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by LegitApplePie
written by LegitApplePie

My family read my diary, which described all the details of my sadness and my wish to die. I am now on lock-down. They don’t want to leave me alone and I am being pushed toward hospitalization. I now have to move out of my sister’s house because she fears for her children’s safety, not really mine.

 

So,

I’m looking for a place to live, but I honestly want to be done with this. I have no where to go and no on wants to claim me. I’m pretty sure no one cares about me and the one person I thought I could count on made me […]

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To hell & back

by nikster
written by nikster

I was picked up out of my home and thrown into a mental hospital on 12/30/2011 for a week so it really thwarted my plans of ctb before the new year. I left the hospital with a false sense of optimism, and now I’m sitting in my apartment on suicide websites again…..feeling like my soul is dead and I’m just going through the motions because that’s what I was told to do. Truth be told, I have no idea what the next day or weeks ahead of me hold….I know today was a shitty day, not sure when the glimmer of sunshine will show through […]

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tired of faking it

by lost_annie
written by lost_annie

Im so freaking tired of having to fake my way through life I go to work and have to pretend im fine cuz if anybody there knew the truth ( i hate myself and want to die) they would never trust me again and wouldn’t let em do my job the only thing I have in my life that actually keeps me grounded I fucking hate my life why can’t i be a better person I mean what the hell is wrong with me that when I got frustrated at work today my first thought was to strangle myself and my second was to chop […]

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How can i live like this

by traptsoul
written by traptsoul

Right now in my life things are not the best. I thought i got over the bullshit and hurtfull things in my life but spending a few days with your family brings it all back [I went on vacation with them for 10 days] and still they haven’t changed i mean yes we all live in the same house but i don’t see them at all because i hate being around them my dad and i never see i to eye and he is always telling me that am a […]

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pain

by drift_along
written by drift_along

I hate living i wish that my mom.would just let me die already ive been suffering for years now and she seems not to care she avoids the situation until i try something then thats when she notice i need more help then what shes giving.but the truth is i dont want.anyones help i just want to be left aline so that i could just die by myself what so hard about that you know i prayed and prayed that this world would end in 2012 like is was supose to but i guess i didnt prey hard enough because here i am writing […]

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Cajun Field

by Cajunfield
written by Cajunfield

I’m 58 years old, working in Iraq so my wife could spend time with her sister and our nephew who died of brain cancer 1-Nov-11. I came here for her, for my family and stayed though I hated being away from my home and family, I stayed because they were proud of me.

Up until coming here in May-2011, the longest I’ve been separated from my wife was three weeks while she visited our son in Japan. She has wanted to go to Japan for as long as I’ve known her and when our granddaughter was born there, my son was in […]

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I bet I have a mental problem or something.

by LoveandDespair
written by LoveandDespair

I don’t particularly think my story is of any significance, nor do I think anything particularly bad has happened to me, but I shall share my story anyway because of the simple fact that I want to.
I shall begin with the fact that I’ve always hated my father, as far back as I can remember he has always annoyed me, with his selfishness, lack of manners and personal space, I swear, if I even began insulting him, I could never stop. People say I have a really good memory but the truth is, I don’t I can’t exactly remember anything before the age of […]

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Purpose?

by steveagain2
written by steveagain2

Do you believe that some people aren’t put on this earth to get what they want/need? Because, lately, I believe that. I believe that certain people are put onto this earth as a warning to others, to never really get what they want and force themselves to accept what they’re given or die trying.

Example: I’m sure a lot of you know about me and my ex. I rant about it nearly everyday. What I’m sure you didn’t know what that she was depressed, too, before she met me (I’m not being egotistical, it’s the truth). She cut herself, was very closed off to everyone, etc. […]

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Dear Hero.

by WhatDoYOULove
written by WhatDoYOULove

Dear Hero,

Maybe I’m not nearly as important as I was a few months ago. I may not be at the top of your priority list, or even in the back of your head. But I want you to know I admire you more than anyone in this entire world. And I’m more proud of you than you could ever know. I’m more than happy for all that you have achieved, and I wish I could have the courage and the strength that I have witnessed from you. You taught me how to love and gave me feelings no one has ever given me. I know […]

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How Do I [Title] Depression?

by semicharmdlife8
written by semicharmdlife8

I’m new here. But I’m not new to the concept. I’m tired of crying. I’m tired of cutting. I’m tired of pulling my hair out in frustration. I’m tired of being hated. I’m tired of walking into a room and wanting to run out for fear of people thinking I’m crazy or annoying.

I hate me.

I’m a 19 year old girl in college persuing an astrophysics and math double major. Yeah, I know. Same reaction I get from everyone. “Do you have some sort of death wish!?” If they only knew the truth in that question.

I’m not going to list the reasons that I feel sorry […]

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Why am I here?

by jess_ica
written by jess_ica

I don’t know why I am doing this. I mean being on this site and just writing. I suppose I have nothing better to do.

I always thought that wanting to die was something everyone thought. To tell you the truth, I have been having suicidal thoughts ever since I was little. Like pre-school but I don’t remember why.

I have slit my wrist before. I just wake up everymorning and want to go back to sleep and smother myself under the blankets. I hate school. I am 15 and I HATE being here. I look around and want to bang my head against the wall.

I dunno […]

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My friend that is my suicide

by Suicidal
written by Suicidal

” I’ve often thought of suicide as my anwser. But now i regret it. I Slit my wrist way to deep all the blood rushes from my gentle body as i lay crimped up on the floor i wonder if anyone even cares. My funeral was horrible no one even bother to release a tear. not one. No one came to claim me as there’s. No boys seem to take a look when i walk by they just go on&on about the measly lives of the tiredness of the others with in the room. No counselor seems to listen when i scream at the top of […]

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lost

by good at pretending
written by good at pretending

i’m 23 years old.  my birthday is on the 13th and i keep thinking……..maybe i won’t make it til then.  i’m a single mother of 2 kids.  it’s definitely hard……but looking at how perfect they are makes everything worthwhile.  i feel guilty for the way i feel.  i never feel like i’m good enough.  i hate myself so much that it’s hard for me to find the good in anyone else.  i didn’t have a really horrible childhood.  but when i was 8 my mom told me that my dad wasn’t really my dad….he was my step dad and my “real” dad lived in california.  […]

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what to do now?

by helper
written by helper

I am going to move it is unavoidable, and i have to keep it a secret… but i told my boyfriend and he broke up with me. He only did it because of this but the truth is i am not moving for another year… and this really hurt. I am dealing with depression and he didn’t really know the extent of it… and this really crushed me. He is really honest with me and tells me everything still, we are really close and that hasn’t ended but i am still so confused… you see he told me he still loved me and he didn’t want […]

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getting closer to suicide

by homeoffice
written by homeoffice

I’ve read a couple of posts and I think its great that people have a chance to express themselves and get others to help. I’ve tried to fill myself 4 or 5 times now and I havent been able to do it. I know that most people have issues and that they find it difficult to talk to someone or maybe feel that there is no way out.

I never believed in suicide and I always thought that anyone that tired to kill themselves was selfish and that they didn’t think of the people around them that could help. At the very worst I thought you […]

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