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For something, that will stop me jumping, The ground looks so welcoming.

by Rotted_Flesh 11/27/2015

written by Rotted_Flesh

I’m nothing, I’m nothing.
Alone in this apartment, racking my brain,
For something, that will stop me jumping,
The ground looks so welcoming.

I’m nothing, I’m nothing.
Am I being who I want or who I am?
The time has come for me to face, What I’m saying between white space
A change of pace.

Maybe I’ll grow wings, fly somewhere new,
Where I’m all alone, where the skies are blue.

Try to say goodbye, all I do is lie,
Don’t know what to write, carve a picture of the night.
Painting with ink like it’s blood,
Tearing my notebooks apart, To stop myself from going too far.

Maybe […]

11/27/2015 1 comment

One might be touch starved without even knowing it

by nextime1988 11/25/2015

written by nextime1988

I was one of those book worm nerds who started college a virgin up untill then and during all my teenage years i had never had any girlfriends, flings, hook ups……. nothing……

Fast forward to my very first semester in college, most of my class was at the library working on research group assignment.

I was standing bent over the table my group grabbed , when a female classmate gently stroke my back, now there was absolutely nothing sexual, intimate flirty about it she was just grabbing my attention to hand me a book i had asked for.

But the moment she touched me i mean it was […]

11/25/2015 37 comments

Everyone is doing it….

by Salesman 11/24/2015

written by Salesman

My uncle killed himself last week. Drove out into the woods about 10 miles from his house and parked at the end of an old logging road. Tied his belt to his seat and hung himself. He had been missing for a few days before they found him. I wasn’t super close to him. I feel nothing. I want to hate myself for not feeling bad but it is hard to when I feel nothing. It’s hard to judge or hate when I have been considering the same thing for a while. How long did he think about it? What finally pushed him to do […]

11/24/2015 11 comments

Can’t accept it

by dontworry 11/20/2015

written by dontworry

This just doesn’t make sense to me. I’ve always been a very independent person who never really needed anyone. But now that I’ve lost him, it hurts so much to see his face everyday for almost 2 hours and everyday we make eye contact. It’s like we know nothing about each other, we went from lovers and best friends in one to nothing. We know everything about each other. I miss him, the late night conversations, and just the simplest things remind me of him. The way someone says something or the places I go. It bothers me, feels like I’ll never get over him. […]

11/20/2015 1 comment

so…when depression kicks in,severe one, the body should just fucking die, shut down, just like a deadly disease… brain s the power house,if that s not cool…nothing goes.

by alexia 11/20/2015

written by alexia

cause of death: natural cause-depression.

save us all the fucking drama.

11/20/2015 5 comments

I don’t know.

by idkwhattocallmyself 11/19/2015

written by idkwhattocallmyself

I’ve lost control of everything. I am failing the two college classes that I managed to stay in, I’ve lost my closest friends… I can’t manage to even go to my classes because I literally cannot get myself out of bed. I don’t know what I’m doing anymore. I’ve attempted in the past. I’ve cut. I’ve turned to drinking. I’ve stayed in a hospital for a week. I don’t have anything planned and I don’t think I want to do anything but I just don’t know anymore. I don’t seem to know anything except that I can’t seem to do anything I need to do. […]

11/19/2015 6 comments

Dreams better than reality? Why Dream is better than reality? Why is Dreams better than reality?

by niki 11/19/2015

written by niki

Why Dreams is better than reality?
Why is Dream better than reality?
Why is dreams better than reality? Why dream is better than reality?

What puzzles me the most is human’s mind / human’s brains and imagination better than reality / human’s fantasy is better than reality.

for example:
just look at the movies, novels, comics, games, books, , animations (anime / manga), science fiction (sci-fi / sci fi), fantasy , like Star Wars, Harry Potter, Lord of the Rings, Narnia, Final Fantasy, Kingdom Hearts, Swords Art Online, MMORPG , Interstellar , The Matrix , Avengers , X-Men , etc etc, they are much more interesting, full […]

11/19/2015 1 comment

I Am A Bottle

by InhalingAnxiety 11/18/2015

written by InhalingAnxiety

Before, I would fill with emotions until I could no longer hold anymore. When it would become too much, I would overflow and spill to whoever would sit long enough for me to empty.

Now, I expand for my surroundings. Once I have reached the brim, I become deeper to allow more issues to pour in. I am a bottomless bottle. I am no longer required to open up. It is not a necessity to empty, since there is always room for more. I am sealed.

Even if I become too full to carry on, I’m not sure I even know how to create a small leak to lighten […]

11/18/2015 2 comments

Once More (without feeling)

by thehusk 11/17/2015

written by thehusk

I’m sure I’ve written many variations of this here before, but what the hell.

I’m a failure, as a human being. By pretty much any standard you can think of. That’s not going to change. There’s no future version of me that doesn’t feel alone, anxious and exhausted all the time. That can be happy and relaxed around others.

