I guess this group isn’t much for me. I see a lot of suicidal people on here and I get angry. I thought there would be more stories of triumph and survival. Or how being here after a loved one suicided has made you stronger. This should be something of support. Why doesn’t anyone want that? I read some of these posts and I wonder why they say the things they do. A cry for help? What kind of immediate help can they get on here where we don’t know a thing about them or their struggle. Is it just to re-traumatize those who have […]
Is not that i hate life , or that I hate living, not that I want to kill myself.
I mean I’ve thought of it and I’ve tried it, but I just can’t.
There’s something I just can’t take out of my mind, I really don’t understand the meaning of all that. I just don’t know what to do sometimes, I am lost, but not sure why. I mean, I’m good at school, I love my career. I have friends, but to be honest, I don’t share thoughts or feelings about this, ‘how I feel’ with them, not even with my family, not even with […]
Ooooh.. You’ve just been commanded!! 😎 How does that shit feel?
I guess you’ve got no choice but to close the book on suicide and call it a day right?
I couldn’t even get up today, i just didn’t see the point really. So I laid in bed all day thinking, and I reckon its about time I finally kill myself. I guess sleeping pills and a bottle of Jack Daniels will be the way I do it (I’m too much of a useless coward to try any other more painful methods) I wrote my will as well, (which was quite a a somber experience) I had trouble thinking of where all my money should go so I said for it to go to the Cancer Council, so it helps somebody I guess.
I don’t […]
It’s weird how calculated I’m being about my own need to take my own life. The reason I’m here in the first place is because I have so many emotions I can’t control/deal with anymore. And here I am thinking of all the things I need to get in order before I go. I need to get a job and pay off my student loans so my parents aren’t left with grief AND debt. I need to leave them all my passwords. I need to get my room in order and get rid of as much stuff so they don’t have to go through everything […]
just venting again.. anyways.. so I just recently broke up w my gf.. it wasn’t that long of a relationship.. but it was love, and something i haven’t felt in like.. more than 5 years..
of course i fucked it up.. cuz i went all psycho on her like i did all of my ex gf’s who of course dumped me because of the same reason.. so here I am.. always caught up in my negativity.. and because of it I haven’t even finished school yet..
I look at all my other friends and my sister’s boyfriend.. they’ve got jobs, friends, and gf’s.. i can barely […]
What do you think your avatar looks like?
Mine looks like a little guy in a go-cart! lol
Glad you got yours back Procel. 🙂
I guess our avatars serve a purpose one way or another! lol
Long story short,I thought I could do anything I want,I thought everybody was faries and vampires and I thought I was in a dream….anyways this was when somebody laced the drugs I bought. I know Karma right?
But im just here to share a cool brand I found at the mall called ‘To write love on her arms’ it was a sweater on clearance and I just googled it and guess what? Its a sucuide project reach out thing….
The store was zumies
http://www.zumiez.com/brands/to-write-love-on-her-arms.html
https://www.facebook.com/towriteloveonherarms
But I really did go to a jail but was eventually put in the hospital cause they saw I needed […]
Strength. Courage. Love. Happiness.
I thought I was strong, but these past few days have shown me otherwise.Ă‚Â I’ve slowly been changing each and every day…and not for the better.
