My name is delta.
Ive tried to commit suicide 3 times now.
I still think about it alot but i was in the hospital for a month about 7 months ago so ive been better.
If anyone wants to message me go ahead.
I have had a horrible day. I’m laying in bed with my method beside me. Today a guy sent me a message asking for nudes. When I wouldn’t send I was sent a message saying “alright fatty, whatever you need Jesus”. People are so cruel and I can barley keep my head above water on a good day and on a bad day I want it to end and tonight I am trying to list every reason I shouldn’t end it. I will never just be a good enough person for anyone.
I am ready to give up. I wrote a pathetic note yesterday and tried all day to hang myself. I didn’t succeed like many others before me. I am desperate.
I am desperate to go. Considered jumping. Not a freeway like the idiot yesterday on the 101 but a peaceful cliff or a bridge. Where death is certain…
Ever since middle school I’ve always wanted a bf. Almost every night I would cry because I thought no one would ever love me. When I was 18, my best friend introduce me to a guy. We started emailing each other a lot. I get really bad anxiety but that one day I decided to meet him. He picked me up, all he wanted was sex. He kept pressuring me to do it so I felt like I had to. So I lost my virginity to him. He totally left me after that. I was heart broken and sad again. I met this guy on […]
One day one day not feeling alone one day smiling and thinking it’ll be alright one day is all I got ik it won’t ever really be though always alone anyone else lonely feel free to message me I care and am easy to talk to usually kik is itsjustianmooneok email is shiftydaytoday@gmail.com
Lately things haven’t been looking up to me. It’s been brining me down to my lowest point, to the point were I don’t feel like my family or friends care about me anymore and I want to die. Everyone always compares me to someone I’m not and that makes me wish I was someone else. I wrote my suicide note out to my closest friends incase I make the drastic decision. I know who to send the message to and hopefully they will allow me to go in peace. I’m not taking my life anytime soon (I don’t think) but if things don’t look up […]
One of my current first world peeves includes the sent, delivered, and received indicators on messaging applications for smart phones. The two big ones in particular are whatsapp and kik, I find myself in a perpetual struggle to direct my attention away from them. They add an agonizing level of suspense to every conversation, and when on the receiving end they add an overwhelming obligation to reply to every message a friend gifts you. I feel as though I’ve been robbed of my anonymity, and the sanctity of a lie has been turned to rubbish. I can no longer say, “I was away from […]
Thursday night was suppose to be my last night alone. I was suppose to be so excited I wouldn’t be able to sleep. I was suppose to be freaking out all Friday for the moment I got the message to come open my door. Well it didn’t happen. I doubt it will happen today either. I guess I can play with the dogs sometime today before I drink the night away watching SEC.
Is anyone else on here a Military spouse or SOS?
after my one day stent in the ER, and the 5 day stent in the psyche ward, I became close to a lot of people in there. I exchanged phone numbers with about 5 people. They was like family to me. When I tried to call em, it all went directly to voicemail and I left a message but nobody returned my calls. Me and this one guy was planning on meeting up and going fishing.
My fear is – what if they just felt that fellowship on the inside, but once they got out they moved on? I heard stories about prisoners who promised to […]
Through separation and divorce I have lost everything other than court appointed contact with my family: the ex-wife/best friend, my son, my 2 dogs. It feels like the work I’ve done to try and make this all come together as a family was for nothing. And it was.
Two weeks ago, I shot .375 grams of pure crystal meth into my arm and gave myself tachycardia but died slowly enough for the doctors to save me.
Monday, my legal benzo analogues came in the mail. They’re like xanax on steroids. I took a couple handfuls (that stopped my heart) and then woke up today with no memory […]
I am Married woman I had lot of trust on my husband but it was broken when i found some romantic message from a woman to him in his mobile i had not taken it seriously but whenever i checked his message then it was deleted again i found the message from that woman to him then i asked him who she is? he just behaved that he don’t know the lady but latter on he just confessed her name to me but didn’t said me who she is? i also didn’t pressurize him. problem is that i can’t overcome from the thoughts so most […]
Everywhere on social media, men and women post perfect pictures of their bodies and faces, making it look like their imperfections are inexistent and unreal. We, as normal, maybe even weird, human beings – look at these people as our role models and ‘omg, goals‘. We never really think about the face hidden underneath those layers of foundation and filters, or the extra curves in one’s body.
It’s all about the look, right?
Makeup isn’t a sin, so aren’t filters. Looking beautiful isn’t a sin. But being cruel towards those who are physically and facially inferior to you is a sin.
You can have a flawless body, and have a heart of […]
Like still, in the realm
From the flow
Like it’s all my fault
The Sun shines, but oh-no
We don’t got a boat but a raft
Holy, I don’t want to be
Tomorrow too late, only
What happened to the circle
How do we take it back, to one
I injured thou pincer
I guess I hope, that you got my lost bottle of messages
Maybe, from the voice of Espeon, go play with Umbreon
Horsea, and which is he
I know he had struggles though I know nothing more than what was posted over the past 15 or so days. I haven’t seen him post since his last message that said his time was drawing to an end that night after two unsuccessful attempts. He was lonely and without hope. I don’t know if he is around (though I hope he is) or not but regardless I still light a candle for him.
I don’t have a lot of friends and it stinks because here lately I have needed someone to tell me to stay but no one is there. Maybe any of you could just help me by being my friend. Message me on Kik if you can. My name is Chipmunk0529
My girlfriend doesn’t want to see me anymore as of yesterday.
She’s 20 years older than me, and is dealing with a lot of shit from her past marriage. I wanted move in and take care of her, which she wanted, too; but she’s stopped trying with us, and has decided to focus on the problems she had before we met.
I found myself briefly considering other women, but I feel numb. I loved her! I gave her everything I had, and I feel like I’m betraying her by considering other women! I feel like if I wait one more week, she’ll message me back and want me […]
If you want a heart monitor connected to a final death message as proof of death say yes…
My kik is itsjustianmooneok
anybody can message me to talk about anything
Since my last (serious) post, I made this pic and put it as the wallpaper on my phone. It’s a question to myself only. The point was to see if it felt right or wrong or somewhere outside of that. Having sat with it for a couple of days, I’ve accepted it and thought it felt good. I always wanted to go out close to or on my birthday, but last winter was too fucking cold and I said I want to be comfortable when I do it. With that said, I feel like I’ve lost a best friend. It felt like we were really […]
He said he cared, he said he would never leave. When I tried to push him away he wouldn’t let me. Until he got drunk and his friends saw he had a message from me. Now I lost him. And I don’t know how to cope. He says he needs to work through his things. So i guess I have to hope he comes back once he does. It hasn’t even been a week but it’s been torture. What do I do. Do I try to talk to him? Or do I forget him.