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Fake Smile

Why not Vanish?

by BenzQoa 6/3/2018

written by BenzQoa

Can I vanish?

Hello everyone, I believe you all know why I am here posting this. I feel empty, loneliness, hopeless. The will to live longer inside me has vanished, I do not wish to live any longer. I have friends, but none has really understood me. I have a wealthy family, but wealthy does not mean joy. I used to be a genius at school, but due to the current situation, I do not have the will to learn any longer. I cannot feel the joy inside me much longer. I just feel like it is worthless to live […]

6/3/2018 1 comment

Do you ever feel guilty for wanting to kill yourself?

by mm9 8/28/2013

written by mm9

I do but then again I couldn’t care less. There’s just so much pain behind the fake smile that I put on my face every morning in order to “fit in.” I’m just tired, can someone come and shoot me in the head? I don’t deserve to live anyways, I want to die.

8/28/2013 7 comments

My Life

by samaantha_ 8/26/2013

written by samaantha_

Where do I start off I have a really low self-esteem, when someone calls me ugly I smile and I try to let it go.but I tell everybody I can that their beautiful cause i don’t want them to know how it feels this way i constantly think of suicide i cut and when i do it i don’t do it very deep just enough to feel the pain i cry myself to sleep and i ask god the same question over and over why am i still here? I go to high school and when i see the pretty girls i collapse i try […]

8/26/2013 2 comments

Do you care about how you look?

by cyanidesofmarch 8/24/2013

written by cyanidesofmarch

You’d think someone who’s 1 bullet away from blasting his brains all over the wall wouldn’t be too concerned with the way he looks. But for some idiotic reason I am. I’m not even a good looking person. Well I used to be, but it’s amazing what 10 years of pure hell can do for your appearance.

So anyway I was just wondering what suicidal people think about the way they look and are perceived by society. I know I’m not the only one here who puts on a fake smile and pretends to be a normal member of society. Why do we give a damn […]

8/24/2013 47 comments

Stuck in the Past.. (I’m back)

by BrooklynBoxx 8/24/2013

written by BrooklynBoxx

Is it normalâ€¦ to look in the mirror and not see yourself in the reflection?

Having been so caught up in everyoneâ€™s â€œexpectationâ€ of you. To have completely lost yourself trying to be what everyone else wanted you to be?

Every night you dream of this life, you could NEVER have, but every day you long for it.

You have all these hopesâ€¦ dreamsâ€¦ ideasâ€¦ that you want to fulfill but just not enough time to do so.

Then you go to sleepâ€¦ still having yet to achieve anything extraordinary in your life, waking up in the morning realizing your one day closer to […]

8/24/2013 4 comments

Fucked up.

by yugi 8/18/2013

written by yugi

The title sums this up very well “Fucked UP” that is how I see my self and how my family and others view me a lot of the time, but we will get to that later. So im new to the site and just out of luck today before I made my final choice I decided to post a small post on here. For both advice and to see what others think. Im a 17 year old male who is: failing school (for two main reasons: one im lazy and two I view myself as stupid or dumb) I also have no job, no car, […]

8/18/2013 1 comment

by this.is.me25 6/27/2013

written by this.is.me25

Where do I begin………..

Well my mom gave birth to me when she was about 18 or 19. From what she tells me my real dad is a low life dick(excuse my language). Anyways I resently got in contact with him. Things where going great in my life. I had straight A’s, I was very popular, very pretty, guys would fight over me,…….until my 8th grade year. The 1st day back to school was OK, after that everything turned to shit. I started to realize who my true friends were, and that school was the most important thing in my life. In the middle of the […]

6/27/2013 1 comment

Lost

by ily7654 6/13/2013

written by ily7654

I miss you.

I miss you like hell.

Why did you have to change.

We fit so well together.

We were soulmates.

But you had to change.

I probably sound crazy but I’m so emotionally broken deep down in my heart I don’t know what to do.

Self harm is so relieving.

It’s how I tolerate the pain.

I thought this kind of stuff would never happen to me.

I can’t reach out for help. It seems unnecessary. I don’t want to disturb everyones little happy bubble. So I need to hide it. Hide all of my emotions so no one can see how broken I am. No one needs to know no one cares. […]

6/13/2013 4 comments

same thing over and over

by dj47 5/23/2013

written by dj47

I trusted some one again and they left me i gotten back a friend but i dont think she wants to talk to me really any more i have my friend i made this year hes a good friend i think i bug him some times i dont think i will ever find some one that whants to be my girlfriend more one day as much as i want some thing with them i put in so much effort with every one to put a smile when there sad or mad but whos there for me when i need it no one i just want […]

5/23/2013 1 comment

Is this good advice to give someone? Yes or No? Why?

by Jladd 5/21/2013

written by Jladd

Head up stay strong fake smile move on.