A few years ago, I used to be suicidal. I would only wake up in the mornings to think about death, cutting, and hatred. I hated the world around me and it hated me back. I had accepted that. I got no support from friends or family surrounding me so I had learned to depend on only myself. It took a few years, but I was able to get past all this. I had finally believed that I […]
DON’T YOU DARE
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zJxgrSCZJ1s
Before you decide to take your life, imagine who will find you. Imagine them walking into a room, and seeing you just hanging there. Whether it be your little sister, little brother, mother, father, grandparents, a friend. Imagine what will happen when they find you. No, they will not say “Finally, they’re gone.” No, they will not say “I’m happy they did that.” No, they will not say “I never loved them anyways.” They will die. Their hearts will […]
just want to rant here. i wish someone could beat me to death cuz i do not deserve to be on this planet. Who decided to give me life anyway? My mother? Hell she should have gone to the hospital and abort me. Ă‚Â Cuz I guess I was a pure accident. Ă‚Â She should have adopted a puppy, that way, her incapacity to raise and take care of kids wouldnt have harm anyone. Ă‚Â Im alone, live alone. Ă‚Â No boyfriend cuz hell, even myself I wouldnt wanna date a depressed miserable chick like me. Ă‚Â I didnt ask to come to life, Ă‚Â therefore, I can do whatever […]
so more came out.Ă‚Â along with the paying whores for the last seven years he had multipul e mail accounts and was sending messages back and forth with people was on tons of sex sites chat sites dating sites getting naked pics from people jerking off to anything anyone any fucking whale or old lady who sent him shit. pretending he was this black guy with a HUGE ungodly moster penis. OMG.. unreal… my life seems so unreal.. like a awful fucking joke.. and I know he has a addiction problem and he is gonna get help but then there is other shit …apparently my […]
update, I have things set up. I am drinking and thinking things over. Its funny because today my droid razr broke and then my xfinity cable box stopped working. So I am all alone with my thoughts! It is strange how things happen at the same time when I am about to do something. I hit my phone a lot but today it guess it had the final hit and then the screen broke. LOL. After all the times I beat the crap out of it for being slow and me being impatient and infuriated. This is the time it broke! My cable box won’t […]
This is my second post. today hadn’t been that good. I’ve been floating in and out of sadness and depression. I’ve begun considering going to see a psychiatrist for my problems; hopefully they’ll be able to answer some of my questions because… I don’t understand this…
Each night I go to sleep, hoping I won’t wake up. During the night I wake and watch the shadows drift around me and beg God to never let it end, to just let those shadows stay forever and take me away into the darkness. Then when the sun rises I’m still breathing and I curse my own being. Getting […]
I have been lost for such a long time.Ă‚Â I sometimes think it started the day my mother died but that isn’t it.Ă‚Â Ă‚Â Or the day I asked for helpĂ‚Â the first time I tried to kill myself, and the military discharged me instead.Ă‚Â I really don’t know where I went wrong.Ă‚Â It seems when I ask for help, or try to talk about it, people either don’t want to listen or don’t believe me.Ă‚Â I mean really, how can someone my age be going through this.Ă‚Â I am the one who has these feelings and I struggle to believe it myself.
I left my life aĂ‚Â 5 years […]
i feel like im slowly relapsing. i can feel myself slipping. i think once i leave it may get better… but theres always a chance it will get worse. i guess ill just have to wait and see.
This is the first time I’ve ever publically posted/said that I am in as much pain as I am. I’ve hidden it for years, even when I was a young teen. When I was little I thought everybody had bad days like mine: times when the world looked grey, when even speaking was difficult, when my soul felt sucked from me. I’m too afraid to truly come out and tell anyone around me how I really feel. They’ll all just say “Just put on a smile and look on the bright side” or “It’ll be okay, just buck up”. Can’t anyone see that I can’t […]
Hi, I’m 16 nearly 17. I was told I had depression 3 months ago and sonce then it feels like everything is getting worse. I was very happy throughout 14 years of my life, I had some problems like only connecting with my household family because of issues with my mum and rarely seeing my dad cause he works. Never thought anything bad of it until I was 15. I had a boyfriend that all went well untill after we were going out for 10 months and things went down hill but I always blamed myself for these problems. He lied to me and in […]
Right now i feel like i have no reason to be here.. My friends are all asleep and i really need some support.. I dont know what keeps setting my off. Every time it happens im alone and am just thinking. i have my razor out i plan on it tonight.. not killing myself, but having some relief. i deserve that at least.. I need someone here with me. who i can cry to , who understand me, who wont say that my scars are ugly or that i shouldn’t have done that, some one who truly understands it and would call them beautiful and […]
Every day I wake up thinking that this day will better than the last, but it doesn’t work that way. Every day is the same crap. Hoping that someone will hire me, but it doesn’t work like that in today’s world. You have to wait and wait and wait hoping for someone to hire when you know they won’t. I have always wondered why interviewers want a hand shake after an interview. They always say they will give a call when they really don’t. To me right there, that is backstabbing. They always act so happy to see you, but never call if you have […]