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by PandaBear 8/28/2013

written by PandaBear

I have no reason for it. No reason for the pain, guilt, or regret. No reason to complain or whine or say anything bad about my life.

My family are some of the nicest, kindest people on this planet. My friends are always there for me no matter what. I love them all so much and would do anything for them.Â I came from a wealthy home. While I was not given everything, I was given what I needed(and a little extra) and that is not something everyone can say. I’ve had a good education. I wouldn’t say I’m a genius but if I.Q. tests tell you […]

8/28/2013 2 comments

Summer is upon us.

by Just another sad, sad girl. 6/10/2013

written by Just another sad, sad girl.

Every Summer since I was a teenager has been tough for many different reasons.
From being in hospital, to loosing someone to death, to drinking myself awake every morning.
This Summer is full of promise.
This Summer is probably going to be my most memorable Summer yet and maybe ever.
I have no money but so much hope and love that it could fill an entire city.
I’ve one small worry though. This might be the start of the end of me and my bestfriend.

I’ve known this girl Hayley for 13 years of my life and I’m 17 yet.
She is literally my soul mate.

I […]

6/10/2013 1 comment

Well, I guess this is me.

by HurtsButHelps 5/22/2013

written by HurtsButHelps

I’m 13 years old. I would tell you my name, but being new here, I don’t know if I can trust you all to that extent yet. Normally, I post poems that reflect how I feel at the moment, or how I felt throughout the day, but right now I’d like to get a few things off my chest. I’ve told a few of my friends some of this before, but no one knows all of it at its worst. I feel as though I can trust all of you with at least this, even if I don’t know you. So here it goes.

My story:

5/22/2013 3 comments

Losing Hope

by lake-of-fire 5/7/2013

written by lake-of-fire

I have lost the will to live it takes alot to make me smile and hardly anything to upset me. I have no energy anymore have lost intrest in my favirote things. I first started starveing myself around age 16 because i always felt fat, ugly and stupid comared to everyone eles. Ill go a couple days without eating then give in and consume a sick amount of food only to feel horrible afterwards. Food is an enemy i regret every meal i eat.

Self hatred has caused me to cut myself which turned into an everyday vice. Iv developed a blood lust waiting and […]

5/7/2013 1 comment

I feel like…

by Craft 3/21/2013

written by Craft

i feel like i need to vent, talk to someone or just get away.

i don’t know why or whats causing me too since i took a weekend off last weekend.

i’m just sick of school, sick of feeling depressed and like crap all the time, i’m sick of notÂ being able to talk to my girlfriend, just fuck it all

my thoughts of suicide have been on and off the past few weeks, the lesser of what they have been over the past month and a half or so.

thought about ways to go, like a simple bullet to the head, starvation, other things. I feel numb all […]

3/21/2013 0 comment

by hopefuldreamer 2/10/2013

written by hopefuldreamer

I’ve been having a lot of self-esteem and confidence issues lately and I’ve even found it hard to express myself on here because I was too critical of myself and held back on what I want to say so I feel like I need to write because I need to be honest with myself. I feel like I’ve formed a personality from it because I never got over the bullying and now I believe all the things people said about me to be true and it’s hard to get over after believing it for so long and I don’t believe the people Â who say that […]

2/10/2013 2 comments

The Sound of Insects

by sand_dude 1/20/2013

written by sand_dude

I recently watched a film called The Sound of Insects. The film really resonated with me because of the story it told. This guy was fed up with life, and he knew no body was going to come looking for him, so he disappeared into the woods and committed suicide by starvation. It took an enormous amount of will and the guy has to endure a lot of pain. He just sat there under a plastic sheet with a radio, a few books, and bed made of forest floor. I totally and completely felt for the guy, because I was the guy, to some extent […]

1/20/2013 3 comments

Life is full of pain

by thisismyusername 12/27/2012

written by thisismyusername

Hey

This is my first time doing something like this. Not sure why I’m doing it, but yeah.

I’m 20 and live in England. Ever since I was young I’ve been different. I’ve always had a different outlook on life, and people, and so on. I try to be a nice guy, just like everybody else, but people never seem to do the same. I’m quite an anti-social person, so there’s that, but I always have time for people if they need me and never close the door on anyone – until they walk all over or something equally depressing.

Like most people on here (I imagine), I’ve […]

12/27/2012 4 comments

i dont think any of my friends like me

by scopulus 12/22/2012

written by scopulus

I have 4 amazing wonderful people who I call my best friends, the thing is I don’t Think one of them likes me very much we’ll hang out always after me initiating something sometimes they’ll let me crash at their house when I’m lucky, but I can’t escape the feeling that I just get more out of their presence then they ever do get out of mine, I feel awful knowing I’m just a charity case, they all know I cut I don’t know the extent of what they know about my plan for suicide I don’t reallyÂ want any of them to know, they probably […]

12/22/2012 3 comments

Frustration

by friedoysterskins 11/30/2012

written by friedoysterskins

Hey everyone! I just wanted to share something….

Lately, I’ve been wishing for my death whenever I’m irritated. I’m sort of easily annoyed. Little things get under my skin. Like, whenever someone comes into my room and leaves my room without shutting the door. That really pisses me off. Whenever I try to get my uncle’s attention and he takes forever to respond (He deliberately does that) because he’s focused on his iPhone irks me, too. I dislike going through the trouble of doing something for someone else because they choose not to do it themselves (Referring to family. I am the youngest, so I’m ‘bossed’ […]

11/30/2012 0 comment

Beginning or End

by drmad 8/17/2012

written by drmad

I estimate this fight has been going on for a grueling decade now. As a juvenile I made an attempt. It’s been my only attempt. However, the thoughts never subsided. I learned in this last year that they can get worse. But I still try to carry on. Act as though they don’t exist. These thoughts are very much real I’m sad to say.

