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College is for… Winners?

by Stereotype 4/27/2016

written by Stereotype

I have noticed many many posts from college students (high school as well). Graduation pending upon final papers, examinations… HOW HAVE YOU SURVIVED? What has gotten you this far? Where do you see yourself going, in a perfect world(omit suicide, not an option)? What are your dreams, hopes and aspirations?

As for me I am an adult learner, 32 about to graduate with a B.S. in psychology-God willing I pass this last class. I have survived. I have gotten this far. I can’t recall how or what. But where I see myself going in a perfect world is to normalcy. The boring humdrum life of the […]

4/27/2016 4 comments

I’ve been through the storm, but where is my rainbow?

by Bri 4/19/2016

written by Bri

The past few weeks have been Hell, to say the least.

Since my ex boyfriend broke up with me he has been keeping me around, telling me he loves me even though he’s with this other girl. I refused to tell him I loved him, I still love him. Fuck I still love him. He tells her everything he ever told me… I find it kinda funny within a few days he was already with her too. Probably cheated on me. She’s so much prettier than I am too, probably gave him more than I could have. Yet he insists on saying he still loves me. […]

4/19/2016 6 comments

Day 39

by Lethologica 4/5/2016

written by Lethologica

I just found this site today and as a result, I have to skip my Day 40. I’m counting down, counting down to the day I might do it. I don’t know if I’ll get through with it because honestly at this point I’m kinda scared. Scared that I might not succeed and cause more burden to the people around me. Scared of how it’d feel like, the process of dying. There’s still that small part of me that hopes that everything will be okay again but that’s been overshadowed. Today seems to be better. Not brighter, just slightly better than yesterday but don’t be […]

4/5/2016 2 comments

Anyone has experience with this type of person ?

by Lacalamity 4/2/2016

written by Lacalamity

Hi guys, hope you doing fine.

Well to attack the topic, I met a certain girl in college in september. I was eating in the cafeteria as I watched the students picking up their meals with their backs turned. But I noticed a particular back, a girl’s back, I was sure I knew this person from my high school because it had much in common with another girl I knew. But as she turned around I couldn’t look away, I was like an Y-wing with a target lock on a star destroyer. I looked at her and made a hand signal to come to me, first […]

4/2/2016 5 comments

Dead tired

by Drowning 3/30/2016

written by Drowning

i swear no sleep in the world could cure this tiredness apart from that ever lasting sleep everyone hopes for here

im tired of fighting im physically and mentally drained I ain’t got much fight left in me I don’t even have enough strength to try again right now so I have to stay suffering and get destroyed by my demons (my thoughts )

its funny how you can be your own worst enemy it’s a battle to fight myself everyday how can u win the war against your self with out killing yourself it’s tough

3/30/2016 1 comment

“Forgive me Father”

by DaylightFades 3/29/2016

written by DaylightFades

Forgive me Father,

for I have sinned.

I’ve swallowed my sorrow:

it stirs within.

Like salmon in spring,

it swims upstream;

spawns in my hopes,

nests in my dreams.

Like His crown

of vengeful thorns,

around my head

I wear my scorn.

Pin my palms

and soles of feet

to every promise

I failed to keep

3/29/2016 0 comment

Sportsnut

by beaubri 3/29/2016

written by beaubri

Everyone has been posting about you.

Everyone hopes you’re hanging in there, and not hanging. We all miss you.

3/29/2016 8 comments

We all need to anchor to something or I have my ups and downs right now is a down but at least the ups happen.

by deadmanliving(hopefullyhopeful) 3/22/2016

written by deadmanliving(hopefullyhopeful)

I never knew there was a video for this now 12 year old song. I was depressed when it came out and i still am. I may never overcome it honestly. In some ways i understand that. I dont know how ive lasted this long. There is plenty of reason to be proud of myself. I’m tired of the permanent loneliness. The emotional disconnect from humanity. I don’t have social networking/media. I have never dated regularly anyone in person. Ive never had real close friends save for a needy user. I have goals and hopes and even help with them. Im going to […]

3/22/2016 7 comments

Good night SP

by Drowning 3/12/2016

written by Drowning

i really wouldn’t mind sleeping forever it would take a miracle for them pills to do the trick because let’s face it life isn’t going to get much better we r just giving our self faults hopes but tomorrow another day for the battle to continue I guess good night guys

3/12/2016 2 comments

Scared

by outinthedark 3/8/2016

written by outinthedark

So this last month has been ok. I’ve been doing decently well. I haven’t cut, though I’ve had the urge a few times. I lost myself in a book series so that helped get out of my own head for a while. And right now I’m dealing with normal problems like trying to get a guy to ask me out and not failing my classes. But the thoughts never go away, I doubt they ever will. The thoughts that help me spiral down. The ones that make me hate myself and want to kill myself. I still have my ultimatum for the end of the […]

