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Still Hunted… Still Suicidal…

by Ylem 12/13/2015

written by Ylem

So, I thought I should give an update on the ‘Jehova’s Witness’ who are trying to kill me.

The year is coming to an end and the court date is drawing near. You know what that means? More threats. They want me dead as in yesterday.

Well… Whatever… A part of me doesn’t give a shit anymore.

Anyway, the harassment and threats have escalated. Since they can’t do it themselves, they have their relatives and church members do the dirty work for them. I’m in hell.

Remember I mentioned that 2 guys were shot dead a few weeks back? Well, it turns out those 2 guys were among the […]

12/13/2015 8 comments

Protected: Sometimes I feel dangerous, and obligated to keep people safe by ending myself.

by whiskered-fish 12/4/2015

written by whiskered-fish

There is no excerpt because this is a protected post.

12/4/2015 3 comments

Where is your safe haven?

by nextime1988 12/2/2015

written by nextime1988

We all have a safe haven a place where we can be away and safe from all the agressions world throws at us.

Mine is my living room couch even in good days if go to bed whthout spending half an hour there ill have a hard time trying to sleep its the, for me only way to calm down at the end of the day laying there in the dark watching tv or listening classical music.

Where’s yours???

12/2/2015 14 comments

What the hell does all this mean?

by BlueEyes 12/2/2015

written by BlueEyes

Sorry this is so long, but I’m so confused and heartbroken right now. I need advice/opinions.

This past weekend was a party at a friend’s house. MC (my friend that I love so deeply and can’t get over) was there, but I felt OK. I was OK when people were talking to J (MC’s fiancé) about what wedding dress she going to buy. Just to be safe though, I avoided MC. But after awhile it felt childish to be talking to everyone but him. So I said hello and we joked around a little. He was in a great mood, but he kept putting his face and hands very close […]

12/2/2015 7 comments

I wish you all continue having what I do not have.

by rainyday 11/26/2015

written by rainyday

I am here to write no about my eternal desire to die, because this is not a day for that. This is a day to be Thankful for others people happiness. This a day for be Thankful for all of you that have wrote me when I have been very close to take my own life. This is a day in which many will have the happiness that I do not have and most probably will never have. A day in which many will be surrounded by family, others by friends.

Happy Thanksgiving for all of you. Wish you that can be have a wonderful day. And […]

11/26/2015 1 comment

It gets worst at night

by nextime1988 11/23/2015

written by nextime1988

Barely could sleep last night, if anythig other than water enters my stomach it will come out right after, i’ve been hiding from my family as i don’t want them to see my teary eyes, it’s 10:30 pm it seems to get worst at night, the only place i feel safe is the living room i can’t even go to bed.

11/23/2015 2 comments

Tearless Cry

by coldredheart 11/13/2015

written by coldredheart

Sitting alone
In this empty room
Crying tears from the pit of,my doom
I promised before that I would stop
But the pain of my heart just ignores that stop.
Holding that razor in my hand,
Is the only way I can feel safe
In this land.
Heartless
Worthless
Mantra I say in my head,
no one will love you,
She says.
Blood streams down
down my leg
weight is lifted.from.my head
Just cut,
Deeper and deeper until
Yes I can feel no more pain.
My eyes close and
there is no more room for me to stay

11/13/2015 0 comment

by firebirdchick77 11/5/2015

written by firebirdchick77

After reading several posts and bawling my eyes out and then registering for the sight i feel to tired to write the feelings i wanted to share in the first place. Im just so tired all the time and tired of being tired. I really want to start taking my meds but the streets are so busy on the way to the pharmacy. I get anxious just thinking about the trip. Why do i feel so much hate from people and why cant i go anywhere and know im safe and my belongings will be unmolested when i return. Instead i hide knowing i will […]

11/5/2015 2 comments

I did it!!

by abisslover25 11/3/2015

written by abisslover25

I went out on a first date tonight. Which means I left my bed for the first time in a week. I’m not wanting a relationship and even though the guy and I are total opposites it was nice to get out of the house and have some fun. That’s a huge step for me. I seriously haven’t put on real clothes in months and rarely leave my house. Thank god for Chinese delivery. I feel weird coming home because while I did have fun all I wanted was to be back home in my bed with the iPad. It’s my safe place and no […]

11/3/2015 7 comments

Indy video game concept – EUTHANASIA QUEST

by wndozh8er 10/26/2015

written by wndozh8er

The concept is to experience the lives of people who are suffering and trying to find the peaceful pill. It’s suppose to be a positive propaganda game with a deep meaning. A first person adventure, perferrably on a VR Headset.

You get to choose your own adventure based on your own personal experience – you can choose a mode were your severely depressed to the point that’s untreatable (this is were you break out of the psyche ward), a terminally ill individual who is in severe pain, a doctor trying to obtain it for his patient who wants to end there own lives, or trying to […]

10/26/2015 7 comments

@donsmith78 – love to do a video game collaboration with ya

by wndozh8er 10/25/2015

written by wndozh8er

You said you was working on learning how to do 2D video games. I’m guessing there sidescrolling ones like Mario right? That would be awesome. A 2D side scrolling game collaboration would be perfect.

