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Mum, Dad

by alonelybird 11/28/2015

written by alonelybird

You make me feel so shit. You try to help me but you hurt me. You guys make me feel so depressed. You’ve killed my social life, my only respite from home, my only coping mechanism that seems to work without being overly self-destructive. How can I cope now?

No dad I cannot fucking talk to you, can’t you see?
Every time we talk I stutter. Can’t you see? I’ve never been comfortable around you guys, that’s why I’m always trying to escape. That’s why I do the things I do. It’s all to escape from you guys (mainly) and school.

You guys make me wanna kill […]

11/28/2015 6 comments

Day by day

by nicole123 11/27/2015

written by nicole123

I don’t feel anything anymore .

11/27/2015 3 comments

Hard to be Thankful

by JustReallySad 11/27/2015

written by JustReallySad

So yesterday was Thanksgiving here in the U.S. This last year (really the last 2 years) have been really bad for me, so I’m having a hard time feeling thankful/grateful about anything. Does anyone else on this site feel the same way? Also, how do any of you find things to be grateful for? I appreciate any and all suggestions.

11/27/2015 14 comments

No Hope

by Harlot.Rebel 11/26/2015

written by Harlot.Rebel

How do you wait so long for something that should already be??

How do you take a break from waiting??

Im only waiting on my heart to break.

So maybe i wont feel so tired of waiting.

11/26/2015 0 comment

Grey

by Trix 11/25/2015

written by Trix

Usually I can’t cry. Today I managed to a couple of times. Once was when I tried to write a short message to someone. I couldn’t understand the words well enough to construct a short sentence. I couldn’t write, I couldn’t speak to them. I cried because I’d lost so much. The tears were loud and I was sensitive to noises today, so it sounded like screams ringing in my ears. I lay with my hands clamped against my mouth to stop myself screaming from the pain of the noise and depression. I lay for a long time. After an hour or two I fell […]

11/25/2015 2 comments

Talentless ft. Random Stuff

by InhalingAnxiety 11/25/2015

written by InhalingAnxiety

{Haven’t posted or commented in a couple days, but I’ve been reading your posts. I just have no words, and I apologize. But I do think of you guys, you’re all great.}

Don’t mind me, just a late night sob fest. I just complain a lot, so if you want to listen to that then grab some popcorn and get comfy. If not, put in some headphones and tune me out (highly suggested).

So, with thanksgiving coming up tomorrow, I’ve been trying to think of things that I’m thankful for so I have a quick reaction when someone asks me.. Really all I’ve come up with are […]

11/25/2015 2 comments

paper thin walls

by heartless 11/25/2015

written by heartless

Im lost. Feel like life just flipped upside down and idk what is going on or which way is the way outta here. I don’t know if it matters.

More materials have also mysteriously disappeared in the last week. I don’t know where they’re going or if it’s nice and sunny there, but it’s getting increasingly difficult to finish this project. Still have lots of paper. Maybe there’s a way to make walls out of that.

11/25/2015 3 comments

I got scared…

by Ylem 11/25/2015

written by Ylem

It’s been over 3 weeks since I last hurt myself. Last night, I felt so shitty all I wanted to do was pick up my scalpel blades and slash away at my thighs. I thought I should read a few stories about other people who self-harm. I really want to stop, but I just can’t.
I sat in my bed with the blade in my hand. The stories I had read started playing out in my head. I felt the shit I think I’m in is nothing compared to what other people are going through. But I still wanted to cut.
Usually, cutting makes me […]

11/25/2015 3 comments

Slippery Slope

by Just Not Good Enough 11/24/2015

written by Just Not Good Enough

There’s no other way to say it. I’m just slipping. I’m slipping very fast into the void and I don’t know how to stop it. I can feel it happening. My emotions are starting to change. They’re growing. I can’t even explain it. I know what’s going to happen and I don’t know how to stop it. I want to cry. But I don’t do that. I’d rather just die. I’d rather die than go back to the way I used to be. I’d rather die than admit how I feel. I’d rather die than try and deal with this all over again […]

11/24/2015 1 comment

Just joined yesterday

by Nkule 11/24/2015

written by Nkule

I’ve recently found the courage to talk to someone about me. But now I’ve lost contact with him. He made me feel better. Now I feel like crap all over again.
It’s hard to find someone who understands and doesn’t judge. I guess that’s why I’ve joined SP. I need someone who understands.

