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What am I doing

by Dungeon 5/4/2016

written by Dungeon

Fuck. Fuck. Fuck.

I need to do something.

What can I even do, I didn’t expect the consequences of my past to catch up so quickly.

The logical decision (through my perspective) would be to end my self by end of the year, but that isn’t possible due to my ridiculously high preserved morality.

OK so now that’s off the table, what the fuck am I supposed to do. GED then college?? OK where are the funds coming from? GED + Job then? I’m a fucking recluse how am I going to hold a job, history has shown I can not.

Try a new therapist? The last one I tried […]

5/4/2016 5 comments

Roseate Spoonbills at Dusk

by Hazy Day Sunflower 4/28/2016

written by Hazy Day Sunflower

The breeze smells of the last
Touch of daylight and you
Walked quietly towards a
Sunrise uniquely your own.

Comments are off. I’m OK.

Love yourself, be kind.

HDS

4/28/2016 0 comment

commence rant 3..2…1

by Alan Ominous 3/30/2016

written by Alan Ominous

Let’s say you have a job. Your job is assembling furniture to sell to other companies.

Let’s say I have a job. My job is bringing you shit to assemble, and taking what you have assembled to its next stage of commerce.

How about you don’t treat me like a piece of shit? How about you don’t act as if I’m the worst inconvenience in your life?

I don’t mind bringing you something to do, or taking what you’ve done. In fact I rely on this chain to survive. As do you ass wipe. You’re overstocked? I don’t place the order, OK? Talk to your boss. You’re over […]

3/30/2016 26 comments

Dead or Alive; ?

by GTSuicide_6 3/9/2016

written by GTSuicide_6

I haven’t been doing OK,

but I have been feeling, “OK”.

And I wonder why. Yes, I am still suicidal, crying all night and day, cutting everyday.

But, during the days and nights, I haven’t been feeling, “numb.”

I have been “OK”. I haven’t felt a deep dark pit swelling inside of me. I think I realized how fine I was recently after reading posts here about how some people are very sad at the moment.

So whats the change? Why am I OK?

I’m not sure. However, I do notice my happiness comes from wondering about suicide.

As some may know, in a month I plan to end it all. And […]

3/9/2016 2 comments

For the young people on this site

by BlueEyes 3/7/2016

written by BlueEyes

I read a lot of posts by people who seem to be in their early years (teens, 20’s) and it makes me feel sad that so many young people feel so hopeless. I understand though – I reached that point too when I was in college, and if not for a quick-thinking friend who grabbed my shirt I would have “fallen” out a 19th story dorm window. That was in 1983.

But once I was past college and on my own two feet I’ve lead an OK life, so I’m glad I didn’t kill myself back then. I got to experience life on my own terms. Sometimes I […]

3/7/2016 7 comments

thoughts and considerations.

by Alan Ominous 3/2/2016

written by Alan Ominous

My marriage is ugly.

Divorce is ugly.

Suicide is ugly.

It’s quite a predicament. In my marriage, I am already dead. The pleasure of life is consumed. I really can’t paint a picture of how ridiculously abusive it is.

Suicide would just be an end to the torment. It’s a difficult thing to do. I don’t want “help” or “attention” so I’d have to give it 110%. Holding me back, so many passions. Prospects. Hopes and dreams . It makes me think, if I could let go of it all, I’d be OK in my marriage.

Divorce. Well. That’s just a lot of work. I mean, any guy can […]

3/2/2016 13 comments

What IS the Ultimate Answer?

by GTSuicide_6 2/10/2016

written by GTSuicide_6

“Are you OK?”

I get asked it often, nowadays:

During lunch, sitting alone in an empty hallway, my face in my hands. Well, what is the answer?

I’ve come to realize that though I strongly DISLIKE getting asked the question, I know that the people who take their time to inquire about my feelings/ well-being are the nicest, kindest people- even if they genuinely don’t care, they still ask. And their asking helps me remember where I am and to keep […]

2/10/2016 9 comments

hopeless

by Alan Ominous 2/8/2016

written by Alan Ominous

Really just feel stuck against a wall. I’m joined to someone who wants to fix me. Sure my emotions can be intense. Ups and downs, but I’m OK with that. I have my vices and quirks. I’m OK with those too. They continually force me into shoes that don’t fit, then go off when I express discomfort. They bleed all the joy from the little things in life, they work diligently to prevent the bigger ones. Then mock my misery.

They sit me down for “serious time” to get to a deeper level of understanding. History has proven that just refills their arsenal to use against […]

2/8/2016 8 comments

What the hell does all this mean?

by BlueEyes 12/2/2015

written by BlueEyes

Sorry this is so long, but I’m so confused and heartbroken right now. I need advice/opinions.

