So,this is my first post,and I hope it will be the last. My dad is in terrible shape. He smokes,he’s admittedly very overweight,he has a bad back and a bad heart,and it’s a true and terrifying thought that he could drop dead at any moment,and he’ll leave me forever. I can’t stand what he does to himself,it’s as is he wants to die and leave me and my brother and sister. I never want to leave his side because I’m afraid something will happen and I won’t be there to help him. Every morning I get to wake up every morning to him waking me […]
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So i found this website last night and posted my first post about whats going on in my life right now and the advice and support from you guys really made me feel better so i thought i would give it another shot. So I wrote a letter to my parents apologizing for everything i’ve done….trying to make amends and slowly start to see the light out of this dark situation. I told my mom i wrote it, and she said to get her and my dad together and read it to them. The only problem is, i was going to go downstairs last night […]
im a female, will be 17 in august, maybe. My family just got a hold of some pictures of me smoking weed and that sparked them to search my room and found soooo much weed and bongs and bowls and lighters and stuff. They are furious and ashamed and they just found out all this other stuff about me to that you wouldnt want your parents to know. I know it doesnt sound like a big deal but my parents HATE me now. my parents arent speaking to each other, they are probably going to get divorced because they are blaming each other for my […]
….Hey all….This is my first time posting here, and in all honesty, I never thought I’d see myself posting on a site like this.
I’m not looking for pity, simply a place for me to talk about my problems, where no one will judge me, or tell me that I need to believe in God.
I apologize in advance if this seems like pointless rambling, as I’m just trying to get it all out.
I’m 14 years old, and honestly, I wanna die. My biological father left when I was two, and I have no memories of him, and I only found out about him a year and […]
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Just curious if anyone had a parent off them selves? Just looking for some perspectives, some insight…
What’s the point of living, what makes us feel alive? I’m thinking/planning my escape route i’m sick of living. I don’t want to be alive anymore theres no point especially when your parent threatens to kill you themselves because you weren’t able to do the job yourself. 🙁 as i’m typing this i’m in the supermarket and chasing cars by snow patrol is playing.
-Suicide
im not one really for emotions I still don’t really understand them but looking at my daughter In a room full of people knowing you would kill anyone who caused her any pain to cry or even make her sad and you would do anything for her is this love ?
Like I said before I don’t feel connected to anyone is this love ? I don’t think one can love anything more deep then a parents love I’m not a psyco am I it’s normal for a parent to want to kill for the kid right ?
is finding true love really a myth then ?
Anyways […]
It will always be remiss of me to assume that my interactions with them will amount to anything significant and if they do, significance is an illusion; deceit, miscommunication, and utility will form the core of that relationship. In the event that I’m wrong, and the relationship exists on positive grounds, then it is wasted on someone like me and someone else is more suitable to be that other person’s friend/lover/parent/etc.
Remembering this information will be critical to achieving my ultimate goal and not repeating past events which have led to my suffering.
Here’s a pretty thorough list of why I suck, and you should hate me. In no particular order….
I obsessively worship artist. Music, pictures, poetry, books, movies, sculpture. Art period. I love it. I want to be an artist. But I suck. I prey on you here, I know you’ll lie to me. I want to believe that lie. But I’m terrible. I’ve spent THOUSANDS!, ON music equipment. To compensate. So I look cool as I finger fuck my way through Teen Spirit. My poetry? Makes me sound like a spoiled ***** angry he got the charcoal Mercedes instead of quartz grey for his birthday. My […]
So tonight I was bored and everyone on a forums I hang out on was logged of so I went down to our living room and sat with my parents; that was the mistake.
The result was my Dad being sexist and complaining and dissing people constantly, both parent complaining and looking down on me and my brother. They both started lecturing us and they never say anything good about anyone. My head ended up getting messed up and I started to panic so I left, trying to act casual. I felt so stuffed after that I ended up cutting myself and even more than usual, […]
I am a teenager
I get honor roll and am stressed with my grades if i get lower than a A-
Since a year or two ago i wasnt able to feel happy for more than an hour
My feelings for most are faked including my boyfriend because I don’t want to hurt anyone
I want to forget everything a.d start a new life
I want to live in a different world
I want to die, but i cant bring myself to it
I dont want to tell my parent because their comforting only works for a minute or two
Im easily angered, easily stressed, impasient, and […]
Today is my last. I am tired of living alone. Unloved. Untouched. Unwanted. I am seriously damaged. I must be. No family. No friends. No one. So I am on my way to my parent’s graves. I shall die there. The only two people that might have cared. Sheila
I had this friend who knew from the start that I was having suicidal thoughts, and now that I think about it he didn’t do anything, didn’t tell a teacher or parent. We were dating and then he found out that I was having suicidal thoughts and he broke up with me, he said when I got better we would go out again, so I lied and said I got better, nothing happend. I was talking to him today and told him that I told my parents I wanted to kill myself and he basically called me selfish and said there are people out there […]
Mom always called me a guinea pig growing up. At first I thought it was a term of endearment, but that was before she told me it was because she could “mess up” with me (by being a parent) and hopefully get the next one right. Being the oldest is difficult. There’s a lot of responsibility and I was always the one to make an example out of. Growing up in my house was hard. It got to the point where I didn’t want to be anywhere near my family and isolated myself to school and home. I was kind of a loner and I […]
Nothing that out of the usual I guess, but today I swear to god was the worst I’ve had in a long fuckin’ while. If you are a parent and think it’s okay to tell your kid who they can and cannot date and how to live their life, then fuck you. Apparently my mother thinks it’s okay to boss me around and bash my decisions in life. WELL FUCK THAT. FUCK HER. FUCK EVERYTHING. If I really wanna smoke, then I’ll fuckin’ smoke. If I wanna date him or her, then I’ll fuckin’ date him or her. YOU WILL NOT TELL ME HOW TO […]
I feel like I always fall short no matter what. Skills? Nope, so and so is better at this and so and so is better at that. I have nothing that I excel at. I’ve tried to meet my parent’s excpectations for 12 years. All my hope is dripping away slowly everyday. No body needs me. My family has my perfect little brother, my friends have their friends. After all, I’m just a tiny speck out of a few billion people. I don’t feel like anybody cares about me, but then I could be mistaken. So far, the only reason that’s kept me alive is […]
I’m not the one with the saddest life or parent problems being physically abused or anyrhing. Si why do i cut? I have no real reason except for tjat i dont have reason not to. Smiling doesnt come easy which is exhausting because im the funny obe in my group just sone suggestions to stop or reasibing why i do would help thanks.
Everyday it seems like an endless struggle. Every morning seems harder. In all honesty, there are days where I close my eyes and think, well I wish this was it. To just fall asleep and never wake up. This is just a rant to let go of what I feel for now and maybe one day I will truly tell my story but for now this is what I feel & I don’t think I should be feeling it. I feel hopeless and worthless. I feel like I have failed in everything. All the people I trusted with my story have left. How am I […]
Looking for like minded people. I have dreamed of suicide since I was a teen. I made a couple feeble attempts as a teen but didn’t have the courage to pull it off. Now I’m a mother and I couldn’t put my child through the suffering of losing his only parent. I truly believe if I wasn’t a mother I wouldn’t be here. If anything ever happens to my son I would die soon after. He wants to go in the Army.. And I would never wish anything to happen to my boy but.. I can’t think of that. I love him more than anything. […]
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