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Is it just angst?

by Amme in chaos 3/21/2016

written by Amme in chaos

I get these overwhelmingly strong feelings of hopelessness and worthlessness and anxiety and frustration with myself. It’s been like this now for the past year. I tried to hide all of it from people for quite a while but one day I got a panic attack in class and that’s when my friends found out that my smiles had been fake all this time. I try to drop some hints to my mum that I feel “down” or “I just want to end it all” but she thinks its all just teenage angst or just hormones at this age.

Is it really just angst if I […]

3/21/2016 3 comments

Someone please.

by beaubri 3/20/2016

written by beaubri

If you don’t hear from me tomorrow I’m sorry. At least my profile will still be here. At least there is something left behind of me. Something someone can look back on. At least I know I will be missed by everyone here. At least I know you guys care. But it’s not enough right now. If I’m heard from by tomorrow night, I made it through tonight. I imagine them waking up in the morning to find my corpse hanging in the bedroom. I imagine what they would do or say. I hope I can watch them cry. I hope I can see their […]

3/20/2016 21 comments

youtube tag with nut

by wintersportnut 3/18/2016

written by wintersportnut

Hi my dearest friends.. I got some tragic news i am still not ready to share yet, probably tonight.. I was wondering if anybody will play youtube tag with me so i wont feel so alone.. I tell you a song: you listen.. then you tell me a song: i listen… music can heal… help me to heal, would you… i will start… she is love by parachute

3/18/2016 51 comments

No take-backs

by fitzgerald 3/16/2016

written by fitzgerald

I don’t know if I can do this to them. I think I’m ready, they’ll never be. It’ll be a nightmare they can never wake up from. I don’t know what to do. Once it’s done, it’s done.

3/16/2016 10 comments

stupid little things….

by Alan Ominous 3/7/2016

written by Alan Ominous

So, last few days been extremely hard. Like almost enough to end it all hard.

I stop at McDonald’s near work for a drink. She has it ready before I get inside. Seen me coming.

So for dinner, I stop at a McDonald’s out of state but a semi regular stopping point. They have my drink ready before I even order… and it’s free.

Point #1 I go to McDonald’s way too much

Point #3 I really feel like I’m “somebody” today. Now.
The first time I was like huh, that’s nice. The 2nd time I’m feeling all stupid and giddy.

So, to the girl at McDonald’s in Indiana […]

3/7/2016 41 comments

by Drowning 3/6/2016

written by Drowning

Why can’t life be simple why is there so much pain and suffering why do we always want the things we can’t have were the light st the end of the tunnel when do we get to find happiness ? When u been suicidal for so long u start to question you existence what is the real meaning of life ? Iv bad enough of it all ready

3/6/2016 0 comment

I can’t stand it anymore.

by canadiansunset 3/2/2016

written by canadiansunset

I can’t stand it anymore. Despite the fact I had a miscarriage and I feel lonely and suicidal, my parents are pushing me over the edge. I’m forced to live with my mom which gets angry at everything and she doesn’t let me do anything even though I’m almost twenty. She locks me in her house which makes me more depressed. I feel trapped, I don’t have freedom, I don’t have anything. My dad calls me fat and is trying to force me to go to the gym while I still can’t get over my miscarriage and don’t want to lose my bump. It reminds me […]

3/2/2016 13 comments

by such catcat 2/28/2016

written by such catcat

I can’t wait any longer, all I can think about is how useless I am, how I’ll never get good at drawing, how I’m a burden on my family and everyone I meet. I just can’t wait any longer, tonight I want to take my life. I’m not doing anything good staying here. I think I’m finally ready.

2/28/2016 2 comments

Hell has a special place ready, apparently.

by thehusk 2/25/2016

written by thehusk

I don’t think I should exist. I’m a terrible person. That’s not an emotional response, just a plain statement of fact. And I don’t think I have it in me to do better. I don’t want to do better. I want terrible things.

Except I don’t. It’s hard to explain. I have enough of a conscience to see what an awful person I am, and feel bad about it. It’s tough for the ego, realizing you’re at the bottom of the heap, morally speaking. But not enough to really want to do the right thing. I don’t care about anything or anybody enough for that.

I just […]

2/25/2016 5 comments

Whining.

by Nisus 2/25/2016

written by Nisus

At work now. I’m vacillating between being self-destructive and driving myself closer to the edge, or just hanging on and playing everything by ear, day by day. I sort of just don’t care. Some days I do, other days I don’t. But I really cannot ever see myself being ‘happy’ or moderately content with myself in any capacity. I have such low self esteem lol.

