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Two Friends

Hate is my fuel

by TarotXIII 3/14/2013

written by TarotXIII

I hate my kind.

I hate their faces, their ignorant smiles. I’ve grown to hate them indisciminatly. What the fuck is wrong with those people? Hollow minds inside puppets made to walk with rotten strings. Let yourself fall into the bliss of mindless simplicity. Almost life a hivemind, brainwashed and seemingly happy with it.

Go with the crowd or fall with the trash.

I do not claim to be a saint nor have my 21 years of existence given me enough experience in the way of life, but is it just me or everything seems so twisted. What happened to sincerity, kindness, generosity? All those concepts are almost […]

3/14/2013 0 comment

My long story…

by I.cant.breathe! 3/3/2013

written by I.cant.breathe!

so when I was 9 I started getting bullied really badly I eventually only had two friends and that was that, all I had on my schedule was crying, being bullied, and crying. then when I was 10 i thought things were getting better but they just4 got worse, my grandma started dying and I loved her dearly. and i missed a few days of school cause i was at the hospital with her. people started to leave me alone a bit and I even started to get more friends. but that didn’t last long. in 5th grade this girl came to my school […]

3/3/2013 0 comment

by tangerine 2/14/2013

written by tangerine

i am an adult, now. at least according to the law – i’ve been an adult for quite some time. i’m 23 years old, on my fourth year of university and nowhere near graduation. i’m majoring in something i don’t love because i don’t love anything. i live away from my family – which is and has been broken for eight years, my mother so depressed she can barely hold a conversation that isn’t self-deprecating and shame-laden, my dad so lonely that it’s physically painful to speak to him, my younger brother so, so angry – and my two friends, who are the only meaningful […]

2/14/2013 9 comments

Drawing a blank . . .

by Goa 2/4/2013

written by Goa

Well I’m not sure where to start with this post . . .

I feel rather blank for a while. I’m hardly doing any of my school work and have been failing for a while, that’s probably the worst.Â I’m a bit uncertain of my social situation you see I really only have two friends who I still hang out with sort of often, but for a while now their interest in video games have dissipated, something im still very into. I still have fun with them but as they get more social and, despite their encouragement,Â really have lost interest in hanging out with them.Â […]

2/4/2013 0 comment

Love, the weird girl you met at school when you were a kid.

by PennyroyalTea 11/6/2012

written by PennyroyalTea

Dying has never been easy for any human being, at least for any of the human being I’ve met throughout my life. The idea of leaving the world for visiting some unknown existence is just scaring. But, for me, the worst thing about dying is never have theÂ guarantee of seeing your loved ones again.

I said before that one of my friends, one of the important people in my life, was trying to hate me but he wasn’t able to. Well, now I know he hates me. I know, this is my fault. A friend, who I really trust, told me that he hates me. When […]

11/6/2012 1 comment

A wish…

by sleepxdeath 8/25/2012

written by sleepxdeath

A wish

A wish where two friends

Drive on the coastal highway

With the windows down

The music way up high

Just dancing

Throughout the whole trip

A wish

A wish where two friends

Drive into the woods

Up into a hill

Just watching the clouds

Just watching the planes

Just watching the birds fly

Just watching nature

Just having a decent conversation

Like two innocent children

No stress

No drama

No problems

No situations

No fights

Just two friends being children for a day

Just a wish

8/25/2012 2 comments

by maybe_soon_500_days_of_you 7/31/2012

written by maybe_soon_500_days_of_you

Hey all,

I know this forum isn’t the best place for this post, but I just wanted to talk to someone and tell someone how I feel.

It was a pretty busy day for me. I talked a lot to other people ( 2 persons). But when I came home today I felt so down and depressed. I don’t know why, but somehow I lost interest in life. Every second day I feel so depressed for no particular reason. I don’t think I am depressed or suffer from an other brain illness, its just that I put my life in a state where I disconnected absolutely from […]

7/31/2012 2 comments

An Accidental Attempt

by TheOneLookingBack 7/16/2012

written by TheOneLookingBack

Alright so I don’t really know how to do this, but whatever.I’m just going to share my story. Last year I got into alcohol and drugs. I was drinking, smoking cigarettes, smoking weed, and huffing. I don’t know how to explain it. I just wasn’t me. Hanging out with the wrong people. One day at midnight, well, September 7th. It was officially the first day of school and I was dreading it. So, me and my friend took 8 triple c’s or cold cough pills. I knew nothing about it other than it would make me feel good. And I’ve always had problems with depression […]

7/16/2012 0 comment

My friends are everything…

by faith099 7/8/2012

written by faith099

I just let my two friends read my first post. They both showed me that maybe there is hope for me. N o I am not cured from this disese but they will make it better. They try to give me anti depressants and I have stop taking them cause they do no good. I have so much depression and my friends relize this and want to be there for me. I feel good knowing someone is there to be with me whn I am crying non stop.I hope that nothing ever happens to tthem. I would fall aoart and would definatly not be here […]

7/8/2012 1 comment

Can’t find my way home

by TarotXIII 6/19/2012

written by TarotXIII

I’ve done it.I think I finaly got rid of the only two “friends” that still talked to me.I kept rejecting their proposal to hang out.It’s been about 2 weeks that I haven’t seen them.

