No idea what to do anymore. I feel so broken and hopeless. Society is doomed. No one is honest. No one is trustworthy. Most people are too drama filled to even be friends with them. I spend my nights looking at others posts on here. Looking at ways to go painlessly. Sitting alone in my room. Whenever I have something I want it gets ripped away. The universe doesn’t want me to be happy. Two years with someone, they cheat. Three years with someone, they cheat. Finally get engaged to someone, they get Prego, found out they cheated and they also lost the baby. I […]
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In the midst of …crisis? drama? melt down…I don’t konw whwat. I just think that i’m not doing well. I am thinking about checking into a hopsital. But I’m so scared. I have ajob….what happens when you do that and you are suppose to wokr the nxt day? Will everyone find out? I don’t even want my boss to know. I kind of want to go in the hospital and never come out or just quit my job. I don’t wnat to give up but I dodn’t feel I have the brain for this job…which is to say I don’t have a brain for much […]
http://www.gq.com/news-politics/newsmakers/201409/the-last-true-hermit
At least, someone I admire in a weird sense… that’s like, a qualification for a hero, right? This story’s kinda old so I dunno how many people haven’t read about this guy yet, but basically this dude just decided that he wanted to live a life completely devoid of human interaction, and indeed he did for almost 28 years. I think he was around 20 when he just walked into an isolated park in Vermont and lived off petty burglaries around the nearby cabins, stealing only things that he needed to survive on, and apparently a lot of books too, he seems pretty well-reas. […]
I’m inn another state visiting family. It’s not really a vacation because I came here to visit mainly with my grandmother who ifs 93 and not getting any younger. I’m staying with one of my parents and two of my children. While it’s nice to see them and to spend a little time with them, I really don’t want be here. Even more so, I don’t want to be alive.
I have been in so many relationships and dealt with so much bull shit and drama that you would think that I would be able to make better choices and such where relationships are concerned. […]
I was foolish to think that I could have a happy birthday. In what world would I ever deserve one day where nothing went wrong? One day where I could feel happy and celebrate 21 years of surviving depression, anxiety, and just overall shitty life? No. It would be my last huge milestone birthday that would just take the cake. No pun intended… Happy fucking 21st birthday to me! Complete with family drama, friends telling me I’m a piece of shit, and being spat on for trying to help. I am so sorry world. If I am that much of a disappointment and hassel, I’ll […]
Today was the first day of my senior year, and I’m already having problems. Freshman and sophomore year were so rough for me, all cause of a stupid boy who ruined everything for me. As a result of our rocky breakup and all the drama that came with it, I started cutting. Then I started taking pills at night at first just anything for me to pass out, but that just progressed to taking as much as I can for a more lasting affect.. I was put on a 51/50 and stayed in a mental facility for 3 days. A few months after that I […]
I hate the weekends. I have no where to be and the anxiety consumes me. At least during the week I have some responsibility that forces me to function and get distracted from what triggers me. Weekends remind me of my lack of meaningful connections and that my participation is not required or sought after. I often end up self medicating so I can relax enough to sleep or settle down enough to read or watch movies. When that doesn’t work I reach out to people who don’t truly respect me simply for some companionship and pseudo moments of feeling like I am part of […]
So, it has been a large number of years since the first time I wanted to be dead. Gone. Not here with all of the drama and BS that i have been unable to escape since i was born. However, last night, i was for some reason given the chance to see just one small part of the insanity that has plaqued my friends and family for years. The light has been turned on! They must sit by and watch this “person” that i become, verbally bash them and make them feel like shit.
I always thougt they were lying.
