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by Drowning 3/24/2016

written by Drowning

i find it so hard to express how I’m really feeling or mayb I don’t know how I’m feeling

so the mental health people come to check up on me every 3 days now because what happened on Monday well the woman asked do I regret doing it I pursed and said noI don’t….

because my life is pretty much a mess I don’t know what to do were to start lost interest in everything I’m bored of life iv seen enough and been though a lot why be optimistic ? Yeah things can get better but finding happiness is what counts and I don’t tink il […]

3/24/2016 2 comments

Attempted Suicide Request Video!! (2)

by darkwillow 3/24/2016

written by darkwillow

Aloha! Learned the lead for this song since it was already on rocksmith. Saved like 3 hours of transposing and learning by ear.. But anyways, this is for you Attempted Suicide!!!!!! Any more requests, just comment please! Also, if you like penguins, comment below!

https://youtu.be/WVC5dzYQZ5k

3/24/2016 41 comments

Ugh mornings suck and so do trash days…. Lets chat? XD

by Sui the Bunny 3/23/2016

written by Sui the Bunny

So as some of you already know I had tried and attempted my life yesterday… You can see how that turned out *waves like a maniac* NOPE still here so whilst still possibly thinking of another method and action plan. Let’s talk guys!!! *throws confetti and pies everywhere* I’m not good at this don’t judge i’m new at making conversations with others i’m even surprised anyone talked to me and now I have friends on this site YAY!! <—— Sarcastic of course it’s to early for me to be hyper I haven’t even had any sugar….. Be right back don’t start the chat without me […]

3/23/2016 261 comments

We all need to anchor to something or I have my ups and downs right now is a down but at least the ups happen.

by deadmanliving(hopefullyhopeful) 3/22/2016

written by deadmanliving(hopefullyhopeful)

I never knew there was a video for this now 12 year old song. I was depressed when it came out and i still am. I may never overcome it honestly. In some ways i understand that. I dont know how ive lasted this long. There is plenty of reason to be proud of myself. I’m tired of the permanent loneliness. The emotional disconnect from humanity. I don’t have social networking/media. I have never dated regularly anyone in person. Ive never had real close friends save for a needy user. I have goals and hopes and even help with them. Im going to […]

3/22/2016 7 comments

Today.

by beaubri 3/21/2016

written by beaubri

11 hours left.

I ended up at my mothers. I hate this place. I fucking hate this place. But I have to act normal.

I took me test. It was a bunch of mathimatical questions, story questions, thing you would answer for a high school test. It was all timed. I passed. The pizza place hired me. I am suppose to start work this Fridad at 5:30. Go through my paper work process. And get fimiliar with the job. But it’s all pointless. It’s not like I plan on living past tonight anyways. But you know what I did it. I went there and did it anyways. […]

3/21/2016 9 comments

youtube tag with nut

by wintersportnut 3/18/2016

written by wintersportnut

Hi my dearest friends.. I got some tragic news i am still not ready to share yet, probably tonight.. I was wondering if anybody will play youtube tag with me so i wont feel so alone.. I tell you a song: you listen.. then you tell me a song: i listen… music can heal… help me to heal, would you… i will start… she is love by parachute

3/18/2016 51 comments

Dealt the shit hand

by Drowning 3/16/2016

written by Drowning

As phantom says we got dealt the shit hand by God where did we go wrong or what did we do to piss God off ? is it a test of strength ? Test of faith ? I don’t know but it is some bull shit right here

maybe with lived a high life before this life ? Maybe I should start going back to church ? Or maybe we live in hell and we go heaven when we die ? That dose make suicide sound nice if people who commit suicide and go to heaven it’s a sin I think ? But who cares ? […]

3/16/2016 9 comments

by Drowning 3/15/2016

written by Drowning

So I managed to make it though yesterday but the battle dosnt stop there ok I managed to get out the house today for a short time

but doesn’t change my thoughts on the world

what is the point in struggling with depression and emotional pain everyday ? People say things get better when is that ? What’s the point in life if you don’t have no goals no idea where your going or what will happen next

people say lifes a journey and you should enjoy it well I’m not fucking enjoying this bull shit having more down then ups feel like I’m crawling though life and […]

3/15/2016 3 comments

split mind

by Drowning 3/14/2016

written by Drowning

i wonder how much more can a fragile mind take before it cracks and you become a sociopath/psychopath

like fuck me im on my way there depressed suicidal anxious insomnia depersonalisation borderline personality disorder self harming If I run around cutting my self thats pretty much ok but if I do it to another person I’m a psychopath right ? Haha I think I need to be put away in a padded room with one of them hug yourself jackets til they can give us brain transplants or we wire this 1 cause it’s pretty message up

god dishing out any miracles ?

My prays go unanswered I’m […]

3/14/2016 4 comments

Gambling on lesser things

by Cordless 3/14/2016

written by Cordless

despair39

Had an appointment with the specialist today.