This past weekend was a party at a friend’s house. MC (my friend that I love so deeply and can’t get over) was there, but I felt OK. I was OK when people were talking to J (MC’s fiancé) about what wedding dress she going to buy. Just to be safe though, I avoided MC. But after awhile it felt childish to be talking to everyone but him. So I said hello and we joked around a little. He was in a great mood, but he kept putting his face and hands very close […]

12/2/2015 7 comments

Daily thoughts of suicide

by igotnothing52 10/18/2015

written by igotnothing52

Several times throughout my daily routine I have thoughts of wanting to die. Life is nothing to me anymore.
Let me begin with a little bio. I’m a 57 yr. old male. I have several health issues, I have anger issues. Directed to any one certain person? Well maybe god, if there is such a thing.
I was brought up believing in god, going to church, living the godly lifestyle, accepting that the so called god is in control of everything and everybody. So who else do I blame for my crappy life, yes I’m using “nice” words. I curse god daily, telling him what […]

10/18/2015 15 comments

I wished to be

by cocoki 9/7/2015

written by cocoki

I always wished to be invisible when in class but for some Reason I going what I wanted but not the way I wanted I was always noticed by my pears and unnoticed my my family or maybe just ignored I don’t know I have depression also I’m dyslexic and have dyslexic it’s “OK” to have dyslexica and have dyslexic but depression NOOOOO! That can’t be how can the people how love you not notice that I have something wrong with me I admit I’m good at hiding things or trying to ” thanks to school” but we see each other everyday just HOW ?. […]

9/7/2015 1 comment

Time is a circle

by The Mad Hatter 8/20/2015

written by The Mad Hatter

Well, here i am, back again after a year or so. I left just after the lonelyplatypus incident, anyone find out if she was OK? Nice to see some of you still alive here, and I hope those that aren’t are in a happier place. To everyone else, hello, and it’s a pleasure to make your acquaintances.

8/20/2015 2 comments

Relapsed after 2 months

by Lovebug4142 8/19/2015

written by Lovebug4142

So I have been clean from self harming and drug use for a whole 2 months, that was until yesterday when I did both. Yesterday was the Last teen therapy group I went to and everyone went to an amusement park together. Now I get attached very easily, so I knew it was going to be hard to say goodbye, so I took 4 pain pills. I had asked the director of the group if Ms. D (someone I got really close to) could take me home like she normally does. She told me no and I got really upset and we started arguing. When […]

8/19/2015 1 comment

Searching

by humble25 8/19/2015

written by humble25

“not enough” The message that’s been drove into me since a child, sometimes directly but mostly indirectly through culture and family. As a Christian why should I feel like I’m not enough? Because that’s all I know on this earth right now. I find myself discouraged, not enough drive, “not enough good grades, you’re a failure , your faith is not strong enough, your mind is twisted.” The messages clouding my mind, not irrational, for they are loud and clear coming from the family and pastors. Perhaps I’m just prideful when I come up with the idea that, “hey, maybe all this pressure and constant […]

8/19/2015 2 comments

I always come back to this

by still lost again 5/14/2015

written by still lost again

63 and still the thoughts come back. Defective. Quit trying to fight it. I look back and see things I’ve done that I didn’t do right. Spent 6 yrs feeling like I could believe the “you are OK; you are a great mom/wife/friend” Only to come back full circle to this. Fucked up person. No one can I share this with because they either try to tell me I’m wrong or I risk having them really see what a loser I am.

Is it inevitable and why do some fail and never think of ending it? I want to run somewhere because I need to think; […]

5/14/2015 0 comment

Do I look OK for you?

by pasdespoir 4/27/2015

written by pasdespoir

“Are you OK?”

I’m sick of hearing this question. No, obviously I’m not OK. But this doesn’t mean that I’m ready to share whatever is killing me with you.

I’m purposeless. I’m lost. I’m continuously crying. I’m craving for some love. I’m craving for someone who just makes me feel home.

But I don’t get this. I only get strange cold stares from people I meet everyday because I have to. I see the pity in their eyes. I can almost feel it filling the room whenever I walk by.

I just want to vanish and recreate a life of mine, a total new one, where no one would […]

4/27/2015 2 comments

You look terrible.

by comomequieranllamar 4/8/2015

written by comomequieranllamar

-Are you OK?

-Yep.

-Really? You look terrible.

-Oh, thank you, I love you too.

(No, I’m not OK, I feel devastated, I just want to cry, I don’t know why the hell I’m even here, I dream about killing myself every night, please help me find a way to tell you that I want to die, just telling you some of the things that are wrong with an ironic comment at the end has stopped being enough, I want you to know how broken I feel, I don’t care about the causes anymore, I don’t want to tell you what’s wrong, you know my world is a […]

4/8/2015 2 comments

Hey All

by schizophrenia 222 3/18/2015

written by schizophrenia 222

Just a quick post. My life sucks. I’m very suicidal am saving up to end my life maybe two months from now. But to save I have to give up tobacco which is going to be tough and kurb the alcohol. I’m schizophrenic and depressed and whenever I get meds for depression they work but aggregates my schizophrenia which totally suck because other than that the meds work OK. I get bored easily too which I can’t find work and dread working so my life sucks. I have been a hard worker most my life until I got my illness a few years ago. I […]

3/18/2015 3 comments

Just some thought’s….

by BrittNicole 3/8/2015

written by BrittNicole

Just some thoughts…. It makes me feel sad how I’m always there for someone else in there time of need , but when I need someone no one is ever there for me. It also frustrates me how I always ask my friends every single day how they are doing and making sure they are OK and most of my friends don’t even ask me if I’m OK. Even when I tell them I’m sad or upset or depressed, they don’t even acknowledge the fact that I am upset and could just use a friend. I’m tired of being there for others when no one […]

3/8/2015 4 comments

what the fuck

by contrast 2/4/2015

written by contrast

The people who live in this world are all pieces of shit and some are even worse than me. Wrost of all the majority can’t even see that their lives are worthless.

Life doesn’t have a meaning so they try their hard to find something to fullfil the fucking hole in the middle of their chests. And they think that’s OK.

I just don’t kill myself because I’m too afraid of what happens then. So I’ll have to fight for something I don’t want and see the world like a fucking rainbow and be HOPEFUL.

FUCK THIS SHIT.

2/4/2015 5 comments

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