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Motivation

Looking for motivation

by ataria-coronaria 2/22/2018

written by ataria-coronaria

It’s 5am where I am and I’m embarking on another night of staying up late, alone.

I really need to fix my sleeping schedule but no matter how early I try to go to bed, my thoughts keep me awake.

When I do actually succeed in being in bed asleep by 2am, I still sleep until past 3pm anyway because I just can’t get out of bed. I wake up a few times but then feel a crushing weight of “I can’t do this” and I go back to bed. I swear I only wake up to pee or else I’d never get up.

Does anyone have any […]

2/22/2018 1 comment

Updating as promised + Advice, study related

by Urm8451n 1/30/2018

written by Urm8451n

Tomorrow is the beginning of February, which holds with in it 4 major finals.

To start with I want to say sorry for the last disturbing posts.
I use uppers [- Ritalin- ] to treat my ADHD, and it definitely causes heavy downs and other irrelevant side effects.

I’ve promised to update: I decided to let go of this site for a while, let go off whatsapp, facebook, 9gag and etc.
I know myself, and I know what I need for my own good.

Plans motivates me best, and I will from now on, focus on the studying and on the craving of achieving 100.
—- […]

1/30/2018 1 comment

Why is it always a tragedy?

by an_old_child 1/3/2017

written by an_old_child

You have no idea how many times I typed all that down and deleted it. (I am referring to the story of my thoughts by “that”)

it all seems great and wonderful when it is inside my brain, but when i say it aloud (or in this case; type it down) it seems sarcastically unimportant.

i haven’t lived for about two years. everything has changed, suddenly and adversely. i don’t feel good at all.

yes! i don’t feel good at all! that’s the best way to explain it.

1/3/2017 2 comments

Current State of Affairs

by QuixoticNomad 8/30/2016

written by QuixoticNomad

Behaviors: depression; no motivation; unable to be stimulated; hypomania; anxiety; inability to focus.

I’m in a healthy state of mind approximately >1% of the month.

Current medications and past treatments: Geodon, Seroquel, Klonopin, Adderall, Trintellix; received TMS

Myers-Briggs: INTJ

I’m rapid cycling. If I’m not depressed I find myself to be either slightly hypomanic or fully hypomanic. I phase through having motivation and not having motivation; in either case because of the recurring depression or hypomania I’m unable to pursue stimulating and impassioned ideas or activities that I know from the core of my being would make me a happy and mentally healthy person.

My teenage and young-adult life were filled with passions […]

8/30/2016 1 comment

Proud of Myself

by InhalingAnxiety 11/20/2015

written by InhalingAnxiety

Last night after work, I washed dishes AND I made supper for me and my boyfriend.

Many of you guys understand with depression it’s hard to get yourself to do anything. It’s hard to become motivated or even get out of bed. And it’s really been bad for me lately. I usually put all my energy and motivation into going to work, and even then I miss a day every other week. So it’s hard to come home from work and do anything that needs done. I usually just want to go to bed when I get home.

I know I haven’t accomplished much, but for me […]

11/20/2015 6 comments

Motivation

by NoBuddy 4/28/2015

written by NoBuddy

I kept complaining until I met a man charging no pair of shoes without legs.!

4/28/2015 0 comment

Think everyone here can relate to this song… The Bravery – “Believe”

by B 1/25/2015

written by B

Not only is this a great song, but I’d imagine that these lyrics can be interpreted by everyone here on a much deeper level than even intended.

1/25/2015 0 comment

Change

by Jetaime_96 12/11/2014

written by Jetaime_96

Yesterday I nearly killed myself. I sat on the floor in the shower screaming, rocking back and forth. & Today, I feel as if that never happened although my cuts on my wrist burn. I’m feeling relaxed though and I found some motivation! I went to physical therapy today and It hit me. That’s what I’d like to go to school for. I haven’t done homework in at least over a year. I didn’t care about anything, but I’m smiling because I finally have the slightest bit of motivation. I have been dying for that.

12/11/2014 11 comments

The thing that makes me think twice

by NoteInnocent 7/1/2014

written by NoteInnocent

Hello readers, I’m just your other ‘regular’ near-suicidal person…
Just like any other people who wants to die, my life isn’t really sunshine and rainbows hahaha…
I’m not so unfortunate to be an orphan, a slave, or handicapped, and I’m not confident to say ‘My life is the worst’ or ‘I’m the most miserable person on earth’…no, nothing like that…
I began my suicide thoughts when i’m at 5th and 6th grade in elementary school. you know, bullying and family problems ^^… in 6th grade i really tried to kill myself by “ Smoke from burning a BBQ in a sealed room” type of suicide. […]

7/1/2014 2 comments

What now

by dj47 8/21/2013

written by dj47

So now stuff was going amazing was working out found the right people and now.. I’m not living at home a few hours away living in a basement parents don’t want me back stuff was pretty shit befor I was arrested in my bedroom about 2 weeks now going to be going in to foster care if I’m not accepted in to some program and I would be there for a year then idk were I think back home but my bestfriend it feels like he s replacing me. I’ve been failing school and this was suppose to be the turn around year and none […]

8/21/2013 1 comment

I Feel useless

by sleeplessinSTL 7/26/2013

written by sleeplessinSTL

I woke up this morning and felt numb. When I look in the mirror I see a glassy-eyed freak. I don’t get up in the morning and feel good. I just bury my head deeper into the pillows. I don’t have a purpose anymore. I feel so useless.They say that everyone has a purpose, but I don’t. I don’t have motivation, and the things I used to have passion for don’t matter anymore.

