The recession destroyed life as I new it. Having been laid off 3 times in 2 years, I left my home and started over in a new town. The first 10 months were a struggle to survive, and then it finally paid off. I landed my dream job. Still alone in this new place 800 miles from friends and family, I made the mistake of befriending a female co-worker. She approached me a couple of weeks after we both started working at the same company. She had moved to the same town with a boyfriend of 7 years and they had broken up. She was […]
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I’m Going through a divorce with my wife of 7 years. I recently started getting these feelings of regret and how I treated her. I am trying to get her back but it seems like she has moved on with her life already. I am so hurt and sad inside. I just want my family back. Idon’t want to live without my family together. I don’t feel the live from her anymore. We havetwo small children and it breaks my heart to see them going through this. I just want to give up. I can’t cook or clean or have no energy for theme I […]
I suppose I am doing this correctly.. I am new here after all.
My story?
It’s a little bit too long for a post that I have the patience to make right now, so let me just sum it up so you all can get a general idea of where I am coming from.
My family: I have a mom, who can be psychotic at times but a lot of moms are. I look at her more as a person rather than my mom. Sure, she might get involved in my life attempting to be my parent but for the most part she is just […]
I’m sick of waiting.
I’m sick of having my heart broken again and again. This year has been horrible. I started off telling someone something and having it thrown in my face, and then recovering from it only to find myself falling for the same things all over again with someone new. But this person is different, yet I have to wait for her, but she will disappear from my life. I don’t want that…
She makes me want to strive, but then not being there for her makes me sick, I’m being to obsessive maybe.
I feel empty without her, she’s special, and I don’t want this […]
I have been reading here so I will explain why I want to go now. Â About a year and a half ago my wife had her job transferred to another city. Â As we own a condo and the market was very bad we could not sell. Â So we lived separate for a while. Â As my job was eliminated in May I thought it would now be a good time to go and be with my wife. Â However something changed. Â She hardly speaks to me and just last week said she wants a divorce. Â This was such a shock as I thought we were so […]
This is going to be really long but I’m going to keep it as short as possible. This is most of my life and most of my problems all in one. Â I’ve never told anyone all of this but I really need to get it all off my chest- Â so here it goes
So I’m  a 13 year old boy crazy girl. From the outsde I look like I have it all together. I’m that pretty popular cheerleader who looks like she has a lot of friends and guys like her. Sounds greatright? That girl isnt the real me. I’m falling apart.Im insecure. I feel fat […]
2your useless just like your father” is something I usually hear when i fail to please my mother. Ever since the divorce, our relationship has been so strained and she has been verbally and emotionally abusing me for the last year or so.my father left us and is rarely ever on the scene and is a dead-beat dad.my mom is under so much stress from everything but she takes it out on me particularly. my two younger sisters are treated like gods gift and im told to shut up and get over myself. she constantly talks about how nobody would ever want me and […]
I have hated myself since I can remember. I always thought I was worthless. I remember looking at myself in the mirror when I was 5 and thinking ‘I hope my face changes and looks better when I grow up’. I’ve never fit in with anyone and I cry a lot. I feel like my body is a prison and I would do anything to be free. Suicidal thoughts take control of my life when I am on a low. I can’t get rid of them. I’ve had these thoughts since I was 10 years old. I battle myself constantly and it’s exhausting. Only my […]
The line between sane and insane (reality and imagination) is skewed heavily and it’s getting hard to decipher and find out if it’s which. How do I slow down the process of insanity? I still have my head, but not for forever.
How do I fix this? Memory games? Extra reading? Keeping my mind off of any critical thinking? I got the last one covered, this whole weekend I avoided thinking and further depressing myself. At least I ain’t going back to asphyxiating myself.
