When my friends got problems I´m always there for them, and forget mine. When I really feel bad, I´ll push them away. Why can´t I just feel great and love my life and all who is in it? I know LIFE can really sucks sometimes but, all the time? FML -.-“
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so the manager acts all nice on the phone to my mom saying how she really likes me. lies! if u really liked me you would treat me with respect and i probably wouldnt hate you. Really wanting to quit still. i have these irrational thoughts thati cant drop. how everyone knows im awkward and stuff well now it sounds stupid but i cant change how i feel it just wont go away!  infact these feeling arent entirely irrational  because my stupid manager  called me shy and nervous a couple of times and infront of my coworkers. little does she know jow sensitive i am […]
Why do I keep fucking shit up? Why am I so stupid? I just… Feel like I am no good to anyone. I feel like all I do is screw shit up. I have nowhere to go, no friends that I can rant to freely without them getting annoyed and I’m left to this site. I have hit rock-bottom, and my last resort was this website.
Tell me, how pathetic does that sound? A site called The Suicide Project is where I go to when I need to vent. Yeah, most may call me lucky: I’ve been accepted into an amazing cosmetology school, I’m a model, […]
Overthinking. This is definitely a girls worst enemy. What causes our mind to get so many meanings out of one sentence..one word.
Love. This is something i have never experienced. Seeing couples together. Holding hands, just being together makes me envious. Finally the chance arose. I was finally in the fist stages of being in love and then my mind began to think. So close to finally bring with the one i love. Everyone would say that we were almost destined to be together. But almost was right. He would never show how he truely felt towards me, at least i didnt see it if he […]
they took a picture of me during lunch hour the other day. and by they i mean my ‘friends’. actually, i’m not even friends with the boy who took the picture. he just hangs out with my ‘friends’. anyway, he took a picture and showed the girl next to him. they started laughing. i figured it was a picture from facebook or something. then one of the girls asked ‘what?’. the girl who first saw the picture said ‘trust me. you don’t want to see it’. the boy sent the picture to that girl and then showed the other people around him. they were all […]
Sex. Sex, sex with sex and sex. I like sex. Sex is sexy. If you don’t like sex, then have some sex. Sex is good with sex, but only if you have fries and a burger made while having sex.
Sex is super. Sex is god. Sex is the foundation of western society. Sex is absolutely relevant in all possible cases where sex might occur or otherwise be sexy.
If you don’t care about sex, you’re not having enough sex. Or you’re having too much sex with people who aren’t sexy.
Relationships largely fail today because sexual compatibility is overlooked while personal compatibility is taken into consideration by […]
so lately my friends have been noticing my scars from cutting and theyre questioning it. theyre always talking about how stupid cutting is and how depressed people are crazy and need to be in a mental hospital so i cant tell them the truth about the scars so i need some good excuses, i ve been using “my cat attacked me” story but its not working that well anymore since thats what i always say so any excuses i could use???
Strangest thing…. today when I was brushing my teeth it just sunk in. This thought…. I said it aloud then. I DESERVE BETTER! Then I said it again and again. I think I finally believe it. The thing with me is that, sometimes my feel good revelations are short lived. Until someone knocks my pack of cards by a light flick. I can’t say this too will stick. But get it!
Yesterday I googled a camp song I once heard… No body loves me, everybody hates me, I think I’ll go eat worms…. and so on… It made me laugh, because I was indulging in self-pity. […]
i wish i had never told anyone about anything. Really, there’s not much to tell. God, what was i trying to do, help myself? Now i’ve got my damn nice parents caring about me -.- I should be grateful for this, a lot of people would love caring parents they can talk to, but they’re going to help me. I really don’t want this and sure don’t deserve it. Just if i kept my little snappy mouth shut i wouldn’t be this stressed. Man, you would think that help would help, but a hell not it doesn’t. I might as well kill myself in a […]
I still hide behind this facade that everything is okay. I at least try to. I just don’t have any purpose. I’m not important to anyone. I don’t matter. I can’t get over the fact that I lost my best friend. I didn’t see it coming, and he won’t tell me why. He was the only thing that kept me hanging on, willing myself to make it through another day. And now I don’t even matter to him. I was stupid to think I did. As soon as there wasn’t anything in it for him, he disappeared. I knew better than to trust him, but […]
All i can think about is suicide. In the daytime, at school, at home, in the shower, outside, and especially at when i go to bed. Does anyone else think of suicide that much? It’s strange, there’s really not much to think about it, but i can’t think about anything else. My 2 friends, the only people i’ve told, say i should talk to the school counseller. Should i go? I mean, maybe it’ll help, maybe it won’t. But i don’t like talking to people about my ‘problems’ and i don’t want it to get to my parents, i don’t want them to worry about […]
Okay So when I get home from school I am going to drive up to my ex boyfriends moms office to talk to her. I just wanna say hi and see how she’s doing and just talk about stuff in general… Is this a really bad or really dumb idea?
