friends until Middle School. I was in a clique, were weren’t close; it was simply to gain an advantage over each other for selfish purposes like getting good grades. I saw everyone in a race, in a race of being the best in academics. I was smart, […]

3/31/2013 5 comments

Saved

by Kei 3/31/2013

written by Kei

I suffer from PTSD, OCD, and bipolar II.Â I’m also a FtM transgender person.Â My father died in 2009; I was only 20 and was his next of kin and had to to everything relate to the burial.

It took a toll on me.Â I didn’t even tell my doctor until 2010, when he put me on antidepressants.

The medication works, for the most part.Â But sometimes, my depression creeps back up again.Â It did that two years ago.Â I had pills stashed, I was ready to do it…

But then an anonymous person commented on a blog post of mine.Â It was just the first public post […]

3/31/2013 1 comment

How Stupid Can You Get, ya Fuckin’ Nazis?!

by jessie209 3/30/2013

written by jessie209

I’m sorry… How royally fucked up is this country, that the same people who allowed me to be raped repeatedly for seven years, to the point I had a child, could have the audacity to look me in the eyes and say they can’t help me? Really?! Do you have any idea how many times I tried to tell people what was happening, only to be called a liar? And now, the bastard draws a disability check for being bipolar (no shit). That’s not a lot of money, but it’s $700 a month while my son and I have NOTHING. His class Easter party […]

3/30/2013 6 comments

My Short Story

by SuicideCircle 3/30/2013

written by SuicideCircle

Live in Seattle,Â almost 30, unemployed and single.Â Â Live at home w/my Mom, lil Sis, and her boyfriend.Â I feel super unwelcome in my own home.Â They treat me like I shouldn’t exist.Â That’s enough to make anyone suicidal.Â I suspect I’m bipolar.Â Dunno though I’ve never been diagnosed.Â Even if I was certainÂ it’s not like there’s a cure.Â I’m having difficultyÂ managing my life, allÂ I can do is drink whenever I get the chance.Â I always feel alone even when I’m with my closest friends.Â People I’ve known for more than a decade.Â I just feel trapped and that nobody cares.Â I’m […]

3/30/2013 4 comments

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