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Reality suck , Real Life suck , Real World suck . why human’s Imagination is much better & interesting than this everyday’s boring reality ??

by niki 5/9/2014

written by niki

I hate life, I hate people / humans, I hate reality, I hate this world.
its very boring, and especially nowadays become only very materialistic, money / profits driven only, all about money, superficial, shallow, and mundane boring!

Why movies, video games, comics, books, novels, anime/manga, creative Art, basically human’s IMAGINATION & fantasy is often/always a hundred times FAR much more interesting & better than this sad, mundane, boring, superficial, & very LIMITING life / world / reality ??…

does God (if there is indeed one…!) play such a cruel sick joke for especially creating human’s IMAGINATION inside our heads?? .. especially often the very creative, artistic, […]

5/9/2014 10 comments

I hate life, I hate people / humans, I hate reality, boring & mundane, nothing that interesting!

by niki 5/1/2014

written by niki

I hate life. I hate people. I hate this world. I hate reality / real world / real life, they are all too boring/mundane for me, and I’ve found almost nothing that is interesting in this reality/real-life/real-world anymore, also in MOST people/humans!

the majority or MOST of human beings/people in this world I’ve found to be either a bunch of stupid, shallow, superficial, ignorant, selfish, rigid, stoic, lifeless, uninteresting, uncreative, and/or boring / mundane ones.

maybe that’s why this “reality” (or “real world” / “real life”) or our society currently is sooo f*cked up now almost beyond help!

with only VERY FEW exceptions of: real-GOOD, honest humans/people, real […]

5/1/2014 7 comments

Pills

by jammin007 4/17/2014

written by jammin007

so within the past year I have consumed more than a big bottle of different kinds of pills (trying to overdose) obviously. but I have never been successful. what am I doing wrong? why am I still alive. I see this also as a blessing but because I’m so sad I just don’t understand why I’m still here someone please help and tell me what I’m doing wrong

4/17/2014 2 comments

I hate this boring, bored reality / real life / real world, I hate this life, this LIMITED world, and I hate people/humans ..!!

by niki 4/17/2014

written by niki

Movies, books, video games, novels, comics, anime/manga, etc etc, basically human’s IMAGINATIONS is a hundred times FAR much more interesting than this very LIMITING reality / real-world / real-life here in this world!

and what’s even worse is that most (about 90%) of humans / people I meet & know everyday are mostly stupid, shallow, superficial, mundane/boring, money and profits and image driven only, ignorant,.. mostly human beings especially today these days are much more bad & hopeless ..!!
(there are -thankfully/luckily?- only FEW humans/people that I like, eg: the very creative/imaginative & ‘other-worldly’ artists who created/made all those awesome fantasy, sci-fi stories, novels, books, […]

4/17/2014 7 comments

Nobody Sees, Nobody Knows

by wontstoptosurrender 4/1/2014

written by wontstoptosurrender

I’ve always been the strong one. The one who held others up when they couldn’t take it. I never wanted to burden others with my problems, so I tend to fake a smile and say I’m okay. I hate to be viewed as weak. It started when I was little — I was born to teenage parents who had a taste for methanphetamines. They did try to get clean when I was born, as well as three years later when my little brother came into the world. But their lifestyle caused me to take care of myself at an early age. A funny story I’ve […]

4/1/2014 4 comments

My suicide note.

by kansaswasalive 3/30/2014

written by kansaswasalive

I dont know what to do anymore. I feel as if walls are caving in on me. People hate me. And you know what? I hate me too. People that are around me think I have the perfect life. Im a cheerleader. I make good grades. I make everyone happy. Nothing can be wrong with me! But there is something wrong with me. I feel as if everyone around me hates me. Im not mad at them for that. I dont know what to do anymore. Im just done.

3/30/2014 1 comment

The Downward Spiral

by AlmostDead 3/16/2014

written by AlmostDead

OK.Â So after 20 odd years of becoming progressively more miserable & incapable of participating in everyday life suicide attempts are bcoming more common.Â A year or so back I filledÂ a mug with a cocktail of every drug in my cupboard, including many of the different anti-depressants I’ve tried over the years & took the lot.Â I slept anÂ entire dayÂ & awoke incapable of moving without collapsing in spasms.Â Spent the next 12 hours in hospital being constantly prodded & kept awake.Â Told I’d taken enough pills to kill most people & was lucky.Â Seems this method isn’t gonna work.Â A short time later tried a […]

3/16/2014 2 comments

Why?

by H0peless Wanderer 2/27/2014

written by H0peless Wanderer

I’m not sure what I really expect anymore.
A couple months back, September to be specific, I found myself in a hole. You know it, the black abyss that you stare at day in and day out. The one that never seems to end. I had been looking into, getting lost in the darkness for too long. Years have past since I can actually remember being happy for a full 24hrs. It seems so surreal to even imagine I used to have fun.
Anyways, I tried to take my life. I really tried… pills, alcohol, the whole deal. Fortunately or unfortunately ( I haven’t decided […]

2/27/2014 2 comments

Antifreeze and pain killers?

by WhyDoIEvenTry? 2/27/2014

written by WhyDoIEvenTry?

I have both antifreeze and OxyContin that I am able to use. Will the two together work? And if so will it be quick? Â Any knowledge is greatly appreciated Â Thanks.