Now with that light turned […]
i realize a lot of you on this site are young so my experiences will not compute. but if you are female and live to see your 40s this is what you can look forward to. i have suffered from severe clinical depression most of my life-all of my adult life. so the next kick in the ass i am experiencing is the run up to menopause. which in itself can cause depression. hormones running amok , thyroid problems, weight gain the laughs just keep coming. which is why my thoughts are running to the dark side these days . that little voice that tells […]
I love theater. Â I love musicals. Â I love singing and acting. Â So what do I do? Â I take part in my school’s musicals every year. Â We had our auditions for next years play today and I think I messed everything up. Â After I did my lines they told me I did a good job but then came the singing… Â I’ve listened to the song so many times I have it memorized! Â I’ve worked so hard yet during my song they had me stop early! Â They gave us a stopping point so the audition didn’t take too long and I didn’t even get to that point! […]
I haven’t posted in a while… Â I guess thats because I haven’t had anything to post about. Â Sure I’ve felt like shit basically every day since my last post but I didn’t know why. But today? Â Today is different. Â Why? Â You make ask. Â Because these two girls in my class decided to treat me like shit, but then again what else is new. Â Anyway over the year we get a weekly packet that we do for homework and a daily sheet we have to do everyday. Â At the end of the year, (Tuesday) we have to turn in a binder with certain things from through […]
TLDR: 20+ years old, moved abroad to meet online friends, did something silly and now debating whether or not to leave cause I’m happy as fuck here but if I go home (and make the people here happy) I’ll spiral back down.
Hi everyone, first post. I’ve read this forum for months while trying to constantly claw myself back up from rock bottom, and I thought I did (temporarily) until I came into this problem.
I’m in my early 20s and moved across the world to be a nanny. I was studying at home, working, and just felt like a drone. I had met a few friends […]
I thought I was feeling bad enough before. But apparently not. I still am trying to make things better in my life before “the date”. I don’t know if I’m gonna be able to do it. I wasn’t expecting so much drama and heart breaks. I am so alone right now. Everyone is tired of me and my depression. Everyone is so busy. I have nothing to look foward to. I have nobody to love. I have no passion left. I feel empty. I get this impression that I’m trying my hardest to feel better, but it’s never enough. Maybe I’m just not meant to […]
I want a peaceful passing. No drama. No pain. All my life I’ve only been pretending. People tell me to follow my desires. To do what I want. I want my sufferings to end. I just cannot cope anymore.
Personally was never a cutter. Carbon monoxide is what I’ll use.
I’m doing the world a favour by dying.
i am a blur of emotions. panic, dread, nervous, angry, and some fuck the world and everyone in it added for good measure. i have come to a fork in the road of sorts. i have come to a point where i have been on just about every med out there. currently taking 6 total. and since i am still topside i guess they are working to a degree. thinking about hypnosis . there seems to be something deep in my memory that is trickling out at a rather slow pace. whatever it is or is not i am scared. i remember being sexually aware […]
I have cheated on my ex drunk four times.
Yet, I feel I love him i feel like he’s the only one who cares.. but I was bad and I don’t know how to fix what I’ve done. I feel like he could save me from myself but, I’m too proud to ever tell him I’m going to kill myself.
he broke up with me a few weeks ago, I got a new boyfriend 5 days later, to make him jealous, for obvious reasons it looked like I was just a psycho. And that I really didn’t care. If  I really loved him I prolly wouldn’t have […]
when people say stay strong things will get better i promise.. it never turns out to be like that in my case i get over everything. and it comes back cuz of something else happened to top that problem..
feeling like shit and nothing going right in your life. called whore by your dad and telling him to pack your things cuz she dont want you living with him anymore. then moving in with my mom everything starts getting better then BAMM you get raped by your step dad then end up getting a bf that same night and scared your gonna lose him your […]
I wish of death.
I hate my life so much.
To much drama at school.
Mom thinks everything’s fine.
I’m getting called a slut and guys are asking me inappropriate questions about sex.
I feel dirty from all the stuff I’ve done over the past year.
I’ve gotten insane.
I’m depressed.
I’m young.
I wish I could just fade.
Fade away.
Fade away into a big, dark hole.
Where I will never be found.
And be alone.
Forever.
No more drama.
No more relationships.
No more bullies.
Just me.
Alone.
Forever.
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