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A Mothers Love

by crockpot14 11/11/2015

written by crockpot14

Before I found The SP page, I would write all my thoughts down in my “journal”. I use the term lightly because really it was a death diary. I wrote all my reasons I cut that day or why I was feeling really down that day and since I found this website, I haven’t been writing in it. So I was going through my journal today and I read this one message I wrote a few months back and I would like to post it on here. So here it goes.

“It is summer time and my mom wanted to take a family vacation. So on […]

11/11/2015 21 comments

The time when I want to die the most…

by BlueEyes 11/10/2015

written by BlueEyes

The time when I want to die the most is when I think about my friend MC. He kissed me twice, over a year ago, and I’m still so silently, painfully, in love with him over those unexpected kisses. They were unlike any experience I’ve ever had; I felt totally connected to him and complete within myself.

Now he’s getting married to someone else and we barely speak, and my marriage is falling apart for reasons other than MC.

The resulting depression is overwhelming and unbearable.

I keep searching from tarot cards to God to understand why I can’t get over MC, and every time the answer is simply ‘MC is not for you’. […]

11/10/2015 11 comments

Day 1- Depression

by ClaudiaValencia 11/9/2015

written by ClaudiaValencia

I think I will start posting everyday that my depression acts up.

Ive been depressed since I was 3 years old on and off. It’s really quite odd though to think of a depressed three year old. Lately I’ve been getting worse though. I thought I had been cured of my depression for a while because I hadn’t felt it there. I think the reason I’m feeling depressed is because I stopped taking my antidepressants for a few days…. I know, not a smart choice.

Im gonna see my therapist at one o’clock today.

I haven’t seriously thought of suicide. I’ve cut myself quite badly though. The wounds […]

11/9/2015 2 comments

Another sad day

by rainyday 11/6/2015

written by rainyday

Good morning my little and desert world…Here I am, one day more of life going by. We never should count the hours, the days, the weeks, the years. We should count the blessing of every dawn, I know that. However, when our days run in the way we do not want, we prefer to forget even that we are here, in time and space. We start looking life with different lenses. Reflections become our every day breakfast. Some people come, some other go, and some others stay with us until eternity. Mom and Dad always taught me to be patience, positive, to treat others with […]

11/6/2015 2 comments

Today is an special day

by rainyday 11/5/2015

written by rainyday

I am sad and I continue depress, but today is an special day. Then I have decided to stop by and let a little note about an event that is a motive for me to celebrate. Today a beautiful couple is celebrating their wedding anniversary. They are like my parents, like the family I would like to have. This couple have honesty drawn in their faces, always a big and sincere smile. They have been together in good and in bad times. They have grown stronger with the years. They a Mr. and a lady, they are an example, they have gained my love and […]

11/5/2015 2 comments

Doubt..

by FancyArcadeCupcake 11/1/2015

written by FancyArcadeCupcake

Didn’t you see the tears
As they roled down my cheeks?
Didn’t you see the fear
It’s been in my eyes for weeks…

Didn’t you hear me call
Your name a thousand times?
Didn’t you see me fall
Into the darkest of minds…

Didn’t you hear my voice break
When I pleaded you to stay?
Didn’t you see my knees shake
As you were walking away…

Didn’t I give you
Enough?
Didn’t I give you
Love…

11/1/2015 0 comment

Why did I?

by FancyArcadeCupcake 11/1/2015

written by FancyArcadeCupcake

Why did I think that this time would be different
Why did I think this time would be true
Why did I think that you wouldn’t become distant
Why did I believe in you

Why did I put my heart on the line
Why did I give my all
Why did I think it would all be fine
Why did I think you’d catch me when I fall

Why did I think I was enough
Why did I let you break my heart
Why did I think I deserved your love
Why did I let it fall apart

Why did I let myself fall in love…

11/1/2015 0 comment

Two Years Later

by lonelyinside 10/23/2015

written by lonelyinside

Holy shit. i never thought that i would still be alive today. Things were so bad back then.

Having your first real boyfriend, whom to this day you both still have some kind of connection, rip your heart to shreds was enough to send me back into my depression. I was very close to ending it my junior year of high school. Then i went to a new school program and met people and got into some things i shouldnt have, but it gave me a reason to stay around, temporarily.

I actually graduated High School, and shortly after that i met a guy that i can […]

10/23/2015 2 comments

Depressed

by Navartiti 10/21/2015

written by Navartiti

I am so depressed. I don’t know what to do, I don’t want my sister to die, she has terminal cancer. and she can’t be treated where I live ( Jordan ) And I dont have the money to send her outside for treatment. I tried asking people, the government, i made a campaign to raise money I tried everything nobody want’s to help me, I am so depressed I can’t even go to work. I live in the UAE and work here, what kills me is that I am not there with her and she is in so much pain. she is so depressed […]

10/21/2015 9 comments

I Don’t Know What to Do Anymore

by Mitzia 10/18/2015

written by Mitzia

It’s been a long time since I was last here. About a year and half, to be exact. I thought I was really getting better but in the last few months, everything seems to be spiraling down again. I’ve read that it’s therapeutic to write about it, so hopefully this will help me.

