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just end it

Goodbye f’d up world.

by Schiz018 8/24/2015

written by Schiz018

So in 3 to 4 weeks I’m ending it just have to do a test run then gain the balls to just end it. I don’t give a fuck or a rats are anymore. Not even sure why I was born the only sucky thing is my family are going to have to bury me with no photo or nothing. I’m over family and parents. They only give a shit about themselves and haven’t once begun to understand mental illness. Funny thing is its going to have to be a burden to bury me or cremate me for my family. Cold heartless family.

Well 3-4weeks then […]

8/24/2015 4 comments

I’m feeling super suicidal…

by meg3323 8/14/2015

written by meg3323

I really want to just end it all. Why not?

8/14/2015 2 comments

Why me?

by silentshadow107 7/22/2015

written by silentshadow107

I look in the mirror and see someone I don’t know. I try really hard to get up everyday, but it is soo hard. I go to school, but I don’t see the point, it’s getting me know where. Applying for jobs is a lot easier said then done. I found out today that my mother helped my sister’s boyfriend find a job and he got it. After she promised that she would help, and she through me under the bus last mouth. She let me do an interview at a school that would have helped me get a degree and I would have had […]

7/22/2015 6 comments

here I am again

by anonymous 7/10/2015

written by anonymous

So here i am again, in my bed at 3 in the morning bawling my fucking eyes out with a bandage around my arm. What did I do to deserve any of this everyone I love just hurts me, nobody cares I’d be as well to just end it allnot like anyone’d give a fuck about my aabsence

7/10/2015 1 comment

If I die everyone will get relief

by cantstoptheshame 7/7/2015

written by cantstoptheshame

My family is constantly worried for me because of my depression. I am pregnant by my ex and he wants me to abort but I want to keept it. We had a huge fight today whem i told him I wanted to kept it. Finally I said fine and I would just get rid of it and burst into tears because I can’t do it. If I keep it I ruin his life and he says mine too. I dont see how it would ruin my life. If I abort he can go on with his life and be happy. If I abort its likely […]

7/7/2015 2 comments

I just want to feel.

by abct123 6/16/2015

written by abct123

I don’t even know what’s going on anymore. I feel like I drown my sorrows in medial mindless activity just to by because I just can’t bring myself to do anything different. I’m so scared of what would happen if I broke the norm that I am afraid to go against it, just blending in to wherever I happen to be. I constantly destroy every relationship because I’m so overwhelmed in trying to give them everything they want that I eventually push them away. I just feel like I don’t know how to socialize and am constantly depressed whenever I go out just wanting to […]

6/16/2015 1 comment

I just dont want to ruin her agian but i cant get her out of my mind.

by - Connor 6/16/2015

written by - Connor

I have been suicidal for 5 years now. I have tryed to stop throught the years. The happyist thisng happend to me when i got a new girlfriend. I loved her. I still do. She still tells me she loves me. But im not sure of that anymore. Ok… At the start of our relationship things were going good everything was ok. I was finaly happy. But as the months went on i started to feel like killing myself again… I tryed it… But she stoped me forcing me to through up the pills that i had swollowed. After that she got me seeing two […]

6/16/2015 1 comment

What’s the point?

by Hellboss 6/2/2015

written by Hellboss

It’s not like with my personality I can change for the better. I know I won’t. It’s not about needing sympathy here or looking for common grounds with people. It’s just to basically type it out because I rather random faceless strangers from the internet to know than the people I’m “close” to.

It all started last week that I mentioned in an older post. I lost my car due to bogus reasons, and then the next day I got drug tested from my job, in which I have been currently using narcotics. They sent the sample off to the lab due to a line not […]

6/2/2015 2 comments

just venting i guess

by loser94 5/26/2015

written by loser94

Everyday I go through the motion’s in my life , the will to live is just not in me anymore. Alone, going through depression it seems like the only thing that can get a tiny small smirk on my face seems to be when I try to think about what if I was happy ,what if I had that someone special in my life, what if I was special to someone else or I was needed but I get mad at myself for even thinking that fit giving myself false hope that just doesn’t exist. I bottle my emotions in until night time where my […]

5/26/2015 2 comments

What should I do?

by shiaru 5/6/2015

written by shiaru

This world is really… How should I put it? Bland? Complicated? Most of my life is spent just living like a robot doing what’s expected of me and kind of just… not really connected to my body. Like I’m not really all that there.

I don’t know what I even want to do in life or why was I even born in the first place. Honestly, I feel like I’m useless. I don’t have any skills worth talking about, a coward and I’m socially awkward. I basically just there taking up space.