11/24/2015 7 comments

Protected: A little bit of anxiety

by Tristeza 11/23/2015

written by Tristeza

There is no excerpt because this is a protected post.

11/23/2015 0 comment

Don’t know anymore

by Matel 11/23/2015

written by Matel

I’m back again in SP, well, of course. Never actually left. I’m in a strange mood in a bad way so I think this will be a ranting post of how undecided/unsure I am about some important things. Just going to number them, I like structure, haha.

I’m sure I should exit. This is the correct and logical decision for me. And I have some arguments that are pro and against which totally confuses me.

I can fail. Although my method is quite sure, there is always a chance. Most likely I will back out because survival instinct is a ..tch. Then it will be a huge […]

11/23/2015 11 comments

Coming Out

by thegirlwiththecinderblockgarden 11/23/2015

written by thegirlwiththecinderblockgarden

My mother just tried to force me to come out. And now I feel like shit.
I was talking to her about the possibility of me running the LGBTQ+ society at my college next year and she jumped down my throat, saying that I thought she was a terrible person, and that’s why I wouldn’t tell her. She says that I’m breaking the bond between us by keeping this from her and I’m deeply upsetting her by not talking about it.
You know what the most important part in all of that was?
HER
She didn’t care about what it was doing to me, being […]

11/23/2015 7 comments

Random

by DKTNO 11/23/2015

written by DKTNO

In Spanish we have the word “apapachar” it can’t be translated properly to English but it’s something like “to caress the soul” it could be done thru a hug, or any other display of affection. That’s one of my favorite words and that’s why I need. Autumn and winter make me feel sadder than usual, but the sunsets make me feel so calmed. I just wanted to share this with you all. I don’t know why haha.

11/23/2015 3 comments

MANIC

by Take a Deep Breath 11/22/2015

written by Take a Deep Breath

I can feel it starting again… I just crawled out of my depression and now I can feel myself going into hypercharge mode- does anyone know a workout that makes you really fucking tired?? I need something to get this, this thing out of me…

11/22/2015 35 comments

I’m hurting so fucking bad

by nicole123 11/22/2015

written by nicole123

No one understands this feeling . It drives me fucking insane because I can’t explain it. I feel like I’ve been sucked into darkness and I can’t get out of it. I feel like I’m starting to feel nothing and that scares me . I’d rather feel everything .. I am so alone . I’m so alone in this big world . There are so many people do why can’t I find a few that I can be friends with? I literally do not fit in with anyone . No one understand me . Know one listens to the music like I do , or […]

11/22/2015 9 comments

life sucks

by princessxx 11/22/2015

written by princessxx

well, its been 4 days since i posted. Friday evening made another attempt and ended up in hospital, now on suicide watch. i feel so fkn trapped now, everyone is watching my every fkn move. arghhhhhhhhh so fed up

11/22/2015 10 comments

I want to die

by nicole123 11/22/2015

written by nicole123

OI keep trying to tell my self that I don’t feel this way but I do. I want to lull myself so badly . But I’m scared . I don’t like my life at all . Everything is so messed up. I wish to be asleep forever. I’m so depressed. I don’t like anything . I feel like nothing . I want to go .

11/22/2015 7 comments

Do you ever feel like it’s a lot of the little things?

by Dorothy Gale 11/21/2015

written by Dorothy Gale

They add up, one on top of another. Dirty house, little free time. Debts that you can never seem to get started on. Between two jobs, make too little. Things breaking down. Costly repairs. Faraway dreams that never gain traction. Faraway friends. Lover growing distant. Nagging mother. Fear of loneliness. Fear of other people. An inability to face the past or the future; maladjusted in the present. Knots everywhere – in my mind, my relationships, my soul. Can’t cleanse it. Feel like roadkill.

11/21/2015 1 comment

Hope

by Alfred1688 11/21/2015

written by Alfred1688

There may come times when we are lost
It will make us want to break free at any cost
There may comes times when life is sad
It makes everything look and feel bad
But even in all this pain and chaos
There is still some hope in all of us
It gives us the will and strength to live
Even when we feel life has nothing to give
We feel fear, we feel pain
It can make us go insane
It can make us do things we think that might be right
Endless tormenting us with nightmares at night
We feel all is […]

11/21/2015 1 comment

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