This is the first time I’ve done anything like this but I’m going to tell my story as best I can. I guess I’ll start by describing where I am now, physically and emotionally. I’m turned 21 this year and study engineering, of which I have completed 3 of the 8 semesters. Based on my academic record I’m a good student (or so they say) but the political situation in my country makes it difficult to acquire scholarships for one of my ethnicity (not that I need it as my family is quite well to do). Haven’t had a relationship in one year+, don’t have […]
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Psychology
I’m sorry I’m about to be all wordy, jumbled, and redundant and you probably don’t care about my life story, but I need an outlet.
I grew up with an ideal life. Friends–two best friends who all did everything together. Family–mom, dad, brother, sister. We always did all the family-esque things together.
We must have looked great from the outside.
Why movies are better than reality ? Why movie is better than reality ? Why reality is boring ?
by niki
written by niki
Why movies are better than reality / real life / real world ?
Why movie is better than reality / real life / real world ?
Why reality is boring ?
What puzzles me the most is human’s mind / human’s brains and imagination better than reality ( human’s fantasy is better than reality )
for example:
just look at the movies, novels, comics, games, books, , animations (anime / manga), science fiction (sci-fi), fantasy , like Star Wars, Harry Potter, Lord of the Rings, Narnia, X-Men, Marvels & DC universe / movies , The Avengers , Final Fantasy, Kingdom Hearts, Swords Art Online, Naruto, Bleach, […]
Hey guys!
I’ve been using this hotline called Listeners. it’s an app you can download on your phone and you can call a Listener any time you want. It’s 100% free, it needs internet connexion thought but no long distance fee. The people on this are professionals with diplomas in psychology and they are paid. They are so nice and caring they really want to listen to you and help. I’ve made a friend with one of them. When you hang up you can rate them and they will then appear on your page so you can call them specifically when they are online. It’s only […]
I consider myself to be an Empath. You might be one too. It’s been extremely difficult to live and function in a society where people don’t really have empathy so it’s hard for them to really feel what somebody else is going through. And that’s why so many people are ruthless and cutthroat, you know. Being and Empath is like having a finely tuned ‘Bullshit’ Lie-Detector. It’s really strange to have the ability to really feel what other people are feeling because I don’t know how to handle and cope with it. Now, staying away from strangers is easy enough; I just don’t go outside […]
Well, its come to my attention that there is a ton of misconception about DID especially on the internet!
If any of you have any interest in speaking to someone suffering from the disorder I encorage you to feel free to comment here, follow me on Tumblr (http://alltheperksofbeingus.tumblr.com/) or i have a KIK (theperksofbeingus) which of course is more personal! I really look forward to hearing from anyone, if I can educate just one person I feel as if I’ll be making a difference!
Before you convince yourself that now is the time to leave this world and enter a whole new dimension of an unknown abyss, ask yourself these questions. (and feel free to answer them yourself in the comments):
What makes it so hard for you to stay?
What do you view suicide as?
How would you commit suicide?
On average, 6 people are intimately affected by the suicide of a friend, family member, etc.
Who do you think would miss you the most? (Can be more or less than 6 people.)
Why would those people miss you so much?
What is your favorite thing about your everyday life?
What are some […]
I’ve been on this website for about a week now.
I’m in therapy. I have been for numerous different reasons since I was 11, now 33.
I’ve told my therapist about being suicidal, that I have plans, that there are constant images at night, and I have access to guns.
Everything I’ve said is ignored. I don’t talk to friends or family about any of this – because I’m the one that everyone depends on to help them with their issues (doesn’t help that all of them know my degree is in psychology).
I’ve started developing better assertiveness skills… but the suicide stuff won’t stop.
I’m seen as “being ok” […]
I don’t want to live life, it bores me… and I have not enough will power to do things. I’m lazy. Do you think I could do something about my life?
