I met a girl on here who has become a very good friend to me. She is so sweet, kind, and honest. I haven’t known her long but I feel so lucky to have made a friend like her. Things are difficult sometimes for each of us in different ways but we are able to help each other through them. I know there’s a reason she was put in my life and even though I live so far from her I feel closer to her than I have to so many people that live in my town that claim to be my friends. I struggle […]
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I know there are so many things to be grateful for. We are not poor, I have a relatively high paying job, a college education, I have friends, my parents are okay, I have food everyday, I am not abused, I have talents, I do not have any major problems that could be the stuff of movies or tv shows, at times I am even considered to be physically attractive by some. On the outside, I am just normal, who have NO RIGHT TO BE DEPRESSED.
But deep inside I feel dysfunctional, I cannot stop myself from dumping negative feelings in my social media accounts, and […]
in my last post I wrote that I found this special person who helped me a lot in my life. he’s the reason I can write this. I won’t know what happened if I hadn’t met him.
some people say “you’re lucky to find someone like him” “I won’t find THIS person” and so on.
but you will find a person like I found him. there’s a special person for everybody out there.
what will happen if you end your life? you can’t see so much beautiful things: think how beautiful you’ll look in your promdress or even your little sister, the moment when you look in someone’s […]
Well the evening is finally here..
spent the last week getting ready for tonight
Got a bit of a journey to make but i’m ready..
Feel a lot more positive and prepared this time around have also got a couple of things to
help keep me calm.
I feel “this” is my time
Peace and best wishes to you all whatever you choose
i feel like i have a shit life even if people say im lucky. i have a dad who now cant even talk to me or even keep his promise. so yes i feel like a peice of shit because the only thing i want know is for him to actually care but i guess it is usless. all i ever do is try and hope. hope things will get better hope that ill have an actual family. but im done trying to hope for things that wont happen i give up.
i wish someone would shot me, cut me so deep and have me somewhere […]
You know what you always hear people saying that they want to kill them self for many reasons and i never thought that i would be one of those people. I AM NOW !!!!.
I have very bad health ( my backs  falling apart) i am in so much pain all the time and i am fighting it 24/7 . I am 32 and i  had so much to live for.
Its all been taken away from me and i have hit rock bottom. I cry every day, i have dark thoughts all the time that i could just take all my med that i am on a […]
yeah, so this is the first time im posting something on this site, 3 weeks ago, my friend Steve suicided in the cafeteria, everyone saw it, blood on the wall behind him, gun on the ground, I stayed in the cafeteria for 3 hours, then a teacher told me to go and relax. Im moving in 3 days, my parents are not together anymore, it feels really bad, plus my dad told me it was my fault, and my mom told me I was ”retarded”.. She told this to me because when I told her that I need help, the first thing she told to […]
I don’t understand how I’m still alive. I honestly don’t. My last attempt wasn’t my first, it was my 16th, and I’m still not sure that it will be my last.
I would say I’m lost, but that would imply that I’m actually going somewhere; I’m not. I’m in this rut and I wish I knew how I got here, but I think it’s one of those things that creeps up on you.
So, seven weeks ago I jumped in front of a tube train. It wasn’t planned, I think I decided in about five minutes. I had previously thought about it, and I’ve been really close […]
Im weak,weak person,i cant do nothing right!Im just depressed all of the time and yet i cant do it.All i see is darkness.I started to get this numb feeling too.I dont care if i wake up tomorrow.I dont care if i die today.It will be much better if i do die,but im not that lucky.I stopped trying.IÂ just want to stop existing.Everything was too painful.But then i got numb.I dont know whats better.Im sorry for this stupid post,but i had to let it out,i guess.
So I have been kinda down lately. I started writing in a journal again to help me with my english project and memories began spilling out. I’m 16 years old, and I have been a cutter since i was 12. It has never been much, nothing too serious, but it scars. I would always get in trouble with my parents, they would yell and scream about everything. Lots of times they would scream at each other and lots of times at me. It was cause I failed my test, or screwed up again or wasn’t good enough or was annoying. I’m never good enough. I’m […]
the pain we all feel is terrible and unfair..
but we all need to know that someone in there..
and even if were all far apart..
we can all feel each other in our hearts
the deepest darkest black we have all felt inside
sometimes the world is a place we despise
but we need to all love and have compassion for each other
cause we have all been through some pain one way or another
we all let it out weather we get high or cut to feel in control
but the power to stop the power to feel good we all behold
the […]
Why do I keep fucking shit up? Why am I so stupid? I just… Feel like I am no good to anyone. I feel like all I do is screw shit up. I have nowhere to go, no friends that I can rant to freely without them getting annoyed and I’m left to this site. I have hit rock-bottom, and my last resort was this website.