I hate my current job, it pays so little, and the union itself took a […]

5/6/2015 2 comments

Decisions, Decisions.

by avidore421857 4/13/2015

written by avidore421857

I will start out with saying that I am only alive today out of spite. I have had family and friends who have tried to destroy me, and failed. I have fought to stay alive, and I have had nothing handed to me. I learned how to program, how to make more money in a month than many people see in a year, graduated high school, and survived multiple hospitalizations for various things, none of them being psychiatric. I have only lived this long because I had decided that everyone who had tried to hurt me had been my enemies, and that the greatest suffering […]

4/13/2015 2 comments

can’t do this anymore

by lissbabe 3/6/2015

written by lissbabe

what’s the point anymore? it’s not like anything will get better, might as well just leave the world. Being in care is starting to hurt me physically and mentally, maybe i should either take the leap to end my life or maybe i should just end up going to different care homes every year or month, i cant even handle my emotions in this home, i dont fit in i’m not appart of their family and never will be, should i just end it? Please someone help me i’m asking for your help please i’m begging

3/6/2015 2 comments

Wrong again

by cantgetitright 2/19/2015

written by cantgetitright

I don’t know how I do it. I think I’m different from a lot of people on here. I’m mostly happy. I have a house and truck and a cat and a business. And a wife. She means more to me than anything has ever meant to me. We’re so good together, the perfect team. Except we fight. A lot. When I get passionate about something I really dig in my heels and so does she so we clash. I have a temper, a bad one. I’ve been blowing up at people when they push me as long as I can remember. I work on […]

2/19/2015 6 comments

we fight to stay alive.

by alexmckim 2/16/2015

written by alexmckim

We fight and fight to stay alive. Our thoughts always going back to “no one cares” “they are better off without me” “my death would be a blessing to them”. But even though the thoughts are there we fight and fight. We climb to stay alive. But it seems now adays that if your an out cast or your alone or you have a mental or physical disability then your a freak that shouldn’t share the same space as those who are ” better”. I sit here and I see it all the time. Someone says “I’m lonly and depressed” someone would respond “no one […]

2/16/2015 0 comment

I’m not sure anymore

by outinthedark 2/5/2015

written by outinthedark

I’ve never posted on here but I’ve been on here for a few days. I’ve been debating on telling my story, so I’m just going so say a little bit of it now.
I’m a senior in high school. A few years ago I sank into this depression. About a year ago I started cutting myself. I usually cut in a place that’s easy to hide, but sometimes I’ll cut on my forearm or near my wrist, asking for someone to notice and ask if I’m okay. I’ve actually set a date for myself once last may. I backed out of it though.
There has […]

2/5/2015 2 comments

Nothing is as it seems. And it never will Life is only pain. Death is peace

by Born-In-TH3-WRonG-C3NtUry 1/26/2015

written by Born-In-TH3-WRonG-C3NtUry

First I want to say that I am New to this site. Due to my search of painless suicide on Google. Also Im not writing this to get help or even expect anyone to actually read my nonsense. Im just tired and venting my pain. Because I hope to End my life soon. I dont want pity. I dont want people to worry about my children. they will go to my brother which I am going to have stated my my suicide note. Ive actually attempted 6 times since I was 13. which was my first attempt. Now I am going to apologize got grammar […]

1/26/2015 1 comment

I fucked up… this is all my fault.

by Bri 1/17/2015

written by Bri

So, I uhm.. fucked up, with a group of friends…

I was chatting with one, and he asked why I was upset. I tried to avoid the topic, I fucking did, but he kept pushing so I finally told him about my depression and how I’m sick and fucking tired of living with it.

He told me “I have no idea what that’s like, but it seems to me that the only way to end it is to be selfish and just end it.”

After he told me that, I just went silent… I went to our friend, and… I told her what he said while I was […]

1/17/2015 4 comments

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by sad_face7 1/12/2015

written by sad_face7

I dont want to feel this way anymore, but the only way for ghe pain to stop is if i just end it end it all. Is it wrong for me want a perfect life, but i already know i will never get that. I got in a fight with my grandparents on saturday for that they made it seem like they dont care if i kill myself. I yelled at my grandma tell her they are the reason why i cut myself” and all she said was “go do it, kill yoursrlf ill care less. When she said that i just wanted to end […]

1/12/2015 9 comments

Feeling depressed again – just wrote what was on my mind

by NotSorry 1/3/2015

written by NotSorry

It’s been awhile. Honestly I try to avoid this site whenever I start feeling better, because while this support group is really amazing and it’s the only place I can be honest and completely open up, it’s also depressing. But here I am again. I guess the thing about depression is that it gets better and it gets worse but it never really goes away.

Like most people here I have depression, but for about 4 years now I’ve been hiding it. I told my mom once and she said – ‘Do you even know what depression is?’ and then she dismissed it and never mentioned it again, now […]

1/3/2015 2 comments

tired of life

by desertedsweeper 12/23/2014

written by desertedsweeper

I will be 50 not long from now. I have lived an outwardly full and rich life. People look up to me apparently and i am somehow respected. The truth is i have drifted through life with much luck and relative ease. I have been loved many times but have never loved until recently. And my immaturity in that caused it to fail anyway. The bottom line is that i see little point in going on. This world and this life just has no relevance to me, it is pointless. A few weeks ago I made an attempt to end it by downing a bunch […]

12/23/2014 7 comments

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