7/26/2013 7 comments

within a month

by materiauser 7/25/2013

written by materiauser

Pretty sure I’ll be doing it within a month. I’ve decided on a hanging, I’ve looked into the subject a lot and the best options are expensive, and the other options can leave you pretty messed up. Hanging can too of course but has a higher success rate and is cheap to do. I knew a guy who tried shooting himself in the hospital during a previous attempt so even guns aren’t a guarantee but nothing is really. I don’t really expect anyone to read this, I notice most posts on here don’t have comments, so either no one reads or no one cares. That’s […]

7/25/2013 2 comments

Fucking fed up.

by TJ. 7/24/2013

written by TJ.

Eleven years. It’s been eleven years since I’ve had control over my emotions. Since I have felt any sense of normalcy or joy.

Medication after medication. None of them have worked.

Electro shock therapy. Gave me six months of relief before I relapsed, and my psychiatrist is convinced that the habits and anxiety and addictions that I never used to have before the ECT would have happened anyway. When I went through the treatment, I had no memory of anything for months straight. I forgot how to drive, where I was half the time, and each session was nightmarish.

Speaking of my psychiatrist, since I’ve started seeing him, […]

7/24/2013 0 comment

Reasons for suicide and Reasons to live

by PainNlife 7/15/2013

written by PainNlife

Reasons to commit suicide

IÂ don’tÂ love myself or self hatred
I have low self esteem
I lost all my friends
irreversibly damaged reputation and social standing with family
future is bleak
No ambition or motivation to set goals
So much regret for pass choices and decisions
inability to forgive myself and move on
credit score is in the trash
hard to get and keep a job and contribute financially to household
burden on family members
I hate living day to day repeating the same shit (eat,shit,sleep,wake-up,repeat)
I hate being weak
I am fearful of what my future will most likely become (homeless,broke,ostracized,lonely etc)
Pain of remembering the past and unable to return
I hate knowing I am a failure in life
To get […]

7/15/2013 33 comments

This is my story.

by unconvention4l 6/14/2013

written by unconvention4l

Hey guys, my name is Fabienne, I’m 17 and from New Zealand and I have been at war with myself since I was born. Literally. Mum said ‘you came into this world not really wanting to live’ so I guess life-long depression is my diagnosis. I’ve been bullied for having eczema since I was 5, being called names like “Scabby” and things like that, then was ostracized from age 6 through till age 14 at school.Â I moved schools in Spetember 2009 and started to get boys attention for the first time and ended up giving my body to them so I could feel ‘normal’ […]

6/14/2013 3 comments

Alone

by aphex 6/12/2013

written by aphex

So, it’s my Birthday again tomorrow; I’ll be 23. Ever get the feeling of deja vu? Nothing seems to change, aside from an increasing feeling of isolation and a decreasing feeling of motivation for life. I don’t feel human anymore. I don’t want to be alive, I cannot see a way out of my isolation apart from death. Of course, this would seem rather over-dramatic from an outside perspective, from those “just get over it, cheer up!” types. However, for almost a decade now I have had no friends, no connection with others and no affection. I won’t pretend I’m not bitter, because I am, […]

6/12/2013 2 comments

why should i continue to wait

by onthewayout 5/9/2013

written by onthewayout

ive wanted to die for many years, but now that im coming towards my demise I cant help wonder why I keep procrastinating the inevitable. I have court on the 16th for a DUI which has already turned my unlivable life into a complete hell. It started by losing my brother to suicide 4 years ago (I was suicidal way before that, about 12 year). then IÂ managed to move on and live a somewhat decent life until I met “her”. the love of my life that I am still in love with 6 months after we split and she moved away. I never wanted kids […]

5/9/2013 1 comment

I have no idea what I’m doing in life

by JohnDoeIII504 5/4/2013

written by JohnDoeIII504

Hi,

My name is Corey. Â I’m 29 years old and because I have no job and no money, the only choice I have right now is to live with my Grandma and Grandpa. Â I’m at a point in my life where I have no idea what to do anymore. Â I have no job (thus no money) and no prospect of a job. Â Nowadays when I actually have the motivation to go looking for work, I never get any callbacks due to having such a poor record with jobs (I tend to quit jobs frequently and have long gaps in my employment record). Â I’m constantly depressed and […]

5/4/2013 1 comment

Point of Life?

by whatzthepoint 4/28/2013

written by whatzthepoint

Everything I do I end up quitting or giving up on. I have nothing to live for. I mean what is the point. I see a lot of people happy and I see great potential in them to have an amazing life. As much as I wish I could be like them I’m just not and I never will be anything. Other than my family a few close friends I don’t even think people wold care if I died. And I really want to die, but I’m not going to kill myself for two reasons. One, I don’t know how/too scared to do it/don’t want […]

4/28/2013 2 comments

Thinking of ending it.

by Astigea 4/26/2013

written by Astigea

I have reached the a point in my life where certain patterns have repeated themselves. These patterns once thought under control have so gone out of control that the pattern is now a real relative in my life. This pattern at first was just bad emotional output on my part, then the second time occurred and its all the same all over again the exact same way it ended the last time. The last time I lost two very dear things close to me and now I have no chance of ever seeing them again due to my own stupid decision. This time the thing […]

4/26/2013 3 comments

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