I’m 24 years old and have been depressed since i was six. I was raised in a family where i could never be good enough no matter how hard i tried. I was always compared to my older sister because she did well in school, and was grounded pretty much from first grade till high school. I have tried to commit suicide several times, usually with something going wrong (or right according to some people). In high school i started cutting myself to deal with my depression as it became worse. When i went off to college i met this girl who was popular and […]
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I can’t do it anymore I’m only 14 a girl can only take so much I wish the last time I tried killing myself worked I have noone to talk to so here I am and still people won’t probly care sadly being raped by your father and friend for years and finally getting away and now your stepdad is a creep also is hard for me I try to be a good person and help a lot of people but I have no one but my boyfriend that’s not enough for me I miss my sisters I can’t see them because my family on […]
Well as the title States I’m new to this site. My names tj and I am cursed and bated by everyone and everything. If there is a God which I don’t believe there is I’m pretty sure he hares me as well. I lost my best friend, my girlfriend and pretty much everyone who’s ever been in my heart either by choice or not. No matter how hard I try to be a good person and nice to everyone it always goes horribly wrong. Most recently I found a girl who I began to fall in love with ironically with the same name as my […]
I was just wondering, about certain people who hurts us so much, never appreciated us, took revenge on us for some reason, never bothered helping us when we’re in need of something, but we never failed helping them for anything, and so on.. would just get all the best things in the world. In fact, i personally felt like I am a loser because I have always been good to everyone, but people who never been good to me are in a good position in life, but I’m not. I heard somewhere saying that we need to do good deeds to become a good person. […]
I am married. To the most wonderful man. I always felt in life that I would have to settle, and God showed me differently. We have moved 15 hours from where I grew up. 15 hours from everything that I have ever known. I do not know anyone aside from my husband’s family, who are wonderful people…but they are not friends. I hardly know them. I find it so exhausting trying to be a good daughter-in-law. Everyone knows everything about everyone up here and I have always enjoyed my privacy. My husband and I have tried to a new church and we both like it. […]
I’m a semi-normal thirteen-year-old. Sitting at his computer desk, eating milk and cookies after he gets home from a hard day at school. But in my hand is a pair of scissors, worn from use. I am cutting myself. But once you look past the fat and scars (physical and mental) I am a good person. And I accept that. I don’t hate myself, it’s just my douchebag brain making me take everything the kids at school say to me like they’re true. And some of the things are. I feel mostly carefree, except for the fact that I fail at everything, including killing myself. […]
I am fucked. It s not that I realized that just now but maybe at this moment i am completely aware of my state. i am partly proud because i am not trying to kill myself at least not today. it kind of hurts when you can’t change the fact that you don’t have anyone around you except your parents which are currently not here. i know this sounds pathetic but i really wish i have somebody who loves me for me, somebody who would hug me without me asking for it. i am at a really bad state now and i would like to […]
I’m manic depressive, maybe borderline. There’s this girl I love very deeply, but she does and says these things to me. A small fight, and it escalates, she’s inconsolable. She’s under a lot of stress I know, and she’s a good person basically. She’s combative. I apologize, but I don’t mean it. I console her, but do a bad job. I sulk, because I can’t console her, and I’m supposed to. I feel like a piece of shit. I feel that I don’t have anybody left to open up to. If I say so she gets pissed that I feel that way. Why is she […]
i haven’t been happy in so long.. i can’t even remember the last time i smiled. this girl keeps running through my mind her names kaylee. she told me to leave her a lone because i pretty much went crazy, i didn’t want to lose her but i did anyways and everyday i regret on me being so stupid and not listening to her. she told me to leave her a lone but it hurt so bad for her saying that to me, i just wanted to keep talking to her. i wanted everything to be how it was when i first met her. we […]
I made a mistake — the biggest of my life — and I hurt the love of my life. I hurt her more so than anyone has ever hurt her. It’s been over a year since I initially hurt her; over a year since I’ve seen her; over a year since our last departing hug. But, she won’t forgive me; she won’t see me; she won’t talk to me.
I tried to kill myself to get her attention when she was going through her own problems. I emotionally raped her.
