it’s sad to think i’m only fifeteen and i have tried to kill myself two times. yes two times. my mom found me both times, in the bathroom. In seventh grade i lost my best friend to suicide, i just wanted to see her. so i thought if i cut deeper i would bleed out. i passed out and i woke up in the hospital. they gave me pills for depression and i had to go to therapy. the second time i tried to i almost OD on pills i found in my moms room, i couldn’t get the bottle open and i was screaming […]
I want to die. I don’t understand why, but I am getting so close. I am only 16 year old… but in the past year I have completely fell apart mentally. Starving, vomiting, cutting. Flashbacks, tears, pain. I’m so tired of it. I am in counseling but I don’t want to open up. I can’t open up. I’ve really tried, but it’s so painful. My parents didn’t care until they were forced to. I don’t talk at home. The last few months I have been trying to hold on for everyone who loves me. I am trying, trying so hard to focus on that. No […]
I can’t stop thinking, my mind is going a million miles per hour.
I can’t help but thinking that my time on this planet is coming closer and closer to the end.
Who cares about the other people in your life who might be “hurt” if you just kill yourself. They don’t give a fuck about you or your feelings while you’re alive so why should it matter when you die?
Do they ever stop to think of the kind of emotionall distress they put on us? If they really loved us things would be different. Hopefully they can keep in mind that suicide is […]
“some gaddamn time…a man’s due t’ stop arguin’ with hisself. feelin’ he’s twice the gaddamn fool he knows he is….’cos he can’t be somethin’ he tries to be every gaddamn day without once gettin’ to dinner time and not fuckin’ it up….i don’t wanna fight it no more. understan’ me charlie? an’ i don’t want you pissin’ in my ear about it. can you let me go to hell the way i want to?”
—wild bill hickcock, deadwood.
that’s the second to last post on my facebook page. Â only one person got what i was saying. but it was only after another conversation that it […]
Iknow that this might sound cheesy, but it can hurt more th an you think…teenage heartbreaK.
I know the topic is weird to think that somebody would attempt suicide over it, but it happens to me a lot.
The first time my heart broke was when I asked out a guy who me and my friend I guess really liked but yet she still encouraged me to ask him out. So after school I walked up to him and asked him out he said no. Now you’re probably thinking m well can’t you find somebody else the answer is no. I can’t just get over […]
In my bedroom closet, I tend to write out how I am feeling about probelms that make me want to kill myself. Most of them are about my parents and how I feel that they never make me feel appreciated.
On the wall one of the messages talk about how my mom always takes sides with. My 5 yr old brother. It gets annoying to know that she has favorites already. I renenber one time when I was upstairs in my room and my brother who was downstairs started crying. Automatically […]
I Have Depression .. Really Bad. I Get Blamed For Everything, I Find My Self Ugly , Fat Or Even No Good! When People Tell Me Im Pretty I Think There Lying. When Im Upset And Somebody Askes Me “Whats Wrong” I Usually End Up Crying Right At That Moment. I Been To A Clinic To Get Help. Im Now On Depression Meds Now! When Im Upsett Or Real Low The First Thing That Comes To My Mind Is Suicide. It Feels Like I Have No One To Talk To. To Trust. I Feel As Though Im A Loser 🙁 I Get Picked On At […]
Hi
This is my 3rd time posting on this website, i guess it’s because i have no one else. I am getting more and more depressed every day and don’t no what to do.I was thinking of taking an overdose when i looked up consequences of an overdose and it said brain damage and that put me off that idea.
I have being depressed for nearly two years now and i guess things are getting worse and worse lately. i think it was my friends that kept me on the right path, but now i’m no longer friends with them. i suppose i have […]
I am stressed and live with high anxiety all the time. It is to the point when I do not even remember what life is like without constant pressure and I am only 21. I understand that life is stressful, that there will always be things that upset me, and that since I have survived much more difficult times in my past. But it is exhausting to just survive at this point, and it seems to be only getting worse. Before I can resolve one problem or stressor another one comes up, and then another and then another, and the stress and anxiety I live […]
I’ve gotten a request or two for my story so here it goes. I was born into a fading family. My dad bailed n left my mom, leaving her with a 4 year old son and me, an unborn child. She decided she couldn’t care for both of us, so she gave me to my adoptive parents. They’re possibly two of the worst people on the planet. From age one, they imposed their wills on me. They hovered around me constantly and everything I did had to be approved. My dad liked to “play fight” and manipulate my joints to cause pain. He threw me […]
Just saying, but I never really was into poetry. I’m sorry if I say things wrong, have horrible grammar or any other mistakes as I am currently high on weed.
