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Help please

by oof46 11/2/2017

written by oof46

So, um hi. I’m not sure how to start off a post like this one, but here I go.

I’ve been having a really tough time with… everything. I have really bad anxiety in general, especially social anxiety though, and it makes it really hard to function in day to day life. I’m only 14, so I don’t have much choice in my doctor visits, medication etc. However, I went to the doctor about a week ago for a regular check and they recommended me a counselor, but I feel extremely uncomfortable talking to a stranger about my problems. I don’t even talk to my friends […]

11/2/2017 3 comments

Virtual Reality ( VR ) , Artificial Intelligence ( AI ) , Transhumanist / Transhumanism , space travel , mutations : to escape this boring reality , boring real world , boring real life !

by niki 10/28/2017

written by niki

Virtual Reality ( VR ) , Artificial Intelligence ( AI ) , Transhumanist / Transhumanism , space travel , mutations : to escape this boring reality , boring real world , boring real life !

Human’s imagination is better than reality !

Movie / Movies is better than boring reality , real life , real world !
Game / Games is better than boring reality , real life , real world !
Comic / Comics book is better than boring reality , real life , real world !
Novel / Novels is better than boring reality , real life , real world !
Science fiction ( sci-fi […]

10/28/2017 2 comments

Wish I was normal…

by Brokenpotential 6/8/2017

written by Brokenpotential

Normal people dont sabotage themselves when they’ve worked so hard to accomplish something because they made a simple mistake and believe they dont deserve any success. They’re not afraid to make new friends because they know they will eventually take off their mask and use those friends up. Normal people dont worry about being alone. They dont care that they are not going to be remembered, or that they wont do anything great. No, normal people are perfectly content with being who they are…
I’m scared of myself. For most of my life: I was very angry at myself. I’d have to build myself into […]

6/8/2017 3 comments

First Post

by Vilhelm 4/10/2017

written by Vilhelm

Right, this is my first post on this site. I’m 16, Cliche angsty teenager. Depressed, Anxious, Low Self esteem, paranoid etc. The full package basically. Recently my parents have discovered about the cutting (and have guessed about the depression from that), and are trying to force me into counselling because of it. I’ve been to counselling before for anxiety, but it did sweet fuck all. Question is, do I do it again? I feel like it would be helpful, because, like everyone else here, I’ve tried to kill myself, and do genuinely want to get better, but can’t see a way of doing it by […]

4/10/2017 4 comments

help me

by gabriella_ 4/8/2017

written by gabriella_

I don’t know how to handle this. I’m only 15 years old. How do you deal with depression, with feeling all alone, with wanting to die all the time? Sure I have friends that know what I’m going through cause they’re going through the same thing… but what if this makes you even sadder and depressed than you already are. I just want to be alone all the time. My parents don’t understand it. I do this thing where I refuse to get up and go to school because it hurts too much to move and I can’t even fathom being around people all day, I just wanna stay in bed […]

4/8/2017 3 comments

Why am I still living

by lake-of-fire 1/24/2017

written by lake-of-fire

I have always had a rain cloud follow me my whole life its called depression and anxiety and self hate. I wasn’t born capable of being happy or lost it as i grew older and life unfolded. I lack or never had the tools to love myself. I cant remember a time when i wasn’t depressed and anxious. Even as a kid id never smile have bad self esteem. I fear ill never be able to live on my own and function through adulthood unassisted and happy. Every bad memory traumatic sad event I’ve been through is burnt into my […]

1/24/2017 0 comment

I don’t know what I want anymore

by Tummibear 11/6/2016

written by Tummibear

I’m just going to put this here for me to re-read when I’m at a low point. Kind of as a public time-capsule. Bear with me as it’s going to be a lot about I-Me-My.

I was born to a single mom with a lot of personal issues. She was a pretty promiscuous party girl during my early childhood. She dated, and we lived with a few
different drug dealers before I was even 3, not that I minded at that age. I temporarily lived with my grandma for a year from 3 to 4. I don’t have any memory of
this but apparently, according to […]

11/6/2016 7 comments

Current State of Affairs

by QuixoticNomad 8/30/2016

written by QuixoticNomad

Behaviors: depression; no motivation; unable to be stimulated; hypomania; anxiety; inability to focus.

I’m in a healthy state of mind approximately >1% of the month.

Current medications and past treatments: Geodon, Seroquel, Klonopin, Adderall, Trintellix; received TMS

Myers-Briggs: INTJ

I’m rapid cycling. If I’m not depressed I find myself to be either slightly hypomanic or fully hypomanic. I phase through having motivation and not having motivation; in either case because of the recurring depression or hypomania I’m unable to pursue stimulating and impassioned ideas or activities that I know from the core of my being would make me a happy and mentally healthy person.

My teenage and young-adult life were filled with passions […]

8/30/2016 1 comment

Staring at the screen – Who am i?

by oqoobo 8/7/2016

written by oqoobo

So this is my first Post here.

So i’ve been here before several times,

like a fucking stalker, like Marla singer, the woman from ‘fight club’ who went to all the support groups because they were cheaper than cinema. Or more like the Protagonist from that same book.

Whenever i felt sadness melancholy and whatever-the-fuck you want to call it eating me from inside. Hollowing out. Gouging.

Whenever i desperately wanted to cry, but couldn’t because it seemed surreal, pathetic and impossible to me to cry over nothing but myself.