The only thing I want in life is to have a life with her. But, […]
Sometimes I feel like I have no right to feel as horrible as I do. I’m not facing peer pressure, I don’t have horrible parents that do drugs or would kick me out if I was gay or anything like that, but I just feel like a piece of crap all the time. I try as hard as I can to be a good person, really. I never ask my parents to buy anything for me unless they ask for a birthday or Christmas list (and I never put more than three or four things down, knowing that we can’t afford much), I do anything […]
you can find light even in the drakest time ,if and only if u remember to switch on the light………….i am not a intelligent i am average student,do u know in this world people recognize u if nd only if u r intelligent or rich………….but i am sure i am good person,,,,,,, 2morrow i have exam.yes final exam.as i said i am not intelligent but i am willing for 100 out of 100 ,,yes ill do,may be i lost my hope in me from last few days now i have to do something that i can believe my self once again……….thats why i choose to […]
Not really sure how to start this post or how to talk about this, i guess the comfort is in that nobody knows me.  I’m at a dead end , im only the good person i think i am.  I have so much hate in me im almost misanthropic , but i love company , but at the same time i hate it.  My life has been ok , ive traveled places i have people in my life, my sister and mother and some friends.  But i have come to the stage where i just don’t want to deal with living anymore,  i have suffered from being empty for a long time , the doctors […]
You left me, James. Not even a text or a message to say you were ending it. I know I wasn’t the best friend I could have been… should have been… But I wish you’d at least tried. I would have tried to help, even though I was so far away. Maybe I could have talked you out of it for a little while… maybe it would have been long enough for you to realize that maybe suicide wasn’t the thing for you. You could have had so much.
I feel so selfish, sitting here and thinking as I write this, that maybe all the […]
i dont know who i am. i feel like the awkward girl who cant make friends. i feel like a loser. ive lost my self confidence and self esteem. i have nothing going for me. everyday i question myself and ask why did this have to happen to me? why was i made like this or put into such a cold world? those questions will never get answered..i miss having my family together. i miss being the good girl i use to be. now every weekend i want to drink and get drunk all the time. deep down i know i am a good person. […]
these past couple nights ive had dreams of my little brothers.. dreams about me and them running away from all the bad. they’re why i live. what happens when i have nothing to live for anymore? im so scared to be hurt again, so scared that i always have a negative way of looking at things. i try and find god in my life, i try to be a good person. but a good life seems so far away. why do bad things happen to good people? why am i suicidal? why does my mind race? why am i never good enough? im trying. i wish […]
I realize that there are many of you who are in the same amount or worse pain than I am. I need to tell my story, and hope that someone can help me.
The past five years have been a nightmare for me. One of my very closest friends died at the age of 48 from a brain tumor. My Mom had a stroke, and then died last year from cancer after receiving a cancer-free diagnosis only a month before. I lived with her and was her primary caretaker for four years. I asked my family if I could live in our home until January (I would […]
hi, this is the second time I write, last time I wrote “wanna die”. I still wish I’d just die. just fall over, dead…. I’ve promised a friend of mine that I’ll live untill school starts again, and now I regret. a promise is a promise, can’t break it. my life is spiraling downwards… had to break up with my boyfriend. know it sounds ridiculus, but I’ts true. just realised I was still so in live with the one who dumped me.. he really is’nt even a good person, but I still love him… he know that he ruined the rest of my life whwn […]
I’m not sure why I am writing this, but I’ve never written any of this down before and maybe it will help, even if no one else comments on it or even reads it…
I’m a 26-year-old woman. For the past couple of months, I’ve thought about killing myself on a daily basis. I will look at a blank wall and visualize my blood splattered against it. I will imagine throwing myself in front of a fast moving train while on my way to work. I do not consider myself depressed. It just seems the only logical conclusion.Â
I am currently in a relationship with a wonderful […]
Well, I feel no reason to live. I have my dreams. They’re unattainable. Everything else is suffering. I’m thrilled by the idea that I can simply stop it all by putting a gun against my head and ending it all instantly. No more pain no more suffering. Why do we exist? It wouldn’t matter if we didn’t exist because we weren’t able to think before we were alive. If were dead, it’ll be the same. So, logically if i don’t believe in God the literally logical thing to do is put a bullet in my brain. All suffering eliminated and I can’t think anymore to […]