I got this video game concept called Opposites Attack which will turn traditional gameplay on its head – a place were objects such as coins, places you would think are safe to walk on will actually kill you. In this game, if you hit a coin, walk on land, etc you will die. In this game you will have to walk on spikes, lava, jump though fireballs etc. I got so many […]

10/25/2015 21 comments

What’s the point?

by Rotted_Flesh 10/17/2015

written by Rotted_Flesh

If memories only serve a catalyst for misery and my future is bleak?

There is nothing, my anxiety destroys any prospect I would ever have. Are some destined to exit early? I find myself asking this question a lot. Very little makes me genuinely happy, I’m never safe in my own skin. It’s sad to say I feel the most comfortable and at home when I am alone. How pathetic my life has become. So many mistakes I have made, I wish I owned a fucking time machine (I’m sure a lot of people think that). Being haunted everyday with no ability to make new memories […]

10/17/2015 5 comments

Thank you all

by Wanttogiveup 10/1/2015

written by Wanttogiveup

Okay so I just really quickly wanted to say thank you to everyone on this site. My friend had to ask 2-3 times just for me to join this site. I was reluctant because I expected people to ignore me or call my problems stupid…I’ve kinda grown to expect it from bad experiences in my past. But the amount of support I got from people who have never met me is…astounding. I’m determined to not let my depression and anxiety define who I am, but I never knew where to start. This is a good place. I don’t know if this will be the indefinite […]

10/1/2015 5 comments

Control.

by cocoki 9/10/2015

written by cocoki

I really need a safe (free ) anger outlet that no1 will notice around me (parents /friends ) bcoz I have a LOT!! of built up anger that one day I’m afraid I won’t be able to control and I’ll direct towards the wrong person and it’s just not good so can someone help me ?

9/10/2015 2 comments

by Shattered Night 9/7/2015

written by Shattered Night

im so scared i dont feel safe im so lonely thats all i ever feel anymore just sad and lonely

9/7/2015 5 comments

I am in love

by cathy arsis 9/5/2015

written by cathy arsis

it’s a real love, that provides safe haven against all tragedies…………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………i cannot tell him about the progeny of appolymous, ie, the mudd of sin that has left me sullied…..and what acts of deep, deep, deep dark injusticeits; Merriam Webster, latin origin; meaning fucking wrong, any philosophy, any pillar, any principle, will echo this sentiment….the deepest wrongs that have mutilated my soul (fuckin corny, fuckin cliché, I know…I call creative liscence)…the worst of all, worst than the act, worser still than the lingering memory, worser still than the innocence that still lingered ( I still had some? news too me! no matter, it’s past slaughtered now) he sits with me […]

9/5/2015 0 comment

blyoftwale

by Bisban 8/11/2015

written by Bisban

I’m not shining to anyway

I got cut but I won’t say where

To keep you safe

I’m not just singing

Waves, are they kept like some secrets

Cascading you rather to a, concussion

A French-man, padding my Uncle’s hair

Got a one slap

I’m not just singing, oh, eternally

Your gyrating, from me

Did I wasted it, a fickle

My only beautiful, is a burnt struck of a match

How do I need you

8/11/2015 0 comment

Insomnia

by thehusk 7/31/2015

written by thehusk

I can’t get no sleep

Ok, so that’s an exaggeration. Even on the worst nights, I usually manage 1-2 hours. What I mean to say is that I can’t get enough sleep to function properly. During my work week, I spend most of the time wandering around in a haze, zombified, narrowly avoiding bumping into people, longing for the day to end. But then the night finally comes, and I just can’t get to sleep at a reasonable hour, no matter how tired I am.

I feel like I’ve tried all the standard advice. Sticking to routines, exercise, limiting technology use, changing my diet, meditation, yoga, warm […]

7/31/2015 11 comments

Pressure

by Barytron 7/21/2015

written by Barytron

I am getting ready. I just want somewhere to say it. I can’t tell my friends excitedly about my plans, so I’ll tell you all.

I filed for residency last week. I will get my ID here soon. Then I can buy a pistol. I already have one chosen. Then I can take a concealed carry class and always feel safe, knowing death is always close if I need it. Though I still intend to wait until january, the weight and surety of a gun both soothes me and revs me up. Six more months. Six more months and I’m allowed to quit.

Just six more months.

So […]

7/21/2015 7 comments

What’s your story?

by marine105 7/20/2015

written by marine105

Hey guys, I just thought of something random and was wondering if you’d like to join in:

QUESTIONS:

1) describe the nature of your mood, whether it be miserable or ecstatic

2) describe what you think is going to happen to you, and then what you want to happen to you

I’ll start:

1) I don’t even know if I have a ‘mood’ anymore. I think my subconscious has virtually blocked all emotions in order to protect my conscious mind from telling me to skip off a bridge. I have skeletons in my closet that I simply cannot banish from existence, and the demons that emanate from them grow daily; […]

7/20/2015 7 comments

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