This is probably my last online interaction.
It makes me appreciate every little thing that happens. Such a short stay here. This is beginning to sound like a suicide note so without wasting more time, I’m logging out to wallow in memories and experience this remaining span of life.
I haven’t really gotten a chance to vent to others. Most of the time I’m too afraid to actually spill what’s on my mind to those closest to me, or my thoughts are too jumbled that I can’t really describe what I’m feeling very well so I have to brush it off and say ‘oh it’s nothing, don’t worry about it’ or ‘it’s a long story’. So when I saw this site I was pretty happy because not only can I actually say what I’m actually thinking without the fear of being stigmatized, but I can actually help myself cope by sharing everything that’s been […]
Hi everyone,
I signed up today because it is time that I seek support. I’m going through a lot of pain because of my past and present, and it is not going in the right direction. That is very hard for me to admit. Every day is a fight. I’m trying to be strong and build a life for myself, but I feel very alone and the hope and motivation is fading. I used to make friends easily, but this past year took all life out of me, and I’m now too tired to go out and meet people. My family never calls anymore, and I […]
I’ve never posted anything about my depression online for everyone to see. Hell, I’ve never even told anyone about it for fear they’ll look at me differently. Anyway, here goes. I’m eighteen years old and there’s not a day that goes by I don’t think of killing myself. The worst part is, there’s not just one reason or a specific traumatic event I can blame it on. Honestly, my issues don’t seem half as bad as the majority and I know I should be thankful and appreciative but I can’t. I’m just sad. All the fucking time. I used to think it was because my […]
Recently my girlfriend of around 3 years just broke up with me. You can say our relationship was an odd one being that it was an online relationship. I even went and visited her for the first time recently. Time I spent with her was the greatest moments in my life. I am completely in love with her and she even said she loved me. Entire time I was with her felt like a dream. But she broke up with me after all of that. I feel lost, I simply given up caring about my own life. I have stopped taking my medication, often starving […]
This post started as my first reply to another post, I am just copying it in. I’m not rich but I’m certainly not poor. I made this account just to reply to you, and im using my username that I have everywhere. I don’t want to be anonymous. My life was just how you describe yours, playing games, watching random tv shows, maybe some youtube, or streams, and chatting with friends online. I have lived 90% of my life online for the past few years. Unlike you I was satisfied with that, I do not want what others seem to want in life. I don’t […]
Why am I always on the computer?
Why do I never do anything else in real life?
I don’t have any friends in real life, MOM. I don’t see anyone in real life who has anything in common with me. What’s that? You think I won’t learn any social skills from online school? I’ve learned more social skills online than I have in real life. I have friends online who care about me. I only feel normal online because I’m one of many there, whereas, in real life, I’m all on my own.
I haven’t met anyone who’s transgender. I haven’t met anyone with autism. I don’t see […]
I’m so selfish, that I even alienate people online as I do in the real world. Irony. I will admit I tried online dating, and I failed miserably. Haha what a joke I am. Can’t even get a date online. Oh the irony is killing me.
Ftw.
Hello. Idk where to start. I’ll make it short. So,long story short. I have extreme social anxiety/phobia. The worst thing is I get so sweaty whenever a girl passes by lol. I haven’t talked to a female until today more than just few seconds. I believe this is the only thing keeping me behind in everything because I don’t usually get anxiety attacks when I’m out around males.
