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Can’t take it anymore

by boojay 12/23/2015

written by boojay

I have so much I want to say. You don’t know me at all. But for now all I’ll say is this.

i asked my mom for three things for Christmas. Three little things. I wanted to drive an hour to see a light display. I wanted a small tabletop tree to decorate and I wanted no gifts, from anyone. She did none of this. We have no tree. I didn’t and won’t get to see the light display. And I have gifts from my grandparents and am elderly great aunt and uncle waiting. I don’t feel worthy of gifts from these people. I am chronically […]

12/23/2015 1 comment

Protected: Feeling better now.

by daitya1989 12/22/2015

written by daitya1989

There is no excerpt because this is a protected post.

12/22/2015 1 comment

Across The River

by trophyX 12/13/2015

written by trophyX

You hope I’m okay? Yeah, I hope you are too. I’m not sure of much these days I’ll say that is for sure. You know? I guess sitting here in front of the river it’s like you’re way over there, on the other side. I see you, you see me and we both see this chasm between us. I definitely feel it. It feels like a closed chapter if I had to articulate it. I woke up from a nightmare that lasted for months. I woke up to my normal nightmare, that is. But you have no idea how waking up to you across this […]

12/13/2015 3 comments

Emotionally all over the place

by evildandelions 12/11/2015

written by evildandelions

I feel weird.

Still grieving the loss of my fiance. Still feeling the anxiety and physical pain that comes with it. Still having moments where I feel like I can’t breathe because I think about her and how everything we had is gone. I alternate between feeling incredibly sad and angry. I miss her so much, she’s my best friend, but then I’m angry too, feeling so betrayed that she could even do this.

Then there’s the TMS. I only just started the treatments this week and everything I’ve read about it says that results aren’t seen until about three weeks in. And yet I feel different. It […]

12/11/2015 2 comments

TaDB Update (I couldn’t think of a title lol)

by Take a Deep Breath 12/10/2015

written by Take a Deep Breath

So I went to some fancy schmancy doctors in San Francisco to get the results back from my brain scans. He said that the over activity in my brain causing my anxiety was “horrifying” and could only imagine how bad it would’ve been without my current meds. The comparisons between my brain and those of a normal brain are startling in their differences. He’s putting me on yet another medication with supplements- I’m excited but sceptical. I’ve already tried so many meds…. But what have I got to lose? I got so desperate to cut that I took apart my eyeliner pencil sharpener 🙁 It […]

12/10/2015 4 comments

Moving on

by Costy 12/8/2015

written by Costy

Hey guys. I am realizing something here. I have to move on. I have a picture with myself since I was 8 years old. I look at that picture and imagine what he wanted. He was a good kind child. His parents gave him the best they had. He had computer and a shelter+ food. Some of us don’t have this, some of us are paralyzed, having serious medical problems and the list can continue. The divorce of my parents and my introverted nature shattered my world, and the dissapointments with my exes. But still, like Salt said, I am good looking and smart. I […]

12/8/2015 7 comments

I don’t understand…

by InhalingAnxiety 12/4/2015

written by InhalingAnxiety

…the people here at my workplace. I really fucking don’t.

At the beginning of every month, we have a client who brings in their stuff for us to work on. I do half of it, and my co-worker J does the other half (all in the same program). We’re both qualified to do it all ourselves and it’s not like it takes that long to have just one of us do it all, but for some reason they still have it split between the both of us.

Anyway, I have been included into the mix of this client since the beginning of Spring this year (I’ve been […]

12/4/2015 3 comments

Where is your safe haven?

by nextime1988 12/2/2015

written by nextime1988

We all have a safe haven a place where we can be away and safe from all the agressions world throws at us.

Mine is my living room couch even in good days if go to bed whthout spending half an hour there ill have a hard time trying to sleep its the, for me only way to calm down at the end of the day laying there in the dark watching tv or listening classical music.

Where’s yours???

12/2/2015 14 comments

Women

by nextime1988 11/29/2015

written by nextime1988

I’m a below average statured man, yet i htink my looks may be not that bad. at a certain point in my life i began that noticing sometimes in public setting women would notice me.

Like this morning i went for lunch with my parents at a fine restaurent when then this gorgeous girl walked in with (i think) her Grandparents and they sat in a table next to us and it happened she noticed me.

Maby its the reason i’m feeling so bad today knowing that i’m a socially awkward fuck, that i dont have the guts and even if i had no woman whats to […]

11/29/2015 5 comments

Why all the hate?

by Alexther 11/27/2015

written by Alexther

I seriously don’t get why most people hate hardcore drug users… You don’t fucking know me, you don’t know my reasons for taking the stuff, and yet you tell me I’m ”a drain on our society”? I work for the cash I buy my fixes with, and I mean real work, not stealing from your fucking pocket or anyone else’s for that matter.

