When you kissed me farewell,
Your lips left a mark on my cheek.
Strands of feather locks tickled my skin,
And your scent built a nest in my memory.
You took a piece of me with you that night, and it got tangled up in your noose.
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Mother
So, I found out for the first time in 20 years that I was right.. Being married did NOT give him permission.
When I said NO and when I was asleep and woke up with him on top of me it was NOT consensual.
Multiple times over a long span of time I lived in Hell because it was his ‘right’ as my husband.
FUCK YOU – YOU LOUSY MISERABLE SONOFABITCH – HOW DARE YOU DO THAT TO ME? HOW DARE YOU!
HATE and ANGER and DEPRESSION and MISERY and its all because of YOU, YOU BASTARD
I want to SCREAM – all these fucking years like this because I WAS […]
Music is being abused
People are being used
And me
I’m still confused
On why I’m here
Why I’m alive
To only survive
The cruelty and ridicule
Of others
Save me
Mother
Hear me
Brother
Oh
I’m alone
I miss me
And missed me
All at once
What was important then
Is now non-existent, leaving, or changing
Sorta like me
I’m a lot like life
With these
Hollow bones
Mother’s day. I don’t know……
I just gotta say you shouldn’t just appreciate your mom on mother’s day, you should appreciate her every single day. One day when she’s long gone you won’t be able to to tell her how much she means to you or how much you love her. One day she will be gone and you won’t get another.
I gotta admit, I wasn’t the best daughter. I always had some type of anger problems with her. Like sometimes, I have to say, and it hurts to say it, I would hit her. I would get mad and I would be rude. I wouldn’t […]
I wonder what my mom would like for mother’s day. Flowers? Perfume? A hug? Maybe from her daughters! That’s right she doesn’t count me as a daughter. She’d probably like it better if she could sign a certificate to disown me. I can sort of give her that.
My mother has two daughters (half siblings who are in their mid-twenties) whom she has always loved and adored. They got anything that they asked for and more. Me? The COMPLETE opposite. I barely got attention infact the only attention I ever got was negative. Neither of my parents have ever told me that they loved me. But […]
Silence is my insanity,
Mother, Mother, stop beating me.
Silence is my laughter,
Father, Father, don’t slaughter her.
We all make mistakes, We all make mistakes,
Stop all this madness and remove all the breaks.
Silence is my sanity,
So why won’t it help me?
I truly do not understand the point of my life.. for a long time now I haven’t been able to picture a future. Like I don’t have one, like I’m meant to die young. But I just recently found out that that is actually a symptom of my ptsd. Which was kind of disappointing because it doesn’t change the fact that I still don’t see my living past a few years and honestly I’d rather not. I don’t want to live anymore. I’ve been feeling like that for years and the more time goes on the more intense it feels. I do not see a […]
I want a mom, a mom who cares for me a mom who loves me, i just need support from her, caring and loving that’s all i want. Someone who can just sit around tell me how much there proud of me, someone who looks at me like i was worth something, someone who believes and me and that don’t trow me away like a piece of shit over school grades… Mom what did i ever did to you, i’m sorry i was born, i’m so sorry, i know you regrets it, you’ve told me so many times, i see it, i know it, Mom […]
I really need someone to listen to my story and my feelings. I am in a position where I can really get the help I need and don’t really have anyone to talk to. Even if I did, there are some things I can’t really tell them.
This is really long, but it would really save me if someone can read it and respond…and maybe talk to me.
So, I am just going to pour out my feelings here. A lot of what I write will be vague, because I can’t divulge my identity (I’ll explain why later.)
Recently I’ve felt very suicidal for a lot of reasons. […]
What will be re-alive
I am the Muk
Reached into the dark
A deepest, never to be
I walk because I die
To live
Is the mold beneath
Afraid to wonder
But no matter
The ground below
Maybe we’ll go
Where can we
The year of the horse
The earth, the metal
You are strong, of all
Your creation, my Gaia
My celestial Mother
Two-thousand years, and you bleed
I RAISED MY SON TELL HE WAS EIGHT YEARS OLD, THEN HIS MOTHER DECIDED TO TAKE HIM BACK. HE IS NOW 25 YEARS OLD. I WASNT ABLE TO TALK TO HIM TELL HE WAS 16 YEARS OLD WHEN HIS MOTHER WANTED ME TO TAKE HIM BACK. HE DIDNT WANT TO COME BACK TO WASHINGTON, BECAUSE HE HAD A GIRL FRIEND THERE AND DIDNT WANT TO LEAVE HER.