So, I was thinking to get a female genuine true friend online who might’ve social anxiety or whatever it would be,whether depression or something else, So we could help each other in a two way street. Give […]
all i cannot say i pour out here even tho it feels so painful in a way. i was told to practice self-compassion and i cant. i cant believe anyone cares. the ones who do are the outsiders. everyone else – nope. ive been dealing with really bad depression and isolation. it is hard not to beat yourself up. my heart just had a huge jolt from noise, for me, noise brings up the past. i wonder how much longer i can bare this. my online friend said if i end my life i dont go to a better place and am still “me” and […]
I don’t see hope. I see pain, and a lot of it. I hear voices, and I am exhausted. My life is a couch, and a walk, and sometimes I can eat, and get to places, and sometimes I can’t. No family cares, no church cares, basically, nobody cares, and so I’m saying goodbye soon. Because there has to be some place better than this filthy and disgusting planet full of chemicals and all kinds of horrific things that I can barely stand to live in anymore. The humans have made this planet a waste heap of despair and agony for too many, and I […]
I didn’t see any age restrictions so, I turn sixteen in a month. I promised myself when I turned fifteen that I wouldn’t live to be sixteen, that I had to kill myself before that. But I am a coward, so I just pray every single day to God to just let me die. Car accident, burglary-gone-wrong, give me cancer for fucks sake. But nothing. I’m still here for some reason, maybe. I don’t even know why I’m posting here, I just got bored and decided to ask Google why I was still alive. It didn’t give me an answer, but I found this site. […]
I wonder how far in desperation I’ve fallen to resort to this online community to vent my feelings.
I’ve looked up many ways to cope with depression and anxiety, but everything just sounds so fake and cliche..
Things like “don’t give up hope”, “relax your mind”, etc.. Am I the only one who thinks this way?
I can never take advice like this.. it’s sooooooo cliche and shows no compassion whatsoever.. well what do I expect.. I was just one WebMD for this shit.
How do I even cope with this misery? And why can I never like myself and forgive myself?…
Well, since this is my first post I don’t really know what I’m doing. So I’ll just talk about who I am and why I’m here. I am a 15 year old girl from tennessee. I have a alcholoic father who is the cause of every single problem I have in my life. I suffer from severe depression and social anxiety. I never want to leave my house for anything. I had to drop out of traditional school to do online school. I never had good grades in school and I always assumed it was because I just couldn’t focus with a bunch of kids […]
I don’t really know what to do anymore. I tried to kill myself once. I’m sure this time I can do it right. I know what I messed up. I’m just tired of who I am. I’m fat, like 250lbs. I’m ugly. Its obvious. For the longest time I was ok so long as I thought I was intelligent or committed, but I don’t think I am anymore. Sure I was intelligent in High school, but that barely counts now. Not that anything I learned matters, when the only jobs I can get are in a restaurant or a call center.
And now I’m alone. I […]
A comment exchange led to a sudden consideration of what would happen if you ended up meeting someone from on SP in person and becoming friends/partners/whatever. (That’s happened, I believe?) I mean, what would you say if someone asked where you met each other? “I. Uh. Online. We’ll go with online.”
And, yeah, there will be the wise-asses among you who will happily tell people where you met. I’m well aware. 😛
This hits home so much for me. One struggling for so long when both sides are starting to crumble into one. One side the girl so happy, bubbly, full of life, always smiling or making others laugh. Then the other side of her. The one that cries her self to sleep at night, the one that cuts and self harms herself to keep her pain and emotions under control to keep her from crying out, the one thats hurting on the inside and feels […]
And again I’m crying like a child.
My mother and my sister both asked for my help at the same time. I can’t be in two places. They don’t seem to understand.
I left my only hobby, the only moment of the week when I see people and do something I like, because every week I had to pick up my sister from the train at that hour. Just too tired to argue with her.
I study in a online university, just to have time to work and pay for my degree. But I have to work in my mother’s shop for free so we don’t have to […]
I have often read many a tragic tail when it comes to this sort of thing. Mine isn’t worth telling. I’m sure there are many others who could of made due with this life of mine. I however, could not. This is merely the result of a life time of inaction. I have always known that I would wind up killing myself, ever since I was 7, I wanted to die. Truth be told, I was really hoping I would of died by now, some sort of traffic incident, illness or even murder. I have been unfortunate to have lived so long.
I’ll be turning 23 on March the […]
I work this morning, but after I come home I start my classes for the first time since 2011. Today is the first day of class. I am terrified. I know it’s only online school but it feel so huge like an entire building is falling down on me. I am excited to be going back but at the same time I can’t shake that feeling of “what if” I’m at a point in life where I can not afford to fail. I have to do this and I have to make good grades or I won’t receive my scholarship and it is so much […]
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