3/8/2016 1 comment

by Drowning 3/4/2016

written by Drowning

I know everything happens for a reason but I would like to know the fuckin reason

when I was 18 I lost a good friend of mine I alway wanted God/creator or the universes what ever u want to call it to take me instead I prayed that we could change places cause I know I ain’t shit and I going to be shit 8 years later I’m more suicidal and I’m still here suffering more and I know my friend would of done more with hes life I still don’t want to be here but I feel I don’t have a choice

do u think it’s […]

3/4/2016 14 comments

Warrior

by BloodShallShed 3/4/2016

written by BloodShallShed

This song reaches out to those of us who have been told that they can’t do something, or to those of us who have had their hopes, dreams, and hearts ripped out. You can keep going. Inside all of us, there’s a warrior <3. Stay safe everyone.

-BloodShallShed

3/4/2016 0 comment

[LF] Time Machine

by Nisus 3/1/2016

written by Nisus

It’s no one else’s fault that I’m unhappy. The prospect of ‘living out‘, as it were, another 12 months or so of this is daunting, to say the least. It’s not that I hate my job. It’s straightforward and uncomplicated, but I can’t stand the inclination towards pedantics, the bureaucracy, and the incompetency of certain people. I mean, I know I’m not perfect but I’d like to think I do a decent job. In the end though, I know I’m replaceable. In every aspect. I wish they would just leave me alone and quit getting on my ass all the time.

I told a friend I […]

3/1/2016 2 comments

My Addiction

by Alan Ominous 3/1/2016

written by Alan Ominous

I’ve always had an addictive personality. I’ve fought addiction to various drugs, alcohol, things that most people wouldn’t consider addictive like green tea, or Gatorade. Basically I can create a habit anywhere, with anything.

My most recent addiction, false hopes. Now I don’t mean being overly optimistic. I mean, hanging on to an idea that has less than 0.01% chance of happening. It’s what has kept me going lately. The downside, every time reality rears its ugly head, it’s soul crushing.

Maybe I’m delusional?

3/1/2016 12 comments

Where does fantasy end and reality begin?

by Snow Fox 2/24/2016

written by Snow Fox

Hey all,

Hope everyone has been doing as well as can be, and I was just wondering if I could get some input about my recent thoughts/behaviors.

So as with most users on this site, I have struggled with suicidal thoughts and desires for a long time. Many of us even keep a possible means close by or have it recorded how/where we might get it. But my question is, where does the comfort/ideation of killing yourself turn into reality?

I’m not scared of dying, but at the same time, my mind getting my hopes up and then not having anything happening is also very tiring.

My situation is […]

2/24/2016 7 comments

why…?

by Alan Ominous 2/23/2016

written by Alan Ominous

Why do I think the way I do?
Why am I constantly giving myself false hopes?
Why do I set myself up to fail?

2/23/2016 2 comments

Idk

by Chaucer 1/6/2016

written by Chaucer

Wanna know something I’ve never admitted before now? I’m not scared of the darkness inside me. It’s comfortable, familiar, but I’m terrified of the pure. It’s in there somewhere and I swear it’s so bright It washes over everything else until it’s all I can see, and it it’s in love with everyone. Honestly I just want so bad to embrace it but I think it has the power to destroy the rest of me. It feels like my choices are to watch myself destroy my own life like I always do, or die in a barrage of change, and I’m too much of a […]

1/6/2016 4 comments

Happy New year?

by Sui_RC 1/1/2016

written by Sui_RC

Hey SP,
One shitty years up. Ofc, my year hasnt been as bad as some of yours. But it was pretty bad, and frankly, i dont think 2016, is gonna be any fucking better…
Found the girl of my dreams, she hates me,
Destroyed my hopes of getting a good college,
Lost every inch of talent i have ever had,
And on top of it,
I cant even muster the guts to kill myself.
What i really want to say is,
Sorry mum, dad, i didnt mean to dissappoint you,
Sorry, everyone, i didnt wanna hurt anyone.

1/1/2016 3 comments

It’s hard

by alina_01 11/11/2015

written by alina_01

to look around at this world, at the people in it. To see how horrible it has all become, how truly selfish and disgusting people are. I look around in the hopes of finding proof that good exists that there is still love out there somewhere. But the more I look the less I find and the more depressed I become. This world is truly awful and everyday is a battle to not conform to not become as horrible as everything and everyone around me.

11/11/2015 3 comments

Death

by blackvoid13 10/26/2015

written by blackvoid13

I feel as if death dictates our life in an indirect way. An example of this would being doing all of the things on a bucket list in fear of dying without accomplishing anything. Life is very fragile and temporary and we associate many things with importance since we know life would be meaningless otherwise. Science has never touched the realm of death and currently has no theory of what “life” is like after death. The only thing science can offer is the internal and external definition of death. I don’t believe in any particular afterlife so when someone close to me dies I know […]

10/26/2015 1 comment

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