I know that I’m probably not ready to neck myself just yet, simply because I still care about certain things and certain people.

I’m either going to, erm, save up my money and potentially go travelling (which would be me hanging on) […]

2/25/2016 12 comments

Protected: turning point night

by whiskered-fish 1/26/2016

written by whiskered-fish

There is no excerpt because this is a protected post.

1/26/2016 11 comments

Want to start planning

by blank-clutter 1/9/2016

written by blank-clutter

I think I should start getting what I need to be ready, I envy people who can have an attempt without needing to any preparation. If I could I would do an attempt quickly.

the thing that sucks most about it is that what I need would take long to get to me

1/9/2016 5 comments

healing

by run rabbit run 1/6/2016

written by run rabbit run

I am sure we all know the stages of grief….

I am having trouble though. I have gone through them all except one.

I just can’t get angry… It won’t come….

I have every right to be furious with K, but that anger just won’t come.

Maybe because I know that once i get angry its done and I am not really ready to let go yet.

I don’t know….I love her still, and no woman will ever replace her

1/6/2016 1 comment

I’m ready

by Ellieanna 1/6/2016

written by Ellieanna

Found out a couple days ago that if I commit myself to get help my roommate and mother will convince them I’m faking for attention and to have my released. They they would kick me out so I’m homeless, get rid of my dog, and destroy my computer. How awesome is that? Last night I disolved a large quantity of different drugs in a glass of water to drink. Tonight it’s still in my bathroom. Only reason I didn’t was that a friend of mine was falling apart, and I didn’t want to cause him more issues until he’s better. Now it’s so unbearable that […]

1/6/2016 2 comments

Guess.

by Allitends 12/25/2015

written by Allitends

And with this now we die
Standing at the edge of the world
Uncertainty calling as the page unfurls
Fortune, heaven or hell
Shedding my body of this mortal shell
Black steel and iron
A lion heart is forged from these bones
Fear not, the discontent you hide
Awake from the slumber and define this time

No fear to pay the price
And with this now we die
Ashes to ashes
The ocean crashes
Louder and louder it cries
Over and over
The sands wash over
Facing, embracing the tides
And with this now we die

And with this now we die
Screaming violence into the void

12/25/2015 0 comment

i might die right now

by Chaucer 12/21/2015

written by Chaucer

I promised a not to take enough to kill myself to my girlfriend. I relapses and had a paid attack and stole my dads pain meds but they were really strong ad I drank alot of vodka with itandnow I can’t focus get well can you tell me what to do to help my system deal with them? Becaus3 I’m not ready yet in so numb….

12/21/2015 14 comments

‘I’m As Mad As Hell, And I’m Not Going To Take This Anymore’

by thehusk 12/18/2015

written by thehusk

Interpret this according to your current mood. I think it fits quite well whether you’re ready to give up or want to fight on. I believe the speech is from the film ‘Network’.

12/18/2015 2 comments

suicide is the only option for me

by kumar cherub 12/15/2015

written by kumar cherub

I’m here not for any confessions just to tell about me to this world and if even one person agrees who I am that’s enough for me

I’m a 20 year middle class boy who has faced many troubles infamily…from childhood days I have never seen my fathers love towards me he keeps on shouting and pin points a very small mistake to a large one.. I will be beaten up when I dont obey my fathers words for even a silly thing and my mom doesn’t even raise her voice against my father she reacts like “whatever my husband does is correct bcoz he is […]

12/15/2015 4 comments

The worst part

by notsureifreadytogo 12/7/2015

written by notsureifreadytogo

Is not being able to tell anyone. Limited to a note. An afterthought. No deep conversations. No reassurances. Just a fucking piece of paper. I want to tell people. I dont want to be stopped. I want to say a real goodbye. But you cant. You have to hold the secret, while you make ready. You have to prepare them without telling them. That’s what makes it a selfish act. How selfish of society, to make something so personal into a selfish act itself, because you can’t ease the burden for them without interference.

12/7/2015 1 comment

I’m ready to let go and die

by tiredthoughts 12/2/2015

written by tiredthoughts

Thought I was feeling better and maybe I am. But think its time to start coming up with a plan. Because I don’t want another or anything else for that matter in my life anymore. I still feel empty and sad, but I do things. I’m not in bed anymore. I try to move on and see other people, but don’t want to anymore. I fell in love with that girl and thought it was real between the both of us, but it was just me. I relized I fooled myself again or whatever. But also feel ready to go. Lived the best I could […]

12/2/2015 4 comments

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