I can’t change the past. I can’t control the way I feel. I can’t really change the world we live in. These things are not mine to decide.

And yet here I am, still alive. For the foreseeable future. So, what do I want to do with this undeserved […]

11/17/2015 2 comments

still laughing at myself

by confused 11/17/2015

written by confused

I’m a doll. A toy. I am not alive. I have no emotions. I feel nothing. I am nothing.

If I keep telling this to myself, I wonder, will I finally stop hurting? Will I finally stop being so sensitive? If I keep telling this to myself, will I eventually believe it? Will it become true?

When will it end? Can’t I just become nothing? Can I not just be empty?

I don’t want to feel pain, or sorrow, or disappointment. I don’t want to hurt anymore. I don’t want to feel lonely anymore. I don’t want to feel joy and happiness and excitement, when it just ends […]

11/17/2015 4 comments

positive changes.

by L0STgirl 11/16/2015

written by L0STgirl

for the first time in a long time I feel happy, and it’s not because of anyone but myself. I feel so empowered. I’m starting to wear my tragedies as armor instead of shackles. life is 10 % what happens to you and 90 % how you react to it. I’m tired of being sad and not feeling like I’m not good enough. I know in my heart I’m worth being saved and if no one is willing to save me I’ll become my own hero. only then can I say I made it. I’m half way there and I won’t stop until the life […]

11/16/2015 2 comments

Protected: All I Can Feel Is ‘The Pain’.

by daitya1989 11/14/2015

written by daitya1989

There is no excerpt because this is a protected post.

11/14/2015 4 comments

Emotion

by nicole123 11/14/2015

written by nicole123

I feel like I don’t really feel anything anymore .

i used to be sad a lot and cry but now I feel nothing .

i don’t really feel excitement, happiness, sadness.

nothing.

i kind of do not care anymore .

I feel worthless and pointless.

11/14/2015 3 comments

Strange medical condition – Social outcast

by witheringdaisies 11/13/2015

written by witheringdaisies

Hello. I’m 19 years old. Female. College student. Living with my mom. I just turned 19 last month. People always tell me that I’m young and I have a whole life ahead of me, and I have so much more to achieve. Well, that’s true, but how could I continue living with this weird sickness that causes everyone to avoid me?

It’s not the physical pain that kills me, it’s the emotional pain brought by it. To be honest, I’m embarrassed to even talk about it to my closest friends. I’ve been on this medical forum and realize there are others like me, and […]

11/13/2015 5 comments

my dream

by sadsadist 11/12/2015

written by sadsadist

Death in glorious combat nothing in my mind can surpass the greatness of that so I’m one step closer everyday my future is a box or urn having a family and living paycheck to paycheck is overrated from what I’ve seen anyways

11/12/2015 14 comments

Lazy, Bad Person

by SlowDeath1 11/12/2015

written by SlowDeath1

So many of my “friends” (i.e. people that I know) have told me that I need to find something that makes me want to live. So I thought and I thought and I thought, and I came up with the fact that books….I can live for books. There are so many books that I can spend my time reading. I’ll never run out of books to read.

So once I figured this out, I started going to the library and checking out 20 and 30 books to read at a time. I’ve begun to read all of the time, spending whole days laid up in bed […]

11/12/2015 5 comments

Protected: Help me.

by daitya1989 11/11/2015

written by daitya1989

There is no excerpt because this is a protected post.

11/11/2015 1 comment

I always feel like there is something missing

by nicole123 11/11/2015

written by nicole123

I always feel like there is something missing .

Ive felt like this since I was like 11.

One day my dad told me my mom had a miscarriage with another child .. My twin. I survived though .

My twin was supposed to be identical. I feel like her being gone is why I feel like a part of me is missing. I don’t know what to do about this .

Shell never be back. So I feel like there isn’t a solution to not feeling this emptiness inside me .

Even when I find someone I really care about or love , they even do not fill up […]

11/11/2015 6 comments

How nice it would be to just die.

by sunshinestate90 11/10/2015

written by sunshinestate90

Ever since I graduated college last year, the meaning in my life has decreased. I’m at a low that I’ve never experienced before. When I was in high school, it was all about teenage angst and being heartbroken from unrequited love. In college I was preoccupied with struggling to get by and remnants of my teenage angst. Now that I’m over my teenage angst and I can see clearer, suddenly life has become so meaningless and so boring. Nothing impresses me. Nothing excites me. I suppose this is called depression? But I have no real reason to be depressed. Sure, I still don’t have a […]

11/10/2015 6 comments

for all of us

by jano.11 11/9/2015

written by jano.11

we guys deserve a much better life .. and we should get it ,, we need to help and to be helped .. we need to rise and will rise .. we need ourlives back and we will take it and pass it to each other .. we will never come down .. we are the uncoming down .. we are the strongest with our hearts .. we are the uncoming down … we are who we are … i pass this for each one of you .. wishing it will help you in time that nothing is helping me .. god bless you […]

11/9/2015 7 comments

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