Hello all. I’m sitting here at my dinning room table weeping so hard. The reason is because I’ve searched intensley on an answer for the last few wks. I’ve talked to people including a therapist, some friends I kno in person, a couple from this site and even my Pastor. I’m 32 and have no relationships. I do everything alone and I can’t fucking take it anymore. I feel most have blocked me out. Let me say I was going to go thru with it last nite but the law got involved sumwat, plus I didn’t have all the supplies I needed. I’m now sitting […]
My lack of tenacity to anything and everything applies I guess just as well to my suicidal thoughts. They come and go but they are never enough to make me actually do anything. Its more a coping thing. It has been a few months since I have felt this low and un-like reality, when I ***** about my petty white kid problems you all kind of listen. Which is cool so I can keep my crazy priviate and un-identified. Since I am obviously to ***** to do it I have decided begrudgingly take on reality head on for thirty days. Thirty days just giving it […]
For those of you still reading my story, I thank you. This story I’m telling is a little bit like closer for this chapter in my life. And I hope that reading all this isn’t as bad for you as I am typing it.
In the end of my relationship with my friend, I had reached my boiling point with my friend and her mother. I had told my friend that enough was enough and that her mother had to let her grow up. I was crying and kinda being loud with her, because it hurt me, that I felt this pressure. My friend passive-aggressively was […]
I could understand that my friend had loyalty to her mother, but not once did she ever really seem to regard my feelings. This added to the stress I had with her. Another time that created a rift in our relationship was when I went to the local fair with her, my friends mother, and her father. Originally we were supposed to go together at a certain time, but I would call her house and she wouldn’t tell me if she was coming with me or not, so I decided to go with another friend.
We were having a good time the first half of the […]
My friend kinda had privilege from the beginning, which made her a little selfish in the way she handled things. Well, our relationship started coming apart when her mom saw how affectionate I was with her. (And not kissing or anything, but I was kinda needy when it came to affection back in 9th grade.) I would hug her alot, well my friend wasn’t this huggy with anybody (not even to her mom as far as I could tell.)
My friend had also, been friends with another girl in the past, who was really affectionate (like call her on the phone everynite obsessively affectionate.) My friend’s […]
i recently found this website. i felt like writing something, cuz lately it’s so damn hard. i’m close to my limit.
i am nearly 25 yrs old. i deal with depression and anxiety since i can remember. 4 like 22yrs, i lived along with it not worring about it too much, i didn’t really know what i had anyway. since then it got worst. i’ve never been very social at all. i’m a shy person and very clumsy, or should i say fumbling? i dont know the right word to describe it in english… though i’ve always fought my personality. more than 3 yrs ago my […]
As I look around,everyone’s so happy with their significant other.Either their engaged,married,happily dating,etc.I’m trying to start dating again,but I mostly run into guys that want sex and that’s not what I want.I want to have a happy,long relationship for once.I just want something in my life to be happy about.I know that no relationship is perfect,but it sucks being the one that’s single most of the time.You know?Even my ex that broke my heart is happy.Why do good girls like me get heartbroken?I’m honestly about to give up.
Before you decide to take your life, imagine who will find you. Imagine them walking into a room, and seeing you just hanging there. Whether it be your little sister, little brother, mother father, grandparents, a friend. Imagine what will happen when they find you. No, they will not say “Finally, they’re gone.†No, they will not say “I’m happy they did that.†No, they will not say “I never loved them anyways.†They will die. Their hearts will break. They will hurt, more than you […]
it ain’t cutting it with your dame “I’m a Christian” Ius hypocritical and I’m not buying it , You go out and Fuck anything and EVERYTHING that walks and then u get on my case about Esteban Whom I’ve been with over a Year and a Half, I Have a Better relationship Then u Will EVER have!!!…. You Go and use God on EVERYTHING ! U dated the drug addict then the Drunk then the Crack head I told u “he’s bad he’s only using u for money to buy his Drugs, aren’t u Fornicating ? Ain’t that bad if ur so called Godly?” […]
You messed up again , u Had Nothing to Prove .Â
U Don’t Love me , whats their to Loose …
You look me In the Eye But All u can say is Lies, made up Stories and Fake Alibis ..