And whenever i vistited here i felt like an asshole because i wouldn’t dare to try to help, because i […]

8/7/2016 6 comments

Death by Metaphor

by vertigo 6/1/2016

written by vertigo

You get really good at hiding it.
Because, really, nobody could have time for you. You can’t make sense to them. Which close aunt did you lose, they’d ask, if you let even the remotest bit of it show? When did you break-up? Why did they do that to you? Why so sad, ‘all of a sudden’? But, no… There was no event. Nothing traumatic to empathize with. It’s just a slow flesh-eating bacteria, an impregnable eerie silence, a hopelessly dark room, that if embodied as a phantom, would torment you even when you aren’t alone or shouldn’t feel alone in the company of people. […]

6/1/2016 1 comment

Stomach.

by xx 3/26/2016

written by xx

I was trying to compose something nice in my head to post, but I just need to vent without trying to be all verbose and purple prose-y. I’m sorry guys (though I’m sure no one minds not reading my bullshit).

I am in so much pain. My stomach really hurts. It was really mild until about 20 minutes ago, when I started to think about trying to sleep. I didn’t eat anything super bad today, and the last thing I ate were woven wheat backed crackers, in an effort to calm my stomach, because drinking something milky or eating plain salty crackers usually helps.

I am running out […]

3/26/2016 5 comments

Accepting death as the solution

by SPP 1/5/2016

written by SPP

Hello everyone. I’m new here. I’m almost 24 and my native language is not english, so excuse my poor english.
I have been dealing with anxiety and depression (i guess it appeared later) since the age of 15/16 i guess. It started after my dad said yes to a surgery to my kidney( i didn’t want to do it cause i knew it wouldn’t fix anything, it was’nt a matter of life or death, not anything closer to that, just to fix a congenital problem). But the only thing it brought to me was a psicosomatic disorder and later anxiety and depression.
I’m telling you […]

1/5/2016 2 comments

Mistakes and Betrayal

by InhalingAnxiety 10/26/2015

written by InhalingAnxiety

Follow up from my last post where I admitted to my sister I needed mental help. Usually admitting you need help is a great first step to getting better. I guess that all really depends on who you admit it to, though, and I made a huge mistake in my choice apparently.

10/26/2015 12 comments

Plan to end it all within this week

by fatzyp 9/21/2015

written by fatzyp

I have been diagnosed with depression recently. It took one trigger to bring back the feelings of isolation, loneliness and rejection from the past. To make it worse, my lack of self-worth underpins all of this and I feel like it will never get better. I am actually afraid of making new friends or forming new relationships because I fear rejection that much.

What perpetuates it is that I am an atheist within a Muslim family and community. If I come out about it, I face rejection from everyone. So I have to hide who I am and pretend to pray. This in itself makes me […]

9/21/2015 1 comment

Tell Me How I Am

by operationmintyhippo 8/20/2015

written by operationmintyhippo

I’m sorry I’m about to be all wordy, jumbled, and redundant and you probably don’t care about my life story, but I need an outlet.

I grew up with an ideal life. Friends–two best friends who all did everything together. Family–mom, dad, brother, sister. We always did all the family-esque things together.

We must have looked great from the outside.

8/20/2015 22 comments

My Silent Battle

by Lisa Marie 6/27/2015

written by Lisa Marie

I’m sorry this is so long. It’s my first post. But, it’s a juicy story filled with a lot of pain. I promise.

I’m not sure where to even begin. 10/11 years ago, or the recent events? What I do know is…it doesn’t matter if I kill myself of not. The beautiful star filled sky will still appear each night. The warm glowing sun will continue to rise every morning. The seasons will still slowly change and flow into each other in a never ending rhythm. Beyond me, everyone else’s life will still continue on. So, why not? My father always says, “Suicide is the most […]

6/27/2015 9 comments

I feel my end nearing

by blargyness 5/8/2015

written by blargyness

Hello everyone who’s reading and thank you for taking the time. My name Blargyness, which is obviously pen name, I’m 25 from Manila, Philippines. I’ve been suffering depression since I was 16 so give or take 9 years. When I was 16 i first committed suicide and I think I never recovered. I have a psychiatrist but lately I feel my end is nearing…
I do not have the most understanding people around me about my condition. Depression is not something really “real” here in the Philippines. Well save one person, my boyfriend. I am trying so hard not to give in. I said and […]

5/8/2015 5 comments

Living the life…

by Cheesecake 4/30/2015

written by Cheesecake

I’ve been on the same routine now for almost 3 months now. I wake up, have a shower, go to college, and think about nothing else except taking my own life. I barely manage to get out of my own bed. I don’t feel motivated to do anything anymore, and I’m hanging by a thread. Loneliness and misery is all what I have left. I have no friends, no girlfriend, my family doesn’t give a rat’s ass about me. I’m all alone. The only thing that manages to make my face light up is food. The only time I feel happy is when I eat. […]

4/30/2015 2 comments

First Post but need advice

by blondie10 4/14/2015

written by blondie10

Hi, this is my first Post and I just need someone to give me advice. So I’ve felt this way for a long time and its not going away like it used to, so will it? I’ve told my mom but she says I’ll just grow out of it but I’ve felt this way for like 5 years.
I started cutting when I was in 5th grade and I also develoPed an eating disorder, mostly for attention from my mom but she still didn’t notice even when I lost 25 lbs. My mom has also suffered from dePression and anxiety so it’s not her fault. […]

4/14/2015 3 comments

My battle with depression and suicide (Help)

by Parzival 3/3/2015

written by Parzival

I have been dealing with suicidal depression for over a year now. I’m 18 I no longer live at home due to some family issues and am currently living with my sister who I split rent with. I have a full time job as a cashier, I go to college, and overall am a very busy person. I am actually adopted from a family of drug addicts. My birth dad left my mother when I was born and she did some drugs while pregnant. This caused me to have a form of high functioning Autism called Aspergers (AD) syndrome, ADHD, and OCD. Some of the […]

3/3/2015 5 comments

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