Ive tried seeking help. I started by informing my family. As they did when I was a juvenile, it was brushed off. I’ve learned to not tell them much about my life. Don’t get me wrong, I wasn’t abused as child. I […]

8/17/2012 2 comments

my mind is alone

by fakingit 7/15/2012

written by fakingit

lately, my mind has been on its own. what i want is not what it wants. i want to be happy, carefree, an no longer adding heart ache to others cuz of my complaining. i want to be the one that people go to. i want to be the one everyone talks bout in a positive way. i want to say im not depressed. i want this and that but my mind is addicted. addicted to the sadness ive felt for so long. it always thinks negatively either upsetting my friends or causing harm to myself, sometimes its both. i wish to wake up one […]

7/15/2012 5 comments

Fighter

by traptsoul 6/22/2012

written by traptsoul

People say am over emotional, they say am easy read that am sensitive, of lately thats all i hear from people about me and i guess after years of hiding my sensitivity to obstacles in life ,am getting rusty ever since i opened my self to my bf.
This is not me am a fighter, i refuse to be run by my emotion, right now i have reached my max an am ready to yell an scream at ppl, am feed up have hidin hw i feel to be respectful etc i am fucking going to be me. So fuck pretenders, fuck close minded […]

6/22/2012 2 comments

in front of everyone at work.

by tired_of 6/5/2012

written by tired_of

i don’t know why i decided that writing everything down was a good idea. let along on the internet. i guess on here nobody knows who i am and its not somewhere where somebody from my end can find it.

i am a selfharmer/suicidal. have been since i was about 16. i am now nearly 20. it started when my bestfriend died in a car accident. i started self distructing a couple months later. i could not get over her death. then somebudy noticed, a teacher, he threatened to go to the school welfare co-ordinator unless i talked to him. so i chose to talk to […]

6/5/2012 2 comments

Suicidal thoughts-missing dad

by alias 5/12/2012

written by alias

i never thought my life would turn up to be so bad..my father was going through cancer had been with him throughout his treatment..but finally he passed away in january being the eldest in the family everything has come up to me.. I am 23 years old, and my fathers partner in business has been playing dirty tricks with me since my dad is not around. Theres noone to advice me now it has literally come to an extent where i get scared coming to office = i feel so waste feels like i hve nothing left in my life to do i just come […]

5/12/2012 3 comments

Selfish. Living or Dying.

by U.N. Owen 3/30/2012

written by U.N. Owen

This is not a judgement on anyone’s life or lifestyle.Â

I have noticed how the pro-life people always say that suicide is a selfsh act because it will hurt people who are left behind. Or maybe it will leave certain responsibilities unfinished or undone.Â Â This is true to an extent.Â What they are saying is that others lives and comfort matter more than yours on all levels and you should bear suffering and responsibility for the sake of others in your life.Â Except for a little personal pleasure that you should seek out meaning by serving others.Â It is a vlaid viewpoint.

There are people all over […]

3/30/2012 19 comments

1985 – 2008

by emotionaljill 3/24/2012

written by emotionaljill

Ever since June 9, 2008….Â I am embarrassed to admit that it may be June 8th of that year, but that day was probably the worst day of my life.Â A lot of shit went down, that day was like a fucking movie it was so unreal.Â Some days I tell myself it never happened, as for that is the only way I can cope with it.Â This world is simply a ball of shit.Â Hypocrites living out their every day contradictions.Â Those claiming to be “real” but whose lives are built up on lie after lie, after lie, after lie….Â People claiming they love […]

3/24/2012 0 comment

What is bad really?

by jabeck 3/12/2012

written by jabeck

I don’t like to say that things in my life are bad. Because bad is such an arbitrary word. Bad to one person can hold an entirley different meaning to another person… So what is bad really? Then, there’s so many components to the things thatÂ I DO truley believe are bad… which leadsÂ me to question if it’s really bad at all?

That being said, I don’t know if things are bad. The things I am about to expond uponÂ are theÂ events that I am trying to base my opinion off of… theÂ events that foster my emotions. I’m not saying that I’ve had it bad or good. I’m […]

3/12/2012 3 comments

256 words on apathy:

by GypsyGene 2/19/2012

written by GypsyGene

So I’ve ended up isolating myself socially, to some extent. I stopped going to work, and I stopped being honest with the people who actively try to make me feel better. I just say that I’m okay, although I don’t really know how I feel. I try not to think, because when I start doing just that, I remember how much of a failure I am, and that I really should just end it. And that’s the only form of solace I’ve got. “Well, it might be bad, but I could always kill myself, so it’s okay I guess”.

I don’t really want to tell anyone […]

2/19/2012 1 comment

Dear Daniel

by Calamity Jane 6/24/2009

written by Calamity Jane

Doesnâ€™t look like there are any Aussies here at all.. wish I could make pact. I was planning to go out and try buy Heroin today and overdose on that. I thought what a brilliant way to go, floating away on a highâ€¦ but Iâ€™m scared that I donâ€™t know where to get it and it could cost more money then I have to get enough to ODâ€¦ soâ€¦ Iâ€™ve been doing alot of research. I agree. If we really believe we want to die and the pain of living is worse then the pain you may cause for anyone you may leave behind, you […]

6/24/2009 3 comments

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