This is odd. Is it really insanity? Or is it just another disorder. Or maybe I’m actually getting schizo, after creating another persona […]
I can’t say i haven’t tried i am currently being treated for depression i self harm unfortunately i don’t blog this kind of thing to the world but now as i write this i’m thinking of where to i go from here and whats my next step in life to be honest im not entirely sure myself doesn’t it seem worth it when i think about it all there is is getting a job marriage , then divorce kids and die anyways . I’m not sure about living a life that means that . i’m thinking of suicide but i cant bare to see my […]
i have very low self esteem. i spend all day online looking at ways to make myself prettier- makeup tricks, hair tricks, fashion tips. i shop a lot and keep up with latest trends and i always try to look good. i want to please those around me- my husband my family. everyone is always looking their best, they criticize me when i do not wear makeup or have my hair done. they look down on me. this morning i was feeling down and ugly like i always do while watching some beauty videos on youtube. i was listening to the TV about how to […]
hi, i’m katie.c: i’m 14. and i’ve been through a lot..
well where to start..my mom is an alcoholic and drug addict, but she is one of the sweetest ladies alive. i love her to death. my dad..he couldn’t be more mean. he gets really mad and it scares me. last night, it was a minor thing, and he punched to perfect holes in the wall. in january, my mom got so drunk. me and my 10 year old brother were the only ones home at the time and we had to call my dad and he came home. he called 911, my mom had to […]
I come from a decent family and did not suffer a tramatic childhood. However it was not perfect. There was poverty. There was social services and cops. There was divorce and suicidal thoughts. What are we here for? To keep working, smile at eachother. If you don’t desire possessions then you don’t desire money. If you don’t care about money then you don’t care about a house,car,family ect. So why try? 40,60,80,100 years on this earth to make and work for what you leave behind? Why wait? I care too much about my family to make them look for my body. I care to much […]
I am 15 years old & i have always been known as the happy friend (in my group of 14 friends.)
This past year everything has stopped being good. Life has been pretty shit since, and the worst happened back in september… my mum and dad split up. Dads foond someone new and my mum is attempting to move on after the worse depression i have ever seen her in:/
Its hard for me because i was ‘daddies little girl’. But he has a new family now and i see him once or twice a week if im lucky… i hate not seeing him everyday.
Also to make things better, […]
I’m so sick. Everyone wants me dead. Why do I keep trying to find someone to hold on to? Noone will ever care about me. I can’t keep the happy face anymore, it’s just too much. Everytime that I show someone the agony inside they’re like “Run for the hills”. I will always be alone. Noone could ever love a stupid loser like me. I thought that I could help if I would talk to people around here. But how could a fuck up like me ever help anyone when I can’t even help myself? Everyone is going to be better without me. Nobody will […]
Ive felt like killing myself for so long now. I thought I was fine for a little bit but what do ya know…. I’m back. I hate almost everything. No one answers or talks to me. My dad is all the time asking and saying hurtful things “you have any friends son?” “you gay or something?!” “when you gonna get a girl friend?” just things of the sort and it dosnt help at all. My brother used to call me adopted when I was little. I know he was kidding and just being how a lot of big brothers are. But I really wish I […]
I joined this community because I was at a loss. I have not been able to find support groups in my area or surrounding area. Since finding this site, I have felt some form of connection with individuals who understand and are struggling too. My story started the day I cut a bit too much and had the gun up to my head.  Then next day, I had been admitted to the hospital for 7 days, and treated for cutting and attempting suicide. The amazing thing since I have been out which has been approximately a month, I wish to God that I would have […]
Yes life can be difficult, I won’t deny that. We do go through our good times and bad times. Ive had depression for 2 years and still trying to heal from it. I used to cut myself, which eventually made me feel worse. I never really had friends that I could talk to, so basically I thought that I was complettely alone. Then I realized that i’m not, because I have people at my church that I can talk to and God. Oh btw i’m 15 and my name is Deana. For the people suffering from depression try to look at all the positive stuff […]
42, lost, and really unsure where I belong, or even if I do belong. I bring to much pain to me and others
by wstock7
written by wstock7
Can anyone relate? Can anyone understand? Am alone?
I am 42, and have battled with success and failure all my life. I am a high school drop out, who has struggled my whole life, but have always held roles in the financial sector primarily mortgage related. A few years ago the industry was totalled with the fall of the economy, and many blame it on mortgage’s and I cannot disqualify this. However I have always walked the line, doing what is right, and what is honest, while watching those around me, become wealthy, and having no concious. Sometime I really regret, being the stand up guy. […]
Noone realizes the pain I go through every single day. I have to live up to my two sisters who are amazing at everything, my “friends” never want to hang out with me because I don’t do drugs or smoke or have a life (out of school and sports). My parents just went through a terrible divorce and constantly fight through me, but /i can’t talk to anyoe about it because my one sister hates me and the other one is living her own life far away from my crappy life. My “friends” are all jerks and treat me terribley, but they are the oly […]