Home Tags Posts tagged with "Mask"
Tag:

Mask

Hello world.

by tristan
written by tristan

I am 27. And I havent accomplished anything in all this time.

Two years ago I attempted to kill myself, and obviously I failed. I got caught and then I was forced to talk to people, who told me that life was worth living, that suicide wasn’t the answer, that I should try harder, that my life would have some purpose. Two years later, and its still the same. The thought of death haunts me more often.

I keep pretending I’m so happy and ok, but this mask is fading away and I cannot keep it up, the truth is that I am slipping away, the truth is […]

Continue Reading
3 comments
0 Email

I want to be ………?

by Unique
written by Unique

What do you want?

Life can be very difficult, I know how bad it can get, The pain of losing someone is second to none. If you know that pain then i am truly sorry for you. How about that I’m starting to tear up in a public internet cafe in Delhi, and i already kind of stick out!!

Things that have helped me, I mediated three times a day, it is an amazing stress release and it helps me loads, I try to surround myself in friends and new people. Do not hide away, sometimes you need to be alone, but do not linger, loneliness breads depression […]

Continue Reading
4 comments
0 Email

I actually rarely really complain about things that matter.

by christina--
written by christina--

I dont want attention. I dont want anyones pity. I dont want people to tell me how I was wronged in this big bad world. I dont want people touching me, hugging me..
I dont want to acknowledge how hard I have been hitting rock bottom for months. Not months, years.  Ive been hitting it over and over again, and I think I finally managed to break the ground and go beneath it.

What I really want is for someone to hold me. Not just a hug. I want to be hold all night to wake up in those same arms the next morning. I want […]

Continue Reading
0 comment
0 Email

Falling and Broken

by DawnKnight
written by DawnKnight

Every day I wake up without the woman I love next to me in bed. She left my bed because of some slight that she will not talk to me about. I work hard to supply our family with a good life but it never seems e-nuff for her. We have not made love in almost a year now. She can not work because she has hurt herself at work that was three years ago. So I take on all the overtime to make up the money she does not bring in any more. Then she hit’s me […]

Continue Reading
5 comments
0 Email

Myself Untitled….

by sleepxdeath
written by sleepxdeath

I am not much of a social person.

Yes normally, I do tend to be on my top guard.

It is only when I think I am in love, then I do tend to loosen up my guard, but just a bit.

I am more of a complexed; frustrated person. I am more of an emotional kind of lover.

I overprotect friends who tends to be in harms way, if not, I still have the habit to.

When I loosen up my guard, I am usually a day dreamer.

I am usually a quiet person who just preplans and happily thinks about her future.

Yes I tend to get over the top at times.

Not […]

Continue Reading
5 comments
0 Email

My failure to die

by Blackart13
written by Blackart13

hey guys just joined up, my story is about my failure to die.
it doesn’t begin in any fancy way, just with a girl, why is it always a girl? it’s been 10 years since i fell in love with her, both of us were nine years old at the time. but there never seemed like a time for us. for years we remained friends, best friends, but as close as we were it just never happened, i could never say how i felt. then she started seeing those guys, just in it for her looks and her body. she was clever enough never to […]

Continue Reading
1 comment
0 Email

N915

by J.D.
written by J.D.

I am going to die- something I always think about yet never do. There’s no one to talk to, no one to rant to, no one that truly understands me… Not that anyone needs to- if you’re going to care, don’t leave me. a majority of people I told eventually left me- why? Was i too crazy for you? Didn’t you understand me? You didn’t want to associate with a suicidal, depressed, freak? Is that it? It is absolutely the worst feeling in the world. i can’t connect with many people- you can’t just TRY to relate something to me -or even LYING – just […]

Continue Reading
5 comments
0 Email

So Close…

by grimlynotperfect
written by grimlynotperfect

Im that girl thats not perfect..

I act happy and smile,and help people with their problems..but not with my own.I use to tell others how I felt..everyone knew what was on my mind..If i was sad everyone would know,if i was happy as well.And everyone knew what was going on with me and my family..I use to be like that when I moved to my new school.Everyone was kind and I had problems..I didnt do it for attention..I did it for help..

Nowadays I keep it stored inside.If someone asks me how im doing ill say okay,or fine.But thats far from the truth..

Ive tried to kill myself […]

Continue Reading
11 comments
0 Email

Anxious but Tired

by SomeMalaise
written by SomeMalaise

Did some chores earlier and I’m drained. Windex, Pine Sol, Soap and Pledge all help make cleaning possible. Also make the lungs burn with a mask on to boot. I’m feeling tired and a tad weak. The kind of tired that you’re unable to sleep. Add onto that some anxiety. This brain takes a lot to quiet it down and the solution is to overwork till I can no longer hold a lot of weight. Till my heart pounds like I’ve done a dash. Till my hips feel like water. Thankfully I didn’t do that kind of work. The kind that aggravates the hips. But […]

Continue Reading
0 comment
0 Email

Love Hurts…

by sleepxdeath
written by sleepxdeath

Now I understand how you feel

You felt like you were dying

You felt like there wasn’t any hope left

When you see couples

All you wanted to do was cry

End your life

You felt left out

When you were with your friends

All you showed was your mask

But inside

You were being killed

Slowely

Painfully

Desiring your special person

Your love

… Your one and only

Maybe you’re future

 

Continue Reading
13 comments
0 Email

Still Kicking Feebly

by thefailure
written by thefailure

I don’t know why I’m even bothering, but what the hell. I’m still here. Still not in the pokey, either, though I suspect I’m running out of time.