No more stupid talk

No more going along those stupid talk

No more people trying to change me at all cost

No more fake smile

I am 100% alone now.

Man it just feels so stupid to write this for everyone to see.I wish I could burn my mask but I’m too much of a coward to do so.I’ve goten so affraid of being rejected by people that I’ll surely use it forever on…My mother started noticing […]

6/19/2012 3 comments

Loss

by DAlex 6/10/2012

written by DAlex

Well great. School is finally over and I have to say goodbye to two of my best friends. On the bright side, school is finally over, meaning I won’t have to think about how much I suck at math, science, etc etc etc. This summer will either be when I do something with my life or get even more depressed. Also, my birthday is on the 14th, and I might get to see one of my old friends again. Sadly, I know sometime or another I’m going to fuck everything up all over again, like on my eighth birthday which I might go into detail […]

6/10/2012 1 comment

Going blindly

by TarotXIII 6/5/2012

written by TarotXIII

Right now I’m only living because I am alive.To not waste what I consider a magnificent oportunity to discover,feel and enjoy everything that moves your heart.Yet no matter how hard I look,no matter how hard I search,I can’t find the rope to guide me trough the maze.I feel so alone…Everyone around me seem so far away,like I was in a different dimension overlaping his one but I couldn’t be touched.I can’t find what moved my heart anymore.Everyday seem wasted.I think: “If I was going to do nothing again,I should have stayed in bed”…Worthless chatter “It’s finaly geting hot outside!”…”I love the cold…”.Everybody looks at me […]

6/5/2012 2 comments

the mask is off…but

by NotReallyHereAtAll 5/18/2012

written by NotReallyHereAtAll

I’m writing this on my phone because I am in school and it is lunchtime and I feelunbelievably depressed and there is nobody here I can talk to in this way… Anyway, I feel possessed with the desire to jump from a top floor window, to cut myself all the way up my arm and to just curl up in a ball for hours and scream. I want to scream and shout and just cry for a long time, but I can’t. I can’t do these things because I am at school and nobody here knows how deeply depressed I feel a lot if the […]

5/18/2012 1 comment

Fail…..again

by dyingtodie 3/26/2012

written by dyingtodie

Yes, it’s official, I couldn’t jump and now I have to face the consequence that I might be stuck here until I die of natural causes. How the he’ll am I going to do that?
I’ve told noone about my latest attempt but I had two ‘friends’ with me at the time and as I was standing on the edge they………
Walked away.
I don’t know why I didn’t take the opportunity to end it then and there, though I was worried it wasn’t high enough but there aren’t any higher structures that I can get to.

Time for another google ‘suicide methods’ search I think.

help

3/26/2012 2 comments

Lost and Unwanted

by orchid92 2/13/2012

written by orchid92

I’m new here so I guess I’ll start with some history. I have three half-blood brothers, and one full-blood brother. I have one half-blood sister and a woman I consider to be my sister, but really isn’t. My parents passed away. My mother when I was two. My dad when I was eight. I was molested when I was nine. I lived with a very sadistic and controlling woman for about four years. I then moved in with my brother, when I was twelve. He taught me how to live, how to love, and how to be a good person. I’m now in college. I’m […]

2/13/2012 2 comments

Well.

by Katie 1/16/2012

written by Katie

Well. I’m only fifteen, and already I want my life to end. Ever since I was eight years old, my life has been a mess. My parents divorce was the spark of everything. I’ve been depressed for seven years, but the past two years it’s been hitting me hard. Every night I cry, wanting it to end. I use to pray to God to kill me in my sleep or to let me have at least one good day. I got neither, and gave up my faith. I wake up every morning, wondering why I even bother getting out of bed. I can’t find one […]

1/16/2012 7 comments

Does anyone else feel kinda silly?

by steveagain2 8/6/2009

written by steveagain2

I’m considering suicide. I feel like it’s time, like there’s nothing else I’m meant to do. Like my purpose here is kinda done. Does it suck? Hell yeah it sucks. I feel like I had potential, I had a future. I’m an incredibly talented guy. Everyone has said that I’m one of the best actors they’ve ever seen and that I’ve got a shot to make it big. I’m an ambitious filmmaker and I’ve won awards for some of the scripts I’ve written. I’m recently teaching myself guitar and piano, since I’ve already taught myself drums (not too hard). I’ve written two albums of songs […]

8/6/2009 3 comments

The Existential Vacum

by Twilight 6/7/2009

written by Twilight

I am a 35 year old female.Â I’veÂ had the condition ofÂ depression andÂ an anxiety disorder since my teens.Â I am on medication which keeps everything other control. And I feel I have lived long enough.

I am not married and have no children. Infact my world is quite small. Occassionally I see my sister and brother and theÂ one or twoÂ friends I have.

I am unemployed at the moment. For the last 2 months actually. It wasn’t the economic recession that got it’s fangs into me in the form of cutbacks. I wasn’t fired. I didn’t have a better job lined up. IÂ just left voluntarily.

I had no idea if I would […]

6/7/2009 19 comments