5/21/2013 12 comments

I don’t know how much more I can take

by sunnyslife 4/19/2013

written by sunnyslife

This feeling it hurts a lot I wish it would go away. Everyday I wake up pretending to be happy putting on a fake smile for everybody to see. I feel so alone and unwanted by everyone no one understands they or love me . Just tolerate me or push me to the side. I seem to cry every night the days are getting longer and I think that is if I hurt myself I would feel some type of real emotion. Or maybe just that one step into the street can end everything. Poof! I’ll be gone and life can continue like it always […]

4/19/2013 2 comments

Suicidal….

by JaneDoe822 4/19/2013

written by JaneDoe822

I’m 17 years old(will turn 18 this June),5″3,39 kg,underconfident,anxious,afraid,failure,looser,quitter……Ive been heavily suicidal for like five years now!!!
Mostly due to my academic stress….till highschool i scored great and was a bright minded geeky kid but for some odd reason i started to grow more and more fears and day by day the roots of those fears anchored deeply into my conscience and i ended up being a fiasco….i fail at everything….i cant reach out for even the simple mundane goals…apparently i am still bright and healthy but inside there is a neverending armageddon and mental anguish…I am dead…I’m just a breathing corpse without any genuine […]

4/19/2013 0 comment

unforgettable.

by broken_spirited 3/4/2013

written by broken_spirited

It all started in my Freshman year. I was in my Ancient History class and these guys would whisper “*****” as i walked by. Throughout my first semester i was called lesbian, fat, ugly, whore, and *****. I would go home and think how everyone would be better off without me there.

December 8,2012 my world crashed down around me. My grandfather Skip who stepped in and took care of my grandma and my mom and her sisters Â for 17 years passed away from cancer. He was a […]

3/4/2013 0 comment

It all hurts

by catail1 2/28/2013

written by catail1

I look up and see the clouds above me. I feel pain and only pain when the rain falls. It feels like acid eating at my skin.

I feel pain with every key stroke on this post. I know you don’t get it. IT ALL HURTS.

I feel pain when see my phone, a piecing pain that shoots through me for every text from my so called friends.

The fake smile I put on for the world to see pulls on my heart telling me to cry. I stay dehydrated so IÂ don’t cry so none knows.

I stay strong don’t let it show. I see the faces of […]

2/28/2013 2 comments

my lifes a mess.

by taintedbeauty 2/23/2013

written by taintedbeauty

I have bi polar depsession. I was diagnosed when I was 12, (even though they aren’t supposed to diagnose that young) Right after my mom died. I battled with that for years alone. Up until I was 15, when a wondrous new disorder came along, anorexia. Now, I’m 18 years old. When I Was 16 I met a boy and fell in love and gave him everything. He helped me start eating again, Which we thought was good. Until I lost my virginity to him and got pregnant because I was now able to have children again. So now, I have a one year old […]

2/23/2013 2 comments

This is what i have to say

by youngbulliedvictim 2/22/2013

written by youngbulliedvictim

What bullying is

Bullying is a judger. It sometimes judges. It is always wrong. It is never right.Â Sometimes bullied victims will see in the mirror how bullies described them. But they donâ€™t know that they are beautiful no matter what. They have gotten to the point where they forget that bullies are just like virus on a computer. Viruses make us get frustrated. Bullies do too. It is not true what bullies say. If they say to go and die you think it is what you need to do.Â You donâ€™t need to. Just ignore them or stand up for yourself even if have to […]

2/22/2013 1 comment

Depression

by lightmeonfire 2/5/2013

written by lightmeonfire

People always talk about how they have to â€˜put on a fake smileâ€™ and fool everyone, but itâ€™s so hard to do that. I canâ€™t. How can you smile when the crushing weight of depression is burying you? Most of the time Iâ€™m lost in my thoughts; theyâ€™re drowning me. Iâ€™m in my own little world of self-hate and despair. I look out the window and I can see the beauty, but I canâ€™t feel it. The snow is flurrying right now, little trinkets of white raining down on the blanket of glistening snow that already fell. The trees are dead and bare, stripped of […]

2/5/2013 1 comment

tears

by ms. little panda 2/4/2013

written by ms. little panda

I feel like i have no tears left i have already cried them them all out of me nothing is left.

i have no emotions left but i can laugh and i can be sad but i feel like not even me can fake a smile anymore. U know that feeling when i have a fake smile and it’s starts to hurt cuz its fake but u don’t wanna look sad

every time i go to bed i think in my head ” i hope i don’t wake up again” i just wanna sleep through my life and keep sleeping no matter what

i hate the pain that […]

2/4/2013 0 comment

is crying weakness

by bullied123 1/18/2013

written by bullied123

Ive always been bullied for cry and i have held alot in for years and now i cry really easily. I cant keep it in. Im scared ill cry in front of someone. Ive always been strong for everybody and only one person has ever seen me really cry. I dont have anybody to be there when i cry. I say strong and have a fake smile on during but when i go in my room lock the dorr and put my headhones in i just loose i and cry for hours and then i cut to make it better. Music is my life but […]

1/18/2013 9 comments

My story

by blank182 1/9/2013

written by blank182

Ok I’m going to just get straight into this because I’ve had all of this bottled in and I can’t find the will to tell anyone face to face which I need to learn to do. Anyway my dad has recently passed away because of cancer, it was horrible and terribly sad that in his last few months I got to see the good side of him then I had to just see him crumble away being in pain. I’ve had to say goodbye and go to his funeral. A mistake I made was when I was hurting I kept all the hurt inside I […]

1/9/2013 2 comments

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