HIS MOTHER THEN THROUGH HIM OUT AT 16, BECAUSE MY SON AND HIS MOTHERS BOYFRIEND DIDNT GET ALONG. ANYWAY, ME AND MY SON STARTED TALKING THROUGH EMAIL. ONE DAY HE WOULDNT ANSWER MY EMAILS FOR ALMOST SIX MONTHS. […]
I started out in a hell hole. I was born to a family that was a mix of two. One brother from my mother and one from my father. The one that lived with us was James (names have been changed). I was two and james was 10. So, one day our parents up and left. James had to look after me for about a week I think. When they came back, they were mad. The mother threw me into a window. My brother tried to protect me and ended up getting all his fingers bent backwards for it. Next door heard the screaming and […]
I mean we’ve never really been financially stable it seems with a father who doesn’t seem to give a shit about how he spends his money then again he was raised on a farm so I’m sure its hard for him to adopt to life here but it sure would help if he at least acted to give a fuck about us at all -_-… anyways yes Money always seems to be a problem n My Mom is always stressing about it she works so hard n we still never have enough she has these talks with Me about what I should do with My […]
I don’t know what to say, or how to say it. I’m scared of being home. I have been for a long time. I know it’s not abuse, because it’s not physical, but I’m getting worse again, and I’m scared to call CPS because they’ll see nothing wrong….
My mother, she says she cares, and only wants the best for me, but she says things with a hidden meaning. In other words, she says one thing, and she has a hidden meaning behind it. She’ll say things like “It’s so much easier shopping for your sister, because she is perfect for anything.” and means “You’re always […]
so hi… to be honest i dont know what i am supposed to put on here so im going to try this. yes i am very sad,
no my dad doesnt rape me. no my family does not hit me. actually my moms side of the family is nice ..
my dad does drink all the time. my mom is very stressed, my sister hates everything and my brother is bullied, people are very mean to me for being diffrent , and liking things normal 14 year olds would like… im the girl you walk by in the mall who has eye liner every where and all black […]
I’m absolutely fucked. No one knows but its true. If your read this through than you’ll know but those that know me they won’t know, i’ll make sure of it. I’m 18 years old, just finished high school and going to be starting college next year. This absolutely should be the best time of my life right, or at least that’s what all those movies made me believe. I’m the one in the family that you probably get compared to. The one who is polite and behaves and has never had a boyfriend even though shes smart and easy to talk to. The reality is […]
I don’t normally tell people about what I’ve been through and well since this is a website where no judgement will be placed on a person if they express themselves, I might as well use this opportunity to release some of my pains and emotions.
This is just a summary….
Hi my name is__________________.
I’m a girl with many fears and very little memory of what I’ve done in the past. I can only remember the key points in my life that really messed me up, it’s rare that I’m able to remember something happy.
I’m 19 years old. I have two half sisters, that I’ve never met. Me […]
Hello. I’m new here just like I’m apparently new in life. I’m sixteen years old and was diagnosed with depression earlier this year, but was suicidal for give or take two years before that. I have a messy family past, abusive father who tried to commit suicide right in front of me – not because he was suicidal, he was just a manipulative and sick bastard – and now I live with my mom, stepfather and my little sister. We’ve been through a lot of crap with my mother – including this whole daddy issue, alcoholic grandparents, her own depression and slight abuse from my stepdad. It’s […]
This will be my first post on here, it’s probably going to be long winded so I honestly hope that someone will read this. So here goes… I’m an 18 year old guy, obviously very much troubled with life like the rest of us on here. My Mother had me at the age of 24 and my biological Father for whatever reason left her (still to this date any relative is reluctant to give information on him) She then met my Step Father when I was 4 and that’s when things began to spiral down. They had children, and I was pushed a side, became […]
I might kill myself. I think I am going to use the “exit” bag method with helium as my choice of gas. I can’t take the constant pain, guilt, worry, and sadness anymore. My parents are so disappointed in me. I am everything they never wanted. Unlike my younger sister, my grades are poor, I’m a drug addict, an overall failure. My dad constantly reminds me about how he refuses to pay for my college expenses since I am such a bad student. Constantly asking me, “Which college do you think you will be accepted into?”, in a rude tone. My dad always makes snarky […]