Sorry for the non-US people here….Â
but for some of us, we have been waiting for this day for awhile…. if for no other reason – to shut up all the stupid attack ads and BS phone calls.  I do believe that “my” side will win tonight and I am happy for that.  Looking forward to voting tonight and then sitting on my sofa and watching the results with a cold adult beverage!!   Then when my candidate is announced the winner, I am going to light off some fireworks and go to bed.
Wednesday is a great day to die.
Hello. I recently just signed up .
My problem isn’t as severe as others, but this seems like a place to share stuff.
So . I made friends, but they never notice me. I try to say hi to them, but they usually  just walk on by. No ever says hi to me. They don’t even notice me.
Sometimes I would walk with people and they would be like,”Sorry, I forgot your name.” And its been a year since I known them. Even some teachers do that.
I happened to make friend with this popular girl, and she invited me to her group’s mall. Me, having no life, was absolutely thrilled and said […]
Well, after contemplating for a couple hours, I finally decided to post something. The main reason is because I mean who the hell wants to listen to some teenager going on about how depressed he is when there is no reason as to why he would be? I have a roof to sleep under and food to eat every night. I don’t get bullied. I don’t hate myself or think I’m ugly or stupid. I have no good reason to want to die. Â But yet there’s something inside me that is tearing me apart. I have no emotions any more. I just want to die. […]
It’s the one thing that i’ve always wanted to be. Pretty and perfect. When i was a little girl, i was pretty and happy. No one every told me that i’m ugly or did anything to make me sad. But now, I’ve turned into some ogre just wanting to burst out. Every time i see someone pretty, i get really jealous and just wanting to hide away. All of my friends are really pretty and it’s hard to know that you’re the odd one out, the only one that’s ugly. On those 2 days of the week, when i have P.E (sport days), i get […]
That familiar pain in my chest of something trying to burst out…. Does anyone else like feel that?
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Today was a relatively normal day as far as my life is concerned. I went to school, got on my friends bus and went shopping for halloween treats for the little kids that I teach during my work experience. Well the first turning even in the day was mum flipping out at  me coz I didn’t make it to the checkout in time with a jar of curry. this didn’t bother me much it’s typical, however it did cast a shadow over the great day it had been so far. Then I get home to my father watching countless traveller shows on telly.Stupid pathetic **** […]
I’m almost 22, but I feel old. People have said that I am an old soul, but I think that’s just because I’ve had too much alone time to think. I’ve been mistrustful of people since I was a kiddo, and since then I have become isolated and friendless. My two younger brothers are going through their own psychological trials and keep to themselves. My older sister was like a beast when we were little, and I can’t even bring myself to express how much I resent the ways she manipulated and hurt me. I hardly talk to her. My mom is emotionally distant, due […]
My first post was months ago. yet I’m still here.
I have it all ready behind me, the ******** tank, the turkey oven bag, the gas regulator. I’m long past saying good byes. All I can think of is how much I miss that one person, who I will never see again. I’ve pushed everyone away, drained away every bit of money I’ve had, every bit of hope I’ve had, and now all my mind does is draw a blank.
I have people who love me, my family, my friends, even strangers who I barely know reach out to me. And the sad part is how I […]
Rumors are such a terrible thing. Wether its something that is a result of Chinese whispers, or wether it’s done intentionally, I don’t know. Now i’m not someone who is bothered by rumors, because most of the time they’re things that have not even a single brush of truth and they actually are quite humoros when it comes to the stupidity.
But this last rumor really got me.
The rumor going round (at the only boys school which my boyfriend attends – I think boys are more gossipy than girls!) was that I only go out with my boyfriend because I wanted a boyfriend, not because I […]