you seem really cool. I enjoy you
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So one night I was just like… it would be pretty cool to find other people who want to die at times, and just hang out for some reason. So I found this site, and decided to join.
I am 24 years old, living in Southern California and going to college… I won’t really go into why I wanted to suicide or other things, because it’s too long, sensitive, and kinda crazy. So I won’t for now… Unless I feel like doing it one night on private.
I really like music so I’ll try to share music with you guys.
so…when depression kicks in,severe one, the body should just fucking die, shut down, just like a deadly disease… brain s the power house,if that s not cool…nothing goes.
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Only one reply? Ya’ll must be disgusted and disappointed with me. Yes I know I did bad. I went back to see how it would be. And it wasn’t so bad this time. Started off slow and little communication but picked up later on when the roommates showed up they’re actually cool people and I’m getting better at talking in a group and not sounding like a fucking idiot so that’s good too. But yeah I’m a sucker because I went back, brought food, and ended up rearranging my financial schedule a little to cover him for a little bit of bud because he gets […]
I’m afraid of this being the worst birthday ever for me. Not that it’s ever meant anything before. Only once as a little kid was my birthday really celebrated. I was maybe 4 or 5 and my mom had a friend from work who shared my birthday so he came over for dinner and she had a cake with both our names on it and he gave me a toy guitar and strung it up left handed for me. Then a couple of weeks later my mom threw it out because “music is the work of the devil” and all that. At some point when […]
I just need to know… Is it just me who likes running my fingers over my cutting scars? Good Lord I sound morbid, but I just gotta know if any of you out there feel the same way.
It’s weird now- I read through some of the self harm comments and I (sometimes) just want to jump up and go to town with my exacto knife. Other times, I’m totally cool with it…
It’s not normal to be sadistically happy about cutting into your own flesh… of course it’s not normal- If i was normal, I wouldn’t be here with all of my lovelies 🙂
Sorry about this […]
I’m so lonely and confused about where to go from here. I had started chanting (Nam myoho renge kyo) and although I can’t stick to routines, it really cured me of feeling suicidal and I don’t have that drive anymore. But I don’t know what to do. My life is so empty without my best friend around. I love him more than anything in the universe, more than words could ever express, and he doesn’t feel it because a) I’m fat, b) I’m an introvert, and c) I’ve been living as a guy. I told him that being fat is really an advantage in that […]
I don’t think this is just me, but I’m not sure. Â Yesterday, I was having quite an excellent day. Â I am a pretty darn busy person, so being able to have some down time in my room was cool. Â I didn’t really have anything to do- and all the sudden, all I wanted to do was cut. Â I tried to run away from the feeling so I went to the gym to run it off. I came home, and was yet again consumed by the desire to cut. Â I wasn’t sad, depressed, or angry- it was just a reoccurrence of an old habit. Â Unfortunately, I […]
Girls don’t like me I’m average looking maybe better than average to some girls. They don’t like me. Guys don’t want to be friends with me girls don’t want to be friends with me people don’t want to hang out with me because I’m not cool enough for them. That being said I’m a nice guy I give money to people I buy ************’s coffee at Starbucks I give money to hobos I treat people with respect I’m companionate why isn’t that enough?
http://youtu.be/0oCtKKNFYnI
Been driving few hours. Fell asleep at the whee few times. Catching up on sleep while I drive. Pretty great. Who says men cant multitask eh? Slumber would be nice at one point though. I might do that. I’m in Kingston. A town few hours west of our nation’s capital. Cool little place. RMC is located here. Our military university for officers to be. An army base is located here obviously and lots of heritage like Old Fort Henry. A fort we defended back in the colonial days. Pretty cool. Been there a few times. Defended it. In my mind from the countless denizens […]
So….Salt and I both had 3 days of hell, back to back. I think when he fell down the hole, I was still kind of connected to him. Through this site, we both found ways to hold on, because, believe me, during my time in hell last week, I would have blown my brains out if I had a gun….and some of you know how anti gun I am…so what does that tell you?
Now for the corny part: I truly believe the only way we are gonna get through this life is if those of us who understand the weight of our illness are ready […]
I’ve been eating the pain away, trying to lose the weight of all the hate. Is it normal for feeling sadness ever since I was 8?, sorry I’m not a tank. Ain’t no pill going to stop the wait. Molded into the wrong traits, but I still have faith inside my little gate. My lake is filled up with too many fakes; I try to shake but I always will take the bait. I dream to feel happiness so no such thing as a good wake. I try to be cool, I try to be funny, I try to be smart, I try to be […]
“he has a big nose, his eyes are too far apart, he looks weird, his hair is fucked, he’s too fat, he’s too short, he’s not muscular enough, he’s not cool enough, he doesn’t have a good enough job, he has a shitty car, he has a shitty apartment, he doesn’t have enough friends, he doesn’t have enough hobbies, god his life must suck.”
– The Human Race
Lately I’ve been losing my cool with people more and more.
Past few days has been nothing but conflict with people I know as well as strangers. I lost my job back in February because I simply have no patience with anyone. Starting to think I’ve reached that point where I might not be able to work well with others at all.
People just make me so mad.. and i can’t seem to hold back my anger.
I’m currently trying to get free medical insurance so that I can see a doctor, get a cat scan and blood tests as well as seek behavioral therapy […]
CPS came in because one of my teachers called them about me cutting and doing drugs. They are now forcing me to go see a Psychiatrist and go to group with other girls that are in high school. If I don’t go, they will remove me from my mom since I have been cutting for so long. But honestly I don’t need this. I am fine with cutting and doing drugs. That’s how I cope and that’s what I’m good at. I don’t want to change. That is what makes me. ME. Not saying I don’t have emotional problems cause I’m sure we all do, […]
I’m going to miss the rain. I love rain so much. It’s comforted me many times throughout life. I’ll miss the feel, the sound, the smell, the cool breeze. I wrote a stupid, short, song about rain once in the 5th grade and I still sing it nearly every time it rains.
“I can hear the sound of rain. I can see the beauty of rain. After every rain there’s a rainbow”.
I wish it rained everyday. My two favorite things ever are rain and dogs.
so much shit has been going on this the first time in a while that I had a chance to breathe and just let the tears flow because after this little moment its back to reality ik I need to leave this place my therapist said it was not a safe place and I never knew what she meant but now i know.. That place is eating me alive there’s no love or comfort I need to get away in trying to come up with the money to buy a bus ticket and get the fuck away from here I just need to survive until […]
My obnoxious buck-toothed dumbfuck brothers outed me to my conservative mom. I’m a transguy. I’m still figuring out myself, and I certainly wasn’t ready to tell anyone else. Plus my mom’s in a difficult situation herself – she’s depressed, anorexic, going through a divorce, etc. So it’s really ridiculous to burden her with my situation.
She told me I was an attention-seeker who needed to pray. I told her – and tried to be firm – that I felt confident and happy, dressed as a guy. She responded that it was a false sense of confidence instilled by the devil. According to her, no one in […]
I can feel it. The pull to take a beer or any other drink I have every night, when the thoughts come creeping up. The sweet, blissful promise of release from the voices in my head and the cool, refreshing feeling as the liquid touches the back of my throat, giving me a sensation similar to falling into the arms of someone who cares. They won’t shut up, so I drown them. Just for tonight, because a permanent way to shut them up doesn’t seem to exist. A constant battle, day after day, always ending in my twisted, ironic victory. Like fighting a bomb – […]