Now then, with that cleared up, I’d like to bring back what I might talk about right now. I am absolutely in love for my cousin and want to be with her. My friend finally hooked me up with the hubby bars I wanted as you can see. I hate the poetry on here.
Since weed is considered a truth serum (used in the 1920’s by cops on mobsters to find all the drug […]
I am really losing it. Â I am researching suicide all day and all night and I can’t stop thinking about it. Â It takes all my strength just not to cut and more so not to kill myself or try. Â I would check myself into a hospital, but I have already been 5 times. Â Plus I am in the middle of school. Â I would lose a semester, for the third time. Â I just don’t know what to do with myself because I feel like the longer I tough it out, the closer I come to ending it. Â I wish I could stop this runaway train.
Holly bearly posted “kiss me before we o.d” and It already has 223 views,that’s crazy!I’m sorry I know I always tell you that.If everyones on here then talk!Don’t be shy.Obviously alot of people are on riqht now.Im pretty sure someone I haven’t even seen Is on.I thouqht there were only about 50 people on this site lol but I quess there’s more so let’s talk!
I had a thought on the bus today. I can’t remember all of it. But I was listening to some piano music and looking out the window, so many things went through my head. It’s not cold today, but a fresh layer of snow covers everything, it looks like its at least -30 c. I’m sick today. I didn’t want to go to school, but the medicine I had this morning worked enough. Despite staying up tell 3 am, I’m wide awake.
I don’t know why I’m depressed today but I am. I’d rather be alone or with my best friend than talk to anyone today. […]
If you’re here, it is fairly likely that the specter of suicide is in your life.
Maybe you have attempted it before, or many times like me. Perhaps the fifth anniversary of your most serious soiree into intentional drug overdose is on 6 March, like mine is.
And maybe, in the last five years, you have come to understand that at some level suicide will remain in the back of your mind. The bitter temptation of self-murder, when it translates into serious action that isn’t simply an attempt to gain perfectly understandable emotional support, is a cankerous thing. Each attempt makes the next more and more likely. […]
Dear ALL,
I have a goal, that I think all of you MAY be able to help me with. When I graduate next year, I plan on becoming a psychiatrist. And I know what you’re all thinking, probably. “Oh, I’ve been to plenty psychiatrists. They don’t help me any.” If this is what you’re thinking, I just want you to hear me out. I want to be a psychiatrist not for the money. But because of what I have went through, and what I have been going through. I have been through most of what you all have been through, and I want to be able […]
You see the heart symbolizes so much in both our society and various veins of creative writing. The human heart symbolizes; life, love, emotional anguish, and even endurance (e.g. the durability of the human heart is notoriously difficult to burn/destroy completely).
So an individual that has gone through a lot of emotional and or romantic pain would naturally choose to injure their chest/heart area of the body in order to send a message to the people they left behind, perhaps only one person in particular. […]
All my life I’ve always put up a front. Its become my defense mechanism. I can’t bare the real me. Everyone knows me as the happy, hyper girl who’s kind to everyone, and always has the right advice for any situation. I don’t know exactly when i started cutting, but it started as a ploy to catch my parents attention; show them how much i was really suffering. I was adopted, my birth mom was a drug addict and she drank and did drugs while pregnant with both me and my sister. My birth dad abused me. I have 2 siblings I’ve never met. My […]
I remember when I was a kid holding a knife to my throat to stop my folks fighting. Â Fast forward to life at 24 and not much internally has changed.
Listing my life’s unfortunate circumstances is pointless, everyone has suffering. Â However, the one constant has that the cumulative sum has all been ‘my fault’. After starting the process 4 years back to improve myself, it seems I’m the only one aware of my progress. Other folks just have shit to so.
Furthermore, when conflict arises and I stick to my reasonable intellect and try to better the energy, it seems like I hurt more than help. I […]
i’m dying on the inside.
I know longer know what to do. I don’t know how i got the way that i am, but i feel as if i was born to die & now that feeling is grabbing me more than ever.
i’m in high school, but i haven’t gone to school in about a month. i just show up every once in a while, when i’m in there i feel like killing myself. but switching schools is no option for me.
my parents seem quite disappointed but they don’t understand that this is an ongoing battle i have dealt with for over 3 years. I almost […]