Tell me, how pathetic does that sound? A site called The Suicide Project is where I go to when I need to vent. Yeah, most may call me lucky: I’ve been accepted into an amazing cosmetology school, I’m a model, […]
I have 4 amazing wonderful people who I call my best friends, the thing is I don’t Think one of them likes me very much we’ll hang out always after me initiating something sometimes they’ll let me crash at their house when I’m lucky, but I can’t escape the feeling that I just get more out of their presence then they ever do get out of mine, I feel awful knowing I’m just a charity case, they all know I cut I don’t know the extent of what they know about my plan for suicide I don’t really want any of them to know, they probably […]
I’m starting to feel as if nobody understands, and even worse, I don’t think anybody cares to understand. No one knows. It’s like I’m falling off a cliff, scrambling to hold on. I’ve found a root, but that root can’t hold on forever. It’s almost done, it’s about to give way, and I crashed.
I go through life like a dream, it’s almost like clockwork. 10 AM, depressed, won’t talk to anybody, just trying to keep from bawling. 12 PM, happy-go-lucky, bouncing off the walls, so excited. 2 PM, depressed again. I constantly wonder, what’s the point? Why even bother?
I’m not enjoying myself, and I’ll admit, […]
I wrote this in response to someone who just posted, and thought I’d share it with whoever needs to see it right now.
I have lived with Chronic illness and Pain for most of my life. I’ve been suicidal many times, have attemped many times, and am today…choosing to live for today. That’s all I can do.
If you’re thinking you can kill yourself, please read this first.
I lived through taking enough narcotics (over 100) and alcohol. I woke up in a psych hospital a week later. Apparently I was found too late to do anything for me other than see if I woke up. I don’t […]
Dear Shekiera,
I words can’t possibly express how much I miss you, everyday I think about you, sometimes with a smile on my face and other times with tears. I remember the first time I met you, you were grade one and I was in grade two. we were both shy, socially awkward and got along great because we didn’t have to say alot to have a good time. back in grade two I can’t remember exactly what we would talk about, but I remember that we used to walk around and talk about “what if’s” and “when I’m older I’m going to’s”. You see, Shekiera, […]
Ok so I posted a little poem I wrote on here called Wake Up Call. I wrote it quite a while ago actually, but I didn’t know how I could make it work. How was I supposed to end my life in a way that woke people up? But thanks to a stroke of luck, that problem has been solved, so I decided to post the poem. And I decided to put up some backstory here: Very recently I went to an old friend’s house. His uncle was in town and he had brought his key to a gun safe they keep at my friend’s […]
Everything today has gone to shit….
My brother just waking up and going to watch tv somehow got on my nerves
I had a credit card company call and leave a message
I had a bike stolen a while ago which was given to me by my landlord and she just asked where it was…. (least of my problems)
I lost a friend and I don’t know why… I just woke up and all of the sudden shes unfriended me…. 🙁 this one hurts the most…
I ruined my plant – I was trying to change the cycle to make it bud, covering it with a garbage bag, and now […]
Reading some of the posts here just break my heart. There are so many people that have been, or – in some cases, currently subject to the most hideous abuses by those that are supposed to care for them. Those with drug addicted or alcoholic parents, those that are being physically and sexually abused by members of their own family, or even worse.  It makes the trials and tribulations of my formative years, whilst far from idyllic, seem like paradise in comparison.
Then, there are those for whom fortune has gone and taken a great big dump all over them. These are the people that were […]
I am 15 years old & i have always been known as the happy friend (in my group of 14 friends.)
This past year everything has stopped being good. Life has been pretty shit since, and the worst happened back in september… my mum and dad split up. Dads foond someone new and my mum is attempting to move on after the worse depression i have ever seen her in:/
Its hard for me because i was ‘daddies little girl’. But he has a new family now and i see him once or twice a week if im lucky… i hate not seeing him everyday.
Also to make things better, […]
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