This recent days, I’m starting to be able to really cope up and enjoy my days… with my friends who support me emotionally. I am so scared to go home and face the rest of the day alone because of the painful emotions and thoughts I’ll have to face alone… so I spend a lot of time with my friends. I am starting to forget. But now it’s already summer break. I’ll be alone again, if not alone be with my family who doesn’t even know what I’m going through. I’ll be alone with ths books and internet. Ths pain… I still feel it.. I […]
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adventuregirl – I am suicidal. Â I’ve already attempted before, with 96 sleeping pills. Â Unless something changes soon, another attempt (probably successful) is imminent. Â I’m 19 by the way. Â Me and her were not in romantic relationship, although I did want one with her. Â But I was okay just having her as a best friend. Â I left the story off at January 3rd, 2011….as you can see I still have all of 2011 and some of 2012 to explain. Â So everyone is missing a lot of information, and it’s no one’s fault but my own for not typing it up yet. Â The fact that I’ll […]
I dont know why but all of sudden ive felt a lot of guilt about attempting suicide. This has never happened to me before. But now ive started thinking of my family. Not friends or anyone else but my family. Specifically my mom see her friend is dying of cancer and it seems like killing myself would just weight to heavily on her. But i have pills stored up and ready i just cant kill myself right now it wouldnt be right. But at the same time im tired of living. If i die there will be no more death no more suffering. At the […]
I’m almost 17 and I’ve had social problems my whole life. I BELIEVE I might have a personality disorder, although I don’t really know. The problem with getting diagnosed, treated, etc is that I’ve grown accustomed to faking a lot of interaction with people. I’ve seen four or five psychologists and stuff now, with no real results. Most of them just sent me off saying I was fine after five or six visits. I know I’m not ‘fine’. I used to have anger management when I was really young, like 8 or something. Then later on (still age eight) my mother tried to kill herself. […]
If you die, just know you could be worst off especially if you don’t believe in anything.
by tigerlily93
written by tigerlily93
There is nothing wrong with being suicidal, but acting on it is.
It is okay to want to die!!
But just know, you prob, feel that way because ou felt unloved or hated by the world, but we have each other.
And, you know what screw the world.
If you think about it some people in the world who arenot suicidal are more messed up than us.
It’s ok
We just have to know our lives aren’t just for us, we love for Jesus and truth and love and all things good, but if you don’t believe that you can die!
And you may not […]
You left me, James. Not even a text or a message to say you were ending it. I know I wasn’t the best friend I could have been… should have been… But I wish you’d at least tried. I would have tried to help, even though I was so far away. Maybe I could have talked you out of it for a little while… maybe it would have been long enough for you to realize that maybe suicide wasn’t the thing for you. You could have had so much.
I feel so selfish, sitting here and thinking as I write this, that maybe all the […]
“And I swear at that moment, we were infinite”
Is my favorite quote from my favorite book Perks of being a wallflower.
I must have read that book a thousand times, it always use to help me when I felt down, and I had a lot of favorite quotes from the book, that’s my absolute favorite, because I think we’ve all felt infinite at one point or another.
One time I felt like that, is on Halloween when I was really little and I was trick or treating, and I saw the moon and it was big and full and I couldn’t stop staring at it because I thought it […]
This is my first post on this website, but I know I’ll end up coming back here.
I never thought that I would end up on a site like this, struggling with my identity and hurting myself physically and mentally. I feel dirty and shameful and hypocritical. I always tell my friends and anyone who will listen to never never EVER hurt yourself, that it’s a horrible thing to do and that people love them, but when I do it, it becomes something else. I don’t want anyone to know. It’s my secret. And I don’t want to stop.
I don’t know if I would really say […]
My19 year old life hasn’t exactly been as “great” as it is right now. This is extremely long, but I’ve finally found a place where I can just let it all out. Thank you to those who read it.