In July, my boyfriend of seven months, Alex, broke up with me. He was everything I had wanted in a person and I woke up everyday with an overwhelming amount of happiness that I thought the years of suicidal thoughts and depression were finally leaving my mind.

If only I knew how wrong I […]

10/18/2015 1 comment

Love

by secretz180 10/17/2015

written by secretz180

Ever since middle school I’ve always wanted a bf. Almost every night I would cry because I thought no one would ever love me. When I was 18, my best friend introduce me to a guy. We started emailing each other a lot. I get really bad anxiety but that one day I decided to meet him. He picked me up, all he wanted was sex. He kept pressuring me to do it so I felt like I had to. So I lost my virginity to him. He totally left me after that. I was heart broken and sad again. I met this guy on […]

10/17/2015 10 comments

I’m Trying

by followthesun 10/6/2015

written by followthesun

You know I’ve realized something

The more I think I’m bettering everyone else off, the more damage I do

For myself, but mostly others

They never get to feel what I feel

They never get to experience the love I have for them

I keep distorting everything I think life is supposed to be full of

And in order for my love to be shared I have to be here

I’m loving no one if I decide to leave

As badly as I feel, and as much as I believe the world won’t notice my absence, I won’t leave here until all my love is gone

And […]

10/6/2015 2 comments

Tomorrow may rain; but ill follow the sun

by followthesun 10/5/2015

written by followthesun

its inevitable but ill keep pushing it off for one more day. one more day because i want a reason to stay; one more day because i want a better reason to go?

mostly I am gone already I just have to make sure everyone else will be okay. it just keeps replaying over and over in my head how people will react and im mad at myself for doing that to them. i just wish there was a way i could make everyone understand and they would let me go. just stop trying to fix me because im not broken im just wrong. if only […]

10/5/2015 4 comments

Love

by Take a Deep Breath 9/27/2015

written by Take a Deep Breath

I know I’m new to this place, but I just want to say that every freaking one of you on this site are fucking amazing people- you’re just fucking amazing people who have been through, and are going through, one hell of a lot. And I wish I could take all of your pain from you, but I cannot; however, I can hopefully plant a tiny seed of hope in your hearts by saying I’m here for you all, through thick and thin. Keep on keeping on!

9/27/2015 10 comments

You are Loved

by jrmeador94 9/27/2015

written by jrmeador94

I’m still getting through my depression. It’s almost a daily battle here at college, but I’m surviving somehow. I heard this music one day with my therapist, and I couldn’t stop crying.

This song has kept me through some of the hard days. I play it when I fall asleep. I wake up better.

You are Loved (Don’t Give up) by Josh Groban

9/27/2015 3 comments

She says she’s tired of life

by v.c.333 9/25/2015

written by v.c.333

9/25/2015 2 comments

Alive and Kicking

by Stoic0209 9/14/2015

written by Stoic0209

I really have no reason to complain. I’ve done pretty well for myself. I got my degree, got a good job, etc. my students loaned will be paid off by early next year.

But in the pursuit of all this I lost one thing that has haunted me for years now. Love.

I was engaged to be married may 2013 to my college sweetheart. We’d been together through a lot of things, but there were some things I should have noticed were not right. She never really loved me. I denied it at first, but that’s the only conclusion. We got together in college because neither one […]

9/14/2015 9 comments

A story with no starting

by MysteryA 9/14/2015

written by MysteryA

I guess i could either give it a fancy title or just get to the point. Depression. Anxiety. Abuse.

I have actually not came out about it (abuse) and please do not think i am doing this so you feel sorry for me or anything! Yes at the age of 5 i was abused a lot till the age of 11. It wasn’t just by one person though. Since then i’ve always been scared and try my best to reduce attracting attention. i always blamed myself.

Last year, December, i realised i had depression and was diagnosed of it. Went to several people but none helped. Just […]

9/14/2015 1 comment

My suicide story

by 4262B 9/13/2015

written by 4262B

All my life I knew something was different about me… Maybe it was how self conscious I became when my parents couldn’t afford to have more than one or two outfits that fit me when I was little. Or maybe it was how hard my mom tried to make my brother and I happy, but my dad always tore her down.. Maybe it was my parents always being to busy to come to any of my school concerts and events? Maybe it was just me? All I know is that through it all, no matter who I have around me, trying to support me.. I […]

9/13/2015 2 comments

Going for a change

by YuTasogare 9/1/2015

written by YuTasogare

Things lately have been pretty hard for me, going to my mom’s house and therefore leaving my dad’s house. My parentes breakup was something that really has affected me, before that I can’t remember a single thing in my life that isn’t perfect. I know my memory may be deceiving me but if it’s how you remember it, being real or not, for you it really happened. Memories can be so deceiving, but I know a perfect life or time doesn’t exist, life isn’t something this easy but I guess if it was there would be no fun in it, right?

Well, my father has depression […]

9/1/2015 2 comments

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