by Baenum
written by Baenum
It all started when I was little. I would look up at other kids doing things and I would wonder: why? why are they doing all that? I know, there are existentialist questions and I am kinda existentially depressed. The meds cannot get as far as my body and I do feel better physically, I don’t feel stress as intensely as before and I don’t think about suicide. And yet, I do think that suicide is the only way to end life because that’s the obvious truth. I don’t want to live it, it’s beautiful but boring. I have lived on this earth for nineteen […]
The past few weeks I started having these odd psychosomatic complex partial seizures. I get convulsions and distorted thoughts/speech. My doctor isn’t sure what it is because one of my medications helps prevent seizures. It sometimes seems like a psychotic episode- I get convinced something is trying to escape through the top of my head and my speech doesn’t make sense. Most of the time it sounds like bad poetry. I even posted something here during an episode that didn’t have full convulsions. Some people think it’s anxiety, but that seems pretty far-fetched. I don’t have symptoms of anxiety or anxious thoughts before an episode. […]
but its just so hard….. I suffer from manic depression and existential anxiety. two days ago, I stood by a main road and contemplated jumping in front of a car. my mind told me that I wanted to die, but it also told me that I might die, and I was afraid. my father ran to me and pulled me away. my mom is mainly the reason… she hits me and tells me im worthless. I don’t tell the authorities because every time I try my mom says that she know how to hit me in ways that wont leave a mark and that they […]
I just had another weird dream a little while ago! I had a dream that a reporter from a TV station in South Florida, which is known for it’s tabloid sensationalistic fucking garbage in their “news” wanted to do an interview with me to talk about my experience with being into auto erotic asphyxia. By the way, I’m not going to mention what TV station this is, but it is known for the most extreme tabloid sensationalistic fucking garbage in the “news” in the United States, if not the entire world! I agreed to do the interview as long as it is […]
So I’ll start of by saying that I’m an 18 year old college student. The reason I’m posting on here is that I’m hoping to obtain some secondary opinions to help me better understand whatever it is that I’m going through.
So ever since I can remember I’ve always had a very rational, apathetic mindset. In saying this I don’t mean that I’m cold, emotionless, blah, etc.. I mean that for lack of better words I’ve always felt pretty dead on the inside. I can easily explain this away as depression and I’m sure I can come up with a few life events to justify depression […]
lately my mental health hasn’t been too well.
i feel like i’m wearing a mask.
i am the happy and energetic person with my friends, but when i get home it’s like i’m a totally different person.
i always feel so unhappy and i feel like there’s something missing.
it took me a lot of courage to actually type this out.
i’ve started self-harming
i’m surprised no one has noticed all the scratches on my wrist, but i’ve been trying to hide it.
i’ve gone from scratching myself with fingers and biting myself
to pazors and compass points
but i want something more
i want to cut, but
i don’t want to see the blood
see all […]
Hi my name is Ariel and I’m thirteen. This is honestly my last resort. I know that when people see “suicidal teens” they assume that they are “faking it” but I assure you that I wouldn’t be doing this unless absolutely necessecary. I am so scared. I tried to sleep a little bit ago but I couldn’t with my racing mind and I have been so scared that I think I might throw up. Basically, I am a very big over-thinker. Very, very big over-thinker. Lately I’ve been thinking so much that I actually don’t feel like myself and I cannot express in words how […]
you know your born into this world and for the first copal of years of your life you think hey what could go wrong? sadly you soon start to open your eyes and see the world for what it really is i don’t know much about any of you just anonymous bloggers like me i guess but i know one thing death is unavoidable wether it is from natural causes a tragic accident or self inflected. sometimes you don’t want to die other times you know your ready like me i know i want to die i know that theres nothing anyone can do to […]
“In the end it’s not about what you have.
In the end it’s all about where you want to go
And the roads you take to help you get there.
Cause you’ve only got one life to lead.
So don’t take for granted those little things.
Those little things are all that we have.”
i know we’re all going thru our own shit, and if you’re like me these thoughts could pop up and disappear on your mind constantly. just an hour ago i was ready to go, but my friend asked me to eat out, and we talked, and it did feel good. sometimes i […]
I have been around here for a week, reading posts about other people’s problems, previous attempts and their rebounds from said attempts. Some of the problems are mentioned, them being of loss, love, subject of hate, assumptions, guilt, etc. Some of these guys are well-off and loved, some perhaps aren’t. So I’ll just add myself undeservingly to the list as I vent it out in the following brief of my life.
I haven’t ever attempted suicide, I could never gather the strength to do so, but not a single day goes without thinking about it. Theres nothing wrong with my life, and as a matter of […]
You know when somebody says “You shouldn’t be around people who make you unhappy.” There’s only one person that makes me unhappy, and that’s my mom. The worst part is I am forced to be around her. She is emotionally abusive and she claims that she has never said anything bad to me. She says I’m a *****, a drama queen, that I’m crazy, and she hopes I run away. She is the reason i cry so much. I’ve suffered from depression since I was 8, and my mom has always belittled me about it. My older brother at the age of 7 had a […]
I guess I’m a walking irony, I have severe depression and social anxiety and you know what it was cause because I helped people and took on there problems but didn’t have anybody to talk to about my own. You know what’s even worse when I joined this site, I got locked out because I kept checking my page so much to see if anybody had bothered replying to me and I felt even more alone because of that, like even the website put there for people like me doesn’t want me. I’m that much of a screw oh that this site hates me too. […]