2/27/2014 6 comments

Maybe Someday

by MeganHoney 2/5/2014

written by MeganHoney

The thing is, I’ve been battling for 3 years now. I let it lie for years before, but now I fight.

I didn’t want to fight, because fighting means risking defeat. If I fight, I might lose. I’m losing.

In the last year, I was hospitalized 5 times and spent a total of 6 months in the hospital. I’ve had two suicide attempts and during the first one, spent 2 days in a coma, only to wake up to delirium and yet another hospitalization.

I have scars on my legs, arms, stomach. I’ve needed countless stitches.

I’ve tried so many medications, I can’t list them all.

I am […]

2/5/2014 6 comments

i did want to die back then

by passionfruit3 2/5/2014

written by passionfruit3

its funny how as an adolescent i had many different reasons i wanted to die and they made sense to me.Now im not really sure if dying is the goal as of late.Acually im not sure what the goal is.
I find myself getting depressed over little things such as my aunt wasting away and me not speaking with her.also things like transpportation issues.Money issues despite never having had to pay a bill my whole life.I worry about not having a significant other.i worry about being alone homeless and helpless.Suprisinginly i worry about my own health since ive tried to take my own life so […]

2/5/2014 1 comment

The Pills Again???

by Krys 2/3/2014

written by Krys

I’m wanting my pills again. I know where I can get some too… I’m craving them. Badly. I obviously haven’t and won’t stop cutting. I just I don’t know. I know it’s not good but I ant them so bad.

2/3/2014 4 comments

when will i snap

by passionfruit3 1/31/2014

written by passionfruit3

I hate the fact how i can do good not being sucidal and staying out of hospitals.Then you make one stupid mistake and it ruins everything.My mistake was being curious and that curiousity led me to find the pills my mom hid away..I now have a bunch of those pills and dont know when i will snap and try to kill myself.I just know i cant help it and it willl happen.I will try to kill myself at some point.Ive only told my best friend she asked if she could tell my parents i threatened to do it sooner if she did.I felt bad about […]

1/31/2014 0 comment

Pills,glory pills

by onebullet 1/28/2014

written by onebullet

I have been taken this anxiety pills that my psychiatrist has give me and they are incredible strong,when i take them my muscles just chills like if they where smoking weed,i feel like in a cloud and i am so relaxed my deppression gets weakest,sometimes i take more than my psy told mecalled it medication abuse,yes who cares.someres i mixed with a bunch of alcohol and its glorious,and sometimes not much but sometimes i brake the pills into my joints and smoke them,directly to the brain,that is just another dimension.

1/28/2014 0 comment

My suicide story.

by Generic Nobody 1/26/2014

written by Generic Nobody

I don’t know, I’m bored. I slept all day. I have nothing to do. So I guess I’ll tell you my story. I’ve been cutting for 4 years now, it started out as something small. Just one cut, then two cuts, and then before I knew it I was cutting all the way up my arm and on my legs and thighs and my stomach. It’s now an addiction. Wether I’m feeling shitty or not. I need to cut. I want to cut. But I’ve tried suicide multiple times, I’ve chickened out a couple times, I’ve failed a couple times. But I woke up one […]

1/26/2014 2 comments

Pills breakfast

by Engeltje 1/25/2014

written by Engeltje

I found a picture on tumblr, and it’s pretty funny, because it reminds me of a few years ago. In that time, my breakfast also looked like that. But that picture also made me realize that I’m going back to that time…

1/25/2014 8 comments

???kontard’z

by YESCHUkrist 1/20/2014

written by YESCHUkrist

ME OPS????fed up with refelctional frens(acts like ur therpist of sleeps ell except u to set uÂ up with someobodi compley wrong for u)/karoolivigians(wutevre it is u like coming to suemthing …)… I JUST WISH I EXISTED IN SUMBD,IS HEART….

1/20/2014 4 comments

Time is running out

by cb13 1/18/2014

written by cb13

I have had 15 or so surgeries, and everything hurts. My thoughts of suicide come daily. The only thing stopping me is the fact that my live in gf had a spouse that passed away before we started dating, and I hate the thought of her going through another death. I also, though I am not “religious” , I don,t want to end up in hell. Been looking into writings about this subject, and the bible says if someone commits suicide due to being in pain they can,t take any more, they will not be punished.

I am scheduled for another surgery in a few weeks, […]

1/18/2014 3 comments

Final Straw

by Pbsmurderer 1/13/2014

written by Pbsmurderer

I’ve been pondering this for over a year, Â I told myself that if life didn’t get better by the new years came, I’m killing myself. I’ve got no reason to live, I’ve got no motivation to do anything more than stay at home, at school I’m failing every single one of my classes, I’ve got no friends, my family is gone, my teachers hate me, people in school hate me, and I hate myself. Today was it, someone useless like me is better dead anyways, I don’t even know anyone who could possible care about this suicide not.

So tonight, I’m gonna drink all the pills […]

1/13/2014 6 comments

Triggers

by queenofdarkness 12/8/2013

written by queenofdarkness

Tiny things, really.

Things that shouldn’t affect you, but do.

A gulp of water

reminds you of

washing pills down your throat

one pill, two pills, three…five…seventeen…thirty-one.

That was nearly two years ago, and the sensations are as vivid as if it was only last week.

Funny how the human mind works sometimes.

12/8/2013 2 comments

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