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My lil’ bro’ is serious about suicide

by brokenandbent30 3/1/2016

written by brokenandbent30

This hurts my heart more than anything in the world. He graduated from high school, he’s 20 yrs old he knows this society is bullshit and he doesn’t want to work his life away to get nowhere. The part that really scared me was when he was talking about taking other people out with him.

He is upset with my cousin because he uses my grandmother. She has always been an enabler. She let’s him sell her script of Narco to get money but he doesn’t even need it! He takes pictures of himself holding up tons of cash and fronting like he’s working and all […]

3/1/2016 6 comments

I’m Here to Stay, and I’m Excited to Tell You About it

by HumilityandPerseverance 2/29/2016

written by HumilityandPerseverance

I’d like to start by thanking you for taking time out of your day to read this. I, like most writers, write as a means of expression, but to have my writing viewed by you is even more rewarding, for my thoughts are then able to be shared and acknowledged.

You may or may not have been a previous reader of mine, but for many years I wrote these blogs, and upon completion of each of them I was always able to derive from them a sense of satisfaction and accomplishment. To read people’s feedback was equally rewarding, as […]

2/29/2016 0 comment

Thoughts

by blink_fighter 2/29/2016

written by blink_fighter

There is nothing worse that not knowing how you feel; than having inexplicable feelings. It really is the worst feeling in the world. Not being able to express how you feel or what you want is the most disgusting and awful feeling you could ever possess.
Why does it happen? How is it even possible?
“You must know how you feel, you’re the one feeling it”
No. Because if I knew I wouldn’t dread every single day. If I knew I wouldn’t be numb and confused all the time over nothing. I don’t know how I feel about anything, and I don’t think I ever […]

2/29/2016 5 comments

I’m sorry

by 4beyondhelp 2/28/2016

written by 4beyondhelp

I should never have been born. No one deserves to have to put up with me. I ruin everything and I’m so, so sorry. I can’t wait to be able to die; I’ll ruin more things but at least then I won’t have to be aware of it anymore.

The worst feeling in the world is to hear the person you love most trying not to cry and knowing it’s your fault. I wish dearly I’d never been born and I think soon I’ll fix that error.

2/28/2016 3 comments

RANT

by blink_fighter 2/28/2016

written by blink_fighter

Everyone will let you down.
It sounds pessimistic, but it’s true. It’s sort of inevitable. When I was younger, I thought that if someone loved you, you automatically loved them back. I thought that everyone would have that perfect, fairy-tale ending. I thought everyone would find their soulmates and all the beautiful feelings of adoration would be reciprocated. Unfortunately for eight-year-old me, this isn’t the case. The sad truth is, you could love someone and give them the world and they could still not give a single damn about you. And you could do the same to them. It took me a long time to […]

2/28/2016 3 comments

Somewhere Inbetween

by thehusk 2/28/2016

written by thehusk

When I try to get my head around the idea of ending my life, I can’t imagine going through with it. Letting go of all the possibilities of existence. Everything suddenly starts to seem precious. Every moment, every minor positive experience, becomes meaningful. How could I leave a world with such beauty in it? A world containing fluffy clouds on summer days, rolling hills, and a sky full of stars. A world full of music. How could I not hang on for as long as possible, just for the chance of another moment like that?

The problem is maintaining that feeling while interacting with society. You […]

2/28/2016 2 comments

a frank and rational post about suicide

by herecomestheavalanche 2/27/2016

written by herecomestheavalanche

as i lay in my bed on this beautiful saturday morning, i couldn’t help but think.

i just do not want to be here anymore.

i had not one reason to leave my cocoon this morning. the only reason i got up out of bed, at 1 in the afternoon, was to use the washroom.

i wish i could talk about this, these feelings, with someone in real life without getting into trouble. i just do not want to be here anymore. i do not want to be in a hospital, but i do not want to be me, alone, in this apartment, anymore.

it’s just become way too […]

2/27/2016 7 comments

I’m so tired

by disgusting 2/25/2016

written by disgusting

I hate to feel sick of working already when it’s my first year. But I feel useless and like I can’t ever be up to the level everyone else is on, and I’ll always be such a no good underperformer. I used to think I was smart but it’s not book smarts you need. It’s being normal, knowing how everyone else thinks, and creating systems that follow the normal thinking patterns that I’m clueless on. I’m sick of not having any energy, being so short of breath, coughing & gagging like a smoker when I’ve never smoked, being tired all the time and overall physically […]

2/25/2016 3 comments

Light

by thelost 2/23/2016

written by thelost

Her head rises and falls with each breath I take, and perhaps it’s fitting considering the fact that without her I might never have taken those breaths. Her long, dirty blonde hair is pulled back in a simple braid, and I’m eternally grateful. It allows me an uninterrupted view of her beautiful face, which I have grown to so adore. I feel I am unworthy of having this beauty at such close hand, and to have it all to myself is incomprehensible. Her lips draw my eyes and I remember the feeling of pressing mine against them. The way that it felt as though the […]

2/23/2016 0 comment

Times like this

by alina_01 2/22/2016

written by alina_01

really bring out the darkness inside me. I try so fucken hard to excel to be a better person in spite of all the fucked up things that are my life. I try to be more understanding, forgiving, helpful, kind but GOD WTF is the point?!!!! People abuse the fuck out of that!!! WHY!??? I’m tired of trying to be the exception of trying to be one of the good people left but it is truly exhausting and hard and I want to give in. Seriously fuck it I’ll just be a selfish asshole like everyone else in the world. I have feelings for someone […]

2/22/2016 5 comments

I want it to end

by sonderr 2/21/2016

written by sonderr

Ever since I was 13, I’ve had varying cycles of depression. They used to be pretty mild, nothing to make me want to do anything irrational. But my depression reached an all time high last year when I was 16, and I seriously consider suicide every day for a long time. The only reason I’m still alive is because I was too afraid of the physical pain.