It all started with being raped for 7 years of my life. I didn’t know what was happening or why it had to be a secret. But eventually with age I figured it out. I spent a good chunk of my life afraid. Afraid to be alone with any boys and afraid to get close to them too. I found out that I was chosen because I was “pretty”. […]
Just today one of friends told my other friend that she was ugly, fat, a hoe, obnoxious, and that she should just die. My friend was at home when she got called those disgusting names and was told that rude comment,plus she had the flu and she felt awful. Of couse she got the message on facebook the one place where you can talk trash to somebody without them phisically hurting you. I stood up for my friend because we are best friends aand just because I’m friends wih the other girl neverr meant that I had to agree with her. In fact I […]
I say that im fine but im going insane. I tell people that I feel good but im in a lot of pain. I say its nothing but its really a lot. I say im okay but really im not….How can you understand me when I can’t understand myself? you tell me everythings gonna be okay. how do you know that??? i want to end this all. the person i love…the one i fell for now hates me. i cant carry on living. the purpose in life is to find your happiness. ive never found mine. EVER. im covered in scars from shoulder to wrist […]
In my whole life of 21 years, i have been a loser only throughout my life, my mom-dad loves me a lot, and i have never been able to make them happy, i just want to make them happy and give everything to them, they have sacrificed a lot for me, and i am such a loser, i could never give them what they wanted, th only thing they wanted from me to get good marks throughout my schooling and college days, which i never could, i have already wasted huge amount of money, more than $10,000 on coachings and education, now the ultimate thing […]
Maybe I don’t know who I really am. I catch myself contradicting myself a lot when I think. I’m trying to figure this hell of a life out, so maybe things will get better. Maybe I just want to understand how everything works. But there’s never going to anyone who knows everything about everything else, especially life. Life doesn’t mean that much and it isn’t that great sometimes, But is it worth it to even stay around just to see what the future holds?
yeah nothing has gotten better ever since i finally listened to what she told me and left her a lone. i got accused for a lot of things, a harraser, a stalker, just a complete jerk for something that my heart was telling me to do. which at that point i feel like i can never trust my heart again.. i tried going out there and finding someone to replace her i really did but no one is like her and no one will ever be like her… im depressed and i miss her so much but its always in my head that she never […]
I am a little bit ashamed i am here now. I am not thinking about suicide again, at least not so often. I just have this constant feeling of being down.
I am sometimes thinking i am not capable of feeling good or enjoying life. I have those episodes of euphoria when something incredible happens and when life surprises me spontaneously. But i feel they are terribly rare. I know i have no reason to be unhappy because i have so many things and new people around me and i even learned to be happy because of others. I also tried to talk about my problems […]
i feel like shit, it feels like i am only myself when i am like this: suicidal, depressed, angry , and what more. Its like i am half awake when i am ”acting” happy in front of others. i can’t really explain it, lately i have been thinking about something to cause me a lot of pain. i need hurt to feel alive, but i find myself doing nothing but praying for pain. i am weird , i really am, there is something wrong with me. i ”bully” myself a lot less when i am already in pain, and i also mean terrible situations. […]
i wish more than anything that i could take it all back. That instead of being a complete ass, i could tell you how i feel. That i love you more than anything. I know I pushed you away but this is killing me. You were the one thing good in my life….You are the one person that i never wanted to hurt. the one person that i will always protect at all cost..hah how did i manage to screw that one up?
I just want you to know that I love you. No matter what happens. But I don’t want you to reach out to […]
Hello everyone,
My name is Chris and I am 21 years old. You most likely won’t read this. Like most of you, I’ve been entertaining thoughts of death to myself very highly lately. I’ll post my story in which most of you will probably call me ungrateful, selfish or something and I’ll take it. Honestly, I’ve had a pretty good life even as a kid but I knew there was always something wrong in my head or something. I remember at the age of 7, my window guard falling out and looking out that window and just thinking to myself as a little kid,” I should […]
This seems like a lot of effort to say something rather uninteresting but it would be cruel to say nothing.
written by whycantijustuseanormalname
I have no reason, downfalls or problems for why I want too do this to myself all I know is that I want too. Senseless right? I agree, though I have been battling with it since I was about 12 so everyone has a breaking point right? No one has any idea of what I’m about to do either. Some in the past have seen how I am but probably thought as I got older I grew out of it as if it were a phase. Well if you’re reading this any of you… it doesn’t really matter any more does it. I’m texting my […]
My name is Joe, I live in England and I am training to be a hairdresser. I started my training two months ago, I am 19 years old.
I’ll be honest with you my life so far has not been easy, like the majority of people in this world I’ve faced issues and encountered problems which has hurt me, which is fine bad things happen. I was bullied at school, people made fun of my physical appearance a lot, and I didn’t fit in with the popular crowd. I hanged out with the more geeky group, and didn’t mind it, I got on well, but as time went […]