”Junkie”
”Methhead”
”Tweaker”

Oh please, the hypocrisy is limitless! Most of this shit comes from drinkers/smokers. Well assholes, EVERYONE has vices! The only reason that mines are ”evil” is because they’re illegal. Fuck the law, by the way. I’m not gonna let a bunch […]

11/27/2015 9 comments

I can live a bit more.

by viola 11/27/2015

written by viola

I’ve decided that I won’t kill myself on the 30th. After all, someone told me that one, my family and friends will be grieving and that if I kill myself, I might give a lot of people despair. Second, my dreams – to be a ballet dancer, to be friends with my crush (which is kind of weird to be placed here, heh), and to serve the country as a scientist – will all be lost when I die. Third is that I want to let other depressed and suicidal people live and know that we can all defeat our suicidal thoughts and not let […]

11/27/2015 3 comments

I wish you all continue having what I do not have.

by rainyday 11/26/2015

written by rainyday

I am here to write no about my eternal desire to die, because this is not a day for that. This is a day to be Thankful for others people happiness. This a day for be Thankful for all of you that have wrote me when I have been very close to take my own life. This is a day in which many will have the happiness that I do not have and most probably will never have. A day in which many will be surrounded by family, others by friends.

Happy Thanksgiving for all of you. Wish you that can be have a wonderful day. And […]

11/26/2015 1 comment

Coming Out

by thegirlwiththecinderblockgarden 11/23/2015

written by thegirlwiththecinderblockgarden

My mother just tried to force me to come out. And now I feel like shit.
I was talking to her about the possibility of me running the LGBTQ+ society at my college next year and she jumped down my throat, saying that I thought she was a terrible person, and that’s why I wouldn’t tell her. She says that I’m breaking the bond between us by keeping this from her and I’m deeply upsetting her by not talking about it.
You know what the most important part in all of that was?
HER
She didn’t care about what it was doing to me, being […]

11/23/2015 7 comments

Hope

by Alfred1688 11/21/2015

written by Alfred1688

There may come times when we are lost
It will make us want to break free at any cost
There may comes times when life is sad
It makes everything look and feel bad
But even in all this pain and chaos
There is still some hope in all of us
It gives us the will and strength to live
Even when we feel life has nothing to give
We feel fear, we feel pain
It can make us go insane
It can make us do things we think that might be right
Endless tormenting us with nightmares at night
We feel all is […]

11/21/2015 1 comment

so…when depression kicks in,severe one, the body should just fucking die, shut down, just like a deadly disease… brain s the power house,if that s not cool…nothing goes.

by alexia 11/20/2015

written by alexia

cause of death: natural cause-depression.

save us all the fucking drama.

11/20/2015 5 comments

Tomorrow Here We Come #6

by Take a Deep Breath 11/19/2015

written by Take a Deep Breath

She perches on her cream-colored windowsill as a robin would upon a branch. Taking a look outside of herself, she sees all that is good around her. Look at the sky, what with its baby-blue face freckled with wisps of cloud cover. Hear the gentle crunch of dying leaves under the tender feet of newly birthed fawns, or the gentle shushing of feathered-wings taking flight. Smell the earth- the rich tone of moist soil mixed with the crispness of mountain air takes away her breath. Feel the cool breeze run his fingers over her skin, over her cheeks and lips and arms, as lovers would.

11/19/2015 2 comments

A friend

by nicole123 11/19/2015

written by nicole123

I always have dreams about a friend who killed him self when he was on lsd. He took it and walked onto the interstate and ran in front of a car and died later in the hospital . We all knew he committed suicide . He always told us he wouldn’t live to see 21 but none of us knew he was depressed . But in my dreams he’s always giving me life talks and cheering me up . I really feel like it has a meaning. I really think he’s visiting me in a way .

11/19/2015 2 comments

Fuck This World

by majesticwalrus 11/14/2015

written by majesticwalrus

Just a few hours ago, 153 innocent people were murdered. At leas one of them had now desire to die, but I’m assuming that was the case for most, if not all, of them. People wanting to live had their lives forcefully ripped from them, while I want to die but just don’t have the energy to try. I’d gladly trade places with any of them. This world is a cosmic, “Fuck you,” to everyone. Innocent people that want to live die every day, while those of us that want to die can easily end up surviving a suicide attempt or two. This is bullshit, […]

11/14/2015 8 comments

Alone Again

by Mike Rowedick 11/14/2015

written by Mike Rowedick

In a little while from now
If I’m not feeling any less sour
I promise myself to treat myself
And visit a nearby tower
And climbing to the top
Will throw myself off
In an effort to
Make it clear to whoever
Wants to know what it’s like
When you’re shattered

Left standing in the lurch at a church
Were people saying, My God, that’s tough
She stood him up
No point in us remaining
We may as well go home
As I did on my own
Alone again, naturally
To think that only yesterday

I was cheerful, bright and gay
Looking forward to who wouldn’t do

11/14/2015 1 comment

Strange medical condition – Social outcast

by witheringdaisies 11/13/2015

written by witheringdaisies

Hello. I’m 19 years old. Female. College student. Living with my mom. I just turned 19 last month. People always tell me that I’m young and I have a whole life ahead of me, and I have so much more to achieve. Well, that’s true, but how could I continue living with this weird sickness that causes everyone to avoid me?

It’s not the physical pain that kills me, it’s the emotional pain brought by it. To be honest, I’m embarrassed to even talk about it to my closest friends. I’ve been on this medical forum and realize there are others like me, and […]

11/13/2015 5 comments

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