Is not that i hate life , or that I hate living, not that I want to kill myself.
I mean I’ve thought of it and I’ve tried it, but I just can’t.
There’s something I just can’t take out of my mind, I really don’t understand the meaning of all that. I just don’t know what to do sometimes, I am lost, but not sure why. I mean, I’m good at school, I love my career. I have friends, but to be honest, I don’t share thoughts or feelings about this, ‘how I feel’ with them, not even with my family, not even with […]
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I have now realised that ever since I was young I loved helping other people even if I didn’t have enough for myself and/or if I had problems on my own.
Helping people enabled me to let out the positive and wisdom like me I can not seem trigger everyday. That is why I have been helping people.
But now I realised that because of giving too much of what may harm me and leave me helpless to the people who may not help me back in return.
I have been butchering parts of myself into someone today who is unstable and wants to help others […]
My mom is such a fucking *****, I’ve had it up to here!! I can’t stand her shit any fucking more, last week on Thursday, she fucking ruined my plans because one Wednesday she thought I was going to beat up my sister because I complained about her touching my things. She made this HUGE scene on the phone, in the party she was in and at home. She is fucking STUPID, all she fucking does is think lowly of me and I’ve had ENOUGH. So on Thursday, she RUINED my plans because  she says I MISBEHAVED on Wednesday, so I got SUPER FUCKING PISSED, […]
I just don’t know what happens to me sometimes, it is strange. I start saying things that I really shouldn’t say, I ruin everything around me because of this terrible habit. I don’t want to do it, it’s just like it takes me over and I start doing stupid fucking shit. And I can only watch as everything breaks down. It ruined so many things, it just makes everything so awkward. I don’t want to do it and yet it happens. I’ve had to explain many weird messages send to random people in the middle of the night. I’d usually say I was drunk, but […]
Why do I keep fucking shit up? Why am I so stupid? I just… Feel like I am no good to anyone. I feel like all I do is screw shit up. I have nowhere to go, no friends that I can rant to freely without them getting annoyed and I’m left to this site. I have hit rock-bottom, and my last resort was this website.
Tell me, how pathetic does that sound? A site called The Suicide Project is where I go to when I need to vent. Yeah, most may call me lucky: I’ve been accepted into an amazing cosmetology school, I’m a model, […]
I found out that my ex and his “current” girlfriend broke up last night. my ex told me that he was going to do anything and everything to get her back. I thought to myself.. this could be my chance to get him back.. to make him mine again.. for us to have another chance to be together and be happy. Then i realized how much he cares about her. that he wants to be with her. (she broke up with him for “being too clingy, and not treating her good”) (They also share their 4th block class, which is how they met in the […]
No one cares about me anymore.. i feel as though im standing in a room of crowded people screaming for help.. but no one can hear me.. they dont care. im sick of this and being the one thats misunderstood and ignored. no one understands me and pushes me aside when they get bored. its fucking shit, and i wish someone cared? because tbqh no one does! yeah some may act like it but inside they’re like ” aw fuck off soph” and im like left alone, upset and always crying, i seriously dont want to be here anymore.
Damn. I thought I was getting back to recovery but after today I really want to kill myself. My mum says she doesn’t want me as a daughter, although to be quite honest I am used to that, she says it everyday. And then my fucking sister decides to join in and tell me how much of a messed up fucking brat I am. Well I’m sorry. I’m selfish, mean, harsh, not pretty at all and a fucking mess up accident. Why does this happen… Then she started talking about my friends and how one of my friends is the reason I’m messed up. They […]
So I guess life is about finding a partner to share your life with, being the partner for somebody and building a life on a relationship, maybe having a family. Sounds nice. Sounds like something I’d like to achieve.
So my life should be about perfect. I just got two A:s so I’m a good student, I live together with my bf and everything seems good.
Let me just say.
Fuck this shit.
Two of his friends came over today. The other one offered me some candy and I said “well… thanks.” What did my bf say? “You don’t have to be such a moodkiller.” Yeah. A moodkiller. And […]
This is long and scattered and weird, but if I don’t let everything out on here I’m gonna let it out on my skin, so… read, or don’t..
Starting in January this year, things have been getting easier. Near the end of school and beginning of summer break, life was great. Better than it’s been in years. Always hanging with my girlfriend, we stopped fighting ever… i was sometimes depressed but always ok! It was great, it was… unbelievable.
When I realized how unbelievably easier my life had been to tolorate recently, I started to think of the future. Things can’t be this easy forever. Eventually I’m gonna have hard shit […]
i was a very happy guy i used to live ma life without any depression though i was not having any girl friend nor i do have now bt then to i was satisfied with ma life i also completed my MBA this year i am quite a good looking guy & was expecting a good looking & sexy girlfriend in future but besides that i was having a little gap in my front teeth so i decided to remove those gap by doing composite bonding but that fucking female dentist did not tell me its disadvantages of composites nor she even told me that […]
“Life is too short”.Â
BULL FUCKING SHIT.
Debbie St. Patty’s Day…. Wish you all the best in drowning your sorrows
Ah, it’s not going better.. 7 days. 7 days without my best-friend and lover… 7 days..
I’m just 7 days without him and i can’t imagine more 80 years like that… Why we couldn’t just be happy?
You guys are speaking here about wish to die and so on, but i am sorry… i am hurted as hell and when i type here i feel like i talked with someone…
Now, when i don’t feel any anger, black minds and so on – all i do is remembering our perfect moments..
And it’s not good, because im going back to suffer again. But the good thing i’m not blaming […]
I just found this site after googling “I can’t do this anymore”. I feel awful.
by Lost45
written by Lost45
I know I am depressed. I know I need help. I have felt that I am lower than EVERYONE else since a very young age. Around nine or ten. I am now eighteen. I just can’t keep my life together. I feel like shit every day and it is getting to be too much stress. I was just spending my evening with a nineteen year old guy who lives on my floor. He invited me over to watch a movie and get drunk. I really just want a friend. I said sure and went. He claims he had no intentions…other than getting to know me, […]