How Can I Be able To trust when   I stress to Much, I’m confused to Kno if this love or is it just Lust …
I Cry so Many Nights SleeplessÂ
Trying to Win the Fight,Â
Hanging on to this relationship really tight .Â
Now im Loosing my gripÂ
My heart is Sinking like a flooded ship ..
Still hanging on at the […]
Life was hard growing up. When I was a child I was surrounded by drugs, nasty men, abuse, rape etc.
My mom was not like the moms you see on TV, she had supported my brother and I by stripping, she also sold and was addicted to drugs. She was clinically diagnosed as being bipolar, and schizophrenic.. She always put drugs above me and my brother. most of the time my Nana would take care of me but only when she wasn’t working. My mom, the main person who was supposed to be my protector let numerous men in and out of our lives. The last […]
I’ve been divorced for five years and haven’t managed to get into another relationship. I hate living alone, am now 44, will never have a family of my own, am watching my friends pair up as I go home every night to cats. All of my relationships have been with extremely selfish men and even many of my friends have been disappointing. I’m an atheist and frequently feel as though I am the only person I know with any sense of right and wrong and how we should treat one another. When my ex best friend is now happy because she cheated on her husband […]
I’ve had suicidal thoughts before, but I’ve always turned to my faith in God and he has brought me out of it. Just recently, a girl who I love so very much, more so than any relationship I have been in before, left me for another man. I have nothing, I would have done anything for her. I did my usual coping methods, drowning out my sorrow with loud music, getting rid of my anger with violent video games, and even turning to God again. Yet this time, when I turned to him, I didnt feel anything. I’ve never questioned my faith before, but now […]
Well, this migh be a long read, but I’ve got to put this somewhere.
I’m 19. All this started as recently as 4 months ago, when my girlfriend of 4 1/4 years left me. She’s at university this year, I’m taking a gap year- but we were in the same year at school etc, and there’s only 3 months separating us in age. She is the single most perfect human being in the world- beautiful, funny, really intelligent. You name it, she’s got it. Everything was going so well for us, or so I thought- I’m going to the same uni as her starting in September, […]
Written about a year ago, I think.
Yes, I suck quite profusely at social interaction. I am a prodigy at making a fool out of myself by saying or doing stupid things. Of course, only when it comes to personal conversations; I can work, I can manage departments, I can go shopping, I might even be able to go to the doctor’s office. Yet, if you ask me how my day went, that’s when the anxiety starts. I might answer, “Okay, I guess. How was yours?” and slowly, but surely, as the conversation progresses, I will get more and more anxious until I wind up fleeing […]
Life is supposed to be lived at a sort of dynamic equilibrium, with some days being better than others, but each day always being manageable to live through. Alas, this is not the case in my life, my life is far past manageable, it feels as if each and everyday that goes by, my life keeps drifting farther and farther past that manageable mark. I don’t know how much longer I can keep continuing on this downward decent. In every part of my life I feel trapped, like there is no way out of the current situation from everything that pertains to my family life, […]
By reading most of the post’s here really revolve around love. Or lack there of. Usually a father or BF/GF thing. I know some of my issues stem from relationship shit. Why do we insist on letting our selves be torn apart by the opposite sex?
Hi. First off, something I want to say is that no matter how bleak things may look, you are strong, and you can make it through this. <3
My story starts about 5 years ago. all through elementary school I was always the most outgoing and fun-loving girl in our little town. I was never without a friend to play with. That all changed the day of my 11th birthday party. It was the most fun party I had ever had. I was so happy because my dad picked me and my friend up in a semi-truck to bring us home. we got there, and there […]
I hate it when every time i feel like i’m getting somewhere with maintaining and re-establishing my 8 year friendship with my best friend she finds a new way to dimish all hope of us still being friends when we leave school and i don’t have alot of time because year 11 finishes in 10-11 weeks and my friend will stop going to school to go to tafe and it’s frustrating because it feels as though i’m the only one fighting for our relationship, because i’m the one to ask her do you want to see a movie? go shopping? or have a sleepover? and every single time […]
It’s around 4:30am, I have work in a few hours, I wanted to make a post about how I’ve been thinking and thinking of people who came and went in and out of my life. Why have I always been overly attached to those people?
In middle school I dated a family friend’s son. I was with him for about 1 and a half year? I never  grew attached to him like I was gonna do with the next 3 upcoming men in my life. I did happen to love this kid, but it never actually cried and ache for him. After that was over, I […]