Her expert opinion was “There’s nothing more we can do for you.”

So no additional appointments were made, and as far as they’re concerned, I’m “done”.

Not even willing to discuss options about the tumor thing.

It was the oddest feeling, wheeling back out to the car, knowing I wouldn’t be coming back, but also knowing that I was still in just as much trouble.

I wonder if they just don’t want to be held liable if I end up dying while still […]

3/14/2016 130 comments

new people

by souptool 3/13/2016

written by souptool

I hate meeting new people. Specially a girl I like. I care too much, my chest gets all knotted. I’m trying to start a new life.. just don’t know if it’s worth it. I get hurt that’s all that happens.

3/13/2016 4 comments

Have I said too much?

by Beast 3/11/2016

written by Beast

It would seem that all of my plans and hope for a bearable future failed today, I wont bother with going further into details on this. I happened to have a meeting with my psychiatrist right after I figured that out and I just opened up and said that I cannot go on like this. I have to start preparations, my computer, hard drives, my room itself.. my online people.. things must be erased, those who knew me a little deserve to be informed if I go.. And now I am awaiting a call from an “emergency team” I don’t know what this means.. […]

3/11/2016 2 comments

Goodbye :)

by Costy 3/10/2016

written by Costy

Hey guys, I want to erase everything that made me depressed and start a new life. This site makes me depressed and stuff. I will erase everything and try to live life no matter what. I wish you all the best and hope that many of you will get rid of their demons and try to live life.

Farewell,

Costy

3/10/2016 9 comments

how’s everyone

by Drowning 3/10/2016

written by Drowning

Why can’t life be simple why do we have to go though so much pain and suffering why is the world such a horrible place what is our purpose for being here I didn’t ask to be born so why must I ask to leave with out feeling guilty

i envy the people born into a happy homes loving family money etc I think they get the best chance of life wile the rest start from the ground up but how can you start building if u haven’t even got a fucking dream or no were to start ?

but that’s just me how’s everyone

3/10/2016 2 comments

Hope and starting a new life

by NiDDA 3/9/2016

written by NiDDA

I am planning to move to England in 3 months and start to work there. I want to save a big amount of money to take a makeup course. Makeup is what I am truly interested in, it’s a beautiful art to me and I have the skills to it. This is my future plan. Oh, and a tattoo on my wrist to cover my scars. The little beads will be torquoise and the bigger one will be poison green.

3/9/2016 15 comments

You Know How It Feels

by brodie3750 3/9/2016

written by brodie3750

You lay awake in bed at night wondering where every little thing went wrong.

You create amazing friendships hoping they will spark into something intimate. You spend days, weeks, months and occasionally years talking to someone only to one day realise the effort disappears and you find that you are now the instigator. They never message you first, or call or whatever. It’s up to you.

Then one day you decide “okay, I’m not going to start the conversation this time. I will wait for them to instigate it.” Next thing you know you it’s been a few days and then weeks and months and you realise […]

3/9/2016 7 comments

I’m so shaken up right now..

by worn_out_soul 3/7/2016

written by worn_out_soul

So for the longest time, I have had this paranoia that I was being poisoned by my folks.. every time I would eat something they made I would immediately start feeling sick, my throat started burning, my chest and stomach started hurting and I got really bad headaches later on. I’ve been trying to avoid there food for a while but I had to yesterday morning, they were watching. The same thing happened. I couldn’t take it anymore, immediately I started searching around for shit I can be poisoned with. I then found this on the bottom of one of my families bag. is this […]

3/7/2016 2 comments

by Drowning 3/6/2016

written by Drowning

Why can’t life be simple why is there so much pain and suffering why do we always want the things we can’t have were the light st the end of the tunnel when do we get to find happiness ? When u been suicidal for so long u start to question you existence what is the real meaning of life ? Iv bad enough of it all ready

3/6/2016 0 comment

Shit

by Drowning 3/3/2016

written by Drowning

what the fuck my mind must be really mess up shit I’m already suicidal then last night I dreamed of me dying or getting killed it was so real can’t remember but I know it was to do with my heart tho and I was on the floor ? Heart attack I ain’t looking to live that’s long shit I no we all die but when you start dreaming and living it u start to ask your self is this my destiny to die early ??

3/3/2016 2 comments

cross my heart, hope to die.

by HannahGort99 3/2/2016

written by HannahGort99

Don’t you ever feel numb all over, for no apparent reason? Welcome to the feeling of depression..
I honestly don’t know what to start with, so let me just say this:
Most of myself (my dark, depressing and suicidal self) actually wants me to kill myself, but I don’t think I have the guts to even do it. But I always think about what will happen, and how I wouldn’t have to suffer anymore.
But the (I hate using this word) normal side of me thinks about who it would hurt, and then I’d feel guilty and would want to seek help. But most of […]

3/2/2016 1 comment

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