The reason why my depression spiked was because I had found out that my best friend never had any trust in me at all and that she never really cared about me. I also began having confusion with my […]

2/21/2016 1 comment

to everyone

by Drowning 2/21/2016

written by Drowning

I just wanted to say I like this site everyone is friendly and supportive I no everyone has their own Demons to deal with and the battle isn’t easy with mental health depression anxiety suicidal thoughts etc if the world was to support each other like we do in here the world would be such a nicer place to live in hopefully things get better for all of us

thanks

2/21/2016 3 comments

“Despite our human intelligence…

by Luke2015 2/21/2016

written by Luke2015

we are very much like our friends in the wild; the world we live in is a survival of the fittest. But to this I say, let the fittest survive! Survival is overrated. We’re alive; we die. How long we survive for is of little significance. Our true significance lies not in the endless comparing of ourselves to one another, trying to see who is the fittest, using scales of evaluation and meaning that differ in the heart and mind of every individual; no – it lies in our deeds alone with the time we have.

2/21/2016 1 comment

Hey folks, there’s a girl.

by thelost 2/21/2016

written by thelost

I know, I know, big fuckin’ surprise coming from me. Not like I’ve posted stuff about a few different girls a few billion times the past year or so. Honestly it’s getting stale isn’t it? ‘Course I spice it up with a bit of shitty writing chucked in there too, but mostly it’s girls, girls, girls. Where’s the depression, the suicide, the goddamn anxiety!? If I felt like being a smartass I’d say it’s all in my head, and that’d be true enough, but on the subject of me being slightly off topic of what this site has set out to do, it’s hidden in […]

2/21/2016 1 comment

Let me tell you this: if you meet a loner, no matter what they tell you, it’s not because they enjoy solitude. It’s because they have tried to blend into the world before, and people continue to disappoint them.

by Luke2015 2/20/2016

written by Luke2015

2/20/2016 22 comments

Had enough

by Drowning 2/20/2016

written by Drowning

Iv really had enough now I hate waking up everyday I’m not living life im just surviving each day and that’s a battle life isn’t for everyone and I’m one of them people life will carry on if im here or not so what’s the point the world is a horrible place let alone feeling lonely depressed anxious need to build up the courage to try again

2/20/2016 4 comments

What does the Depression feel like?

by jrmeador94 2/20/2016

written by jrmeador94

I want to try something, for all of us. I recently sat down with my therapist and essentially explained what I was going through when I am depressed, considering suicide, making the plans.

After I was done, I felt so much better. I told someone exactly how it felt being tortured inside. And I want you all to do it here.

Write a few sentences (short might speak the loudest). Find music or a work of art. Make a video. Anything that calls out and resonates deep in you, and share with the world what it’s like.

Let me start out by saying this:

“Depression is sitting under a scalding shower, trying […]

2/20/2016 12 comments

Something to Prove

by chelle428 2/20/2016

written by chelle428

So after finding out I owe my college more money than I thought the other day I told my mom I was giving up and I didn’t care about my life anymore. Of course she never takes it serious when I talk to her about suicide/ depression. So today she wouldn’t stop harassing me to get my W2’s so I could get my tax return (which won’t even be a couple hundred dollars) and I told that I already I was giving so why would I even file, since my dad already filed me as a dependent even though he doesn’t buy anything for me, […]

2/20/2016 5 comments

fuck you moon

by souptool 2/19/2016

written by souptool

Full moons around the corner and my sleep is getting worse

getting angry, 45 days sober, on house arrest in the middle of nowhere, court in November, could be looking at jail again

But I’m not looking that far. I’ve set a date for my suicide, if I still feel like it in June I’m going to kill myself.

started working again. Forgot how much I hate the farm, the hours suck, pay is horrible, work with a boss that hates me. Step dad’s suck balls. Real dads forgot about me. Chronic pain, need a hip replacement.

Wish I wasn’t an alcoholic, a good drunk would be awesome right […]

2/19/2016 3 comments

Support

by NicoleK 2/19/2016

written by NicoleK

I know it’s hard to take me. I have to live with me don’t I? My youth pastor and best friend are really good about dealing with my intensity, to my face anyway. But I get the sense that they are sick of hearing the same garbage with no change. Don’t they know I’m sick of feeling the same garbage every day too? I speak up every couple weeks, because I can’t take being so alone anymore. I ask for prayer not advice, and I don’t ask to talk about it. I just let them know my head isn’t right. They say they don’t know […]

2/19/2016 3 comments

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