 

I think I’m sticking around just to piss people off. I’m probably just chickenshit.

 

It dawned on me this morning that if I was someone else looking at my life and my situation, I’d be telling me to fight hell and high water. Even if I lose, I’d still get to take down a few assholes with me. My brother deserves to be in jail for rape. My narcissistic sister needs a serious dose of reality to shatter her […]

Continue Reading
2 comments
0 Email

Mask

by foreversad
written by foreversad

I always put on a fake mask, and try to act like I’m the happiest person in the world. I just put on a fake smile when I am actually dying. I am so tired to pretend, so I decided to take it off. It’s been so long that I finally decided to take it off, but I don’t know the person under it. Now it seems that no one cares about the girl under the mask. I don’t know who I am, and nobody does either. So I put on the mask on again. I want to die so badly, but I am scared […]

Continue Reading
1 comment
0 Email

The Mask

by gabe
written by gabe

I posted a while back explaining a lot of what has been happening that has driven me back into a depression i had finally escaped last summer.  I’ve been trying to figure out who i am to see if maybe i can convince myself that i actually deserve this life i’ve been given.  But i honestly don’t know who i am, and i don’t think i ever did.  I put a mask on when i was young so no one would see that i was slowly dying inside, and i lost whoever i was to this mask.  I feel almost no emotions anymore, i force […]

Continue Reading
7 comments
0 Email

hell

by plagued4
written by plagued4

i hate my life!! i don’t see the point in this world. maybe this is hell… seem like it is bc most people have to understand that they have to shut their fucking mouths bc it hurts other people way to much. people need to know what it is like to live lives like us. we need to teach them all the hell they are putting us threw. all i want to do is die the only thing that keeps me hear is my mother. my ex best friend just has to be a ***** to me and that makes me depressed even more. if she hates me so much why doesn’t […]

Continue Reading
0 comment
0 Email

Threw the dice 1 last time and it came up lose

by Darkpheonix
written by Darkpheonix

I tried this time I really did, but it seems no matter how hard I try I can’t be happy and slip back into depression harder than before. I hide behind a fake smile, I always have, but now I can’t even be bothered to put that mask on anymore. I genuinely tried to change my life and be happy but it hasn’t worked, just like the previous times I’ve tried. Therapy has never worked, pills have never worked and trying to be proactive has never worked. Maybe I’m just broke, but the problem is there doesn’t seem to be a fix. I tried to […]

Continue Reading
4 comments
0 Email

I let the mask slip and someone in

by Darkpheonix
written by Darkpheonix

My first post on here after reading the posts for a while.

I let someone in for the first time in years, 11 to be exact, but now I feel worse than ever! I’m 22 and since I was 11 I’ve dealt with feelings of being worthless and being made to feel like I was unwanted, by friends and family and even people I didn’t know. I’ve dealt with being alone for 11 years, I had come to terms with it and even though feelings of depression and suicide would take over from time to time I had found my own ways of dealing with […]

Continue Reading
6 comments
0 Email

behind the mask is the worst part

by plagued4
written by plagued4

Once when I was little I was happy and carefree I used to run around laughing
Until it was time for tea I used to play games And smile all the time I used to feel on top of the world I used to feel fine It’s amazing how things change When people let you down And how that once happy face Turns into a solemn frown
You search and search For someone who cares Anyone who understands Anyone who dares Loneliness, it hurts It kills you deep inside It makes you feel empty It stops you in your stride You cry yourself to sleep Hugging your pillow tight Wishing for someone To hold you through the night Once when I was little I was happy and carefree Now […]

Continue Reading
1 comment
0 Email

Fucked up…

by jasiel_bvb
written by jasiel_bvb

Hey, so I guess the title says it all. I am fucked up. And I’m only 11. I started noticing that I was anorexic when I was 8, I didn’t like eating. I never knew why, and I’m still suffering anorexia… this month has been one of the worst. First of I lost and amount of weight (im underweight), so then I can’t see my only true love, and he hasn’t texted nor call for about a week now. I don’t only suffer anorexia, but cutting, suicidal, and they say I have mental health problems as well. My cutting started in 4th grade, when my […]

Continue Reading
0 comment
0 Email

Just so tired now..

by Optout
written by Optout

I’m tired. That’s all, just tired – of everything. I’ve carried a diagnosis of depression for a long time, but I’ve always managed to keep going in spite of it. Not anymore. I’m just too tired.  I don’t think many people understand what it means to be tired like this -  it isn’t the ‘I need to take a nap or get a good night’s sleep’ kind of tired – no, this is a bone-deep, soul-weary, insidious form of torment, an uncertain affliction of indeterminate etiology and obfuscate symptomatology;  a weariness that persists and will not abate.

I want it over. I don’t want ‘help’, I’ve […]

Continue Reading
2 comments
0 Email

I’m such a failure that I can’t even succeed in Killing myself… :(

by AmericanBeauty
written by AmericanBeauty

I have pushed so many people away from my life… I’m so sick of being fake around people… if I’m genuinely not happy with myself I don’t want to be around others nor do I want to bring them down… I just want to be left alone to deal with my own emotion and problems.

Being Adhd and Autistic isn’t easy for me, during my teens I’ve done a lot of drugs as an outlet to help me express myself since so much I felt I was suppressed through society, school, parents…  even though now I don’t smoke or pop pills anymore I just don’t feel […]

Continue Reading
2 comments
0 Email
Newer Posts
Older Posts